Since I intend on using Tumblr a bit more now, and because I like neat lists, I thought it'd be prudent do make a little list of what I have out on ao3 right now!
My name's Looth, and I am ENTIRELY at the whims of my hyperfixations. I'm on twitter and pillowfort by the same handles, but I rarely use the latter.
fandoms: Stranger Things, Our Flag Means Death, The Witcher (Netflix) and Good Omens
[list under the cut!]
fanfiction
Good Omens:
A Nanny? In MY Summoning Circle?
A twoshot wherein Warlock Dowling meets his Nanny again, via the very normal uni student past time of trying to summon a demon with a book you found in a dodgy bookshop. Very fluffy, genderqueer Warlock.
[Complete] 2/2, 10.5k
The Witcher (Netflix):
The Viscount
[geraskefer endgame]
A 5+1 that works on the premise that "I'm from Lettenhove" is a sort of codeword in the royal class for children that have fallen out of grace with their court/family? And the higher your rank in Lettenhove, the worse the thing you have done is? Lots of Jaskier shenanigans, aggressive found family and genderfluid Jaskier.
Based on a post by @artistsfuneral.
[WIP] 3/?, 1.3k
build me up, buttercup [rated M]
[geraskefer endgame]
A longfic I've been chipping away at since 2020, dear God. Features Jaskier and Yen being fake married and co-parenting Ciri, Geralt getting adopted, the found family inherent to bards and the city of Oxenfurt, ftm Jaskier and Ciri having a well-deserved identity crisis. Also, ocs galore, gratuitous academia, and also Valdo Marx is immortal and Jaskier's annoying best friend.
Geraskefer endgame. My baby, who I will return to as soon as I am able.
[WIP] 15/?, 64k
Our Flag Means Death:
the inertia series [rated E]
a three-part series following Israel Hands as he attempts to move on from the things keeping him trapped in amber, unable to grow.
[steddyhands endgame]
[Complete] 62.9k
1. love like a dog on a leash
Izzy Hands encounters an old friend in the form of Sam Bellamy, Ed starts a barfight, and Stede learns some backstory.
All of these men are haunted in some way.
1/1, 5.5k
2. open season
Izzy Hands finds himself inexplicably being courted by various pirates to be their first mate. No one has addressed that fact that he isn't looking for a new Captain; he already has two. Steddyhands endgame, features some Jackhands.
A long look at the dynamics between Ed and Izzy, and now Stede, and the older dynamics of Ed, Izzy, Calico Jack Rackham and Sam Bellamy. Actually, it's a look at Izzy himself, and his various traumas and the way he's transitioning from being in a Black Sails type dark genre to this weird muppet land everyone else on this ship seems to live in.
7/7, 44.5k
3. red sky at morning
An epilogue, wherein the boys all contend with the future on the horizon; the good and the bad of it.
1/1, 11.9k
stranger things
[my current hyperfixation send help]
Eddie Munson and the Dreamboy
[steddie]
Wherein Eddie and El traverse the inside of Steve's mind, and encounter various Steves at different points in his life trying to find where he's hidden himself to escape Vecna's final curse.
A 5+1, featuring Steve's Scoops Ahoy flirting, a little baby Steve, and El's hair.
[Complete] 1/1, 8k.
Dustin Henderson and the Lovebirds
[steddie]
Five times Dustin Henderson was subjected to Eddie Munson being gross and sappy and in love with Steve Harrington, and one time Steve didn't even have to be there.
Features Steve being serenaded, Eddie Munson's Roger Rabbit Impression, Steve's Tiny Gym Shorts, and a good old fashioned worm conversation. Also, gay dnd.
[Complete] 1/1, 9.7k
always burning, world keeps turning
a two-part series set in a soft post-apocalyptic Hawkins, where community and family keep everyone going. And Steve and Eddie kiss about it.
[steddie]
[WIP]
1. took you for a working boy
In a post-apocalypse, mildly nightvale-flavoured Hawkins, Steve and Eddie are the only ones who aren't aware they're dating. Steve does not have a gender crisis but does have a lot of difficulty finding the words for it all, Eddie is oblivious but earnest (and running a radio show, Dr. Death Defying or Cecil Palmer style), Steve and Robin are ACTUALLY soulmates, and everyone's doing their best.
I cannot stress how much everyone thinks they're already dating. Featuring genderqueer Steve, disaster gay Eddie, scheming younger teens, and lots of stobin fluff.
[complete] 6/6, 43.8k
2. hometown blues
The sequel to working boy, wherein Gareth, Vickie and Steve's mom encounter how fucking weird Hawkins has got in their absence, and take it with varying degrees of grace.
[WIP] 3/? 17k
off-script
Wherein Steve Harrington has his sexuality all figured out, Eddie's in comically heavy denial, and everything rapidly snowballs from there.
[steddie]
1. off the beaten path
Wherein Steve figures out he's bi before Eddie figures out he's gay, but Eddie STILL manages to fall first.
Features Steve talking himself though discovering his sexuality in approximately five minutes while on the phone with a baffled Jonathan, and him aggressively flirting with the local metalhead. He's also very good at being an unreliable narrator.
It ALSO features said local metalhead (who thinks himself straight) accidentally flagging, calling Steve Harrington princess in a totally straight way, and doing the ttrpg equivalent of doodling your crush's name on a notebook over and over. Also, somehow he's convinced himself he just hates Steve.
This won't end badly for anyone, I'm sure.
[Complete] 6/6, 34.2k
2. no boys allowed
Robin Buckley has her very first Girls' Day. She gets her hair braided, consoles her heartbroken best friend, and everyone muddies the water a bit on the exact definition of what a Girl is.
Steve Harrington has a good cry about Eddie Munson.
[Complete] 1/1, 7.5k
3. here be dragons
Eddie Munson has kissed a boy, and now he has to handle the fallout. He's got to grapple with the fact that he likes boys, likes a boy, and the harrowing fact that he may have inadvertently broken said boy's heart.
Or, a rapidly snowballing fic that's become a series of character studies by accident. Features Mike Wheeler kicking Eddie's ass into gear, ruminations on being a fashion-assigned dom, Steve Harrington's Various Abandonment Issues, and a surprise Tommy Hagan.
[WIP] 6/?, 38.9k
original works:
court of law
A mildly unhinged second person pov piece about a person going to college and finding that he's trapped in a bizarre dreamscape with no memories. And a new body. He accidentally steals a cute boy's name.
Lots of shenanigans, lots of gender and bad jokes.
We talk a lot about how in The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, the Pevensie children live full adult lives as kings and queens of narnia before stumbling out of the wardrobe by accident and being children again after like 15+ years. But I’ve never seen the same level of analysis devoted to how in Prince Caspian they return to Narnia and discover that over 1,000 years have passed in Narnia since their last visit.
Imagine undergoing the grief of losing an entire life you lived in another world, being forced back into the body of a child and to grow up all over again without the ability to even talk about what happened in the decades you lost. Every person you knew and loved, vanished, leaving no indication they were ever real and no guide for how to move on.
But returning to that world where you were a King or Queen and discovering that centuries have passed without you and that the people you lost are not only dead, but mostly aren’t even remembered? That’s almost worse.
That series is really something for “worldbuilding threads picked up and never touched again” too like
in the silver chair it’s confirmed that deep underneath the earth in narnia there’s a molten, fiery abyss world called Bism that is apparently populated and also apparently gemstones are living creatures that live there, and what we understand as diamonds, emeralds, rubies etc. are just the discarded husks of once living creatures
Jadis is actually not originally from Narnia, but accidentally gets sent there at its creation (making her one of the oldest beings in narnia) and she annihilated all life in her world of origin. she also very much does go to literal actual London and terrorize people. she is like 7 feet tall and can tear iron with her bare hands like it’s taffy.
Jadis makes it “Always winter and never Christmas”…what the FUCK is her beef with Father Christmas. I know it’s supposed to be like a metaphor or some shit but I’m imagining what exactly the fuck must have happened between them for jadis to specifically want to prevent him from coming to narnia to the extent that her powerful seasonal-change-stopping magic also includes a “fuck that guy in particular” clause.
like think about it, Jesus is not a thing in narnia, he’s just aslan. and aslan did not get born. ergo, the origin of such a concept as Christmas is the entity Father Christmas. Christmas is not a religious holiday to Narnians it has no symbolic meaning it is just specifically the time of year when Father Christmas fucks around across the landscape giving children gifts, such as very deadly real weapons. There’s no reason for him to do this. It’s just what he does. And Jadis fucking hates it.
another thing from the magicians nephew that is never brought up again is that Polly and Digory don’t go directly to Narnia, they end up in this intermediate place between the worlds that’s like a forest full of pools leading to other worlds, potentially infinite other worlds, and they end up in Narnia pretty much at random.
