I don't usually do pinned posts, but maybe this blog could use one. 🌕✨
⚔️This is a sideblog for my fitness journey, ed recovery, and critique of anti-health culture. Fat acceptance never helped me. If anything, it held me back.
🌊Name-wise, just use my url I guess. Or Profunda. The url is Latin for my blog title, "[I am] formed in [the] depths."
That is genuinely how my fitness journey feels, coming from a deep, dark place and growing from it. Batman Bane style: I was born in the darkness, molded by it. (And you better have read that in the voice.)
🔥I am an adult woman who had severe anorexia as a teenager, particularly a nine-month stretch at 14-15 years old (2010-2011). Back then, recovery wasn't my choice. For over a decade, I struggled to find the relationship with food and exercise, body, and capabilities I want without being tempted by disordered thoughts or habits. Since starting this blog in summer 2025, especially since February 2026, that's been way easier. I have a new, much healthier outlook that is rooted in authenticity (unapologetically being myself and shooting for my healthy goals) and honesty (being realistic about what is healthy and doable and how I've been doing).
My lore: first recovery, and bit on old mentality.
Progress: importance of attention, beginning maintenance, and getting a smart scale.
I have other related things in #recovery.
Other common tags are #nutrition, #exercise, #workout, #fitness, and #fitspo (which is not the same as thinsp0). Workout tag is specific tips and things to try; exercise tag is more general.
🌳As you may notice, I can be very share-y. On this blog, for this topic, I'm an open book. I'm happy to answer questions or discuss things. I try to keep other details of my life under more wraps for privacy. Be aware that if I ever get more specific about my bad times, especially 2010-11, it could be triggering, but for some things, it can be important context. I won't sanitize or sugar coat or hide any part of my reality in this sphere.
I'm not encouraging disordered behavior or goals. Stats in bio because it's part of my honesty. If you see that BMI go below 18.5, feel free to chew me out, but otherwise, there's no reason to complain.
If you find this content triggering, please see yourself out.
I don't particularly like interacting with minors, but I won't chase you away with a stick. Just maintain a normal distance, please.
US based but it’s similar reasons in other countries. and of course many companies have international locations. idk if that’s why it’s happening with sour patch kids but this is a thing
My nephew is very allergic to eggs, peanuts, tree nuts, and sesame. Last year my sister discovered all hot dogs and hamburger buns now contain sesame. Not "may contain", but listed in the ingredients. This year basically every brand of sliced bread also now contains sesame, making it very difficult to find bread items he can eat.
They're just adding it to their products, so they can just list it as an ingredient and not bother with worrying about cross contamination. And they aren't even bothering with telling anyone. Capitalism is going to kill us all.
"Which brings us back to Kellogg’s. Back in 2016, the company found a way around the added burden and expense of complying with the FSMA: they simply began adding trace amounts of peanut flour to their cracker products. Doing so allowed them to list peanuts as an ingredient of the product, freeing them from having to prevent cross-contact.
At the time, Kellogg’s notified Food Allergy Research and Education (FARE) about the impending change and left it to them to warn the allergic community. In this case, Pearson’s didn’t even bother as near as we can tell."
I feel like I’ve made the yummiest sandwich I’ve ever had. It’s toasted rye bread, homemade chicken patties, purple cabbage, a little kimchi and mayo. Does it know the meaning of structural integrity? Not really, but I would have liked to add some tomatoes. Alternatively, I could make croutons out of the bread and make a salad which would be easier to eat.
The chicken patties are just made up off ground chicken, shredded mozzarella cheese, finely chopped red onions and garlic, chili flakes, paprika, a little dried oregano and thyme, black and white pepper and salt. That’s baked at 200C for 25 minutes. Proportions of ingredients depend on taste and your macronutrient needs. For me, I used about 12g of cheese to 100g of chicken.
The whole plate was 511 calories with 51g of protein, I planned to have a pear with it but I was too full lol
Next in my little nutrition series, let's talk about the hot topic: protein.
See also - Basic Nutrition and Carb Party
Not an MD, nutritionist, or dietician, just more educated in biology than your average bear.
Who is she?
Proteins are very complex, large molecules that come in infinite forms to perform infinite functions. Chemists and biologists are discovering and developing new ones all the time.
You've heard of the central dogma: DNA -> RNA -> protein. That second arrow is translation, when mRNA runs through ribosomes and interacts with tRNAs carrying amino acids. The amino acids link together to form a peptide chain, which then folds and shapes itself based on the chemistry of the amino acids into a new structure, called a protein. Multiple of these chains may be combined for more complex proteins. Hemoglobin has 4 components, for example.
