c.

this isn’t rage, it’s too specific

[puckingdiaz]

“the fates already fucked me sideways.”

call me c. he him, 19, puckingdiaz on ao3.

i like firefighters and hockey

my works are under #hand cramp , recs under #baaang! (all hockey, including hockey aus, will be under #c talks hockey — 911 will be under #wee woo wee woo) !!

[weteddie]

WANNA BE A BOY ftm eddie diaz, 6k words, rated t

“You don’t want to be my girlfriend.” “I already said that.” “But you want to be my—my something else?” Eddie’s breath catches. Her eyes fly open, stinging and damp. She doesn’t answer. Her throat constricts, trapping breath inside, trapping a response inside. Silently, she prays to a god she’s not sure she believes in that the floor will open up and swallow her whole. She can’t hear him say what she thinks he’s about to say; she can’t hear it, not even once. She can’t come back from that. She just—she can’t. Buck pushes on, hesitant. “...My boyfriend?”

OR

Eddie doesn’t know how to be the man his heart yearns to be. Buck waits for him to learn.

[puckingdiaz]

your love is tried and true blue.

⤷ just a quick buddie oneshot under the cut :)

Eddie Diaz; who sees Buck as free chaos. Cuts, cracks and imperfections displayed for everybody to see. Effortlessly perfect, fun, human. Buck wakes up late in the morning and he’s still on time to work because his hair looks fine— good even, bedhead messy. He can just go to work like that. It does something twisty to Eddie’s stomach.

He loves Buck’s smile lines and all the creases on his face because it shows that Buck has truly lived a life. Especially knowing how hard that life has been for him, seeing the physical proof of joy printed right there on his face, it’s perfect.

He loves his uneven hoodie strings he can’t be bothered to fix because it’s fine, they’re just hoodie strings. His shoelaces that come untied every so often because he rushes to tie them and double knotting is annoying.

He loves the way he fumbles over his words, the way he says ‘um,’ in every other sentence— sometimes more than that. The way he thinks while he’s speaking instead of before he opens his mouth.

But most of all, he loves the way the chaos simmers when they’re alone together. The way Buck’s face looks when he’s relaxed in sleep. The way Buck’s presence is so powerful that he can still feel him so clearly without hearing his voice. He loves how it feels to just be there with him, to have him.

Evan Buckley; who thinks that if Eddie didn’t hang the moon, he might’ve crafted the whole thing himself. As far as Buck is concerned, Eddie has never been late to work in his life. Except for when he had to be, because of Chris, but that didn’t count because Eddie has priorities and everyone knows that.

He loves the way Eddie’s hair falls so perfectly every day, the way it always looks nice even after a long day. He loves how much Eddie knows, how much he’s seen. Well, he hates that Eddie has had to see so much, but at the same time, he’s never met anyone as smart as him.

He loves the way that Eddie is perfect at work, the way he always knows what to say. He always knows how to fix the problems, there is nothing he hasn’t done. As far as he can tell, there’s not a single conversation Eddie hasn’t had either, because all of his words come out smooth and confident as if it was rehearsed.

And he loves the way he can make Eddie’s cheeks run a deep red, the way his eyes go wide and full of love when he’s searching for something to say back. The way his hair looks when he falls asleep by accident and wakes up disoriented and dazed, his face slightly puffy.

They love when they find pieces of themselves in each other.

[marmelade-sky]

Michael's and Bobby's friendship is so fucking funny and my absolute favorite friendship in the show. Michael "I love my ex-wife's new husband" Grant and Bobby "OUR kids" Nash. Found family made by divorce. Incredible.

[puckingdiaz]

just read an incredible fic by kryptonian on ao3, hockey buddie! :)

not posting any links to it because he hasn’t posted about it here i don’t think and i’d rather be respectful. not totally sure about the etiquette for this kind of thing?? sorry!!! but if you’re familiar with her or her work (or if your not) i would definitely check it out. super good read

[sintari]

Some Sentences Sunday

Thanks for the tag @sunflowerbuckleys!

A little more of the sequel to Grace Period, where Eddie returns from Texas but can't afford the rent so he and Buck come to an "arrangement."

And now Eddie has a whole different problem. Part of him certainly likes the prospect of four blowjobs from Buck. Even though he’s sitting at the kitchen table–where he feeds his child–his cock perks up fast, like he’s seventeen again. 

But another part of him, the Eddie Diaz who hugged a doppelganger of his dead wife and through a chain of events entirely of his own making now has a $29.72 balance in his checking account, is asking can he have this? Does he deserve it? 

He thinks too long before typing again. He knows Buck’s in the living room sweating bullets. The TV isn’t on, and Eddie doesn’t even hear any rustling. Finally he decides what he has to say.

Eddie:

Buck. You have to let me earn it. 

Buck’s reply this time is much faster. 

Buck: 

ur gonna earn it

Tagging the usual suspects @hawkslonggoodbye @exhausteddiaz and @heyyoubuckaroo

[puckingdiaz]

so realistically how early is too early for me to post a christmas fic. hypothetically

[puckingdiaz]

God Made Man to Love Someone

⤷ 1.4k words, married buddie, religious acceptance, fluff.

just something short i liked enough, give it a read if you wanna :)