I think it’s also confirmed that Archenlanders were originally from Earth, and are the descendants of a small group of people who traveled to Narnia by accident and got stuck. One wonders why Aslan didn’t whisk them back out. Or why being too old wasn’t a problem for them.
I think this is early installment weirdness but there are Roman gods in narnia. ?????
stars are sentient???
narnia is flat. this is not actually an unresolved thread but I don’t think it’s common knowledge even though in one of the books they literally sail to the edge of the world. caspian specifically thinks it’s super cool that the earth is round
I LOVE the whole concept of Bism. Like Lewis really just said oh yeah there’s a whole world under Narnia where people live and jewels are alive too actually you wear dead ones in your jewellery and then no one ever spoke about it again, not even the fandom
No wonder this series infuriated Tolkien so much. Lewis just threw paint at a wall and jokingly asked the man who’d spent a decade on a single painting if he liked it.
5 times Rozanov makes fun of Scott for being old + 1 time he makes fun of Scott for being gay.
Rozanov is uncharacteristically silent during warmups, and a quiet Rozanov is never a good sign.
When Scott gets into position for the face-off, he has to consciously tell himself not to tense up. Whatever homophobic bullshit Rozanov spews can’t be worse than Twitter after their cup win. Scott can take it.
He just needs to keep his head in the game. Think about the play, not what-ifs. Win the face off and wipe that smug grin off Rozanov’s face.
The referee, Hal, raises his arm. “Welcome back for another season. Play nice, you hear me? That means you, Roz.”
Rozanov winks up at him, and Scott nods, determined.
“Showtime, guys,” Hal says as he lifts the puck.
“They heard your knees creak in cheap seats, Hunter,” Rozanov chirps as it drops. “What are you on, knee replacement number ten?”
Scott freezes.
What the fuck? Nothing about cocksucking? No slurs? No digs at Kip?\
A fraction of a second too late, Scott chases the puck down the ice, not bothering to waste his breath with useless swears.
Throughout the rest of the game, Rozanov keeps chirping. But all his jabs are still about Scott’s age. Well, he gets in one about how New York City always smells like pee, which actually startles a laugh out of Scott. But the rest are bafflingly predictable. Does Hunter have a spot reserved yet in the nursing home? Rozanov is hearing from his grandma they go fast. Is Hunter getting tired? It must be past his bedtime already.
With two minutes left, Scott fumbles a pass, and Rozanov shouts delightedly, “How did you miss that? Does your boyfriend know he is dating blind old man?”
It’s the first time Rozanov has mentioned Kip at all during the entire game. And, as Scott watches Jalo pancake Rozanov into the boards, he can’t find a single homophobic insinuation in it.
The game ends 5-7 Bears.
As he lines up for the good game handshakes, Scott repeatedly tells himself that decking the rival captain would be unsportsmanlike. Everyone would think he’s just a sore loser. Still,when Rozanov flashes him a knowing smile, Scott comes too damn close to losing it.
Two hours later, Scott is sitting with Kip at Kingfisher, mostly over the loss but not over Rozanov’s weird behavior.
“Okay,” Kip says slowly as he spins his half-gone whiskey sour between his hands, “So you’re mad that he didn’t say anything mind-blowingly offensive?”
Scott huffs out an annoyed breath. “Obviously not. I’m annoyed because I can’t figure out what he’s up to.”
“Who says he’s up to anything?” Kip asks, his tone horribly reasonable.
Scott scowls. “It’s Rozanov. He’s made it his professional goal to be the top chirper in the league. He once brought up Carter’s second cousin in a chirp.”
“The yoga influencer?”
Scott nods. “She’s… bendy.”
Kip rolls his eyes. “Babe, I think you’re overthinking this.”
“I’m not,” Scott says stubbornly.
Kip laughs. “Actually, I’m pretty sure you are. Because I can tell you’re not going to let this go until you get to the bottom of it, even though Rozanov is not worth it.”
“But –”
“And we both know he’s not worth it.”
“No, but –”
“See?” Kip says, laughing. “He wants you to get all up in your head about it. And you’re letting him.”
“I’m not letting Rozanov do jack shit,” Scott says, offended.
Kip just throws him a fond look as he leans in to kiss Scott on the cheek. “How about we head home, and I make you forget all about Ilya Rozanov?”
Scott actually hesitates, torn between winning the argument and succumbing to Kip’s admittedly superior plan.
“Oh my god, seriously?” Kip demands, incredulous.
“What? No, we’re going. We’re going!” Scott says as he jumps to his feet and drains the last of his beer.
“That’s what I thought,” Kip says smugly on their way out.
* * *
The Admirals barely won yesterday’s away game, 3-2, against the Bears, and both teams had some pretty embarrassing fumbles. Carter whiffed the first play at the last second for some inexplicable reason. The Bears’ right wing got into it with Breezy, and they both got stuck in the sin bin for too fucking long.
The second period didn’t fare much better.
The only saving grace was that Gillis scored a great, clean goal in the third period, and they didn’t have to slog through overtime.
Thank god today is a rest day. Scott has zero plans, except to make Kip breakfast in bed. Scott loves his boyfriend, but Kip could sleep through an air raid siren, especially after a late night at Kingfisher, which is where they ended up after the game. Scott, though, has always been an early riser. Up with the sun, and all that.
He puts on ESPN, letting it drone on quietly in the background as he pulls out bowls and a whisk.
Scott only looks up as the coverage moves on to a recap of last night’s hockey game and a post-game interview with the Bears’ captain. Sighing, Scott increases the volume to catch the tail end of a reporter’s question: “... your second game against the Admirals, a win and a loss. Do you think the Admirals have lost their edge after the bombshell of a Stanley Cup finale?”
Scott’s jaw clenches, his temper spiking with a sadly familiar irritation. What complete bullshit. Scott is the exact same captain as he was before he pulled Kip onto the ice. If anything, he’s a better leader without that metric ton of fear and stress on his shoulders he carried for years.
Also, would it kill Rozanov to wear a shirt for a single post-game interview?
On the screen, Rozanov just shrugs. “Could have been that. Could have been many things. Maybe Scott Hunter didn’t buy his special smoothie this morning. Who can say?”
The whisk pauses as Scott stares, open-mouthed, at the television. How the hell does Rozanov know about his blueberry smoothie?
The reporter isn’t done: “What do you have to say to the players who doubt Scott’s capability to lead his team now?”
Rozanov’s eyes narrow as he looks directly into the camera. “I say, Admirals’ management holds the old man’s contract.” He waves his hand dismissively. “If you have issue with senior citizens out there playing full contact sport, breaking hips, that is not my problem. Not my team.”
Despite himself, Scott smirks. That’s definitely not what the reporter was getting at.
“No,” the reporter says hurriedly, “I meant –”
Rozanov makes a scoffing noise in the back of his throat. “Hunter has not scored any goals in last three games. Did you notice that? Much more interesting hockey topic than this, if you insist on talking about Hunter and not how me and my team won the game.”
Scott glares at the television. Just when he thought Rozanov could be a quarter of the way decent. Scott had seven goddamned assists in those three games! Just because he wasn’t the one to personally shoot it into the net didn’t mean he was going through any sort of dry spell.
Fucker.
* * *
Another season, another All-Stars game.
“Hunter! And boyfriend!”
Scott’s shoulders are hunching by his ears before he even registers the source of the accented voice.
“Oh, hi?” Kip says confusedly, turning to greet Rozanov, who should be looking ridiculous in an orange, surf-themed Hawaiian shirt. Annoyingly, he somehow pulls it off. The Eastern Orthodox cross on his chest glints in the overhead lights from the hotel chandelier twinkling overhead.
“Don’t call him, ‘boyfriend’,” Scott grumbles. “He has a name, you know.”
Rozanov adopts an innocent expression that fools absolutely no one. “What should I call you? Mr. Grady?”
Scott scoffs. Even when Rozanov was a rookie, and Scott was the top scorer in the league and new captain of one of the most promising teams in the division, Rozanov never called Scott mister anything. No, it was always “Hunter” if he was feeling generous or “old man” if he was feeling like his usual asshole self.
Rozanov turns to Kip, eyebrows rising. “Do you want to be called Mr. Grady?”
Kip laughs. “God no.”
“Really, Rozanov?” Scott despairs.
Rozanov crosses his arms over his chest. “Or just Grady?”
