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We are a group of people under the pseudonym "Janus", and we are a multiple/plural system with ~200 members. We are people, not parts, and we've been multiple for as long as we can remember. Plurality is the main subject of this blog, but it's far from the only subject we talk about, so expect variety sometimes.
Advisories for readers are below the cut.
Most* lifelong singlets will never know what it's like to be literally told you are not real. Not just "oh this aspect of you isn't real" but a literal "You are not real. You do not exist and you never will."
Most lifelong singlets do not know the suffering that comes from people saying "I think you're [this other person] instead."
And this is not me saying that people denying *parts* of singlets (your disability, race, sex, gender identity, orientation, etc) isn't traumatic and horrible. It is. You don't deserve to have ANY part of you denied.
But to have someone genuinely think you are nothing. Genuinely, unironically think you *entirely* don't exist. That you are merely roleplay or imagination. That there is only one person in the body, and that it's *not you.*
That is something lifelong singlets usually do not experience.
I don't get how plurals can do that to other plurals. I don't get how you can say "Actually you don't exist. You are literally fake" when that's exactly how singlets treat you. And I don't understand how you can call that "discourse" instead of what it actually is - cruelty beyond measures. Erasure beyond measures.
I will not and cannot EVER be around someone who simply humors me as a "concept" or a "game" rather than an actual fucking existing being. Never.
-Marco (she/he), a headmate in a endotrauma system with diagnosed DID.
*There is massive solidarity to be found with singlet schizospecs who are being abusively told "you aren't real!" as an attempt to trigger derealization hallucinations. Same for singlets who are accused of being bots or faking their identity/sockpuppeting online.
I watched all of The Amazing Digital Circus recently, since it's all anybody's wanted to talk about lately. I thought it was a solid 7/10 (when I give something a "5/10" I mean that it is completely average and middle-of-the-road, so 7 is a respectable score). If I was 14 years old, it would have become one of those psyche-altering pieces of media that everyone experiences at ages 11-15. But, watching it now, I feel a little disappointed, because it would have been one of my all-time greats as an adult if the creators had stuck to the janky '90s aesthetic of the first couple of episodes, leaned in further to the psychological horror and surrealism aspects over time instead of moving away from them, and gave proper attention to the worldbuilding and the character arcs. Ultimately, though, if this is what kids are watching nowadays, I think they're going to turn out just fine.
I'm going to try to be vague here to ensure people don't go looking for this person, but there's one particular anti-endo that Tumblr keeps putting on my dashboard. Their username is "pro-recovery-[X]" (just in case you thought the 500 "anti-willo-[X]" usernames weren't inane enough), and they refer to themselves as "radnormal", as opposed to "radqueer". I should block them, but every time I see them, I can only stare for a while in morbid fascination. Apparently the part of the word "radqueer" that needed replacing was the "queer" bit. With "normal". Because forget about that word "queer" and why it's important to reclaim being strange. The problem with radqueers is that they're not normal. And also that they're pro-endo, because that's basically the same as radqueerness, right? We have our priorities straight, guys. We're pro-recovery. We're Normal. Normalcy is a virtue. You should be Normal. Why are you running?
every six months the pro-endos win syscourse and every six months 500 12 year old anti-endos and a new dia sockpuppet come back and undo everything we've done lol
Everybody shut up, the Plurality Understander has logged on and they want everybody to know all about their opinions on plurality fakers, system responsibility, sysmate-body race mismatches, and littlecourse. Don't ask them how long they have known about plurality or where they get their information about plurality from or whether they themselves are plural. They're not taking your criticism, silly. They're talking to singlets.
I would write off Plurality Understanders as living proof of the Dunning-Kruger effect if people didn't keep on listening to them. The problem with Plurality Understanders is that they multiply. You can get Plurality Understanders whose Understanding comes from a game of telephone where the 16 people before them in the chain were also Plurality Understanders. Then the Plurality Understanders want to lecture you about how plurality really works, and you had better not fact-check them, because it will not help. It's maddening.
Everybody shut up, the Plurality Understander has logged on and they want everybody to know all about their opinions on plurality fakers, system responsibility, sysmate-body race mismatches, and littlecourse. Don't ask them how long they have known about plurality or where they get their information about plurality from or whether they themselves are plural. They're not taking your criticism, silly. They're talking to singlets.
