CarSlut

Sometimes I post things

[vaporevon]

it’s been a few days since it happened but i can’t get over how the headline “oliver tree dies in helicopter accident in rio de janeiro” sounds like an extended bit he would do. i’m incredibly sad about it, i enjoyed his art & music a lot. but can’t shake the feeling that he might have thought it would be morbidly funny if he were still around 😭🥀 RIP

[wirelessshiba]

Mina the pocket wife! 🐭🕯️

[daaberlicious]

Shovel Knight is Cheesed To Meet Mina

Shovel Knight just dug up a “mice” surprise! My “warm up” got long today, but I’ve played and deeply enjoyed both these games. Please consider Shovel Knight and Mina The Hollower if you’re looking for some good indie games!

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[palaikai]

From cats to mice ...

[natalieironside]

More people should know about Creepypodsta

[natalieironside]

A few years ago, My Friend Jeff(tm) who hates horror started a creepypasta discussion podcast as a joke, continued making episodes b/c people liked it, and ended up making the best horror lit discussion podcast I've ever heard. It ran for 200 episodes. Nobody has heard of it.

[natalieironside]

:)

[natalieironside]

#ironic that his name is jeff

oh they got some mileage outta that for sure

[ootori0704]

1658

[priviie]

I’m not sure if I’ve met a trans girl without some flavor of trauma tbh. This is a vent post but fuck it no one is going to read this anyway. I don’t have many friends. A couple are trans, one I suspect is an egg, and a few cis holdovers from my pretransition days. Every single trans person I know is dealing with some sort of trauma.

Me? Mine is a constant grieving for a past that never was. Every single day for the past several years it feels like I’ve had to rebuild myself from a broken and fragmented past while confronting it.

I mourned that I could not have started HRT sooner. I grew up in the 90s and 00s. Would have been a bad time to be trans and it was simply unrealistic. Couldn’t have happened. Not with my family and not with my living situation, at best I might have been able to try and sneak some puberty blockers or start transitioning in my early 20s instead of my 30s. It’s not something I’ve quite gotten over but it’s something I’ve started to accept. I’m glad I transitioned when I did regardless. I’m glad I have the opportunity and I’m glad I live in a place where hormones and surgeries are covered and accessible.

The thing that hit me the hardest recently? ADHD. A psych recently diagnosed me and prescribed me some Vyvanse. Today was the first day I took it. It was like magic. I felt incredible. To see a task and just do it? No hemming and hawing? No pausing perusing social media between and during chores? Just deciding to do something and immediately being able to do it? Indescribable. i could do chores and get them done quickly. I could pick up a pencil and draw. I could read. Interruptions didn’t bother me. I could focus on work. I cannot convey to someone neurotypical how wonderful this all felt. Imagine your entire life a layer of fog covers your eyes but no one else’s. You ask around and people look at you like you are crazy. There’s no fog, no one else has to deal with the fog, no one else is incapacitated by the fog, it must just be you. Why don’t you try harder? There isn’t any fog. You must be making it up, why are you having so much trouble with this?

And once again. Emotionally devastating. Once it wore off, once I settled in for the evening in my bed next to my spouse, I sobbed. I just felt such… Deep sadness and again mourning from the depths of my soul. I could have had this. I could have had this sooner. It wasn’t even a pipe dream like HRT, this was something I could have had that would have measurably and drastically improved my life. And it just wasn’t there before today. I’m furious. I get to live the rest of my life in a way that matters and I am angry in such a way that I feel like the heavens could burn with my fury.

I could have had this.

[clubpenguindoneright]

[croptool-deactivated20221013]

i fuckign queued this and forgot abt it and got scared cuz i thought i was hacked or smth. anyways happy june eleventh

[lunamothed]

reblog while its still true 

[100percent-shell-oil]

wait one fucking second it is June 10th the time police lied to me

[spaghetti-o-fficial]

Also I’m queueing this for next year too. At the time of writing it is 9:35 am on June 11th

[unyieldingsilence]

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[priviie]

I just realized, the Ocarina of time remake, beyond being an obvious "break glass in case of emergency" release, it also exists for one other insidious reason.

