not who you think she is

pain makes you stronger indepedent & selective JO WILSON from grey's anatomy fear makes you braver “ i lost everything. EVERYONE. it makes a hole in your heart, but you can’t fall into it. you have to fill it. you have to FIGHT for a b e t t e r life ! " heartbreak makes you wiser slow reply blog written by melodie ( est. march 2nd, 2017 )

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LYDIA MARTIN:

“She needs to come here, now.” Lydia was desperate, there was a body in the back of her car that she had screamed for at one point that late night. She didn’t think the boy was dead, with Scott out the back looking after the body, Lydia needed Mrs. McCall. “It’s not for you to worry about.” 

eyebrows furrow in frustration ; on the verge of losing all the patience she had. somehow, though, she manage to take a deep breath and muster up some MORE patience. “ i’ll page her one more time. after that you are on your own. “ quickly, not wanting to waste any more time on this, wilson paged the famous nurse around the hospital. GOD ! she couldn’t believe she had actually left seattle for this : to be fucking bossed around by some t e e n a g e r. with another heavy sigh jo leaned back and waited for a response. the seconds passed and stretched into minutes and . . . no response. standing up, she motion to the chairs. “ if i see her, i’ll let her know you were looking for her. otherwise, you are welcome to wait over there. “ 

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KELSEY TORRES:

     “right.” it was only really an assurance that she’d heard the older woman. the teenager still wasn’t sure how she felt about all this. returning home to an incredibly overprotective mother now. sure, she understood. callie had every right to act that way because of what had happened & kels almost didn’t even mind it. the things she’d faced? she wanted to grasp on to the last bit of childhood innocence she had as much as her mom wanted that for her. “sometimes… talking just seems – odd.” she shrugged.

“ SCREW talking, then. “ jo knew from experienced that, sometimes, TALKING ABOUT IT was not the best solution . . . especially when one was a teenager. when someone was young they didn’t want to talk about their shitty lives. they didn’t want the pity looks from the rest of the world when they learned you didn’t have a house or went to into rehab. sometimes they just wanted to feel FUCKING NORMAL. “ i’m free and your mom is tied up in the O.R, so what do you say you and i head out for some food ? “ sometimes, it wasn’t talking that was needed, but just having someone in your corner. 

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“ if you ask me if i’m pmsing i will LITERALLY kick you in the balls. “ // @indiexgreys ( mark ) ♡’d

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" i haven’t had sex with alex in a week. A WEEK, robbins ! i’m running out of sexy underwear, so tonight is the night. “ she didn’t want to say she was horny, but . . . she was horny or sexually frustrated or WHATEVER. point was : she was getting laid that night, and she needed to look hot for her date with karev. “ so, tell me, does my ass look great in this dress or not ? “ // @drmcperky​ ♡’d

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" gilbert. “ the one-worded statement sounded a lot like a question ; a shocked one at that. she wasn’t really surprised at finding elena, more at finding elena in the room where they stored the blood bags. “ what the hell are you doing in here ? i thought you had gone home to get some rest. “ // @lovelylittleelena ♡’d

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“ i already paged her a million times ! “ wilson was losing her patience with the redhead. she had no idea where miss scott was nor where to begin looking for her. “ she’s not coming, but i’m a doctor, lydia. i can help you if you tell me what is going on. “ // @screamiiisms  ♡’d

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“ hey ------------- i know i’m not your mother, but i’m here if you want to talk to someone. “ callie didn’t have to tell her that kelsey had changed ever since she had returned from rehab. wilson saw it all on her own. she had practically watched the teenager grow up, and it was natural for wilson to reach out. she cared, too much sometimes. perhaps because she had struggled in her teenage years, and had felt incredibly alone through it all. she did not wish that upon anyone. “ which i know is the shittiest and most cliche thing someone can say. “ // @totallykelsey ♡’d

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“ doctor torres . . . “ a brief pause as she popped another chip into her mouth. eyes cast into the distance ; deep in thought. “ do you really think edwards is the best resident here ? good enough to beat me into . . . ortho perhaps ?? “ she was sick of hearing about how great edwards was ; about having an INTERN chosen over her for a case. so ---- sue her for wanting a little validation ! // @scalpelsuperstar ♡’d

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she shouldn’t be there. they had been explicitly told that they could not speak about it, but wilson needed to talk to someone. deluca just happened to be the only friend she had that knew the entire story, so, there she was, waiting for robbins door to open. having texted deluca a few minutes ago, she expected it to be him to open the door, so when it finally did she went into a rambling explanation. “ before you say anything just know that i am not here to talk about the hearing tomorrow. i just need . . . “ she never got through her explanation, because what greeted her was not what she had expected. a perky blonde. eyes widen and shift in tone showed her surprised. “ doctor robbins. “ // @rollerxgirl  ♡’d

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words were flying out of her mouth before amelia even had a chance to say anything. “ if you’re looking for edwards, she’s not here. “ probably off BRAGGING about her work with shepherd, which was getting annoying in wilsons’ opinion. she was just as good as edwards ! “ but feel free to leave a message after the beep . . . “ // @ameliafuckingshepherd ♡’d

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“ oh no, no, alex karev. “ a single finger raised to stop him right where he was. “ it’s going to take a LOT MORE than that to convince me. “ // @smartmcuth​ ♡’d

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ADDISON MONTGOMERY:

“I’M SORRY, maybe you can help me,” head cranes to catch a glimpse at the other woman’s badge, “wilson. i can’t seem to find my patient’s chart. doctor robbins called me for a consult, but she’s not in yet, so i thought i’d get a head start, which happens to be easier when i have an actual chart to work with,” // @ponytailmcgee ( call ! )

“ SHIT ! “ was it because she had been on edge lately or because the other had truly caught her by surprised that made the single word slipped past her lips ? it didn’t matter. wilson still took a step backwards. eyes slightly wide and eyebrows raised.  “ S O R R Y ; i mean, i’m not working with doctor robbins today, so i wouldn’t . . . “ that’s when it hit her. if robbins was asking for a consult, from a doctor that did not even work there, then it had to be a HUGE case ! “ on second thought, do you know the patients name ? “ already heading straight for the charts. 

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consider this my first STARTER CALL !! like this bad boy and i’ll toss you a starter ?!?

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Don’t apologize for caring about your patient. A lot of doctors aren’t willing to go all-in. It hurts too much. But that’s what’s gonna make you such an excellent doctor.

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consider this my first STARTER CALL !! like this bad boy and i’ll toss you a starter ?!?

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“ i feel like i’m TRAPPED in a glass box and everyones on the outside w a t c h i n g while i run out of air, but, yeah . . . ------- I’M GREAT. “ 

jo wilson as told by melodie. established on march 2nd 2017.