BURNER
ź©. 29 - meet up (mostly šļø)
xiao arrives to the meeting first courtesy of his class finishing early and his eagerness (paired with his anxiousness) to see you. he settles into one of the libraryās desks reserved for students, lays out his rough draft, and waits. there are about five minutes before your class ends, and itāll probably take another five minutes for you to gather your things and walk here, xiao calculates in his mind.Ā
his mind drifts back to the last meeting and he canāt help but curse himself for letting such detail slip. yet again he overthinks things, hu taoās words not even taken into consideration at all.Ā
xiao cracks his knuckle, a habit he unconsciously does whenever he feels anxious. he absolutely cannot afford to mess anything up today so heāll have to take some steps to ensure that, starting with being very careful with his words. donāt mention twitter. donāt say anything that only ātofuā would know. perhaps not saying too much would be best, he decides.
too lost in his thoughts, xiao doesnāt even notice you approaching until you pull out the chair beside him, the scrape of itās leg against the library floor snaps him back to reality.
āxiao!ā you greeted, ever so cheerful. xiao looks up only to be met with that smile of yours. he liked that about you, how blissfully unaware you could be sometimes. āsorry to keep you waiting, have you been waiting long?ā
xiao nods as a greeting and you chuck it up to how he usually is, quiet and reserved. āno.ā he simply says, his expression stoic as ever.
āyou sure? how long have you been waiting?ā you ask as you sit down.
ā..ten minutes.ā he replies.
āoh, thatās kind of long.. no?ā you laugh awkwardly, trying to make small talk.
ā...ā he doesn't say a word. instead, his gaze drifts from you to the school bag thatās sitting on your lap. you mentally slap yourself.
ā..sorry.ā you mumble, your hands gripping the bag ever so slightly for support.
if he noticed, he didn't say anything.
xiao looks back at you. for a brief moment, he almost seems confused. you can't decide if heās actually confused or if heās secretly judging you. ā..itās alright.ā he assures, though it came out sounding more like a question than anything.
trying to ease the awkward tension, you pull out a notebook from your bag and set it down on the desk. āalright, uh.. so how should we do this?ā you question.
xiao fall silent for a moment, choosing his next words very carefully.
āiāll read mine first, tell me if thereās anything wrong with it, then you can read yours and iāll do the same.ā he instructs, you nod thoughtfully.
xiao looks down at his paper, the one he spent hours on just thinking about all the things that remind him of you.Ā
he definitely canāt mention the first one. itād be a surefire way to expose him as ātofuā. he looks at you and sees you looking at him expectantly. archons, hopefully he doesnāt mess this one up.Ā
āyou..ā he stumbles on his words for a brief second. ā..you remind me of drawings.ā he flinches at how ridiculous he sounds. you look at him all confused with your mouth slightly agape and he inwardly slaps himself.Ā
ādrawings? how come?ā you ask, tilting your head. there isnāt a hint of mockery in your voice. if anything, you sound genuinely intrigued. unfortunately that only makes him more nervous. he swallows hard, afraid heāll let you down with what heās about to say next.
āone time i was in charge of collecting math notebooks to submit to ms rhinedottir,ā he begins, carefully testing the waters. he scans your face for any expression and when one doesnāt come, he takes it as a sign to continue. āi.. accidentally saw some drawings you made on the margin.āĀ
your face morphs into a look of recognition for a moment before itās replaced with a look of horror. āyou saw that?!ā you squeaked. āoh this is so embarrassing.. i swear i was paying attention and not just doodling on my notebook..ā you continue, burying your face in your palm. hiding behind your hand, you miss the tiny smile of fondness softening xiao's features before he schools it back to his usual stoic look.
āitās alright. ms rhinedottir isnt exactly the most.. engaging teacher anyway.ā he tries to reassure. you lower your hand from your face, a small grin slowly overtaking your face. āright?!ā you agreed.Ā
āit was such a.. such a you thing to do.ā he hesitates for a moment and you tilt your head, curiosity overtaking your features. āeven in a subject you complain about a lot, you still manage to leave traces of yourself everywhere.ā he finishes.Ā
youāre not sure if he meant it as a good thing or not, but itās probably not bad, right? xiao catches that look of unsureness on your face. before you can reply, he coughs into his hand and looks at his notebook again. āahem, letās continue before it gets dark.ā he simply says and you have no choice but to nod even though you still have a multitude of questions.
xiao decides not to mention the ink part, wanting to avoid mentioning your writing at any costs. describing you as a lantern is the safer option, he decides. āyouāre like a lanternā. xiao winches at how he worded it. by the confused and slightly flabbergasted look on your face he can already tell he said something dumb.Ā
āa lantern?ā you ask and xiao is convinced heās already messed things up.Ā
āyou light things up.ā xiao holds back the sudden urge to slap himself. light things up? light things up. thatās NOT what he wrote at all! perhaps if he had the power to teleport away at that very instant, he would. unfortunately for him, xiao had no such powers so he was forced to promptly stand up from his chair and excuse himself to the bathroom.Ā
you looked at the now empty chair beside you and sighed, wondering what was up with xiao today. with nothing else to do, you do the only thing a normal person would do in that situation. thatās right, you open twitter and start vague posting.Ā
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