Kip grimaces. “That makes me sound like a hockey player.”
“And you are not hockey player,” Rozanov agrees.
“He could be, if he wanted to!” Scott butts in before the sheer stupidity of the thought catches up with him. He flushes a dull red. God, this is what Rozanov does to him. At least Kip already knows Scott’s a little bit of an idiot when he gets riled up.
Kip pats his shoulder, and it feels awfully like pity.
Ugh, fuck Rozanov, who is still speaking to them. “Kip will need a good teacher,” Rozanov says seriously. “Not a dinosaur who will only teach him old-timers hockey.”
“And, let me guess, that’d be you?” Kip says, eyebrows rising. Scott can tell from the way his mouth is twitching that he’s fighting the urge to laugh.
“No,” Rozanov shakes his head, “I am a professional hockey player. I do not have time. You should ask Hunter. He is going to retire soon, Да? Will have plenty of free time if his knees don’t break first.”
Jesus Christ.
Kip gives up his battle, dissolving into giggles.
“Are you done?” Scott gripes, bristling like an angry cat and unable to do anything about it.
“Are you?” Rozanov shoots back.
“I’m not retiring.”
Rozanov sighs with mock-sorrow. “So you will just die next season, then?”
As Scott opens his mouth to retort, Kip says loudly, “You can call me Kip.”
“Hello, Kip,” Rozanov says over Scott’s indignant splutters. “If you get tired of prune juice and early bird specials, let me know. I can hook you up.”
“You can? With who?” Scott demands, outraged, as he takes a small step in front of Kip, half shielding him with his body. How dare Rozanov. What exactly he’s daring to do is still unclear but –
“Rozanov!”
They all turn to see Shane Hollander jogging towards them. “What the hell? You were supposed to be at the restaurant twelve minutes ago for the Foundation meeting.”
“Look who I found,” Rozanov says proudly, gesturing to Kip and Scott.
“Congratulations,” Hollander says flatly. He gives Scott and Kip a stiff nod in greeting before turning back to Rozanov. He does a double take. “What the hell are you wearing?”
Rozanov plucks the offending orange fabric between two fingers. “A shirt? Why? What is wrong with it?”
“Other than everything?” Hollander says, eyebrows raised. “You realize this year we’re in Chicago and not Tampa, right? It’s not exactly aloha shirt weather out there.”
“Hawaiian shirt is lucky shirt for All-Stars.” Rozanov leers at him as Hollander opens his mouth to retort back. “Last year was very lucky All-Stars for me, you see.”
Scott grimaces. Nobody really cares about the All-Stars outcome; a quarter of the guys try to get out of it, anyway, just to have the weekend off. Judging by Rozanov’s waggling eyebrows, he must not be talking about a score on the ice.
“Shut up.” Hollander shakes his head, the corners of his mouth twitching. “After this, you’re never giving me grief for my wardrobe choices ever again.”
“‘Give grief’?” Rozanov repeats, sounding the words out slowly. “Yes, this is good phrase. Your clothes do make me feel like someone died, yes.”
“Oh my god,” Hollander mutters. “I don’t know why I even try.”
“It is good you don’t,” Rozanov says cheerfully. “I give thanks before every Foundation press event for your stylist.”
“You have a stylist?” Kip interrupts.
Hollander turns to him, going a bit red. “Uh, yeah,” he says, embarrassed. “Rose recommended someone to me, and it just worked out, I guess.”
Scott blinks. That’s right; Hollander dated Rose Landry for a hot second last year.
“Are they taking new clients?” Kip asks.
“I’m not sure,” Hollander says, a little taken aback by Kip’s enthusiasm. “But I can ask? Leah’s been great.”
Kip beams at him. “I’ve been telling Scott for ages that he could branch out a little bit – not that I don’t love you in those black suits!” he says reassuringly. “But there are so many more options out there you know?”
Scott’s stomach sinks.
Rozanov looks like the Stanley Cup just fell into his lap.
“I’m gonna go get us checked in,” Scott says gruffly before Rozanov can get one more word out.
Kip catches up to him just as the receptionist is handing over the keycards. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. Rozanov is hilarious.”
Scott glares. “You take that back.”
“Come on, I’ve watched your games. You have laughed at his chirps, just when he can’t see.”
Scott takes off for the elevators, hiking his backpack higher on his shoulder. “You can’t prove anything.”
Kip grins. “I mean, I don’t blame you for not wanting to give him the satisfaction. But props to him for not saying anything offensive or weird about us.”
“That’s a low bar,” Scott says, internally cringing at how weak his argument is.
Kip’s eyebrows rise as the elevator dings. “One the majority of hockey players have not met.”
Scott sighs as the doors close behind them. “So he’s not a complete jackass. So what?”
“So,” Kip says, “I think he actually likes you.”
“What?”
Kip purses his lips. “He called us over, right?”
“Uh huh,” Scott says, not sure at all where Kip is going with this.
“At All-Stars, where the who’s who of hockey is gathered in one hotel,” Kip says slowly. “Hell, he was meeting Shane Hollander.”
“Yeah, they have that charity together.”
Kip waves off his protest. “What I mean is, anyone could have walked past us, overheard us.”
“Yeah?” Scott says, still nonplussed.
The elevator doors open at the 11th floor, and Scott squints down at the keycard holder with 1126 written in a loopy penmanship.
Kip hums. “It was a very public space.”
“So?”
“It’s like you’re being purposefully dense,” Kip teases. “All I’m saying is Rozanov deliberately had a loud conversation with us in the middle of a crowded entryway while literally anybody could have seen him being friendly with us.” Kip’s tone turns serious. “Every other time some hockey player wanted to express support, they pulled you aside, right? Or privately texted you? And none have talked to me too, except for Carter and Huff, of course.”
Shit.
“Some guys Tweeted their support,” Scott says through gritted teeth. He slaps the key against the door with much more force than necessary.
Kip rolls his eyes. “But you get what I’m saying, babe?”
Scott lets the door fall closed behind them. “I do,” he says slowly. “But, really, of all people Rozanov is the loudest ally? Are you shitting me?”
Kip runs over to the king-sized bed and hops on it. “I’d much rather have him on our side than Team Homophobe.”
Scott makes a face. Enough talking about Rozanov. The first event isn’t until four pm, so they have two hours before Scott has to be at the rink, and he has plenty of ideas about what to do in the meantime, and absolutely zero of them have to do with Ilya Rozanov.
* * *
Boston. Why, of all places, did Kip want to go to Boston?
Yes, it has the Freedom Trail. Yes, it has some of the best museums in the country. But Philadelphia is right there – or Washington, DC. Hell, Scott would rather do a weekend getaway in New Jersey. At least Jersey’s a NJ Transit stop away from NYC.
Boston, with its four-hour drive, might as well be on the fucking moon.
But this is what Kip wants to do for his Spring Break, so to Boston they go, especially since, remarkably, Scott has two days free from games. He has to hustle back to New York late Tuesday night, but he’ll make it work.
“I hate Boston,” Scott says as they leave The Paul Revere House.
Kip tugs him closer. “I know, baby.”
“Why is it still so cold? It’s April!”
“It’s only 16 degrees warmer in New York,” Kip says. “Really, I don’t know why you hate Boston so much. It’s really not a bad city.”
“I don’t get why you don’t hate it,” Scott grumbles. “You’re a real New Yorker –”
“So are you.”
Scott throws him a look, and Kip’s eyes twinkle. He knows Kip’s true feelings about people from upstate calling themselves New Yorkers; even though Scott is clearly from New York. It’s right there on his driver’s license. But Kip loves him, so he keeps that kind of talk to a minimum.
Scott complains, “Aren’t New Yorkers supposed to hate Boston?”
Kip laughs. “That’s more about baseball than anything else. Just don’t root for the Red Sox around my dad, or you’ll be sleeping on the stoop for the rest of the night. In 2004, I think he had a nervous breakdown after the curse broke.”
Scott sighs. “I’m gonna have a nervous breakdown if the Bears make it to the playoffs over us.”
“It’s looking good for them, right?” Kip says as they wait at the next light to cross.
“Mm hm,” Scott agrees. “They’re playing the Voyageurs tomorrow. Should be neck-and-neck.”
“Do you want to go?”
Scott shakes his head. “This weekend is supposed to be about you, Kip.” Scott pulls him even closer and presses a kiss to his stubbly cheek. “Two hockey-free days.”
Kip shrugs. “I could do some hockey. After dragging you all the way to your least-favorite city in America.”
“You’re sweet,” Scott says as they head into the car Scott ordered to take them to dinner at a trendy place Elena recommended. The portions are tiny but delicious. As Scott quietly starves over five courses, at least Kip seems to be having a good time.