There are loads of amino acids that exist in the world, but the human body generally uses 20 (+2 which are formed through special mechanisms I don't feel like getting into now). Eleven of these are "non-essential." The body still needs them, but they aren't essential to consume, because the body can make them itself. These are Alanine, Arginine, Asparagine, Aspartic Acid, Cysteine, Glutamic acid, Glutamine, Glycine, Proline, Serine, and Tyrosine. The nine "essential" amino acids are those that the body can't make by itself, so they are required from dietary sources. These are Phenylalanine, Valine, Tryptophan, Threonine, Isoleucine, Methionine, Histidine, Leucine, and Lysine.
When a food is called a "complete protein" that means it contains all 9 essential amino acids. Most complete proteins are those of animal origin (meat, dairy, eggs), but plant-based complete proteins include the likes of soy-based products like tofu or tempeh, certain grains like quinoa and buckwheat, hemp seeds, and some algae. Beans, other whole grains like rice or oats, and most nuts or seeds are incomplete. However, a varied diet with combinations of those can round out your supply of essential amino acids.
What does she do?
Everything!
The other macros, carbs and fats, are mainly there to be sources of energy (fats do some other stuff, too, but it's not their turn yet). They get stored and broken down as needed to provide ATP for cellular functions. But who is doing all that to them? Our friend, protein. Every membrane channel, enzyme, transporter, receptor, and more is a different form of protein. A famous one is Collagen, which is the material ised in the production of cartilage and other connective tissues. And the dynamic duo Actin and Myosin, which are the long strands running along your myocytes, cause muscle contraction when they glide against each other. Tryptophan is an essential component of serotonin, and most other neurotransmitters incorporate amino acid or peptide elements. Those enzymes replicating and transcribing DNA? Proteins! The list goes on and on.
This is why it is important to get enough protein, especially for muscle building, because Actin and Myosin are important for that action of those myomeres.
How much do we need?
Great question! That depends on what you're aiming to do. The FDA daily value of protein is 50 g/day. This is a minimum for basic sustenance and a blanket statement regardless of body weight. On an American nutrition label, this is the level reflected in the %DV, and I discussed in Basic Nutrition why the DVs are not appropriate guidelines for everyone. More than that can be useful. Other sources suggest 0.8 g/kg/day (0.36 g/lb) for routine living. For muscle growth, there is evidence for >1.6 g/kg/day (0.72 g/lb). If you want to go hardcore, others say up to 2.2 g/kg/day (1 g/lb). All that said, 1.6 g/kg is perfectly sufficient. In weight loss, I've also heard it said to base these figures on the goal weight rather than current weight.
Another way to look at it is percentages, also touched on in Basic. When people say "high protein," most mean >40% calories from protein. This ratio makes it easy to see if a certain food item is "high protein" because it comes out to 1 g / 10 cals, very easy to see from a quick glance at the label. And that's why it exists. Because it's a quick and easy shorthand for simple choices. This rule is best applied to singular food items, namely ones meant to be protein sources, or building some meals. Overall, gravitating toward protein sources that meet or exceed that 40% mark can be helpful in constructing a daily or weekly intake that is higher in protein without overdoing it on other macros if the person is trying to stay within a certain calorie range. However, there is wiggle room. Nuance is a friend. Plenty of protein sources don't meet that 40% line but can be good enough, depending on your plan. They still have their place and can add protein to an otherwise lower protein meal, even if they aren't the stars of the day.
On that note, unless someone is shooting for a very high protein and lower calorie goal, it is not necessary for the entire diet on a daily or weekly basis to be "high protein." Many clinical studies on the effect of higher protein diets use percentages in the area of 25-30% protein as their experimental groups (two in the linked review as low as 18, one with a range of 16-45*) and <15-20% as their lower protein control groups (one using 5-23*). A review of such studies discusses the established pattern of these higher protein diets supporting weight loss and maintenance of lean mass. *same study
Personally, since I started tracking my intake regularly in February, my %protein has gone up a bit (low 20s -> high 20s, got 31% last week) in my weekly averages. In terms of total protein intake, that was an increase from just over 1 g/kg in February, to 1.5 g/kg in March when I started proiritizing it more, to a little over 2 g/kg or about 1 g/lb here in July with a gradual increase in calories since May (following small weight loss Feb-May). Point being, at maintenance, hitting that big 1 g/lb mark is doable with 25-30% protein. And for a deficit example, if someone wanted to eat 1500 cal/day, 40% would get them a solid 150g of protein. And at >150lb, they may even be eating a little over 1500 in a deficit, if they're active and have muscle.
