It kinda sucks that I’m not at that point where I can’t post what I want on here. Like sure I can force myself to draw cute ii characters and it’ll get a bunch of likes but I don’t really put any effort into it. But then when I post about something I care about or that interests me (like fitr) it gets no traction whatsoever and just sits there.
I don’t want to numb myself for other people but I’ve never felt seen like this before. It’s a give and take. Giving till you can’t take it no more.
im kind of scared. I'll probably be fine but emergency commissions just in case
I only take cashapp for now I'm working on getting kofi. Um
Please please reblog um
I will draw literally anything I'm serious (I'm a minor be aware of that ok. Sure)
Dm me for. The commission info um Idk ok I've never rlly done commissions ok I'll message you my cash app info. Prices can also be discussed there •_•;
Art examples under cut
the first ones are more recent but I haven't drawn in a while ok
ok tw forrrr : abuse, suicidal thoughts, and alcoholism
yes this is important. yes this goes back to when sunn was a kid. i like going deep into ocs : 3 also mighhhttt change this in the future???
and im not much of a writer so if i say something wrong grammar-wise im sorry 😭😭😭
so sunn was raised in a weird household. . . his dad was a drunk asshole, his mom was always at work, and he was an only child. his dad thought that it was an amazing idea to start getting sunn into work once he ‘matured enough’ (he was 10 at this time).
his dad got him into a restaurant business that was owned by a guy he knew. for some reason, the dude actually agreed to give sunn the job, even knowing that he wasn’t even a teen yet.
fast forwarding 3 years to when he got fired for accidentally crashing out at a customer about his problems at home, causing him to be banned for a month. his dad was absolutely pissed. his mother was actually home when that all happened, and she was the only person sunn trusted.
she witnessed sunn’s dad beating him for only getting fired, and sunn finally moved out. he had the money to pay for most of the high school year, somehow.
this is where he first met cobs. cobs was the more popular one in school, a senior and already making new machines. sunn admired him as a sophomore. he even had a crush on him at some point, but got self conscious about it once he knew that he’d get bullied into the ground.
fast forwarding to college years. sunn never went, only getting a small job at a coffee shop and getting an apartment. he thought about cobs once in awhile, but brushed it off.
cobs went into the shop sunn worked at once, finally noticing him. they talked a bit, cobs only talking about himself as usual. and sunn was just listening. he listened until he gave cobs his order and he left. he watched cobs leave. creepy.
he knew he was creepy. and he didnt like it. sunn went home that day, thinking strongly about things as usual. he wanted to die just at that moment
going forward to sunn trying to find a job. he was fired from the coffee shop for getting too many orders wrong. he found an application for meeple, knowing cobs was the ceo. sunn just applied for the ceo’s assistant job. he knew he wasnt going to get it.
he waited a couple days and got the email that he was…
accepted! somehow. he didnt have experience on his resume. he didnt even have a college degree. sunn woke up at 5am, basically running to the office.
from that day on, cobs hated how great sunn was at first, but warmed up to him. sunn got that crush back and eventually, finally, told cobs. he thought he’d get scolded, but cobs just gave him a chance.
they got married a few years later, having a surprisingly healthy relationship.
fast forwarding to cobs’ death.
sunn was absolutely devastated. cobs was the only person ever there for him. his boss. his everything. his husband. he didnt know what to do other than just sit in the forest and slowly wilt away.
