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if hanahaki was real id have had it for every single crush ive ever had, because that shit eats me alive

there is so much blood on my hands that will never wash off

so i’m pretty sure everyone actually hates me and my life means nothing!!!!

there is a hole in my chest where i dug out my own heart, and the only thing that could fill it is the sweet rotted dirt of my grave

i need something beautiful and romantic to happen to me NOW

emotionally retreating from everyone to focus on getting worse

notes game!!! (this'll probably get like 3 notes tbh so idk what I'm expecting but uhhh)

5 notes - I'll try to do makeup every day

10 notes - I'll tidy up my shelf/room

20 notes - I'll try to finish one of the books I'm reading

30 notes - I'll try to finish all of the books I'm reading

50 notes - I'll try to update at least one of my fics regularly

70 notes - I'll try to finish writing/drafting my book

100 notes - I'll ask my parents for cosplay stuff :p

150 notes - I'll tell my parents I'm genderfluid

200 notes - I'll ask my parents for a pride flag/s for my room

250 notes - I'll have a serious conversation with my close friend about being suicidal

more to maybe be added!

i just wanna be held tbh

pouring my heart out and getting a “real” or “damn” in response is one of the most soul crushing things i think i will ever experience.

i’m just so fucking tired i don’t think sleeping for 20 days straight would help i need to die

sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

loving me is like watering a dead flower

Imagine bleeding out in the garden of an old castle while it's snowing.

i am genuinely so over myself and how i act and what i do. it makes me sick

this is so me genuinely

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