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If shopping malls went ~Royalcore~

Gopalan mall, Bengaluru

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The Archer by Taylor Swift is about Achilles and Patroclus. In this essay I will..

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Cubbon park in the morning ✨ >>>

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This Kolar railway station that looks straight out of a 80s kannada movie

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Tipu Sultan's summer palace, Bengaluru 2022

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When it's your first secret santa at office and you hardly know the person you picked but you're so happy it's a girl because it's literally soo easy to gift a girl 乁⁠[⁠ ⁠◕⁠ ⁠ᴥ⁠ ⁠◕⁠ ⁠]⁠ㄏ

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When a cat lets me hold it properly for the first time I'm going to cry

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Me: looks for minimal aesthetic lockscreen that is cute, cool and inspiring at the same time

-finds nothing-

Me: fine I'll do it myself

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In my mind I've just run full speed across a grassy field barefoot only to collapse panting from exhaustion and be entirely useless for 10 minutes after

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Y'all ever see a smiling person on the street and be like "How dare you be so happy on a dusty Wednesday morning" but in a fond way?

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I've realised that 'randomly crying because something is beautiful' is actually a very in character thing for me to do

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Your 20s is realising you will never have the life you desire and it doesn't feel like letting go of a cloud.It feels like having your chest mauled with a callous claw and its taking away yew, blood and hope along with the dreams. It is feeling like you can't feel anymore, nothing is as before. I don't spend hours tearing into a mango and sucking the rind anymore, I instead cut it into neat adult boring pieces. Iam time and Iam deteriorating. I forget shared memories of friends who I swore would remain in my life forever; taking pictures of everything with a quiet desperation, hoping to document everything before they vanish.There are times when I abhor human companionship when sometimes it's the only thing I care for. Life is an elevator stinking of cigarette smoke and it's going too fast and now I'm spinning. I don't want to be on the verge of tears, on the edge of my seat, on the precipice of sanity, on display. Look at me but don't see me. I want it but I can't take it. I bare my teeth at it and turn to live another day.

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Me at a metro station randomly "Do you ever feel like running away?"

Friend looking dead serious in my eye "I hate running"

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Major shout-out to my ears which handle my earrings, earphones, spectacles, mask and all the stupid things said to it on a daily basis

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If I loved you less I'd have forgiven you earlier

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In a universe far away, I don't know the number of tiles in the kitchen floor or the way everything burns when your hands are blister sore.I don't know how many calories are in a grape or my country's hourly statistics of rape. I don't miss a boy who loves as dangerously as he drives. I don't know knives or the tale of Bluebeard's wives.

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And I look at this man who is my father, who was a friend turned stranger turned friend ; and I think

who taught you that you need to own and control us

who taught you that you need to care for us at the cost of your own comfort