sideblog that will somewhat serve as a main blog for @gay-forest-lover (formerly quiet intellectualginger) due to my mother having found my Pinterest and now potentially being about to find my former main account
(i’m more so using main account/blog in terms of the one i mainly use, not the technical main account according to tumblr)
I will be posting all posts that could be used by my mother to identify me and/or posts I wouldn’t want her to see here
In case of my previous main blog’s discovery I will be posting less personal posts on there lest there be suspicion I made a new account or sideblog
I’ll be finishing this intro later
tagging mutuals (I’m gonna forget some people- sorry y’all)
reblogging to add on context (not gonna get insanely specific tho), also to any of my friends seeing this yall aren’t any of the people I’m talking about dw
I could use some advice on some of this stuff cuz I can’t really tell if ppl are actually being a little bit shitty or not and/or idk what to do
so like at the start of this school year i became friends with like someone a handful of people I already knew know
and at the time nobody mentioned any concerns and all seemed to get along with him but now all of a sudden at a pride event last week literally like the entire local queer community is all dropping highly problematic and/or illegal allegations (though there seems to be evidence so I’d call them a lot more than allegations)
and from my own experience some of the things people were talking about are things that can be traumatic and very hard and/or uncomfortable to talk about so I’d understand why they wouldn’t have talked about it
but some things were things people saw happening but that weren’t specifically affecting them(ie oversharing with people several years younger than him)
and it kind of makes me feel like these people who I’d consider friends aren’t really looking out for me and some of our other friends’ safety cuz they seem to have noticed or experienced some of these things before I got to know this person
and then one of the friend circles im in at school I’ve already had mixed feelings about for a good while because of how they’ve treated some of my friends and cuz for the past like 6ish months they’ve made a new group chat without me and stopped inviting me to stuff (and also talking about plans that im not invited to in front of me)
which none of that last bit is really shocking cuz they’ve already done this to other people
but the somewhat new thing from like the last year is that they all seem to dislike one of my other friends to various degrees
and like, said individual can be a bit annoying sometimes but a) i think we can all be a little annoying sometimes and b) that doesn’t mean you get to be an asshole
but it’s awkward because im friends with this person and it puts me in an awkward situation (especially cuz like 5 of us were all in study hall together) where there’s a good bit of tension
and this friend and one of the other friends from the group both complain to me about the other one being annoying and/or mean and I have no idea what to do
and the friend who a bunch of these people dislike will tell me they think the group and/or other people don’t like them and I don’t wanna be like “yeah they don’t like you” but I don’t wanna just act like I can’t tell what’s going on
but also this friend has gotten like weirdly close to me lately
like during finals the past week they’d be like asking me for help with things that I like could not help with (ie finishing the spanish project they hadn’t even started physically making that was due in an hour) or asking me for help with things that they could and probably should ask the teacher
Idk everything’s just a mess in my social life rn and I don’t know what about me is attracting these people to me and if it’s like are “you are who you hang out with” situation but whatever is it how do I improve
Legit just brought my science grade up by like 6 points cuz the way the final works is if you do better on the section about a specific unit it also brings your unit grade up to whatever score you got (but it only goes up to 90)
I got a 96 on the final
And I also got a 96 on the geology unit test (my parents and I like rocks lol) but I had done somewhat poorly (77 and 83) on the other unit tests but now both of those are 90s
So now instead of a C I have a B- for my second semester grade
And all of my final grades except math are at least a B-
(Math im okay with being an 84 though cuz i had the fucking shitty substitute teacher who fucked everyone over first semester- AND THEN ONLY MY CLASS HAD TO DO A MIDTERM WHILE ALL THE OTHERS DIDNT CUZ THE MATH DEPARTMENT DIDNT THINK IT WAS FAIR, WTF WE HAD HIM TOO)
but yeah all my grades are decent now and either way I wasn’t gonna fail any classes most likely no matter how poorly I did on finals
locking in on preparing for them and getting good grades has made my grades a good bit better though
just realized my friend forgot to fully pop the screen back in after we snuck out a week ago which might have to do with the slight increase in the spider population of my room lmao
okay we’re in the clear my mother shall not smite me for sneaking out cuz she didn’t realize i was soaking wet from the rain
looking at the photos i took i noticed the rain picked up a good bit like 20 minutes into us walking to the convenience store we always go to (it’s the only place open 24/7 within walking distance)
when we left vs like 1/3 (ish) of the way there
anyway i also got some cool new shirts
(i love being able to get clothes inexpensively the sweater was like $7 cuz it was second hand and the shirt was first hand but there was a discount so it was only $15 instead of $68)
it’s about to rain but the sun is still partially out in some spots so the land has that warm glow of the sun getting ready to set in an hour or two but the water is that sad greyish blue lol
(kinda long yap session about the weirdness of having some wealthy friends when I don’t have a ton of money)
I don’t tend to run into any issues being someone with not a ton of money in a town where people have a lot of money but sometimes I forget that the people around me have money
like the day after my birthday I was telling some friends about how not only did I get to go out for dinner on my birthday but I also got a drink AND dessert and had to just laugh it off cuz i think one or both of them thought i was joking about it being a rare occurrence
Birthday parties are also sometimes weird cuz what do you mean your parents are buying us food and giving us all money to spend?!
The last birthday party I went to their parents bought us 2 orders of chicken tenders, a huge dessert, 8 laser tag tickets, and a total of like $30-40 worth of those cards for arcade games ($10 per person and there were 4 of us but idk if the one whose birthday it was already had a card)
At another birthday party once we all got food that the parents paired for and all EIGHT of us got a TWENTY FIVE DOLLAR GIFT CARD
Earlier someone I know and I were sorting through some scrap/partially used papers for crafting and shit and it was like a battle between the 2 of us in regards to what was usable because he’d throw out bent and/or small but arguably still usable pieces and I’d be digging through the recycling picking them back out
We were also talking about how easy/hard it is for us to let go of stuff (physical possessions) and I had mentioned how sometimes I keep stuff (fabric and/or old clothes, random stuff I find, etc) because “what if I need it for an art project” and he was like “just go to an art store”
(admittedly yes I hold onto an unnecessary amount of stuff but also like if I get rid of something and end up wanting to do something that needs it I can’t just go out and buy more)
I in no way dislike any of the people who I’ve had these interactions with, it just reminds me that we’re living different lives I guess
