sleeping ugly

My name is Pest and I will keep saying I am a late bloomer until I am dead • I can't answer post replies but I see them and appreciate them so much 🥺•Commissions are:temporarily closed ✨ https://pestacular.carrd.co/

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One of my sims, Mayu. She's a spellcaster and I gave her an unreasonably thorough backstory that is not even slightly applicable to the actual gameplay of the Sims

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quick sketch of one of my sims, Sam, who would be a skateboarding bro if the game would let me do that

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let it be known that this was the third attempt at this particular drawing (the other two did not survive because i killed them.) maleficent stands to this day as disney's best character design imo I just love to look at her

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look I was going through something and I just liked his design okay

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here's something I drew three years ago, while in Italy for a wedding, after having been to at least four different museums/galleries in a week. (My mom walked past while I was drawing this and said, "by any chance are you feeling inspired by your surroundings here?")

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Unemployment, surgery and a serious smartphone/social media cleanse all happening at once has made this a weird couple of months. Overall I am shockingly okay. Unrelated, here is a drawing of grown-up Ocellus because I am, for the millionth time, trying to remember how to draw my own characters

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Ahiru from Princess Tutu, drawn at least a year ago (lol) to test out different mediums when I was feeling rusty.

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I’ve completely lost my ability to do social media this year. I’m still drawing, though rarely, and I still want to share what I draw. I just hate the social media process and I’ve avoided it for so long that it’s started to feel like an insurmountable chore. The prevalence of generative AI hasn’t exactly helped me to feel any desire to be on social media, either. I’ve long abandoned any thought of pursuing art as a career — this was separate from the AI issue, I simply realized it wasn’t for me — and now just create for myself. Still, it’s hard to feel inspired by others’ art when I’m constantly questioning if I’m actually looking at something real. I feel inspired by humans, by their most authentic expressions. When so much of art spaces are being inundated with thieves and imposters, I find myself avoiding those spaces. When I avoid those spaces, I stop seeing the real art too, and it leaves a great abyss behind where that sense of community, encouragement, and collective inspiration used to be.

Nothing is sacred, nowhere is safe, nothing is certain. I commend any and everyone out there who still creates, truly creates, in spite of all that. I hope I can be like you.

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drawing of Jude I did while waiting out a 1+ hour train delay

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bunch of old choir men + some opera singers I sketched when I went to see Handel’s Messiah

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I have been “in the middle of” reading The Hobbit for an embarrassingly long time

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if you ever find yourself at a wedding reception at the opposite end of the globe and you feel too awkward to make conversation, draw the nearest building and put an OC in it

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drawing of Mallory that I did two years ago on a plane while everyone else slept because I cannot sleep on planes to save my life (and then kept saying I’d go back and “polish” it before posting it, and it took me two whole years to figure out that I actually like it enough already)

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Elliott & Sebastian chatting at the docks bc I want them to be friends (just imagine the docks have fencing for them 2 lean on wistfully)

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whenever I don’t know what to draw I just make up an evil man

also hi, been a while. I have been struggling A Lot. I’ve felt very dull and uninspired for the last couple of years. Recently I stopped taking antidepressants and I’m hoping that will re-activate the parts of my personality I’ve felt are missing. I’m also going to start posting ALL my art on Pestacular — meaning, I want Pestacular to include sketches, silly things I scribbled on my phone’s notes app, random stuff I draw on the backs of reciepts, everything. I hope this year I’ll have more to look back on. More evidence that I still exist.

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Diluc 🦅🦅 I am SO pleased with how this turned out, my colour work sucked so bad a few years ago and I feel like I’m finally getting to a spot where I (kinda) know what I’m doing. Look forward to more Genshin characters drawn exclusively from the torso up, you can’t make me draw all those detailed designs

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Daisy !! 🌼 a gardener who spends so much of her time gardening that it’s left her a bit socially inept. She probably assigns a different plant to the personality of each person she meets. A fun fact about this design: I drew most of it at a bus stop. Well, I suppose that’s not particularly fun. It is a fact, though.