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Almost to your birthday and as I
am getting dressed alone in the house
a button comes off and once I find
a needle with an eye big enough
for me to thread it
and at last have sewed the button on
I open an old picture of you
who always did such things by magic
one photograph found after you died
of you at twenty
beautiful in a way
I would never see
for that was nine years
before I was born
but the picture has
faded suddenly
spots have marred
maybe it is past repair
I have only what I remember
I've learned that if I'm going to get any sort of concert write up done, I need to start drafting something right away, no matter how long it actually takes to finish and post, because otherwise life will just overtake me and I can't get it done at all. (This happened with the TXT Moacon of February/ March 2026).
OH and I left before the end on night 3 because I just couldn't hold on any longer, having been at the venue six hours in the summer heat, so I don't know how night 3 ended.
Before the concert, I was a light fan of Taemin but not a fan of Shinee, per se. After spending three consecutive days at the annual Shinee festival that was this concert, I am still not a Shawol, I don't think, but Shinee are powerful enough as performers, and this show is so exceptionally well put together, that I had a blast anyway. (I'm also totally a fan of Taemin - just seeing him had me grinning till my face hurt. He's so beautiful.) (Oh - and I want Key to adopt me and be my big sister who tells me what to do, but this is not a fandom feeling - everyone feels like this about Key. This is normal.) (OH and I want to keep Onew in my pocket and feed him chocolate almonds by hand and make sure he's safe.) (OH and OH - I want Minho to push me really hard into a pool. I think that would be really good for my health.) (....Uh oh).
Conclusion first: Shinee are, among all the teams I've seen live in concert so far, the classiest: the most elegant, the most refined, the most aspirational and at the same time, the funniest. They hit a LOT of high watermarks and murdered literally everyone else. I feel like I experienced how it's supposed to be.
Perfection in Arena Use & Show Design
The Shinee show's design was by a team who clearly knows this stadium inside and out, and takes the Kpop fan obsession with fairness and equal treatment very, very seriously.
First, Shinee did not do this really stupid thing that I have come to despise - the 토롯코(トロッコ) which is an imported Japanese word I've never heard pronounced but have read a lot. This is the Pope-mobile thing where they singers climb on board a hand-pushed cart after the first 'encore' to do a drive-by of the audience, waving at the back of the 1st floor and front of the 2nd floor. In smaller venues, where there just isn't space, the singers will split up and do a walk-by instead, escorted by security.
This is always so boring, takes forever to begin because the band have to get around from backstage to the entrance to the seats, the walk-through is very slow, and sometimes, doing this results in total loss of crowd control depending on where they take it and how the audience chooses to behave. After so many Kpop concerts, I dread it every time it happens now. It has zero entertainment value whatsoever, and I'm reminded very forcibly that Kpop is seen as tawdry and cheap by my peers because it does shit like this.
Second, the 'moving stage' or 'magic carpet' concept the 'main' performance space was BRILLIANTLY done.
I took this from the floor seat (Sorry Onew for the unflattering shot, but I didn't have a lot of time).
It's a semi-transparent stage that goes up and down. It starts out being an extrusion from the 'main' stage. Performance from this spot would be for the people in the closer-to-main-stage standing seats. Then the thing travels over the heads of the central front 'standing' pen, then settles down to connect to the projection stages that are built in the middle of the stadium. This is so the performance is directed at the people in the 'middle of stadium floor' floor seats as well as the people on either side of the performance space. Everyone skipped down the short walkway to this either-side projection stage, showing their side profiles to the people in the 'back' of the arena, who are physically furthest from the 'main' stage with the big set. And finally, the magic carpet stage travels all the way to the 'back' of the house, where everyone in Standing is looking at the back of Shinee and the majority of the 2nd and 3rd floor get their close up time with the guys.
No one section was favored over another. There was no section of the theater that was neglected. There was no anxiety or heartbreak of feeling like you lost a random luck of the draw because the members were allowed to run around to whatever section they in particular felt like on any particular night. Whatever the disappointing part of the night might be for you (like me being short in Standing) was not Shinee's fault, because they did their absolute best to 'visit' every section of the theater, in a measured, equal, purposeful way.
