Rambles of a Girl With ADHD

This is a blog connected to the RVSA Capstone project twitter found at @psADHD. Feel free to ask me anything abt the disorder and my experiences with it! I've done my homework and can probably answer any questions you may have. Grace/Holly | She/Her

[pdtonystark]

that Relatable™ mental illness feel when you can’t tell if your workload is unreasonable or if you’d actuallly be able to handle this if you had a functioning fucking brain

[beaft]

little adhd things

verbal filters are a myth invented by the government

i went on wikipedia to look up sources for an essay but somehow i ended up reading about the history of meridian cannons

“did i eat dinner tonight?” *checks bin* *finds empty microwave meal packet* “wait is this from today or yesterday” 

always needing something in your hands to play with

okay i know you’re talking to me about something important but i can’t stop staring at that woman’s weird hat and now it’s leading me on a train of thought that has occupied my entire attention span

talking so fast you literally forget to breathe

i just read three pages of this book and i know i was paying attention but somehow i remember absolutely none of it

whoops i don’t have any plans for today so i guess i’ll just Die

being unable to remember the names of people you’ve known for months and talk to every day

panic attacks

“adhd was made up by millenials to justify kids with behavioural problems and underachievers”

did i do that thing yesterday? or the day before? or last week? did i do it at all?

[thatadhdfeel]

That adhd feel when you have to write a 5 page paper but you’re not actually given a prompt for it, only the book you’re supposed to write the paper on, because the professor wanted us to “write something we’re interested in and not have guideline restrictions” except hello???? I have adhd???? I need specificity and explicit directions if I want any hope of doing school work correctly????

[commander-ledi]

that adhd feel when you suddenly get really excited. you are not sure what ur excited about excactly but you sure are more excited than ever before

[spillywolf-deactivated20190920]

I would be so smart if I would just

-clenches fists-

<i>pay attention</i>

[skeptikhaleesi]

I have ADHD but don’t want to have to be “too dependent” on medication, so I only take it on days when I plan on driving, taking public transportation, not walking into traffic, using a stove or microwave, maintaining a normal sleep cycle, holding down a job, accomplishing my personal goals, preserving relationships with my friends and family….

[mydearthisbe]

Being a procrastinator with a violent fear of failure is almost hilarious because like 80% of the time I’m like “I’m not even going to think about this” and then there’s like a distinct moment when everything switches and it turns to “I can’t fail oh my god I need to turn this into an A in like a day why am I like this”

[ghost-of-positivity-blog]

stop scrolling for a second. 

You’re going to be okay, you’re strong and i’m proud of you. Catch your breath and wash your face. Grab something to drink or to eat and remember to take any medications if you need to, okay? 

You’re amazing for making it so far into life; thank you for staying alive. 

Now keep going 

[peachcookie]

having ADHD more like

[actuallyadhd]

[Image Description: Red reblog line with caption of “ME” above the line.

Wait What did i say again]

[hippity-hoppity-brigade]

ADHD Gothic

You have instructions written down. You don’t need them, but you check them anyway. Somehow they’re different from what you remember. Have they changed since you tucked the paper in your pocket? 

You realize that you’ve lost your train of thought. You can’t remember what you were thinking before. There is only your present thought, now a loop of panic at your lost memory. 

You stop in the middle of a room. Why are you here? Which room did you come from? You leave the room and remember what you were going to do. You walk back into the room. Why are you here? 

You bring up an inside joke with a friend. They look at you blankly. They do not remember this joke. But you were there when I made it, you argue. They were not. They are not the friend you are thinking of. You realize it was your other friend, from work instead of high school, with blond hair instead of brown, tall instead of short. You do not know how these two friends are so similar in your mind. 

You refer to every experience as happening “the other day.” Was it three years ago or yesterday? You try to remember context clues. Time is not real. 

Someone asks you for an important piece of information. You have not thought about it since you saved it on your computer, labelled very clearly. You search through your files. It is not there. You find it days later by accident, labelled with a cryptic set of codes. You don’t know why you would label it this way. No one else uses this computer but you. 

You are running late. You are always running late. 

You have lost something. You check everywhere. You check everywhere again. Someone tells you to think of when you last had it. You don’t tell them that is the problem. 

You reach the end of the page. You can’t remember what you just read. 

[scary-monsters-and-super-creeps]

100% accurate

[genderhexed]

THIS IS TOO FUCKING REAL

How the ADHD brain works

There’s two options:

1. YAY THIS IS AWESOME I LOVE DOING THIS I COULD DO IT FOR HOURS WITHOUT EVEN BLINKING OR LOSING FOCUS

2. AGH IM SO BORED *starts looking around the whole room until I find something that’s interesting* UGH IM BORED AGAIN

[adhdandcats]

3. THE WHOLE WORLD IS BORING. NOTHING WILL BE INTERESTING AGAIN. I WILL GO TO THE STORE AND BUY COOKIES.

[sensationalpsychoticskell-deact]

4. HOW CAN YOU BE DOING THE SAME THING FOR MORE THAN FIVE MINUTES WITHOUT GETTING BORED WTF *does something for 2+ hours straight*

[adhdetails-blog]

people who think that ~everyone’s little ADHD~ are always like “that’s not an ADHD symptom, I did that once” yeah Karen, ONCE

[shewhowalksthroughfandoms]

The big dismissal

There is a stigma I’ve noticed attached to ADD and ADHD. It’s a joke for so many people, dismissing it saying everyone has it. Or saying it is overly diagnosed. Or saying it’s an excuse for forgetfulness or restlessness.

It’s not a fucking joke. Not to the people who actually have it.

People like me.

It’s not funny, it’s not a joke or excuse.

So stop it. Just stop it. It’s relevant and real and difficult.

I’m not laughing

[autumntheemo]

MENTAL İLLNESS : consuming me

ME : I am such a faker and overreacting

[unstableidentity-archive]

fun adhd things: your brain never shutting up

[thatadhdfeel]

That ADHD feeling when you forget useful info like dates, times, and projects, but remember and often word-vomit out at people who listen useless info

[thatadhdfeel]

tadhdfw you put on something to watch and you have to rewind it back to the beginning at least seven times cause you weren’t paying attention and got stuck hyperfocusing on tumblr