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hello vonnie
Monterey Bay Aquarium
Mike Driver
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
Lint Roller? I Barely Know Her
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Love Begins
shark vs the universe
d e v o n
Today's Document
if i look back, i am lost
ellievsbear
Origami Around
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
Peter Solarz
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❣ Chile in a Photography ❣
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@raeinrecovery
10/25
So basically I see a cute boy He talks to me Then I go into cray cray mode and plan out exactly how he should begin to become obsessed with me and date me
But this one is really cute and funny and nice I like this one Sigh
THIS WAS EXACTLY A YEAR AGO TODAY AND I WAS TALKING ABOUT THE SAME GUY. #idohaveaproblem
2 Year Update: I’m gay.
3 year update: I’m a hella confused non-heterosexual (and I also work with that dude's mom)
I had unprotected sex about two weeks ago (and didn’t use emergency contraceptive, which was so stupid) and I know the likelihood of me being pregnant is hella low especially considering what point I was at in my cycle, but I’m still freaking out, I just have this gut feeling and I’m hoping to god it’s wrong.
You messed with the wrong girl.
When does it change? When do I get to stop staring at my bedroom ceiling at 2 am thinking about how much I feel or don’t feel, wishing I could vocalize my inner thoughts without fear of being persecuted for the roller coaster like ways my brain perceives the world?
When do I get to sleep instead of think? When do I find someone who understands? (via the-homie-sexual)
I'm kind of worried one of my guy friends is crushing on me and I'm like "nooooo why would you do that"
halsey // gasoline
I have decided that I'm only going to give myself $50 a week to spend for the next 3 months. Everything else into savings. Wish me luck. 😅
Today one of my co-workers asked 5 other of my co workers if I did drugs (which I don't) before coming to me and asking directly. and 3, including an openly gay girl if they thought I was gay. Which he did not ask directly like wth???? Bruh
I know I'm just sick right now so I'm pissed off and upset and my mind is all messy, but I honestly don't care if I keep on living right now. I'm so tired; I want to rest.
11/4
So I’m like 98.8% sure I’m a lesbian. Its weird because I’m getting to a place where I’m okay with it. I’ve known I’ve like girls romantically/sexually for over half a decade, but I always tried to ignore it or push it aside and tried to live as straight as I could, or at least convince myself I was bi. But at the end of the day as much as I love boys (and they are hecka cute) I don’t see myself ever being in love with one and I've never been in love with one. And I have no desire to be with one in a romantic way. In fact guys kind of repulse me a little bit in that way and it caused the end of my last relationship because I didn't want to be with him like that. (Portia de Rossi’s book explains it perfectly) and I’m at a place where I don’t think God loves me differently or less because of it. I am his creation, and he knew me before I was born. He knew I’d love girls and he loved me for it and regardless of it. God created me to be exactly the way I am for a reason, and no one has the right to tell me that he doesn’t love me or that he’s going to condemn for it.
10/25
So basically I see a cute boy He talks to me Then I go into cray cray mode and plan out exactly how he should begin to become obsessed with me and date me
But this one is really cute and funny and nice I like this one Sigh
THIS WAS EXACTLY A YEAR AGO TODAY AND I WAS TALKING ABOUT THE SAME GUY. #idohaveaproblem
2 Year Update: I’m gay.
I HATE BEING IN THE CLOSET
p>I am very unhappy with where I am in life. I don’t want to live in this house, I don’t want to live in this city. Honestly after today, I’m not even sure if I really even like my job. I just want all this to be over and done with. I want to live my purpose, the life God created for me or I don’t want to live at all. I just feel so tired and lonely. I gave up the person I’ve come the closest to being in love with and I’ve been alone ever since. I have no one and I’m so exhausted.
8.08.15
Wow. Over two years since I started thawing my frostbitten heart. I can't believe I'm here. I can't believe I was any of the people who wrote in this blog before me; I've changed so much. I still have so many questions about who I am and why I feel so different, but I'm really doing so much better. Don't get me wrong, I have days that are absolute hell, but they don't touch what I used to feel everyday. My relationship with God has been kind of rocky, mainly in relations to sexuality and feeling unaccepted, same as always. It's hard for me to believe in an unconditional love, especially in a culture where everywhere you turn you have someone saying you're not deserving of God's love, or that simply being as you are is a sin. I've never experienced a love without limitations, despite being in an extremely low financial bracket growing up, my parent's attitudes, specifically my mother's was very "waspy." I've felt like I was wrong my whole life, as long as I can remember. I changed elementary schools twice because I couldn't fit in, and almost transferred my senior year. I've struggled with so much in my youth, with self harm, self hatred, an (undiagnosed but met dsm criteria) eating disorder, coming to terms with many forms of past abuse, coming to terms with my sexuality and spirituality, poverty, feeling isolated and humiliated. And that's just parts of it, but despite everything, I still believe in a bright future for myself. I still believe in the hope that's there. I may not always see it, or think it. There's days where I want my world to end, there's days where I struggle to keep my head above water. There's days where I feel so much and absolutely nothing at the same time. And days I feel invincible and so wonderful and bright, even though I know it's to be followed by darkness. But at the end of every day, I know I can close my eyes and pray that tomorrow I'll be stronger, better, and closer to my purpose than the day before. I believe.
I am so lonely, and I want to be close to someone so badly. I never thought that loneliness could feel like such a deep emptiness.
11.18
So there's this boy in one of my classes and I would totally have a crush on him but he's a sophomore and that'd be weird
10/25
So basically I see a cute boy He talks to me Then I go into cray cray mode and plan out exactly how he should begin to become obsessed with me and date me
But this one is really cute and funny and nice I like this one Sigh
THIS WAS EXACTLY A YEAR AGO TODAY AND I WAS TALKING ABOUT THE SAME GUY. #idohaveaproblem
