Contemplative Doll

it/she | transfem 🏳️‍⚧️ | 20yrs old | ΘΔ | 18+ kink blog, mostly

[pine-sapphic]

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Hi all, I’m Stella (but you can also just call me Doll), it/she, 20. I’m a lesbian, transfem, and poly.

This is a blog for and by dykes and sapphics, so all of my posts are going to be about lesbianism. It’s mostly a kink and nsfw blog too, so assume anything here is nsfw.

Men DNI please

I support trans and youth liberation.

Facists, TERFs, alt-righters, MRAs, and conservatives fuck off. This is a commie blog.

my tags:

#doll original

kink tags I use often:

#sadomasochism, #cnc, #mind control, #tf, #hypnosis, #intox, #identity play, #petrification, #hivemind, #dollification

[selenichrysanthus]

turning systems against themselves, splitting girls apart with my voice. it's like an advanced form of identity destruction. to insert myself into your headspace and tell each part of you what it needs to hear; i could make you all betray eachother for nothing, cuties. coerce each other into listening to me carefully, now.

[ace-trainer-alice]

Really one of the coolest things ever is how easily you can shape your non-volitional responses by choosing to respond in a certain way.

Like, if right now you don't make any noises in response to sexual stimuli or pain or whatever, that's fine. I imagine you might even have some trauma to work through. An environment you needed to be quiet in, a belief the sounds you did make were inappropriate, or some other taboo against noise.

But, you can change yourself. Rather easily, too. Just start making the noises you wish you made. It'll feel silly at first. Well, maybe it'll feel hot at first, too. I highly recommend perceiving it as hot. But it'll feel performative in any case.

And if you keep going, it'll become automatic. You'll shortcut the process. You'll forget to notice the intent. Learn to use it and use it without thinking. And eventually you'll have to stop yourself from not using it.

Plenty of the time it's actively beneficial too. Helps with pain tolerance, and I'd expect other kinds of sensitivity too. You're a social animal, it's comfortable to perform a social component. It's useful to do so for just your own mind.

Also, like, loudly moaning is really hot.

[lady-of-vitreous-sight]

I should make more posts propagandizing for loud moaning.

[ace-trainer-alice]

sadistgirl cutely blushing and looking away and stumbling over its words as it asks if it can press on the pretty purple bruise on your thigh it noticed earlier because it really wants to listen to the noises you'll make.

[angelvvrath]

Was just diagnosed with “need to bite you” disorder. Yeah sorry it’s terminal. The only cure is biting you. C’mere.

[selenichrysanthus]

blowing out a candle kills it far too quickly. the flame has barely a moment of shock before its gone. i prefer to asphyxiate a candle, by covering it up. watching that little glowing eye falter, try and fail to catch it's breath - i like to think it doesn't want to die. it's too late! ive killed you anyways!

[selenichrysanthus]

" The utmost these things can do is to postpone the date of their loss of identity; they cannot escape it in the end. "

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[homohypnoticus]

i don't think i'll ever get over the fact that it literally actually feels good to be hypnotized though. i can't get over the fact that it even feels like anything. like that's crazy. i know i'm kind of placebo georg but still

[selenichrysanthus]

really, hypnosis is quite a normal mode of social interaction. it's just taking the subconscious trust of looking up to someone and turning the dials all the way up. of course it feels good to follow, just like it feels good to lead. we are meant for it as humans

[innumerable-voices]

No punishment no matter how severe can ever feel worse than the knowledge that a punishment is coming

Let me explain

In a dynamic that involves punishment for mistakes the sub knows they're going to be punished, they know that no matter how lenient the rules they will make a mistake eventually, even if it takes months, even if the rules are simple to follow it is just impossible to be perfect. So the sub knows they're going to be punished.

Now imagine being in that situation, say your rule is you have to brush your teeth at least once a day. You probably do that anyway but now if you miss even one you'll be punished. Let's say the punishment isn't even that bad, either something minor that you legitimately dislike or worse* something you kinda do like. Now imagine every time you brush your teeth you're reminded that you're eventually going to be punished, every time you walk into the bathroom you see your toothbrush and have that tiny reminder. I'm not remotely joking when I say this is torture, it's like having a stone in your shoe, it's like having a skin pull on your finger, and what's more it builds up over time. Imagine it takes a full year for you to miss brushing once, imagine the guilt that would hit you when you realise you've failed.