“Okay,” Scott says as they hover in the tiny plastic entryway after they’d paid and bundled up in their heavy coats. “I’m, uh, still hungry.”
Kip looks up from his phone. “Oh my god, me too.” He reaches up to kiss Scott squarely on the mouth. “I love Elena, but she eats like a bird sometimes.”
“Don’t hate me –”
“I would never.”
“But there’s a sports bar around the corner? And it looks like the Buffalo-Edmonton game is just starting.”
Kip laughs loudly. “So much for a hockey-free weekend, Hunter.”
“We don’t have to go!” Scott says at once. “If you want to go somewhere else, anywhere else, we can!”
“No, you will literally combust if you don’t see a hockey puck within 48 hours,” Kip teases.
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be,” Kip says as he pushes open the plastic door onto the street. “I know what I got into when I fell in love with you.” The Boston wind hits them like an icy slap to the face, and Scott swears loudly.
Smithfield Bar is raucous, smells like stale beer, and, for some reason, still has St. Patrick’s Day decor up. They take a pair of stools by the bar, and Scott avoids making eye contact with the aggressively large leprechaun leering down at them among the top shelf liquor.
He grabs a Stella for himself, a whiskey sour for Kip, and a plate of fries for them to share. They settle in, and when Buffalo scores the first goal, Scott gives a whoop. He might captain the Admirals now, but Buffalo was his team growing up. Plus, his guys aren’t around to rib him for rooting for one of their conference rivals.
By the end of the second period, Buffalo is leading 5-0, and it’s looking to be an embarrassing shutout for Edmonton. Scott grabs Kip and kisses him square on the mouth.
“What the hell was that play?” he demands, pointing as the replay shows on the nearest screen. “I had no idea Morris had it in him!”
On the next stool over, the guy grumbles, “Figures the fag doesn’t know shit about hockey.”
Scott whips around as, next to him, Kip freezes. “Excuse me?” he says, his voice deadly even.
The guy eyes Scott up and down, sizing him up. The barfly’s decently built, but, as a professional athlete in a high contact sport, Scott could definitely take him. Easily.
Evidently the guy is too drunk or too stupid to come to the same conclusion. “I said, shut up, and let the rest of us enjoy the game in peace. Nobody wants to see that,” he says, his gaze darting derisively between Scott and Kip.
Scott glances back at Kip, who seems pretty torn between letting his boyfriend wail on the homophobe and ignoring him.
The bartender clears his throat. “Come on, Rich. They’re payin’ customers, just like you.”
Rich, apparently a regular, just grunts in response.
Still rankled, Scott sits back on his stool. It really wouldn’t be a good look if it got out that the Captain of the Admirals beat up a random guy at a sports bar in Boston. And this isn’t Scott’s crowd; he isn’t at Kingfisher, among friends. Who knows how the rest of the bar would react? As long as Rich shuts up and lets the rest of them enjoy the game in peace, Scott won’t have a problem with him.
But then –
“Pussies.”
Okay, that’s fucking it – Scott leaps to his feet, but a hand on his shoulder holds him back. He turns, about to tell Kip to let him handle this, when someone – who is distinctly not his boyfriend – says, “We have problem here?”
Fucking hell.
Rich’s eyes go wide. “You’re Ilya Rozanov!”
“Is me,” Rozanov says good-naturedly, but his eyes are as cold as ice.
Scott shrugs off Rozanov’s touch. “I was handling it,” he says stiffly.
“Oh, I am sure you were,” Rozanov says, his tone still light. “But this is my city, my people. And us Bostonians, we do not always fight fair, no. Not like uptight New Yorkers like you.” His expression hardens as he moves to stand shoulder-to-shoulder with Scott, and Scott can tell he’s gearing up for a very unfair fight indeed if the idiot doesn’t back down.
Kip laughs loudly.
Rich flinches.
“I see you have not recognized my ancient friend here,” Rozanov continues. “So let me introduce you. This is Scott Hunter –”
Rich’s eyes impossibly widen further.
“He is captain of pretty good hockey team,” Rozanov says. “Not sure if you have heard of them, though.”
Scott rolls his eyes. Trust Rozanov to be a fucking asshole off the ice too. He coughs. “I think he gets the picture.”
“I do not think he does,” Rozanov says, his words as sharp as glass shards. “Because I am also captain of pretty good hockey team – best, actually – and if any of them said what you did, I make them do bag skates until their feet fall off.”
“Jesus, Rozanov,” Scott mutters. “Really?”
Rozanov shrugs. “Management would be annoying if I punched out their lightbulbs instead.”
Behind them, Kip suggests, “You could make it look like an accident.”
Rozanov twists around to see him properly. “Too much work for me. Much rather make them better players and suffer at same time.”
Scott smiles. “Not a bad strategy.”
“Best strategy,” Rozanov corrects, puffing out his chest.
“Oh my god,” a familiar voice says, “I leave you alone for two minutes, and you’re already getting into it with Scott Hunter?”
They all turn to see Shane Hollander making his way towards them.
“You’re in Boston too?” Kip says, surprised.
“Somebody’s got to kick this guy’s ass tomorrow,” Hollander says as he elbows Rozanov in the ribs. Rozanov dances away, scowling.
“No fucking way,” Rozanov argues at once. “If anybody’s ass is –”
Loudly, Hollander cuts him off, “What are you doing in Boston? You’re not here to see the game, are you?”
Kip explains, “Spring Break.”
“Sounds like fun?” Hollander says dubiously. “It’s barely spring out there, though.”
“That’s what I keep saying,” Scott says miserably.
“The power went out in Ilya’s building, so we came to watch the game here where there’s actual heat,” Hollander says, jerking his head towards the screen, where the third period has already started in earnest. “Want to join us?” he asks.
“Oh,” Scott says with a glance at Kip, who shrugs. He looks to Rozanov next, who actually doesn’t look put out at the idea of spending the next forty-five minutes together to wrap the third period and watch the post-game analysis. “Sure.” He turns around to grab his half-empty beer, noting the empty stool next to his. “Where’d that guy go?”
“He fled like scared little mouse as soon as he saw Hollander,” Rozanov says gleefully.
“Who?” Hollander asks as they weave through the tables to a booth along the back wall.
“A homophobe,” Kip explains with a grimace.
“Oh,” Hollander says, his eyes narrowing. He turns to Rozanov. “Did you punch him?”
Scott blinks as Kip lets out a surprised bark of laughter. That’s Hollander’s first question? Apparently Rozanov’s allyship is more widely known than Scott thought? Or maybe Rozanov and Hollander are just better friends than he thought. After all, they are hanging out the night before a big game where they will face-off for a spot in the playoffs.
“Why do you look to me like that?” Rozanov demands, full of over-the-top offense. “Hunter is right there!”
“Hunter has gotten into three fights this whole season,” Hollander says dryly. “You got into three fights during your last game.”
“Is exaggeration,” Rozanov protests as they sit down.
“Fine. Hunter, what was it?” Hollander asks. “Two fights, right? I was rounding up.”
“Oh my god,” Rozanov groans. “I am surrounded by most boring hockey players in the league.” He turns to Kip. “You, you seem more exciting. Entertain me.”
“Afraid not,” Kip says sympathetically. “All I’ve done is drag Scott from museum to museum. We did the Paul Revere House this afternoon.”
Rozanov lights up, and Scott inwardly groans. “Ah, looking to relive your childhood, Hunter? Missing the old days before electricity and inside plumbing, eh?”
* * *
To Scott’s infinite irritation and dismay, Kip and Rozanov strike up a friendship after that night in Boston. He’ll hear Kip giggling at his phone, see him lean over the bar to show his screen to Kyle, and then watch as he begrudgingly shows Scott too.
“It’s just because you get in a mood if you know I’m talking to Ilya,” Kip says apologetically after it happens for the fifth time that night.
“I don’t get in a - a ‘mood’!” Scott splutters. Fucking… Ilya.
Kip just raises his eyebrows and sips his whiskey sour.
Scott grimaces. “Really?” he huffs out an angry breath. “Of all the guys in the NHL, you had to befriend the one who regularly calls me a dinosaur?”
“Well, yeah,” Kip says like it’s obvious. “Much better than the guys who regularly call you a cocksucker.”
Scott just grunts in response.
“Hey,” Kip says gently, pitching his voice just loud enough to be heard over the music but not loud enough to be overheard. “If it really bothers you, I can stop. But, I have a theory why Rozanov keeps calling you an old man.”
