Please Read This
This has been a hard decision to make, one Iāve been debating with for a good while now, but Iāve decided I think itās best for me to take a break from this blog. I never thought it would gain the traction that it did and I donāt feel comfortable running it at the moment, Iām sorry.
There are multiple reasons but a large one being Iām just not educated enough. There are many areas where I am still ignorant and I think I have a bit of an issue with talking over people, a bad habit I really need to break. I feel like stepping back will give me more time to learn and expand my horizons and less time to speak on topics I donāt actually know much about. Iām not trying to run away from anything, if you have issues with any of the things I say or do (because I am privileged in certain aspects) please donāt feel afraid to bring them up!Ā
I know Iāve answered questions on things like racism, colorism, cultural appropriation, etc. when in retrospect it really wasnāt my place to do so and I want to say Iām really, sincerely sorry about that. I always try to reblog posts made by the people who are affected and include links in my responses but I havenāt been so good at keeping my mouth shut when it doesnāt involve me, which is something I am going to change in myself.
Another thing is my mental health. As much as I have enjoyed running this blog, there are lots of aspects of it which have purely been a source of anxiety and distress for me. I suffer from lots of different mental health problems (I donāt want to go too into detail but I have ADHD and also struggle with BPD, bipolar + other issues) and this blog really does not help. My anxiety and paranoia are bad enough as it is but they shoot up every time I post on here, leaving me feeling sick when I canāt check my inbox (or when I have lots of messages) and paranoid that everybody hates me/this blog. It also means I respond to criticism poorly.
Iām ironically bad at dealing with conflict, which might make some people question why I started this blog (it was actually an accident, long story), but Iāve tried not to let it affect my running of this blog. That obviously didnāt work too well. Iām glad that people find this blog useful and Iām glad some of the posts have helped raise awareness and educate people about the offensive things idols do, but this blog requires a lot of time and energy and knowledge that I just donāt have.Ā
Iām also scared of spreading misinformation and making mistakes (both of which are things I have done), and I donāt like the idea of people feeling too intimidated to call me out when I mess up. Itās quite a big responsibility looking after this blog and Iām not sure my wellbeing can take that on top of my workload and personal problems. Again I apologise for any of the harm I have caused with this blog, it was definitely unintentional, but thatās no excuse.
Iām going to leave this blog up so people can still refer to some of the posts and look through the tags. My hiatus is indefinite, but itās unlikely Iāll be running it again any time soon. Thank you everybody for everything! A lot of my followers have been a huge help and Iāve learned a lot myself. I encourage everybody to keep general discussion going, but for now, Iām stepping out. Goodbye!












