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Jewel ☆ 28 ☆ ♏︎ ☆ INFP he/they

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Last updated 2/13/26

Hi

Basics:

⭐ Julian / Jewel

⭐ 28

⭐ Single

⭐ Scorpio sun, Virgo moon, Cancer rising

⭐ Silly Bi Genderqueer "Guy"™! Bites only sometimes

⭐ Disabled - AuDHD, C-PTSD, Dysautonomia

⭐ Main Interests are video games & especially roleplaying & sandbox games, personal development, all things esoteric including astrology+tarot+angelology, + the paranormal. You can see my specific interests & "fandoms" here.

⭐ Check out my strawpage for more about me, or if you want to send me a little doodle or message!! just need to remember to add Som new pages sometime soon Links (TBA): Bluesky ☆ About+ ☆ Pinterest ☆ Spotify ☆ Web League (Current main social media except I lost my login info and haven't popped back in yet LMAO) ☆ Face Tag ☆ Ask Tag Feel free to ask me for my Discord, Simblr, or Steam! Or just reach out to chat.

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medical cw

I haven't been able to take my testosterone in so long and I'm feeling sad about it. I was having problems previously taking it consistently after my surgery, both because I had to be off of it for a while and that threw my routine I had gotten into off and then I'm pretty certain I had a long, drawn out ME/CFS crash around that time. Situation in this house also started getting worse too in many ways and it interfered with my routines and seemingly my ability to stick to them.

But for the last year my veins have been too bad to get my blood work done, and without that I can't get my prescription upped even though I was approved to go in just every 6 months and eventually 12 months instead of monthly.

Testosterone was one of the major things I sought out and earned by taking more control of my life, so I've been miserable not taking it, and my dysphoria has been acting up badly recently, especially since I still haven't ever been able to replace my binder. It feels bad losing something special I fought for over something uncontrollable like this.

On top of that I don't feel comfortable looking like a girl in this house but at the same time, I'm never able to groom myself properly how I like while on T either, because of finances or the usual fuckery w/ my limited ability to get around and my mother holding that over me or punishing me by not going to get these things or just being apathetic about my wants and needs. Like I've been needing Nair since my 4th month on Testosterone for the hair underneath my chin that's bugging me and it's about $4.00 and a 2 minute drive away. and it's out of reach. It balances out the dysphoria being eased with body dysmorphia, and without a binder I'm worried about more obviously being trans out and about in an unsafe place.

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[tomorrowillbeyou]

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[fawnaura]

Alice Notley, In the Pines

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[img is a photo of a poem reading:

I’ve dreamed since I was four years old

that the house is slowly on fire that the house is slowly on fire

and I can’t get you to leave it and I can’t get you to leave it]

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The situation with my mom is deteriorating rapidly. She has aggression issues and she is willing to do whatever it takes to bend and break me to her whim

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I've been trying to add looser rituals into my "routine" hoping I could get some footing and consistency. Routine doesn't work because inevitably no matter how slow and carefully I take it, my health issues flare up or family issues get in the way or this house gets to me and it all falls apart

Sleep-wise it's been difficult because no amount of sleep hygiene makes up for having family members that aren't considerate or are intentionally trying to keep you awake, or having physical health issues that can put you in bed in the middle of the day and shake up your routine. I'm pretty much just sticking to being awake no longer than 15 hours, trying to take a few 20 minute naps throughout the day to avoid problems with narcolepsy and help pace myself, and giving myself 20-30 minutes after I wake up before I actually get up. I tried that before with an alarm and it helped a lot with waking up agitated and/or exhausted

I like having a hot drink first thing. I think it's key to have options so that I don't get sick of it, can adjust to what my body needs, or what I have available. Hot Water. Tea, and I've been mixing pouches together and essentially making my own blends to help with managing some health issues. Coffee w/ protein powder. Matcha w/ Soy Milk & protein powder. Stirring intentions for the day in and willing it to bring me vitality. I've also been throwing nutmeg, cinnamon, red cayenne pepper, sometimes a little bit of vanilla into my coffee and tea to help with inflammation and make it more enjoyable so I have at least that one moment of comfort throughout the day, I also don't get treats often so it's nice to have at least one thing I know I enjoy to count on.

I've been trying to go outside with it on days it's not cold, just sitting there and enjoying nature. I've been trying to clean my face by at least wiping my it off with a wet towel in the morning, it's better than relying on myself to use my cleanser when I'm not doing too well and feeling dirty, and it helps with my facial swelling and allergies. I'd use micellar water and really should, I've just had to rely on my mom to get some and it's been on the shopping list for 9 months. This one I started a while ago, but I've started viewing rest as more ritualistic, more sacred. Recharging rather than maintenance. Just the reframing helped but I've been wanting to set up nap spots, light incense, play crystal bowl or chime music or just plain noise and just make a whole special thing of it, inspired by Dream Incubation rituals

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I feel so alone

[lucidlymelanated]

Your 30s aren't too late. Don't let nobody tell you that stupid shit.

[aetherograph]

Your 40s aren't too late. Don't let nobody tell you that stupid shit.

[loisfreakinglane]

#as long as you're alive it's literally never too late

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Tiny Glade (1/?)

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ENTRANCE TO THE MINES 💎 SVE LOCATIONS (3/?) Stardew Valley (2016) dev. ConcernedApe

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Incredible events unfolding on reddit

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I would die for Tessa. I would find her 200 toothbrushes.

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So it looks like Tessa has been using these veggietales toothbrushes for ages, but has misplaced the stash.

[clytemnestraaa]

just had a really stable moment where i opened a redbull at the exact same second someone started playing industrial music in the apartment below and i briefly thought it was coming from inside the redbull can

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Someone is eating a fresh orange in this McDonald's. I smelled it and my head snapped up like a hunting dog. That smell doesn't belong in this wicked place