thalia

queer lady obsessed with space :) will post at random

[queendarlings]

queen's got so many long powerful songs, but somehow "march of the black queen" just hits the right spots in my brain. like, borhap is all good and well, it isn't popular for no reason. "somebody to love" is also a real banger, but motbq just makes my entire body experience a whole fantasy epos at once. freddie proved long before borhap he was a true master of epic songwriting.

(honorable mention: "millionaire waltz" and "it's late", also two long(er) songs that are artfully written rock and just enrich my queen listening experience. millionaire waltz being my absolute favourite of them all 🙏🏻)

[queerspacebrain]

glad we're all on the same page when it comes john richard deacon 🙏🏻 he's THE legend and funkiest dancing queen

me when i look at him:

[8nin]

hey sorry i acted weird the other day i was trying so hard to act normal that it backfired

[queerspacebrain]

#me after hanging out with my friends #or when meeting someone new #or when i'm overwhelmed #well no, just me

[queerspacebrain]

sometimes i forget that some people actually feel sexual attraction towards others and every time it hits me like "huh??? this exists??? it's not just fantasy???" and then i move on about my day because it doesn't concern or impact me. and for fuck's sake, i wish that's how us aspecs would get treated too. like, i get it, you don't really understand me because you don't feel this way yourself - it's the same with me. i don't feel sexual attraction, so i don't really understand you. but that doesn't stop me from treating you like a person? and like, please do the same with me. we're all just humans after all and each of us goes through life experiencing it differently. where's the big mess in that?

[queerspacebrain]

rationally i know it's okay that i have been in relationships before. it's okay that i have had sex before.

emotionally, every time i step into a new place and introduce myself as aroace, i feel like i'm a liar due to that. especially when people start questioning me because they don't know what aroace means.

it's just so weird. i wish i didn't have to feel like i have to check boxes in order to be an "acceptable aroace". and yet, i make myself feel like that.

[queerspacebrain]

the feeling of the world finally settling into axis correctly after realizing you're aroace. like, in every relationship i had i wondered why i always struggled with the classics of love. and then just one day - boom, the realization there's a word for people like me. suddenly, i don't feel like a freak anymore and can take pride in it. so don't tell me aro/ace/aroace pride doesn't have to exist and don't tell me the A in LGBTQIA+ isn't needed.

[queerspacebrain]

my "funniest" ace experience to this day is still my ex-partner who, despite being a relationship with me for over a year, refused to believe i was asexual because i slept with him. although i explicitly told him multiple times that no, that doesn't mean i'm not asexual, i don't change just because i sleep with you, he somehow believed he "fixed" me. he really thought fucking someone would "un-ace" them. like, no. that's not how it works.

but then he also went on to complain about how i didn't initiate it. how i never felt the urge to absolutely rip his clothes off and sleep with him. and i was like "that's what i tried to tell you. that's how i work. i sleep with you cause you want it, but i can live without it cause i don't feel the need to." and then he had a surprised pikachu look on his face.

it's just, urgh, tiring. i told him i was ace before we even got together and then he stopped believing me, i guess. i don't even know, but he for sure didn't get people being ace and having sex. like, it's a huge spectrum of people. some fuck, some don't. we all don't experience sexual attraction. is that so hard to understand?