This is 1000000% a tie in to the Zelda movie. This is a Zelda Movie Tie In Game. I hate nostalgia. So much.

[cherryhatter-deactivated2015072]

KICK THE CAN!

Let’s play the biggest game of kick the can on the internet.

To kick the can, reblog it. I wanna see how long this can go on for.

[visibun]

the oldest reblogs for this post that i can find are from january 2nd of 2013. this can has been getting kicked around tumblr for almost 13½ years now

[drtanner]

And yet somehow this is my first time kicking it!

[wario-land]

Anyway, any of you played Void Stranger? I played that game a whole fucking lot back in the entirety of 2024, and oh boy, I certainly have some thoughts about that game

A whole lot of thoughts, certainly

[punkitt-is-here]

Lillie moment

[omegafallon]

I loved beating Void Stranger and then beating Void Stranger and then beating Void Stranger and then beating Void Stranger.

[demilypyro]

I'm kind of obsessed with character arcs. The idea that the purpose of a person is to change. The way to make a character feel "real" is to have them respond to their experiences, and become someone else.

I'm obsessed with figuring out where my arc is. Did I already complete it? Was it transitioning? Was it building a career? Is it dealing with my anger? That arc isn't going anywhere fast. Maybe my arc started recently when I picked up guitar, or maybe it started even more recently, when I got into the local trans scene. Maybe it hasn't started at all. Maybe it starts when I'm 40, or 60.

And maybe my arc isn't a positive one. Maybe my arc isn't the story of a strong, young woman overcoming adversity and learning from it. Maybe it's a woman's descent into despair, an arc where she pushes everyone away and ruins her own life. Maybe this is the last hope before it all goes south.

Humans don't work like this, of course. Stories work like this, but a human life isn't a story. I'm not a character, my existence doesn't serve a narrative purpose, there is no writer trying to make a salient point using my life. I just exist. I just am. But that means I'm never done. Characters get to have their arc and finish it and then that's who they are. I'm jealous of that. I have to keep changing.

My long term memory is fucking shot. Too much trauma when I was little made me a bit too good at not remembering things. Childhood's mostly blank, anything older than a few months already gets fuzzy. The only things that stick are things that made a huge impact. Everything else leaks out of me. My friends know not to expect me to remember anything. It's not something I can help.

Problem is, I can't really remember what I used to be like. I'm constantly changing, but if I can't remember where I've been, am I really changing at all? Did the tree make a sound when I can't even remember if it fell or not? A single point on a graph does not an arc make. And the points behind me keep getting erased. The only way I know I've changed is because people tell me I have. Or because they expect things from me that I can't see myself doing.

Sometimes I read old posts on this blog just to see what kind of person I used to be. I'm often confused and disturbed by what I find. Does that mean I changed for the better? Or the worse? Who's even to say?

I only ever exist right now.

[skeleion]

A little Sybil, as a treat 🥰

[magu-mm-0824]

COMM D77

[were--ralph]

REMINDER TO CHECK YOUR BALLS

[fuqer]

[Image Description: Testicular Self Exam from the Testicular Cancer Awareness Foundation. Each point is accompanied by an image of the corresponding action.

1. cup one testicle at a time using both hands, best performed during or after a warm bath or shower

2. examine by rolling the testicle between thumb and fingers, use slight pressure

3. familiarize yourself with the spermatic cord and epididymis, tube like structures that connect on the back side of each testicle

4. feel for lumps, change in size or irregularities, it is normal for one testis to be slightly larger than the other

End image description. ]

[certifiedsexed]

Certified Sex Ed Post!

[were--ralph]

Also check Your Tiddies!

[poetry-protest-pornography]

Check your bits!