Now that I'm allowed to criticise the syscourser clique without getting ritually decapitated, do you guys remember when every syscourser was pretending to be mortally offended and disgusted by people posting about politics in the syscourse tag because "you can't bring politics into this, syscourse is my safe space" (lmao) and "plurality and plural activism is not political" (LMAO)
"I am not a 'plural activist'. I'm not 'many people in one body' or 'plural' or a 'system'. Those have political implications. I am a person with DID, a person with parts. It's got nothing to do with politics." <- Person who does not understand that everything they just said is also political.
Now that I'm allowed to criticise the syscourser clique without getting ritually decapitated, do you guys remember when every syscourser was pretending to be mortally offended and disgusted by people posting about politics in the syscourse tag because "you can't bring politics into this, syscourse is my safe space" (lmao) and "plurality and plural activism is not political" (LMAO)
"my headmate is evil!"
>looks into headmate
>scared headmate with fight response
"My headmate is evil!"
>Looks at headmate
>Asocial grouch with poor social skills
It is seriously cruel how I can have a dream about being in my own body, and then wake up and not be in my own body anymore. I feel like I am entitled to financial compensation for this.
When I was in middle school, I got super into lucid dreaming, and I became very good at it. I am still very good at it (better than I was, honestly). It is a fun skill to have and I think more people should learn how to do it, even though you can't talk about it with most people without them looking at you funny.
It is also painful when your internal map of your own body is nothing like what your real body looks like. You get to have a few minutes of fixing that problem, and that's fun, but waking up makes you feel like you got ripped off. I seriously don't think people whose internal body map matches their body understand how lucky they have it.
It is seriously cruel how I can have a dream about being in my own body, and then wake up and not be in my own body anymore. I feel like I am entitled to financial compensation for this.
[Image ID: Tumblr tag reading "The concept of endos in real life scares me. What do you mean they walk among us."]
This is the kind of shit that people - people here, at least - would generally classify as bigotry if it were directed at some other group.
Do not be 'soft' on people who hate my and many of my friends' existence.
I know people have been saying "Google has gotten way worse lately" for years at this point, but I do think Google has gotten dramatically worse very recently (as in, the past month). I can't find anything. The Wikipedia page, if it shows up at all, is 10 results down past a bullshit Quora answer and a Wordpress blog that has been SEO-optimised to the point of incoherence. At this point I'm just going to search directly on Wikipedia for general subjects and Reddit when I need tech support (that's what Reddit is for, right?). It'll be quicker and easier.
the thing about "trans guys have it easier" is that when you look into it its really more of a folk myth than anything. people come up with all sorts of stories to explain this "fact." people will tell you that people seen as men are gender-policed much more harshly than people seen as women and every little deviation towards femininity is noticed and punished, and that's why trans guys have it easier. but you'll also hear people tell you that people seen as men have so much more wiggle room, men can be all kinds of sizes and shapes meanwhile people seen as women have to fit into this tiny little box, and that's why trans guys have it easier.
these are two entirely contradictory lines of logic, but they lead to the same conclusion. because the conclusion is the point. its a backformed theory of gender. people believe, for whatever reason, that "trans guys have it easier" is an objective fact, and then storytell an explanation for why that is that sounds right to them. and this isn't necessarily something that's done maliciously, which is key. its not about people twiddling their fingers and thinking about how to contribute to a massive conspiracy against transmascs. its about people just feeling, on a gut level, that trans guys must have it easier, by which they really mean, transmasculine suffering isn't socially visible, and it isn't natural for me to imagine it, therefore it must not exist; yet, trans suffering in general clearly exists, so there must be some reason that transmasculine suffering feels so abstract and immaterial to me and others.
this is why anti-transmasculinity theory is so important. all kinds of people come to this conclusion, and the best explanation for why this strange thing happens and why no one talks about it is anti-transmasculinity & erasure as a social force which people internalize.
Trans people who call others "theyfabs" would be calling the same people "TIFs" if they were cis.
I simply will not be taking your "transfeminism" seriously if a crucial part of it is defending your God-given right to use transphobic pejoratives. The entire insult is literally "haha you're trans and you have/had an F on your birth certificate". But then again I shouldn't be surprised that people think this is peak feminism, because 99% of "transfeminists" on this website would rather invent 80 new slurs and find totally feminist and totally not transphobic ways to insist that it is inherently evil to not want to be a woman than acknowledge the extremely serious issues of non-binary people and transmasculine people. God, I can't wait for this shit to die.
Trans people who call others "theyfabs" would be calling the same people "TIFs" if they were cis.