“Because he’s an asshole?” Scott grumbles.
Kip grins. “Oh, sure. But mostly, I think he sticks to it because he knows you’re not that sensitive about it.”
Scott frowns.
Kip sips his whiskey sour. “Rozanov is observant. You’ve said so yourself. He notices everything on the ice, and a decent amount off it.”
Scott just hums.
“If he wanted to poke you where it really hurt, he could,” Kip says seriously. “He’s still never brought up our relationship or your sexuality in his chirps, has he?”
“No,” Scott says begrudgingly.
Kip waves his hand as if saying, there you go.
“I still don’t like him,” Scott says firmly as he takes a bracing pull of his beer.
“Literally nobody is asking you to,” Kip says with a little grin. “But you know me, I can’t resist a messy gay.”
Scott chokes. “Rozanov is not gay.”
Kip just stares at him.
“He’s not!” Scott struggles to find the right words. “He’s just… European.”
Kip has to muffle his loud laughter into Scott’s shoulder. “Sweetheart, I love you, but your gaydar is shit.”
“He’s not gay!” Scott protests. “He’s slept with, like, half the single women in Boston. And a decent amount of the married ones too, if you believe the rumors.”
“Fine,” Kip acknowledges, “he’s bi, then.”
Scott just shakes his head as he takes a long pull of his beer.
“You’ve really never gotten that vibe from him?” Kip asks curiously.
“No.”
Kip studies him for a long moment. “Bet.”
Scott barks out a laugh. “Excuse me?”
“I bet that Rozanov isn’t as straight as you think,” Kip says confidently.
Scott throws back the rest of his drink. “And what will I get if I win?”
Kip leans in. “I’ll let you buy me that lingerie set and wear it under my clothes at your next game.”
Scott goes furiously red in an instant. “Really?” he breathes.
“Mm hm.”
He pulls back, frowning. “And what do you get if you win?”
Kip taps his chin in thought. “Another daytrip to the Met.”
As Scott theatrically groans, Kip leans in close. “Don’t worry,” he murmurs, his warm breath ghosting against the shell of Scott’s ear. “I’ll wear it there too.”
Scott slaps a hundred dollar bill on the table for their drink and drags a giggling Kip out of the bar. He has lingerie to buy and a genius boyfriend to fuck within an inch of his life.
* * *
Scott shakes Shane’s hand, saying, “Good game, Hollander.”
Shane makes a face, but he shakes Scott’s hand anyway with a forced smile.
The Admirals are heading to the next round in the playoffs, and the Voyageurs aren’t. That has to sting, but Shane doesn’t look nearly as annoyed at the results than he had when he rushed onto the ice, fifteen minutes late for warm ups.
He had to know this was a likely outcome, with Pike out with an ankle injury, and Drapeau freshly back from tendon surgery.
“Hey,” Scott says as he skates back to the front of the line while his teammates boisterously troop back to the locker room. “A couple of us are heading to Kingfisher after. Do you want to come?”
Scott had a decent time hanging with Shane at that sports bar in Boston. It was basically the first time he’d ever seen Shane loosen up, even though he only drank two ginger ales and had a single sip of vodka that Rozanov insisted on ordering for him. The kid had a crazy high hockey IQ that Scott wouldn’t mind poking at more.
Shane blinks. “Sure? I’ll ask Ilya if he wants to go, if that’s OK.”
Scott doesn’t bother hiding his frown at Rozanov’s name. “He’s here too?”
Shane grins and his eyes crinkle at the corners. “We knocked the Bears out of the playoffs two weeks ago, so I told him to mope around New York instead of moping around Boston for a change.”
Scott grins back. Maybe the loss knocked Rozanov down a peg – but Scott isn’t too hopeful. “Yeah, bring him. I can rub the win in his face too.”
“Only you two,” Shane mutters as he stakes off.
Scott, Carter, Huff, and Kip all troop down the street to the F train, since a car would only get stuck in post-game gridlock traffic all the way to 23rd Street for the next hour.
They gamely sign autographs for fans in the subway and pose for selfies until they have to resurface to street level.
Kingfisher patrons all cheer as they walk in, and there is truly no greater feeling in the universe, fresh off a playoff win, his boyfriend plastered to his side, surrounded by his friends.
When Rozanov and Shane arrive, Scott is already two drinks in and chatting loudly with Elena, Kyle, Carter, and Kip at the bar.
“Drinks are on me for the losing team captains,” Scott crows.
Rozanov crosses his arms over his chest, scoffing, “Big words for drunk gay man.”
Their whole group goes quiet at Rozanov’s threat. Scott sits up on his stool and places one foot on the floor, ready to toss him out onto the street if he needs to. “Hey,” he says in warning, his eyes flashing. “Don’t do that here.”
The entire bar seems to hold its breath.
“Is okay,” Rozanov says as he slings an arm around Shane. “My boyfriend is also gay man. But he will need several drinks before he can fight you again.”
Scott trips on nothing. Kip snorts into his drink, and Kyle’s mouth falls open. Carter’s eyes have gone as big as the coaster under his beer glass.
Scott’s eyes dart between Shane and Rozanov. Rozanov, sure, he could totally see him pulling a gigantic lie out of his ass like that to fuck with all of them. But Shane, Shane’s a good Canadian boy. Never bad-mouths another team, if he can help it. Never puts down other players or captains, Rozanov being the notable exception. Doesn’t lie, from what Scott can tell from his numerous interviews.
Shane opens his mouth – “I’m not going to fight you,” he tells Scott in a very put-upon voice. “Obviously.”
Not a denial about the gay thing.
Rozanov, for his part, looks absolutely thrilled at their reactions. He watches eagerly as Scott awkwardly rights himself and retakes his barstool.
Shane turns to Kyle, who has managed to pick his jaw up off the floor. “A ginger ale and whatever your most expensive vodka is for this asshole over here,” Shane says. “And he will be paying.”
“No! Hunter just said it is free!”
“I’d be shocked if it was still free for sore losers.”
“Who is sore loser here?” Rozanov demands, his eyes fucking twinkling. “If anything you are sore loser after last –”
“Absolutely not,” Shane cuts him off severely, and Rozanov’s mouth snaps shut. “Do not go there.”
“Holy shit,” Carter breathes. “Ilya Rozanov, whipped. I never thought I’d see the day.”
“If anyone could do it, it’s Hollander,” Huff calls from a nearby booth.
Rozanov rounds on them. “I am not whipped.”
“Oh yeah?” Scott challenges, enjoying himself now. “You wanna finish that earlier thought?”
Rozanov turns back to Shane, who just shakes his head. With his mouth set in a mulish grimace, Rozanov knocks back the double vodka Kyle just set down in front of him.
Scott just loses it, ugly cackling like there’s no tomorrow.
Eventually, the shock dies down, and everyone resumes their conversations. Scott finds himself next to Rozanov and Shane after Kip gets up to use the restroom. “Okay,” he says. “I have to ask, how did this happen?”
Rozanov glances at Shane, and Scott truly would never believe Rozanov would ever defer to his career rival about anything, except he’s seeing it in front of his very eyes. “Many years ago,” he says quietly.
“Holy shit. Before All-Stars – last year’s All-Stars?” Scott amends.
“Way before,” Rozanov supplies as Shane just nods.
“Ilya talked me into coming here tonight,” Shane says as he spins his Canada Dry between his hands. “He’s been texting Kip for a while, and obviously you’re a good guy, so I knew it would probably be fine. But we’re not ready to do anything official yet,” he says. “This is just… testing the waters.”
“Well, you’re in good company,” Scott says bracingly. “Don’t worry. I’ll text Huff and Carter that this doesn’t get out to the rest of the guys.”
“Please,” Shane says.
Rozanov bumps shoulders with Shane. “I told you it would be alright, котёнок.”
Shane shrugs. “You know me.”
“You worry too much.”
“I do.”
Scott blinks. “I think this is the longest I’ve seen you guys talk without fighting.”
Rozanov grins. “It will not last.”
Shane mutters, “Because you have a pathological need to bait everyone around you.”
“Bait? I do not bait! I just point out totally true facts. Is not my fault my English is not good enough for –” he frowns before he snaps his fingers, “nuance.”
“Uh huh,” Shane says, a small smile playing around his mouth. “But you’re fluent enough to chirp Scott about the details of hip dysplasia.”
Rozanov just laughs. “You are just jealous because your chirps are so boring.”
“I don’t need to chirp,” Shane sniffs. “My playing speaks for itself. Unlike some people’s.”
“Boo,” Rozanov jeers. “You just do not know how to have fun at hockey games. So boring, Hollander.”
