sci fi is all about desperately trying to reclaim your violated bodily autonomy. it’s all about asserting that you are a being with agency, and you can choose what happens to your own person, even if that’s ripping tubes out of yourself. and also sometimes an alien is there
sci fi is all about desperately trying to reclaim your violated bodily autonomy. it’s all about asserting that you are a being with agency, and you can choose what happens to your own person, even if that’s ripping tubes out of yourself. and also sometimes an alien is there
After watching True Detective season 1, I was seized by the compulsion to write a grizzled detective story, but in the style of the teenage girl diary novel.
Here is Marty's very secret diary as he solves a case, reevaluates his future, and spends a lot of time ruminating on furniture.
Word count: 15051
Pairing: Rust/Marty
Excerpt below
Monday 9:03, Middle of nowhere, highway 49
We’d been enjoying an unusually peaceful silence when Rust tipped his head onto the passenger window with a thump, and sighed. “I thought you were trying to impress Maggie,” he said, scrubbing at his mouth with his thumb.
Last time Maggie and I split, Rust and I had a row in the middle of the interstate because I was a little fixated on a voicemail message she left me and I guess he was sick of hearing about it. I could still remember my stomach churning, thinking about how ‘do you know where the belt sander is?’ could be her way of telling me that she’d found someone new who knew his way around a belt sander, but it seemed kind of funny thinking about it now.
I guess the first split, Maggie had been furious at me. And the second split, I’d been furious at Maggie. This time around I just felt kind of tired.
“What?” I asked, “you don’t think I’m impressive?”
“Nahh, I just don’t know if she’ll find the mysterious blue goo all over the bathroom all that impressive,” he replied.
I chewed on that idea for a minute. He was probably right. He usually is.
Without thinking (and I really really should’ve thought about who I was talking to before I opened my damn mouth) I said, “Do you ever catch yourself doing something you’ve done a hundred times before, and wonder if you’re doing it more for the routine at this point than whatever reason you started doing it for?”
“It’s all routines, Marty,” Rust said. “You strip that away, and what’s left of us? We do something, anything, that convinces our brain to release an instant of chemical happiness, and then we spend the rest of our lives pathetically chasing the feeling. Forming habits for rewards that have long since expired. We’re all Pavlov’s dogs in the end, salivating, but unsatisfied.”
Do you know how hard it is to stay awake behind the wheel when he starts up with this shit?
why is it that when im reading fanfic i feel like i have a fairly good metric for if something is characterized accurately but when im trying to write suddenly its like ive never seen this character in my life. would he say that. would he fucking say that. suddenly i have no idea