I have an interest in many things, so I find it difficult when people try to isolate me to being only one thing. I make art but to me it’s more symbolic and purposeful by depicting the visual of the makeup of a feeling or emotion. Some people call it vibes but they don’t really know what that means entirely. Music and art is quite literally quantum vibrational strings, we spend so much time trying to compare things that we actually end up doing a poor job of actually classifying.
For instance my music is meant for meditative but isn’t quite meditative music, it’s more transformative music. The highlight is the progression from one note, bar, or even song to the next. Each section triggering some other thought or mental string.
I think that people have a hard time trusting even the words people say about themselves. For me I will never lie about myself, I don’t tell the worst about myself to people only looking to judge me, so I tell my truth and see if the engagement is worth interacting with further, or judgemental.
To me if I’m not being judged or someone’s not just being anti to what I say, then I hear them out even if it’s advice that shows me where I could be better, it’s more useful than just saying I’m not good enough.
Shaming people and knowing when someone’s actions just don’t suit you are two different things. For example, I don’t shame anyone who has sex for money, eats man ass, or has an only fans type account. However I don’t want a sexual or romantic relationship with them personally, they if they have had more energy encounters than I can bear for my own partner then that is just the case. Consistent public Self exposure is what they decided, I shouldn’t be obligated to support just because I don’t particularly oppose.
It also bothers me that people can play such sexual music and hype up all the aforementioned things to not shame, but will still manage to shame someone who likes to have sexual conversations. I’m looking for someone polygynous who can have these conversations with me and my fiancé as her partner, but not just for the physical action, but for the spiritual and mental companionship as well. If I’m not comfortable talking about sex then I’m not entirely comfortable talking about my passions because I’m limiting my willingness to explore that realm openly. There are things that some prefer that others don’t and there’s no way to find out who and why if we aren’t able to communicate on all levels.
Cancel culture and holding on to bitterness toward exes is contradictory of people who expect others to see their growth, if a person was truly toxic and not just upset you then that’s one thing but to write off a person who cares for you is immature and this new generation type of bs.
I need comrades I can rely on day or night and if something goes wrong I can trust that they can openly talk to me about the real, the fun, and the hardships. I shouldn’t be expected to carry your weight nor vice versa, but we should expect eachother to hold eachother up, and challenge not in serious competition but challenge eachother to get better.
The woman who can understand this wholeheartedly looking for lifelong friends, commitment, and someone who actually wants to get to know you, my next post will be for you.