unlikely (but monumental)

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[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Yes I like fictional characters a very normal amount. Don’t look at my blog.

[s0ftpining]

hr doodles from a couple of months ago

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[sirhro]

[penandinkprincess]

there's angst in it, too, but given the way nicotine makes some people feel really sick, i'm laughing about the idea of poor shane not knowing that he's just REALLY sensitive to it in their early days and ilya who was nervous but would never admit it so ALWAYS smoked a cigarette or two right before meeting up

to the end result that their early meetings were always quick so shane didn't start feeling sick until after ilya had already cleaned up and gone, so he thought it was just his body telling him this was a bad idea and don't do it again and gotta stop-

-until next time when he just couldn't resist

and over time, ilya stopped smoking before meeting up (and eventually really smoking at all) because shane always complained about the smell, so shane stopped feeling sick after, and after they're together, shane just sometimes fondly shakes his head at past self him like "oh buddy, that must have just been anxiety getting you. silly past me. i'm so happy i'm settled into this now. :)"

until the day ilya has a really stressful day and just REALLY needs that hit so buys some nicotine gum as a compromise, chews it, chases the other stress relief of making out with his boyfriend (with shane complaining about the taste but not pulling away) starting to get frisky-

-and then shane bolting to the bathroom to get SO sick

and he REMEMBERS this feeling

which means he puts the pieces together of what EXACTLY had him spiraling out about getting so sick back in the early days of struggling with his sexuality and just turns to ilya like

YOU

[penandinkprincess]

oh MAN, afterwards, though, ilya becomes THE most militant "put that out" person in any given gathering if shane is around. doesn't matter how many times shane tells him he doesn't need to do that. he's still doing that.

they're having dinner with some of ilya's old team from boston, someone lights up because they're out on the patio, and ilya fully pulls the cigarette out of their hand and stubs it out.

and the rest of the team WHO HAS SEEN ILYA SMOKE SO MANY TIMES is just ??? what??? just happened????

[penandinkprincess]

i really need to commit to microwaving this in my brain enough to fic it because i still think about this and laugh

[bugslibraryy]

Ok hi Shane and Ilya get in a FIGHT ok like capital letters fight ! Ilya is pissed OFF Shane is grumpy and they both say some things they do not mean. Ilya is going off at Shane and Shane feels attacked because he was just trying to communicate and then Ilya got all pissy and all stupid and petty and they bitch at each other. Ilya snaps a cheap shot back at Shane and then Shane just goes shut off mode. He’s like fine. Walks away, silence. Silent treatment for hours. They don’t eat dinner together- Ilya makes a show of leaving to get McDonalds and Shane passive aggressively makes rice and reheats chicken and Shane spends an hour in the gym while Ilya goes for a run. Ilya uses the guest room bathroom and Shane goes up to bed before it even hits 8pm, early even for him.

Shane is in bed and he’s 😠 and he’s laying there reading his book with a frown and his jaw grit and it goes 9, then 10 and then Shane is shutting off the light and pulling up the covers and closing his eyes. He feels nowhere close to sleep even- running in his head over and over and over their fight and maybe he over reacted and he’s not even sure he’s that made anymore but he’d hated Ilyas reaction and now he’s pissed off because whatever he hates that he’s thinking about the classic things he’s always heard of never go to bed angry and there they are and Shane is going to bed angry and he doesn’t even know if Ilya is coming to bed and he’s getting that horrible anxious curling in his chest- and then the bedroom door clicks open. Ilya is quiet when he sees it’s dark inside. Shane lies there and listens to Ilya shuffle around in the dark getting ready for bed and his chest aches and he’s happy Ilya’s coming to bed and upset they haven’t spoken and his mind is a little storm storm storm.

Then Ilyas pulling back the covers and sliding into bed and Shane can feel the heat of him behind him and he doesn’t want Ilya to touch him and he desperately wants to fall asleep in Ilyas arms and he had a headache and he fucking hates fighting with Ilya and he’s anxious and wants to talk to Ilya about the anxiety and then, Ilya’s hand is on his side, a tiny gentle brush, hand curling around his hip. And Ilya is whispering “Shane” and Shane’s eyes sting a little and he just lets out a little hum in reply and then Ilya says. “Goodnight kiss?” And Shane’s eyes really sting because Ilya always asks for a goodnight kiss and he wants that too, even if he’s mad- was mad- if they don’t have it all perfect he wants to give Ilya his goodnight kiss, to know he loves him at the end of the day. Of every day even the bad ones.

Shane rolls over and little frown and eyes on ilya and he grumbles “ok. But I’m still mad” and Ilya nods and presses their foreheads together and whispers back “me too” and nudges their noses together. Then Shane kisses him, a soft warm brush of lips. His goodnight kiss. Shane breaks the kiss and pushes his face into Ilya cheek and sighs. “Fight again tomorrow?” Ilya asks, voice soft and small and his hand finding Shane’s, fingers tangling together. And Shane nods, kisses under Ilya’s eye and they fall asleep like that, wrapped together close.

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[abortionado]

oh okay

[thisfeebleheart]

Shane touching Ilya's face when they kiss is one of my favorite things ever

[handsywoman]

my favorite Shanebug moments [ pt.1 ]

[lilylikeswords]

@heatonice I have no self restraint and too much free time. I apologise...

[shilyas]

ilya + wearing black

[evanzbuck]

I would not change it each time Heaven is not fit to house a love like you and I

[bleekay]

would love to see a depressing long-distance-relationship montage from ilya's last year in boston with facetime calls ending and smiles dropping at the same moment their phones go dark and goodbye kisses and closing doors and each leaning back and sliding down against the walls in their respective entryways alone after and ilya staring into his open fridge where shane's ginger ales sit waiting for him for next time which is weeks or months away and shane trying to sleep but he keeps tossing and turning and wiping his hand over his face and eventually just wedges a pillow against his back like it'll be remotely close enough to ilya's warm body and both of them texting so much their friends and teammates go from "damn you're really into this chick good for you" to "hey put the phone down man we gotta focus where's your head at"

[deedala]

shane and his loverboy behavior ☾⋆⁺₊✧

[spcecowboyyy]

a show cancelled after one season can be a dead wife

[jetix]

‘White Cat with Gemstones’ by Joseph Jones Oil and acrylic on linen, 2026

[stout-stoat]

PAINTING

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PAINTING