Shane rolls his eyes.
“Ilya!”
Rozanov leans back to see Kip waving from the other end of the bar. “Elena actually wants to hear about your ridiculous car collection. What’s the newest one you bought, again?”
Rozanov hops up from his seat like someone lit a fire under his ass, grinning broadly. He takes one step, rethinks it, does a u-turn, presses a kiss to Shane’s cheek, and finally leaves them for Kip, Elena, and Huff.
“Never tell him this,” Scott says in an undertone, “but I think you guys are cute together.”
Shane laughs. “That’s what my mom said after she got over the shock.”
“He’s met your parents?”
“Yeah,” Shane says, smiling at the memory. “After, he said he could see where I get my boring from. He likes my mom, though. But I think that’s just ’cause he’s a little scared of her.”
“Does he call you boring a lot?” Scott asks.
Shane laughs. “Just about as often as he calls you old.”
Scott leans back in his seat, thoughtfully surveying Rozanov down at the other end of the bar. “So all the time, then.”
“All the time,” Shane echoes with a grin. “But it doesn’t mean anything. Not really. He admires you, you know?”
Scott guffaws. “What? Rozanov, admire me?” he says, incredulous. “Why don’t you pull the other one.”
Shane shakes his head. “When you came out, it changed things for us.”
Scott blinks. Shane did send him that long, very stilted email the day after he came out. Scott figured Hollander did it because he’s a good Canadian boy, and that is what good Canadian boys did. But, sitting in front of Shane now, in a gay bar in New York, that email probably has a lot more between the lines that Scott didn’t pick up on.
Shane stares down at the can of Canada Dry ginger ale between his hands. “We wouldn’t be coming out to anyone, if you didn’t do it first. So, thank you.”
“You’re welcome,” Scott says, and the words don’t convey nearly enough weight for all that Shane is telling him.
They each take a drink, and Shane’s shoulders lose some of the tension they’d been carrying ever since Rozanov dropped the ‘boyfriend’ bomb.
“After you gave that Sports Illustrated interview about coming out,” Shane lowers his voice conspiratorially, “Ilya bought it the next day. Read it twice.”
Scott cracks a disbelieving grin. “You’re kidding.”
“No,” Shane says, shaking his head. “He said it was to improve his English, but then I caught him trying to make that blueberry smoothie you mentioned.”
Scott doubles over laughing.
Shane sits back in his seat, looking incredibly satisfied with himself.
Scott calls, “Rozanov!”
Rozanov’s head pops up from where he’s huddled with Kyle, Kip, and Elena. “What?” he asks, looking disgruntled at the interruption.
“What’s this I hear about you reading all my interviews? And trying to make my smoothie?”
“What?” Rozanov yelps. “Shane!” he points a finger, looking utterly betrayed as Kip howls with laughter.
Shane raises his eyebrows and lifts his glass in a toast. “You shouldn’t have made me late for warm ups, asshole. I told you, you’d regret it.”
“Wait,” Kip says as he taps Rozanov’s bicep to get his attention. “Is this why you asked how many bananas go into Blue Moon Over Brooklyn as soon as you got my number?”
Rozanov remains haughtily silent.
Scott has never laughed this hard in his life. Holy shit, he is never going to let Rozanov forget a second of this moment. “Hey, Rozy, I’ll,” he forces out as he gasps for air, “autograph your Sports Illustrated next time I head up to Boston. Anything,” he snickers, “for a fan!”
“I hate you all,” Rozanov declares as he gets up to make his way towards them with a fresh glass of vodka.
Scott says, “I don’t know how you do it. With him.”
“He can be surprisingly sweet,” Shane explains, ducking his head.
“Is that before or after he calls you boring?”
Shane’s nose scrunches as he thinks. “Kinda in the middle?”
Rozanov arrives and leans in, squeezing into Shane’s personal space. “Is okay, you can keep talking about me.”
“We weren’t talking about you,” Shane denies at once.
Rozanov raises his eyebrows. “What were you talking about then? Bland New Yorker articles? Final question on last night’s Jeopardy?”
“There he goes again,” Scott sighs.
“What?”
“Scott just can’t believe my boyfriend calls me boring all the time,” Shane explains.
“Why? Is true?” Rozanov says, puzzled. “You are boring.” He leans in closer. “And beautiful – with beautiful freckles. And second best at hockey in all the league. And, yes, you have weak backhand, but I overlook this because you have the best ass in all of Canada.”
“Man,” Scott marvels as a blushing Shane dodges the messy kiss Rozanov is trying to press to his cheek, “you are like the king of mixed signals.”
Rozanov shrugs. “I keep things interesting.”
Kip appears at Scott’s elbow and quickly presses himself to Scott’s side. “You sure do, buddy.”
“Hunter, I need fresh air. You come with me,” Rozanov commands. “Kip, tell Shane how to make good smoothies. Shane’s taste like shit.”
“Hey –” Shane starts hotly as Scott protests, “You can’t just boss me around like that.”
Rozanov hums. “I will make it worth your while.”
Scott makes a face. “Gross. No thank you.”
“Not like that,” Rozanov drawls. “What a dirty mind you have, old man.” He turns to Kip, eyebrows raised, like are you hearing this too?
Kip just gives Scott a little push off the barstool. What a traitor.
Scott begrudgingly gets to his feet, telling Rozanov, “Just promise me you’re not going to shove me down a manhole because you’re out of the playoffs.”
“As if you need my help breaking all your fragile knees and hips,” Rozanov says imperiously. “Come.”
Shane opens his mouth. “No –”
“No cigarettes, yes,” Rozanov says impatiently as he ushers Scott out the door with his free hand not clutching his vodka, “I know, Hollander!”
Outside, Scott inhales a deep breath and shoves his hands in the pockets of his light jacket. Summer is coming late to New York.
“Your city still smells like piss,” Rozanov mutters as they lean against a waist-high cement planter full of mostly-alive plants.
Scott laughs. “Like Boston is any better.”
“At least Dunkin’ coffee smell covers it up.” Rozanov tilts his head upward, studying the star-less sky. Between the light pollution and the clouds, he can’t be looking at anything especially interesting.
“So… why exactly did you drag me over out here?” Scott asks as the seconds of silence tick on. “It can’t be just to badmouth my city.”
Rozanov exhales a deep breath. “Wanted to explain myself. About that magazine.”
Scott rolls his eyes. “It’s not that embarrassing,” he blatantly lies. “Now that I know you’re… you.”
“Look,” Rozanov says seriously, “I read your stupid interview because I wanted to see what you had with Kip. Know what I was missing out on, what could be possible with Shane.”
Oh, fuck. What the hell does Scott say to that?
But luckily Rozanov isn’t done. “Because I want to share stupid things about my lover – probably not his disgusting smoothies since you already did this – but,” he sighs heavily, and Scott, to his horror, actually starts to feel a twinge of sympathy for him, “I can’t tell anybody how he only wears one brand of socks. How he can do terrifying wolfbird call.” He takes another pull from his vodka. “How hockey is his life and how hockey does not give enough back.”
Scott swallows. Jesus, why did he leave his own drink at the bar? “Do you have any plans to come out?”
The corners of Rozanov’s mouth curl in a sly smile over the rim of his glass. “I knew you were not as stupid as you look.”
“Rozanov.”
He holds up his free hand in a gesture of surrender. “Fine, fine. I will play nice,” he says, nearly gagging on the last two words. “But yes, we do have plan. Between Yuna and Shane, it has too many steps, but we have plan.”
Scott exhales a slow breath. “I had a plan too.”
“Yes, yes, everyone and their brother saw that kiss,” Rozanov says impatiently. “Did not know you were such a drama queen.”
“Kissing him after the cup final was not the plan,” Scott says.
Rozanov straightens, his eyes bright and alert. “No?”
Scott shakes his head. “I was going to a press junket. Sports Illustrated, Men’s Health, and the like. Maybe a few late night shows.” He shrugs. “But you know what they say about best laid plans.”
“No? I do not?” Rozanov says, brow furrowing. “What is this?”
“Oh,” Scott blinks. “‘Best laid plans’ means that, no matter how well you prepare for something, things can still go off the rails.” He shrugs. “It did for me. After the cup win, when I was surrounded by everyone else’s wives and girlfriends – I just snapped. I couldn’t not celebrate with him, you know?”
Rozanov nods thoughtfully. “Yes, I can see that happening for me too.”
“Just, plans are good, but,” Scott runs a hand through his hair, “if they’re not working, don’t let them limit you.” He gestures to the bar through the front window. “It looks like you’ve got something special with him. Don’t let anyone, including yourselves, put up made up obstacles. God knows, coming out is hard enough without them.”
