Prism

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TW : Mention of our abuser

We split another part again. They have the name of one of our abusers and having some traits of them. That's great. It feels so triggering for the others i had to write their name with an asterisk on sp..

They literally appeared after I(?) finished drawing some random character today few minutes after (ohhh goddd...)

It's so. I don't know.

Well I do feel weird that's for sure.

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I don't know why but, I'm kind of struggling making a pinned intro for us.

I'm trying to re-do it?

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Hello, this is Marceline ! I wanted to ask if there is anyone who is willing to be plural mutuals/friends ?

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I(Paige) don't like them... Well. I kinda feel disconnected from our trauma around them, and in general. So don't have a "definitive" feeling about them. (Even though I can still find them boring sometimes) . But i still refer to them as my "mom" and "dad" . The other parts can influence my thoughts on them though.

M² is a fawner so she tries to please and understand them. She does refer to them as her parents or our parents and "mother"/" father". She appreciates them(?, I don't know if that's the right word.)..

M¹ absolutely hates them. He'd rather refer to them as their pronouns or "my" parents. They often criticize while analysing them.

Mikaël is a really hard part to listen to for me when we're not dissociated. But I don't think they like them very much..

Lo feels completely distanced from them ( they very often refer to them as "my" parents or just their pronouns aswell ). They often insult them too, ( like M¹). She sees them as idiots

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okay.

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(Wow, that's an old draft, im going to add some more stuff + with the recent upbringing)

TW : Verbal abuse / physical abuse + trigger mention / dissociation

So in March (09/03) something happened.. Our "home teacher" said something that made us trigger (They were.. Threatening to hit us with a belt) and dissociate. M³ was taking over (or she was more co-fronting with me?). It felt weird. There was such an internal conflict and it was physically exhausting.. She did respond to him but she felt so timid.

Then, we went back to our room and M³ just broke down, and slept moments after

And that led to Lo being more active than ever since and decided to walk on tiptoes ( she does this all the time inside but, why....).

Accurate depiction of them taking over that day :

So, yeah, that's it, my memory is kind of blurry because this was a while ago?

Okay so now the teacher also triggered us and made us dissociate yesterday (using the same phrase) and i think this is what caused that new introject to come out (Or the many, many criticism/insults/etc from my parents and some other people i've encountered over the years).

(Forgot to say the difference between those both events is that Mikaël fronted this time, (before the new part came out hours later) and didn't speak at all, he often comes out during moments where we're like, really dissociated.)

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(contains swearing) When i get a sudden burst of anger all of a sudden (it's probably M¹ heavily influencing me) :

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Welp, we might've found out about a new part.

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How it feels to have an " archangel " part who is named Mikaël and has a huge link to most of our past experiences being in a christian household (and the bible) :

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Brain took " never let them know your next move " to a whole other level

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Hm....

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Hihi, hello hello

This is Paige, and i mainly go by he / they.

i've decided to make an actual side blog for uss...

Things to know about us (collectively !) :

We are a (questioning) traumagenic plural

Minor, POC

Mainly speaks in english by preference (and French too)