Also, protein may be wonderful, but it isn't everything. We need healthy fats, fiber, and other carbs, too. A person heavily restricting to just 900 cal/day may be able to hit 40% and get a nice 90 g, which may be plenty if they're <90-120 lb (40.9-54.5 kg). But odds are, they're heavier than that, and for anyone at that intake level, odds are they won't be getting enough of the other stuff.
Long story short, how much protein to get depends on your size, body composition, lifestyle, and goals. Do what works for you and feels right.
Protein Source Examples
Per 100g*
High protein, >40%
Cod: 82 cal, 18 g, 87.8 %
Egg whites: 52 cal, 11 g, 84.6%
Shrimp: 71 cal, 14 g, 78.9%
Rabbit: 114 cal, 22 g, 77.2%
Lean pork tenderloin: 109 cal, 21 g, 77%
Chicken breast: 136 cal, 26 g, 76.5%
Non-fat Greek yogurt: 59 cal, 10 g, 67.8%
Non-fat cottage cheese: 72 cal, 10.3 g, 57.2%
2% Fat Greek yogurt: 70 cal, 10 g, 57.1%
Beef shoulder steak: 143 cal, 20 g, 55.9%
2% Fat cottage cheese: 81 cal, 10.5 g, 51.9%
Firm tofu: 144 cal, 17.3 g, 48%
4% Fat cottage cheese: 97 cal, 11.5 g, 47.4%
90% Lean ground beef: 176 cal, 20 g, 45.5%
Edamame: 120 cal, 12 g, 40%
4% Fat Greek yogurt: 82 cal, 8.2 g, 40%
Good enough, 30-39%
Portabella mushroom: 22 cal, 2.1 g, 38.2%
Salmon with skin: 222 cal, 21 g, 37.8%
85% Lean ground beef: 215 cal, 18.6 g, 34.6%
Large egg (*per each): 70 cal, 6 g, 34.3%
Decent supplements/sides, >20%
Mozzarella cheese: 300 cal, 22.2 g, 29.6%
Black beans: 132 cal, 9 g, 27.2%
Cheddar cheese: 403 cal, 23 g, 22.8%
Chickpeas: 164 cal, 8.9 g, 21.7%
People call them protein, but they're really sources of fat:
Just wanted to stress that if you’re losing weight from being obese (particularly at higher weights) it’s probably going to be better to base your protein goals on percentage of your calories per day rather than current/goal body weight. And I’ve found that for daily living it has been suggested that 10% of your daily calories come from protein [link], or a range of 10-35% [link] depending on your body composition.
Of course, ideally it’s better to set incremental weight goals with time limits to understand if your lifestyle changes are effective, and then you could base your proteins goals off these goal weights, changing as you go. But I understand the urge to focus on the end of the journey. 2-4 kg per month is a generally safe rate (depending on your current weight and the size of your deficit), check back with yourself every 3-5 months to adjust your deficit and macros as you see fit, accounting for the possibility of plateaus from water retention.
Next in my little nutrition series, let's talk about the hot topic: protein.
See also - Basic Nutrition and Carb Party
Not an MD, nutritionist, or dietician, just more educated in biology than your average bear.
Who is she?
Proteins are very complex, large molecules that come in infinite forms to perform infinite functions. Chemists and biologists are discovering and developing new ones all the time.
You've heard of the central dogma: DNA -> RNA -> protein. That second arrow is translation, when mRNA runs through ribosomes and interacts with tRNAs carrying amino acids. The amino acids link together to form a peptide chain, which then folds and shapes itself based on the chemistry of the amino acids into a new structure, called a protein. Multiple of these chains may be combined for more complex proteins. Hemoglobin has 4 components, for example.
There are loads of amino acids that exist in the world, but the human body generally uses 20 (+2 which are formed through special mechanisms I don't feel like getting into now). Eleven of these are "non-essential." The body still needs them, but they aren't essential to consume, because the body can make them itself. These are Alanine, Arginine, Asparagine, Aspartic Acid, Cysteine, Glutamic acid, Glutamine, Glycine, Proline, Serine, and Tyrosine. The nine "essential" amino acids are those that the body can't make by itself, so they are required from dietary sources. These are Phenylalanine, Valine, Tryptophan, Threonine, Isoleucine, Methionine, Histidine, Leucine, and Lysine.