I had three really very different seats - Friday: Extreme left, earlier row of 2nd floor. Saturday: Near almost the very back of 2nd floor, but very central. Sunday: Left side, standing, closer to the main stage. I was impressed with the thought that went into giving my section 'interaction' time on each day.
I had this feeling at Taemin's fan meeting concert last year too, when I first encountered him - I felt really well taken care of, by someone who was an expert at taking care of female audiences. It was wonderful then and it was wonderful x 4 now. Fan.Tas.Tic.
The show designers were also extremely considerate of everyone's time. There were always going to be two encores - the official encore and then the expected one, so they made sure to give people something to do while waiting for the official encore, which was to do a sing-along to a Shinee song (different each night) karaoke style with the lyrics going by on the big screens, and then the band played something fun and upbeat during the much shorter wait for the second encore. On Day 2, I measured the time, and Shinee were not gone for the two 'encore' breaks for longer than 7 minutes altogether. The wait time for the first or second encores can feel INTERMINABLE, but that wasn't the case with Shinee. (One notable failure of alerting the fandom what was going to happen was Ateez's first In Your Fantasy tour performance, where the show gave us all the impression there wouldn't be a second encore and people left in error before Jongho spoke into the arena. Another notable failure I experienced was the Stray Kids fan meeting concert, where they just resolutely didn't do ANY sort of encore for the performance I went to, but then did lengthy encores for every other performance, which made the single-night ticket holders feel shortchanged.)
Accomplished Performers
This whole plan of implementing a moving stage, that goes forwards and backwards and up and down while also having the stage be semi-transparent is only possible if you're absolutely sure that your very valuable performers will never slip, trip, fall off balance or drop shit off the edge of the stage onto people's heads. Nobody can have a fear of heights or much physical fear in general, either.
I mean, obviously, when the thing was in active motion it's not like Shinee were doing backflips - half the time while in motion the four of them each took a 'side' of the rectangular stage and waved at the audience and stuff, but they DID keep dancing from their spot throughout, and they actually were actively dancing and doing walking formation changes on the moving stage for a significant amount of time, because they were singing THE WHOLE TIME.
Shinee have, each of them, chemistry with the audience and with each other that felt wondrous to me. I saw the prompter monitors installed on the floor as the moving stage sailed by, and the monitors for the main stage visible from Standing, but all of the comments and banter, including song introduction, discussion of the upcoming album, and what I've understood to be a tradition in Shinee World - Taemin giving a nickname or a baptismal name to the tour itself - all seemed entirely extemporaneous. They literally only seemed to have an outline that determined that during ment 1, such and such would happen, and then in ment 2 they would mention the new album and so on, but not what they were going to say or who was going to speak, even. And yet it was fun and funny and lovable the entire time. No dead air, no awkwardness. Also, because of this commitment to improvising all of the commentary, the script was entirely different all three nights. Just as an example: On night 1, they all made a joke of how none of them can say Trilogy in English. They did not reference or repeat this joke, to my memory on Day 2, but on Day 3 they celebrated, very briefly, that they could all say Trilogy very easily.
The overall impression that Shinee leaves is one of sophistication and elegance. This is very elevated Kpop theater. It's actively soothing to watch Shinee perform. (I mean, if you're like, deeply parasocial about Minho where he's the husband of your heart and you only see him for one weekend a year, which is a very valid way to do fandom, then I don't expect it to be a relaxing experience to see him, but I don't feel like this about anybody, so I'm just evaluating the show). The choreography is a well balanced mix of fast, difficult moves and adagio extensions, tied directly to what's happening in the song, so you're not left wondering how it is the choreographer thought they could even pretend to be singing while doing those steps.
