Theyâre your biggest guardians and would break anybodyâs neck if it would ensure your safety, but before you got to that point they might have been a little bit senseless.
You had a hard beginning when arriving to the devildom. But shortly after being left to Mammon's care during your daily activities, you had hope of finding a new friend. Surely with all the time youâll be spending together, youâll become best friends in no time, right?
When your second month arrived you were sure you were halfway there, you already knew he loved spicy ramen, action movies, and, obviously, money. And he, due to an unfortunate event, found out youâre allergic to strawberries. Like you said, Closest you could be.
After the last Devildom history class you practically pranced to the exit to meet Mammon. A soft smile in your face as you saw him in the entrance, talking to a couple of demons. You decided to slow your pace and wait nearby.
âSo youâre not going? Everybodyâs gonna be there!â âI wish I could! Itâs just, ya' knowâŠâ. The demoness by his side scoffed âwhat? Donât tell me youâre still in babysitting dutyâ Mammon crossed his arms âYeah, ugh. I canât say I enjoy their company or having to secure they donât die by accident, but I canât go against Luciferâs ordersâ
You slapped yourself mentally for staying so close by, you didnât wanted to pry in his conversation, it it was impossible to ignore them when mammon is complaining so loud about you and your presence. You practically tuned out the rest of the conversation, you had listened enough.
The soft comfortable feeling in your stomach turned into something more dark and disgusting, making you feel uneasy.
Of course youâre not friends. Youâre nothing. If you had to name this little interaction of yours you were nothing but partners, colleagues banded together for nothing but a pact that you practically forced him in to.
You saw the demons left, waited a couple seconds and decided it was your moment to arrive. âThere ya' are! Iâve been waitin' for hours!â âSorry, class took longer than expectedâ
You were just a couple steps outside RAD when you stopped abruptly, making Mammon stop with a confused look, âyou know what? I forgot my hexes notebook and I have a ton of homework to doâ âHuh?â âYeah, I completely forgot about it. Iâm not even sure where I left itâ You gave a fake preoccupied smile âWaddaya mean you donât know where it is?â Mammon looked distressed, eyes focused on you with furrowed brows. âIâm sorry, I think itâs gonna take me a while to look for itâ you crossed your fingers in front of you âwould it be okay if I stay to look for it? I can ask Beel to take me home once his fangol practice is overâ Mammon looked confused this time, like this was a bargain too good to be true âdonât worry, Iâll explain everything to Lucifer so you donât get into trouble.â âYa sure?â âYeah, really!â You pretended to look at the, inexistent, watch on your wrist âyou donât want to be stranded here with me for hours, right?â you gave him a tight smile and he laughed âya' right! Iâll see ya'!â
You watched him leave. The tight smile disappeared, leaving space for your furrowed brows and sad smile to appear.
You walked to the library, finding yourself a cozy and lonely spot. You decided to give another look to your notes of the day, every little study time you could have would help when you could barely understand the assignments.
Blinking away the tears you looked around you, the almost empty library and the window by your right. You felt the loneliness in your heart tighten.
During your worst nights, when you feel like shit and you need reassurance, you always find yourself in mammons bed, finding refuge in his arms while trying to get some sleep. You feel like the questions that are on your mind start flooding the room with your anxious silence, incapable of actually formulating them in fear of what the answer might be
Are we friends? Do you still see me as a chore? If you had to, would you choose to hang out with me?
Iâve had some rough days, the good news are that gives me more motivation no write lol.
Hope you have a good rest of your weekend guys ! <3