“Yes, he is very special,” Rozanov says quietly. “But there are many obstacles.”
Scott claps his hand to Rozanov’s shoulder and squeezes. “Come on, you’re a smart guy. You’ve got this. You just have to use that brain of yours for something other than chirping, for once.”
“Fuck that. I can do both.” Rozanov drains his glass. “Is not that easy to get rid of my chirps.”
Scott chuckles. “I figured as much, but an old man can dream.”
“Ha!” Rozanov exclaims, delighted. “You called yourself an old man. Is true!”
“Yeah, yeah, enjoy it now. It’s never happening again.”
Rozanov just laughs as he tugs Scott back inside Kingfisher, shouting, “Everybody listen up! Hunter just admitted he has two feet in the grave already!”
Established relationship au where eddie "dies" in the upside down and becomes kas and almost kills steve
ofc they get him out from under vecnas control and win, but Steve cant help but flinch away when eddie reaches for him after, instinctively afraid of the clawed hands that tried to rip his throat out 🫶
Steve can’t really blame Robin for forgetting her trumpet: they’ve been chatting the whole ride to school like normal, and Spring Break is fast approaching, excitement in the air—so infectious that Steve feels it too, like he’s still at school, like Robin’s anticipation is partly his own.
They barely stop talking for long enough to draw breath; it’s a surprise to them both when Hawkins High comes into view, and Robin has to take her seatbelt off in a hurry, climbing out and rushing through, “So yeah, I’ll keep you updated and—yeah, yeah, my work stuff’s in my bag, okay, see you later, loveyoubye!”
Steve realises the trumpet is still in the backseat as he’s pulling out of the parking lot. He stops, honks his horn, but it’s too late: Robin must’ve already gone inside. Several students look over at the noise, but no-one Steve really knows; Claudia is dropping Dustin off today, but he can’t see any trace of him, otherwise he would’ve…
He does another quick scan—spots one familiar face at the last second.
Yeah, he thinks, you’ll do.
He twists in his seat to pick up the trumpet case and opens the passenger door.
“Hey, Munson!” Eddie’s a couple feet away; it seems like he’s kicked the habit of hardly ever showing up to homeroom. He just looks at Steve, like he’s faintly baffled, so Steve feels the need to tack on, “It’s Steve. Steve Harrington?”
That does the trick: Eddie shakes his head as if Steve’s just said something completely pointless.
“Yeah, no shit.” He heads over to Steve’s car and cocks his head at the case. “Are you trying to uh, trade? I’m cash only, Harrington.”
“Ha ha,” Steve says flatly. “No, it’s—you know Robin, right? She’s in your year.” At Eddie’s blank look, he adds, “Robin Buckley,” trying not to sound judgemental. It’s just now that he knows her, he can’t imagine how it’s possible for anyone to not know her. It’s Robin.
Eddie glances at the case again; the penny must drop, because he says, “Oh. Yeah, duh, she’s the one in band? Fluent in, like, everything?”
Steve smiles. “That’s her.” He hands the case over. “Thanks, man, she’s gonna freak when she realises she doesn’t have it. They’re practicing for the game, so—”
“Swiftest of deliveries, got it,” Eddie says, and he actually manages a little salute while holding the trumpet case.
Steve almost laughs.
He doesn’t think any more on the exchange until he’s picking Robin up again. He’s temporarily locked Family Video—what Keith doesn’t know won’t hurt him. Thank God he’s out of town for Spring Break; Steve’s counting down the days. A whole week of just him and Robin, and whatever movies they want to throw on and enthuse about. He’s already picked out his choices, though he still needs to check if the store has them or if he should go through the tapes he’s got at home.
He brings out a notepad from the glovebox and scrawls a reminder to do just that before he sees Robin walking out of school, trumpet case swinging by her side.
She spots his car without him needing to use the horn—claps her free hand to her forehead, and he shakes his head, smiling. It’s a gesture they keep doing at each other, especially when making mistakes at work, getting more and more stupidly exaggerated each time. Then she switches to a thumbs up which Steve returns enthusiastically with both hands, as she opens the door to the backseat and puts the case back inside the car.
“Glad the delivery was successful,” he says, craning his neck to try and meet her eye.
“Yeah, it—” The clunk of the door being shut, soon followed by Robin opening the passenger door and sliding in, still talking, “—was all good, I just, um—ooh, you have gum in here! Great, thanks—what was I—? Oh yeah, I think I confused him?”
“You confused him?” Steve echoes with amusement: an incontrovertible fact of Hawkins High is Eddie Munson’s talent for confusing other people.
“I didn’t mean to! It’s just—okay so, he showed up, like, ten minutes into first period, but you know how Taylor’s stressing about the pronunciation of—basically Rebecca said fam-eel instead of fam-ee—”
“Quelle horreur,” Steve interjects wryly.
Robin snorts, then nods in approval. “Très bien, see, you sound great! But, like, poor Rebecca, she lost her shit—Miss Taylor, I mean, though Rebecca was—anyway, the point is Taylor’s so incredibly strict about talking in French the whole time. I mean, the whole time.”
“The whole time, got it,” Steve says as he reverses out the parking lot. “Wait, the whole time? What if—”
“Whatever you’re about to say, I guarantee you Taylor doesn’t care. Unless someone’s actually dying, and even then—”
“Okay, but what if there’s—like, what if someone’s gotta get pulled out of class—”
“No-one interrupts Miss Taylor,” Robin says gravely. “No-one has dared try.”
Steve starts to grin. “I see where this is—”
“So, Eddie Munson—Taylor always shuts the door but I see him coming, and he’s, like, looking through the window, and I’m trying to wave without being obvious about it so Taylor doesn’t murder me, and I guess I don’t do it great ‘cause he’s looking at me like…”
There’s a pause. Steve huffs a laugh, knowing that Robin’s probably doing a not all that faithful interpretation of what Eddie looked like.
“Rob,” Steve says patiently, managing a brief side glance, “I’m driving.”
“Right, okay, basically he looked like he thought I needed medical attention. And then he’s lifting up my trumpet case, and I’m trying to, like, signal with my eyes like, yay, great! Please just leave it outside the door if you wanna get out alive, but he doesn’t get it, so he knocks and Taylor. Just. Goes. Silent.”
“Ouch,” Steve says. He knows that type of silence well—thinks namely of Mr Mundy’s ire whenever he showed up late to math.
“And Eddie opens the door, and Taylor just speaks the most rapid French at him, and he basically does the world’s most startled mime act, like, pointing at the case then at me, and he’s got these eyes, Steve—”
“Woah, he has eyes? Hadn’t noticed.”
“—that are just begging you for help. And I’m trying to talk for him, in French, obviously, but I’m trying to widen my eyes like, dude, leave, but he just looks even more confused, but then it must click ‘cause he stammers out Bonjour, and Taylor’s staring him down, it’s so—”
“Sounds painful.”
“I mean, it was kinda worth it in the end.”
Steve chuckles. “Really? How?”
“A: I got my trumpet. And B…” There’s a giggle rising in Robin’s voice as she says, “Eddie Munson might not know much French, but he does know how to say Monsieur Harrington.”
“Bullshit, he didn’t say that.”
Silence, quickly broken by Robin’s hiccuping laughter—which, of course, means Steve starts laughing, too. Much later, he’ll recall just how much he smiled; how he told himself he didn’t quite know why.
“Wait, really?”
“Yes!” Robin says. It’s more of a squeak. “He even tried to make your name sound French, oh my God, I can’t breathe—”
“I mean, doesn’t it sound pretty French already?” Steve says, already planning how he can keep this going; maybe he’ll steal Robin’s beret when she isn’t looking. “Don’t I have that je ne sais quoi?”
“Oh, you are so corny, it’s unb—and don’t act like you don’t know it’s all anyone would talk about after, the whispers.” Robin’s voice rises comically. “Did he say Harrington? As in Steve, Steve Harrington? Oh, my cousin was in his year, he’s so—”
“Shut up,” Steve says fondly. Then, faux smug, “Told you I’m still cool.”
They’re stuck behind a little build up of traffic, just before the turn off to Family Video—and just as Robin starts to reply, she cuts herself off.
Steve gives her another sidelong glance. She’s trying to slide down in her seat.
“… What are you doing?”
“Shh, Steve, he’s right there!”
“Who’s right—oh.”
Eddie Munson must be walking home today, because there he is on the sidewalk. He’s not noticed them, he’s just readjusting the strap of his bag across his shoulder.
