On She Rambles

This is my side blog, dedicated to my own writings and ramblings.

[ramblingsbykyra]

As I lay in this bed

All these thoughts running through my head

Memories of things I've done and said

And what I should have instead

I miss the person I never got to be

And how I used to be so carefree

I wonder if 13 year old me would be happy with me

Or if they would just be sad and angry like I used to be

[ramblingsbykyra]

Another day spinning around on this rock

Trying to become what I'm not

Searching for a home in which I belong

Not where I'm tolerated and we get along

I'm searching for a place

Where people like me can embrace

Not fearing for our lives for being ourselves

Just enjoying life, and loving as the heart compels

Watching as we all grow and thrive together

Understanding that each person is a treasure

I just wish I could find a home

If I can't I'll build my own in the unknown

The perfect biome to inspire inclusion and togetherness

A beautiful home, a beacon of hope in this wilderness

[ramblingsbykyra]

How can i

How can I feel all these feelings

Sorrow and pain course through my soul

How can I process what's going on

With such overwhelming loss of control

How can I work to be better

When everything I've ever done was wrong

How can I understand the loss of myself

When I never had me to begin with

How can I manage to survive

When everything inside wants me to die

How can I feel nothing at all

When I know how hurt and broken I am

How can I feel all these feelings

When I'm so numb to everything else.

[ramblingsbykyra]

It's a bitch

Its a lover

It's fucking under covers

When it comes it goes

And when it's there nobody knows

It was here

Now it is there

In an instant it is everywhere

Once it's over I'll be alright

Until then, it's not goodbye

It's goodnight

[ramblingsbykyra]

I lay in silence

Feelings a stir

Internal violence

Yet no sirens whir

I'm falling backwards

No chance to catch myself

I'm crying after

Wishing I had help

Won't you provide

Won't you provide

Won't you provide

Make me feel alive

Don't you tell me

I'm not good enough

Don't you tell me

I'm not worthy of love

I know my worth

I know my worth

Writhing silence

Memories a blur

Unrequited kindness

But the pages turn

But the pages turn

Let the bitches burn

Let the bitches burn

No more crying after

I've got myself

Even when it hurts

I'm still alive

I'm still alive

I'm still alive

I'm still alive

Joyful silence

With the thoughts-

-in my head

No more blindness

I can see again

I can feel again

This is real again

I'm real again

[ramblingsbykyra]

If you had the opportunity to become an immortal being, would you take it?

An opportunity so much rarer than once in a lifetime, presented to you on the street, on an elevator or at the check out line at the grocery store. Just a quick moment to decide. Would you take the opportunity to live forever? Would you decline and live at peace, or would you have regrets for not taking it?

If you become immortal, how do you spend your time? Do you live each day as it is your last, doing daring and adventurous things? Do you treat it like a chore, getting up and going through the motions for the literal billionth time? Do you seek knowledge, power, or wealth? Seek to master certain skills or learn the truths behind some of life's biggest mysteries? Do you spend your time trying to better life for humanity?

What happens if humanity dies out? You become the last one left? Living your days in solitude, yearning for human contact? What if the Earth ceases to exist?

So, do you wish to become immortal?