When a food is called a "complete protein" that means it contains all 9 essential amino acids. Most complete proteins are those of animal origin (meat, dairy, eggs), but plant-based complete proteins include the likes of soy-based products like tofu or tempeh, certain grains like quinoa and buckwheat, hemp seeds, and some algae. Beans, other whole grains like rice or oats, and most nuts or seeds are incomplete. However, a varied diet with combinations of those can round out your supply of essential amino acids.
What does she do?
Everything!
The other macros, carbs and fats, are mainly there to be sources of energy (fats do some other stuff, too, but it's not their turn yet). They get stored and broken down as needed to provide ATP for cellular functions. But who is doing all that to them? Our friend, protein. Every membrane channel, enzyme, transporter, receptor, and more is a different form of protein. A famous one is Collagen, which is the material ised in the production of cartilage and other connective tissues. And the dynamic duo Actin and Myosin, which are the long strands running along your myocytes, cause muscle contraction when they glide against each other. Tryptophan is an essential component of serotonin, and most other neurotransmitters incorporate amino acid or peptide elements. Those enzymes replicating and transcribing DNA? Proteins! The list goes on and on.
This is why it is important to get enough protein, especially for muscle building, because Actin and Myosin are important for that action of those myomeres.
How much do we need?
Great question! That depends on what you're aiming to do. The FDA daily value of protein is 50 g/day. This is a minimum for basic sustenance and a blanket statement regardless of body weight. On an American nutrition label, this is the level reflected in the %DV, and I discussed in Basic Nutrition why the DVs are not appropriate guidelines for everyone. More than that can be useful. Other sources suggest 0.8 g/kg/day (0.36 g/lb) for routine living. For muscle growth, there is evidence for >1.6 g/kg/day (0.72 g/lb). If you want to go hardcore, others say up to 2.2 g/kg/day (1 g/lb). All that said, 1.6 g/kg is perfectly sufficient. In weight loss, I've also heard it said to base these figures on the goal weight rather than current weight.
Another way to look at it is percentages, also touched on in Basic. When people say "high protein," most mean >40% calories from protein. This ratio makes it easy to see if a certain food item is "high protein" because it comes out to 1 g / 10 cals, very easy to see from a quick glance at the label. And that's why it exists. Because it's a quick and easy shorthand for simple choices. This rule is best applied to singular food items, namely ones meant to be protein sources, or building some meals. Overall, gravitating toward protein sources that meet or exceed that 40% mark can be helpful in constructing a daily or weekly intake that is higher in protein without overdoing it on other macros if the person is trying to stay within a certain calorie range. However, there is wiggle room. Nuance is a friend. Plenty of protein sources don't meet that 40% line but can be good enough, depending on your plan. They still have their place and can add protein to an otherwise lower protein meal, even if they aren't the stars of the day.
On that note, unless someone is shooting for a very high protein and lower calorie goal, it is not necessary for the entire diet on a daily or weekly basis to be "high protein." Many clinical studies on the effect of higher protein diets use percentages in the area of 25-30% protein as their experimental groups (two in the linked review as low as 18, one with a range of 16-45*) and <15-20% as their lower protein control groups (one using 5-23*). A review of such studies discusses the established pattern of these higher protein diets supporting weight loss and maintenance of lean mass. *same study
Personally, since I started tracking my intake regularly in February, my %protein has gone up a bit (low 20s -> high 20s, got 31% last week) in my weekly averages**. In terms of total protein intake, that was an increase from just over 1 g/kg in February, to 1.5 g/kg in March when I started proiritizing it more, to a little over 2 g/kg or about 1 g/lb here in July with a gradual increase in calories since May (following small weight loss Feb-May). Point being, at maintenance, hitting that big 1 g/lb mark is doable with 25-30% protein. And for a deficit example, if someone wanted to eat 1500 cal/day, 40% would get them a solid 150g of protein. And at >150lb, they may even be eating a little over 1500 in a deficit, if they're active and have muscle.
**according to LoseIt, but that app doesn't include calories from alcohol in its macro% display, so these figures are influenced by changes in my drinking patterns and not absolutely accurate. But, I think, an alright example. Old %protein would just be a little lower if alcohol cals were counted.
Also, protein may be wonderful, but it isn't everything. We need healthy fats, fiber, and other carbs, too. A person heavily restricting to just 900 cal/day may be able to hit 40% and get a nice 90 g, which may be plenty if they're <90-120 lb (40.9-54.5 kg). But odds are, they're heavier than that, and for anyone at that intake level, odds are they won't be getting enough of the other stuff.