But here's the really insidious part; for the length of that punishment you're free, the worst has already happened, is happening, you don't have to feel anxious or guilty, you know that this is it, so even tho the punishment hurts it's still better than not being punished

And then the punishment is over and you're back to being slowly tortured

Back to waiting

Back to anxiety and imagined pain

All of this causes you to see punishment as a positive thing, you crave that release so you seek out stricter rules, more severe punishments, you want that in relationships moving forward because that moment of freedom feels so good compared to the constant torture.

This is the best possible situation, imagine if the rules were strict and the punishment severe.

But then if you look at it from the dominants perspective? They see their submissive following rules and think this is working, when their sub makes a mistake they get to use violence to solve a problem without having to recon with the fact that they enjoy causing pain, they get the catharsis of reacting physically to something annoying, etc etc

It's a self perpetuating cycle that's easy to fall into and takes conscious thought and effort to stay away from

Even worse than that is that's basically what being a child is like so you're probably already a little bit locked into that cycle

So yeah I'd say punishments in dynamics are bad

*something you like is worse because it ruins it for you, it takes something that could be fun and turns it into something awful so you can never enjoy it again without feeling guilty

[innumerable-voices]

This one made a more compelling argument with a handful of tags than I did with several paragraphs

[abjure-obsolescence]

getting hypnotized is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off

[maletolion]

[ifitbleedsbiteharder]

youre soo cute!!! :3 i need to feel the way your throat closes a little when you choke on my dick!!! :3

[selenichrysanthus]

the little spasms of them trying to breathe and force it out are SOOO adorable

[trainwreck-of-thoughts]

Sure Sign

A thousand miles away, the room spins.

Little slices of experience take up all your focus. The hard plastic of the pen. The soft back of the chair. The eye-cutting sharpness of the contract's black letters.

"Whether I would treat you well?"

Her words in your ears.

"You'd be happy. I can't promise more. By some measures, I'd treat you quite poorly."

Her hand on your shoulder.

"I'm not trying to be ironic, but Hell and heaven are relative things."

The scent of brimstone, almost too weak to notice.

"So just take your time, alright? It's a big decision."

You know, for a fact, that she's very beautiful, though it's hard to focus on her exact appearance. You know she's a succubus, the label heavy in your mind. You know she's here for you.

"No worries, no responsibilities, just servitude to me. I can't decide for you. It has to be your choice."

Perhaps in a hypothetical, you would have answered 'no'. There are things too shameful to admit and too painful to want. Independence isn't something you're allowed to reject.

But does that still matter?

The pen moves down. An anticlimactic ballpoint - no need to sign in blood. Your signature stains into the paper, and then you're hers. You lean back from the table. Something swells in your chest. Her hand drifts off your shoulder and into your field of view, thumb kissing middle finger...

*SNAP*

Everything falls back into place.

Chair. Pen. Girlfriend standing right behind you, the knowledge of who-she-was never really forgotten, just briefly made hard to access. You know the grin she's making even before you move to confirm.

"That choice really was all yours, y'know. I didn't touch that."

She studies what your face shows, shame or disorientation or some other thing. Hard to control your expression in this moment.

"How I wish it was that easy. Wish souls were real. Wish I -could- just take hold of yours."

She shrugs saying the words, but you know she knows what they do to you. She leans in, eyes close and piercing. An undercurrent to her voice.

"But hey - now that we both know you want it too - wanna see how close we can get?"

[homohypnoticus]

the whole cnc really fighting so you actually feel how impossible it would be for you to escape thing but the sub is physically stronger than the dom and they just have a hypnotic trigger that makes them weaker the more the dom touches them. so the inability to fight back feels even more dramatic because they really should be able to

[selenichrysanthus]

conditioning a sub to feel my tentacles drain the heat and vitality out of them. all that strength is right there, little one - if only you could use it! instead, you're just getting colder and slower and weaker. it's okay, enjoying what comes next is easier than fighting me 💜🪽