Robin keeps wriggling.
Steve snorts. “Jeez, what’re you so scared of? He’s not gonna turn you to stone.” He thinks about it. “Well, actually, there was that one time where—but that’s just ‘cause one of the Murphy twins freaked at—”
“I’m not scared, I’m just mortified, Steve! I’ve basically ruined his life.”
“Uh-huh, totally. Look at him over there, that’s a broken man, all right.”
The traffic starts to move.
“Oh no,” Robin says. “Oh no, no, no.”
Steve grins mischievously. “I’m gonna say hi.”
Robin sounds like he’s just suggested they go rob a bank. “Steve, don’t you dare—”
“What? I like honking the horn, sue me!”
Which is true: whenever he stumbles upon one of the kids—when he’s not actually giving them rides—he loves seeing their reactions when they spot his car. He’s still got a warm glow from passing by Dustin and his mom on his way to work at the weekend, their enthusiastic waves.
They catch up to Eddie, and Steve sounds the horn in a short rhythmic group of three, like a little song.
He glances over in time to see Eddie’s eyes widen in recognition, a red flush creep up his neck. His hand lifts and hovers in the air like he doesn’t know whether to commit to a full wave or not.
Robin, evidently still panicking, winds down the window. She shouts wildly into the wind, “Merci!”
Steve makes it to the parking lot before he loses it.
“Merci?” he wheezes with laughter, as Robin frantically slaps him in the chest. “Merci?”
“I panicked!”
“Oh my God, really? No-one would know.”
“He’s gonna think I’m a total—”
“Freak?” Steve cackles. Robin socks him in the arm. “Ow!”
“That did not hurt. Ugh, maybe—maybe he didn’t know it was me?” A beat. “Steve.”
“Oh, sorry, didn’t realise you wanted me to lie to you.”
This time Steve avoids the punch, gets out the car and retrieves Robin’s work vest from the back. He tosses it to her over the roof of the car, shakes his head with exasperated affection.
“Rob, seriously, relax. Eddie Munson’s probably just praying he never sees us again.”
Robin rolls her eyes. “Oh, well, in that case.”
But she does relax as she puts on her vest; she’s already enthusing about the movies they’ll watch over Spring Break by the time Steve unlocks the front door.
“You need to pick some, too, Steve.”
“Dude, I have a whole list, it’s in the car.”
“Très bien, Monsieur Harrington.”
“Jesus.” Steve scoffs. “Was that supposed to be an impression?”
“No! Eddie was more like…” Robin does an incredibly odd movement with her jaw, as if preparing herself.
Steve flinches back in mock horror. “Oh my God! Never mind.”
“Now, Monsieur Harrington—”
“Uh, no. That is not becoming a nickname.”
“Pass me those tapes, please.”
“No.”
“Whatever you say… Monsieur Harrington.”
“Robin,” Steve says, breaking again into laughter—and the sight of Eddie Munson so obviously blushing gently drifts to the back of his mind. “Ta gueule!”
uploaded this at 1 am thinking ‘oh no one is going to see this, whatever :)’ but reading your thoughts, your heartbreak and ultimately your hope made me feel like the world is one yknow what? We got this
Im not dead i just changed my url because i decided to try and get sober and tumblr decided to pretend i died on my most popular post about me being angsty about my bday
In the meantime, i grew out my hair, got my bachelors, got a job, had my work published and im looking into getting a doctorate soon. I did got this, i tell ya
Hello. I am a commenter who chose to be anonymous in the first chapter of your fic saboteur. I realise that my comments earlier were seen as rude. I apologise for that I am truly sorry. I did not appreciate you siccing your followers on me afterwards though bc I think I was being pretty candid in my opinions and not insulting.
But, reading this new update only reinforces what I said earlier in the first chapter. You keep saying "Please tell me what you think" so im honouring that.
You're obviously a good writer but you clearly dont even like eddie as a character! I have been following some of your threads on blue sky and on x and you use this ship to woobify steve and make eddie out to be a villain! You dont even try to make his point of view accessible to the audience and you do nothing but make steve out to be the victim in every one of your fics. Its so disappointing. Steve gets a backstory amd gets to be gods most perfect woobie who's never wrong and we all get to jerk off to him and eddie has to be a rapist who is violent which we have NEVER seen evidence of in the show and all you do is make him a MONSTER just to make steve look good. You keep saying" please tell me what you think" but you dont actually want to hear it! All you want are praises for your mischaracterising stories. Be honest, do you even like this ship? Because eddie could easily have been an oc hes SO unrecognisable.
All in all it is well written but you clearly have an agenda that you are pushing and its so sad to see your writing deteriorated to this level. You had so much potential as a fandom writer. I dont mean this as hate its just what I have observed. Though Im sure you won't listen to this criticism as all you want is praise for your weird fetishy gooner ideas.
ok so next time I write a fic I'll send you a draft for approval. drop your email in the replies ig. idk what else you want from me like what were you hoping to gain from rhis
do you think u would ever finish the 'hometown blues' stranger things fic u wrote as part of a series? absolutley no pressure at all! i just really love the premise and ur writing is so witty. also im a sucker for outsider pov
anon id love to get back to it but unfortunately I'm v burned out on that verse, and fic writing in general. I really hope I can get back into it though, so here's hoping! and tybso much for the kind words!
hey i just wanted to say that i’ve loved all of your fanfic i’ve read!! i stick to steddie but oh my stars your characterization is amazing!! every single character’s voice feels unique (and i love love love that you write dialogue the way people actually talk, and that their voices are unique in a literal way cause of accents (and my brain that goes feral over linguistic things is like running around in happy circles reading “took you for a working boy” especially jesus christ it’s so good (also okay officially lost the plot of what i was originally saying))) steve’s gender fuckery in “always burning, world keeps turning” is actually something so personal to me and i reread all the time just to get my fix!! as someone who’s written fic, and also totally burnt out and not finished a fic, i want you to know that you could never write another word of “always burning, world keeps turning” again and i would still love it more than i can say, but that also yes i am subscribed to it because what do we live for if not for hope? also sorry i mostly talked about that series but i seriously (ha!) love your writing in general so much!! “eddie munson and the dream boy” - mwah!! i hope you’re having an excellent day and that you find the exact outfit you want to wear, first try, everything’s clean, no frustration, no second guessing yourself, every day for the rest of your life <3
hiii anon I'm so sorry for the late reply —a lots of my ask box is spam and honestly I forget about this blog a lot 😞 but thank you so much for your nice words I'm having an awful day and reading this made me so happy. idk if I'll return to always burning any time soon. unfortunately I feel like I should've left it at the one fic, bc I burned out really fast :( I've considered deleting the second fic but that honestly makes me feel worse. but hopefully one day I can find it in myself to come back to it. that whole verse and Steven Marie are so special to me, and I'm so glad you resonate with the Gender of it all :'''') I'm having an awful day and this ask immediately cheered me up. I hope you see this and I hope you have a lovely day, whenever you are !
Uuuum sorry to be obsessed but is there more of your Sam Green as Steve’s bestie in our future? 🥺
I'm taking a bit of a fic break rn but the second I get back into the swing of things that's on top of my list! it's one of my favourite things I've written. also I'm soooooo glad u like it ;!!
Hi! This isn't eloquent at all but I just re-read build me up, buttercup and I still love it soso dearly :) You captured a very specific Vibe/ Headspace, and it's really lovely
this is so sweet!!! I haven't gone back to that fic in a long while because I feel kinda unhappy with how I wrote it. I was a very different person back then, going through a very difficult time. it's genuinely so nice to hear that it still holds up, and that people like it!!! thank you so much for this ask, and I'm sorry for the extremely late reply—i haven't come back to tumblr in a long while.
Autism diagnosis questionnaires are kind of like if the only way to diagnose blindness was by having someone list all the things they don't see. Like imagine being brought into a room where you can't see shit and being told "okay list all the things in this room that you can't see or perceive in any way. No you can't feel around that'd be cheating."
"Uhhh furniture?"
"No there's no furniture in this room. If you were truly blind you would have known that."
As a blind person, you'd be amazed how many people act eerily similar to this post. Some people really struggle to understand that blindness is a spectrum and does not necessarily mean no sight at all.
Every time I make or see some sort of a "hey wouldn't it be fucked up and stupid if some physical disability was treated the same way a neurological/psychological health issue is", there's always someone who actually is physically disabled, who reminds me that actually, people absolutely do that to physically disabled people and it's just as fucked up and stupid as I'd have assumed it is. Like having a disability is probably already hard enough without also having to deal with idiots all day.
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