Long story short, how much protein to get depends on your size, body composition, lifestyle, and goals. Do what works for you and feels right.
Protein Source Examples
Per 100g*
High protein, >40%
Cod: 82 cal, 18 g, 87.8 %
Egg whites: 52 cal, 11 g, 84.6%
Shrimp: 71 cal, 14 g, 78.9%
Rabbit: 114 cal, 22 g, 77.2%
Lean pork tenderloin: 109 cal, 21 g, 77%
Chicken breast: 136 cal, 26 g, 76.5%
Non-fat Greek yogurt: 59 cal, 10 g, 67.8%
Non-fat cottage cheese: 72 cal, 10.3 g, 57.2%
2% Fat Greek yogurt: 70 cal, 10 g, 57.1%
Beef shoulder steak: 143 cal, 20 g, 55.9%
2% Fat cottage cheese: 81 cal, 10.5 g, 51.9%
Firm tofu: 144 cal, 17.3 g, 48%
4% Fat cottage cheese: 97 cal, 11.5 g, 47.4%
90% Lean ground beef: 176 cal, 20 g, 45.5%
Edamame: 120 cal, 12 g, 40%
4% Fat Greek yogurt: 82 cal, 8.2 g, 40%
Good enough, 30-39%
Portabella mushroom: 22 cal, 2.1 g, 38.2%
Salmon with skin: 222 cal, 21 g, 37.8%
85% Lean ground beef: 215 cal, 18.6 g, 34.6%
Large egg (*per each): 70 cal, 6 g, 34.3%
Decent supplements/sides, >20%
Mozzarella cheese: 300 cal, 22.2 g, 29.6%
Black beans: 132 cal, 9 g, 27.2%
Cheddar cheese: 403 cal, 23 g, 22.8%
Chickpeas: 164 cal, 8.9 g, 21.7%
People call them protein, but they're really sources of fat:
Don’t hold the younger you to the standards you hold yourself to today. You didn’t know as much. You were in a different headspace, with different things affecting and scaring you, facing challenges that seemed big at the time. Maybe you were even lonelier. What’s important is that you know better now, and you know more now. That’s something to move forward with, not something to curse the past with.
"You shouldn't eat too much sugar and the sugar tax is good to prevent that"
a) that's already garbage
b) do you really believe governments are doing this out of the goodness of their hearts?
c) there's MANY things you should actually watch your daily intake of, and yet I don't see any taxes being proposed to regulate those. Where's the iron supplement tax? Vitamin C tax? Caffeine tax?
d) you're stupid and fatphobic and brainwashed
e) hey how come alcohol is often cheaper than chocolate/candy bars? I thought it was about uwu health?
No, governments do not do this out of the goodness of their hearts.
I am of the opinion that the government should neither dictate what people are allowed to consume nor give benefits to predatory food/beverage lobbies, but it seems they pick and choose which of those behaviors to engage in however suits the current administration.
Education is what matters, so that consumers can make informed choices. Accessibility is what matters, so that it is possible to act on those choices.
Too much refined sugar is unhealthy. Support for the fruit industry would be the better route, imo, than simply taxing refined sugar.
Things the body needs some of can also be things the body can be hurt by too much of. We need sodium to function; too much can have deleterious effects, and most people get too much. We need ADEK vitamins to function, but most people don't get enough; still, too much can have deleterious effects. I haven't heard of people ODing on iron, but maybe it happens; most people don't get enough. It's practically impossible to OD on VitC. Some caffeine is fine, but it can be abused. A little alcohol now and then is fine, but too much is too much.
Either the government legally forces people to eat healthily (which could theoretically be effective but very unideal for personal freedoms and would never account for the vast diversity of dietary needs), or it doesn't coerce our choices at all. Singling out refined sugar is a cherry-picking course of action, but that doesn't mean people shouldn't be opting for more actual cherries instead of candy.
I have this new work friend who I had heard speak of the gym once or twice. A couple times, I wasn't sure if she was making fun of me for my gym broisms (snatching up that protein, loving muscle as a tissue in the academic sense, going gym after work gang's dinner out). Come to find out, she was being genuine, is a fellow gym bro, and even fucking takes creatine. More gym bro than I gym, bro! Been trying to get other coworkers into the gym and embracing the benefits of creatine. She might get me onto it, idk, we shall see!