They do all the standard kpop costume changes - the 'concept'-reliant opener that looks vaguely like a spacesuit in an adventure movie, the 'casual' baggy hip hop type clothing, the anime prince style Napoleonic-ish costume, the dramatic outfit, and so on - but each of these costumes were lovely. Each member gave off the impression, all three nights, that he really liked each of his costumes and enjoyed playing with it in choreography.
Special Mentions
And Taemin and Key, who are the two I am familiar with in any capacity, were REALLY DIFFERENT in this concert from how I thought of them before!
Taemin, during this solo fan meeting concert, had been so in charge of the audience, and gentle but firm, amused yet sweet, you know, a man, but when he's with his big brothers of Shinee he turns into a baby. Like an actual little kid. 1000% maknae energy and, kind of like what Shinee did for me on all three nights, a demonstration of what that role is supposed to be in its purest, ideal form. He was impish and playful, lighthearted and so sweet, but at the same time, stubborn and unstoppable from years of being coddled - he knows he's adored and adorable, so he'll do whatever the fuck he wants.
The big surprise of the evening to me was Key. He's so powerful. I hadn't expected that he was an intense performer, but he so is! I think the song was Anti-Believer, which was one of their upcoming releases (to be released the Monday after the concert), and during this song Key dramatically took off the eye-patch he'd come on stage wearing and he blasted everyone with so much energy we all just screamed in surprise. And he's so funny! When Taemin was struggling to explain what "Invert," the concert's subtitle was, he began by mentioning DANTE, and then tried to explain Dante's Inferno. Key started to look REALLY worried, and as Taemin kept going he put his head in his hands and it somehow came off as so funny and affectionate, rather than mean. On night 2, Key and Minho imitated how much extra oomph Taemin puts into every dance move, then mimicked him perfectly as Taemin laughed, looking delighted. Then Key sighed and said something like, "Well if dancing like this makes you happy, how could I object?"
They are killing her again.
She said she did it
One year in every ten,
But they do it annually, or weekly,
Some even do it daily,
Carrying her death around in their heads
And practising it. She saves them
The trouble of their own;
They can die through her
Without ever making
The decision. My buried mother
Is up-dug for repeat performances.
Now they want to make a film
For anyone lacking the ability
To imagine the body, head in oven,
Orphaning children. Then
It can be rewound
So they can watch her die
Right from the beginning again.
The peanut eaters, entertained
At my mother’s death, will go home,
Each carrying their memory of her,
Lifeless – a souvenir.
Maybe they’ll buy the video.
Watching someone on TV
Means all they have to do
Is press ‘pause’
If they want to boil a kettle,
While my mother holds her breath on screen
To finish dying after tea.
The filmmakers have collected
The body parts,
They want me to see.
They require dressings to cover the joins
And disguise the prosthetics
In their remake of my mother.
They want to use her poetry
As stitching and sutures
To give it credibility.
They think I should love it –
Having her back again, they think
I should give them my mother’s words
To fill the mouth of their monster,
Their Sylvia Suicide Doll,
Who will walk and talk
And die at will,
And die, and die
And forever be dying.
given the current climate this pride especially i feel i must mention that i love my trans friends, i stand with trans people in the fight against transphobic legislation and those who would enforce it, and this blog is not a good place for you to be if you do not vibe with that
Further context: Durham city council (Reform UK) cut funding and support for Pride. The Durham Miner's Association and other trade unions raised enough money for Durham Pride 2026 to go ahead - a direct call back to when Lesbian and Gays Support the Miners (LGSM) raised money for mining communities when Margaret Thatcher seized union funding during the miner strikes of 1984-85.
At the 1985 Labour party meet, the motion to support LGBT rights as a party was passed due to a block vote from mining unions.
Stephen Guy, the chair of the Durham Miners’ Association, said that when it became apparent Durham Pride was under threat, he took it upon himself to “encourage the trade union movement to step up and do the right thing, and stand shoulder to shoulder with the LGBT+ community […] They not only raised funds for us, but came to our communities, uplifted our spirits when they were down, and showed their solidarity.”
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