But once I heard bout that, I just felt like this:
I think I’m going to just cut out drinking. I might still have the occasional sip if someone else has a particularly interesting drink but I’m not going to have one of my own. Other than overdoing it in my first year of university I wouldn’t say I ever relied on it, nor do I drink much at all now (maybe 1-3 drinks every two months max).
The reason why is that I feel like I only ever order a drink because it’s what I’m supposed to. I don’t enjoy the taste (so there isn’t a point in having just one drink) and I don’t really like being tipsy and I particularly hate the after effects (I tend to swell a little). I guess if I’m going to question my food habits that I see as normal when they don’t really serve me, alcohol should be included.
This is definitely partially because of the new guidelines concerning alcohol consumption for the US, which is to “consume less alcohol for better overall health.” I have seen criticism [link] of the removal of information on the previous upper limits (2 per day for men and 1 per day for women) and the health risks posed by chronic drinking, that this is the effect of lobbying from the alcohol industry. I do agree but I think a useful interpretation of the guidelines is to limit as much as possible and to ideally cut it out [link].
I think this is the paper that is currently being discussed linking even casual consumption (within the previous limits) to be correlated with an increased risk for dementia, definitely stronger at chronic consumption and at the very least it goes against the idea that alcohol is at all protective.
The correlation is supported by research into the mechanisms for the increased risk (though again this may more strongly apply to chronic consumption*):
Alcohol promotes inflammation - an increase in free radicals leads to oxidative stress (which fuels further inflammation) causing cell damage and accelerated aging, promoting neuronal death [link]
Accumulation of beta amyloid - a toxic protein that is the main component of the plaques found in the brains of people with Alzheimer’s [link]
Disrupts neurotransmitters that are critical for memory and learning
Inhibits REM sleep and sleep disorders have been associated with cognitive decline and dementia [link]
Increased risk of strokes with chronic drinking - well, a general decrease in cardiovascular health which includes a risk for strokes which can lead to cognitive decline [link]
Regardless of how these mechanisms relate to the little casual drinking I do, I have my reason for not letting it linger in my diet.
No matter what the battles are you are facing you can find a way to put your health first and pull yourself out of obesity.
Ive done it. And i was 300+ pounds at 5'7.
Ive helped other do it. I helped my husband lose 30+ pounds.
You can be healthy. You are not broken. Its not too late. You dont have to give up on yourself.
Fat acceptance is a lie. No one tells you this to be mean. (Yes there are people who can be mesn about your size, ive expereinced it too). People tell ypu this to try and help. And you say 'why do you care?'
BECASE I WAS THERE I WAS YOU.
I KNOW EXACTLY HOW BAD I FELT ALL THE TIME.
Nothing fit me. I hated myself. I was self concious. I hated going outside. I thought horribly of myself. I was moody. I was extremely mentally ill. I was extremely mean to myself and punished myself with food.
I know exactly what you are going through.
I know that you can change too.
Your owe yourself health. You owe yourself an amazing life, the only life you have.
I want you to be able to chase your kids around, go on hikes, fit on a plane and see the world. I want you to play fight woth your spounse and run around the house without being out of breathe. I want you to live for yourself and your family. I dont want your pets to wonder where you disapearred to one day because it got so bad. I dont want people to mourne you because you were gone too soon.
I did it all for myself and i want to help others see that they are worth it.
People in fat acceptance are tearing you down with them. They are not your friends. They want you to stay fat becauss they are fat. They dont have the will to get out and stop being the victim. But you do. The world isnt against you. Theyll tell you that but its not.
Being fat is not healthy
Being extremely skinny is not healthy.
Too far on either end is not healthy. You need to become strong and live the life you deserve.
Do what you need to do to get yourself in the gym. I always struggle with going because at my job i walk 7+ miles a day and am standing running around all day. But you gotta think about. Theres people who do more than i do and they still make it there. Did i buy a cute pink gym bag to romanticize it? Maybe. But if it works it works right? And you always feel so much better after youve worked out.
One way ive escaped my mental illnesses was wodking out. I was so depressed and had a horrible mood all the time and slept so much and loaing weight and taking care of myself has taken away those struggles completely.
Everyone has bad days like when im about to start my period i become more over whelmed and might cry here or there. But im not a lazy shut in anymore. I see life for what it is and dont self sabotage or hate my life anymore. Im not depressed anymore i rarely have bad days and cant remember the last time i thought the world was plotting against me. Obviously everyone had bad days and they come and go but this is a totally differemt world and its insane to look back and think that im just normal now. Its amazing what pushing yourself can do.
Go to the gym. Build yourself to be stronger. Live longer. Experience more with the one life you have.
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