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we don't want our names on the internet so we have instead delegated to everyone using their hexcode color as their tag. we have too many alters to do color names. also that's too many extra names to make and remember.

our collective name is spacebar. the keyboard spacebar (⌨️ anon. we have a main that we are not sharing). we are bodily adult 21↑, they/them pronouns.

we have a youtube channel with the same blog name and it has some stories on there if interested. it's just a lot of yapping.

this blog is just random thoughts and comics occasionally.

our stance is you don't get to police other people. systems have it hard enough.

asks are always open.

#system blog #plurality #plural #endo safe

journal-factory-exploded

Head has been really fuzzy. No...

Not confirmed but now I gotta keep an eye out just in case..

#:'D same for the past 2 days!#hope that weird ass presence doesn't become an alter!!!!

new profile picture

photobashing is a fun thing to try out sometime

#it's space #and a keyboard #spacebar!#because we like space and astronomy and also like typing we have a wpm of 80 it used to be 100 #we like writing sometimes. we write a lot. too much. but also writing creatively. we like words.#also we don't really call ourselves 'spacebar system' or 'spacebar collective' we are just. spacebar.#but i mean other ppl can call us spacebar system we don't care #it's a perception things probably but we literally do not care how you refer to us

Upsetting that the alter that formed 3 weeks ago, who we thought was a temporary fragment and was no longer going to exist in 2 days, has not only continued to exist, but has caused our system to become healthier.

He has 1) consistently reminded us to shower on a VERY timely basis and also has continuously PESTERED us to shower even when we didn't want to, 2) has made us remember to brush our teeth EVERY night despite not doing that consistently previously due to depression + poor hygienic living conditions, 3) CONSTANTLY not slouching 24/7 and not feeling tired about not slouching????, 4) has done FULL ON "light workout" exercises while he fronts, 5) has made us want to read physical books again (because he does that in his source) (i was convinced to read a physical book because "it's better than scrolling" when our phone ran out of battery and my computer was not convenient to get.)

this all happened because he formed, and his passive influence has caused all of us to become more physically healthier (at least it's much better than before).

*sigh*

... i hate this system what the fuck do you mean this all happened because ONE SINGULAR ALTER FORMED AND WE'VE BECOME HEALTHIER (ish) BECAUSE OF ONE!!!! SINGULAR!!!!! ALTER!!!!!!!!!!

JUST ONE!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#plural #plurality #plural blog #plural system #pluralblr #plural community #alter 454d44 #plural stuff

found a new term that i think fits us better.?

to emphasize/clarify, some alters view ourselves as traumagenic some view as mixed origins. but this term is middle ground in a way that makes us pleased with identifying with it.

as for system/collective... we can't agree on a term. some prefer "system" because "it's the common term" while some prefer "collective" because we feel more like multiple people living in a body rather than fragments of a whole, even if we will recognize some alters as fragments of the consciousness.

whatever is comfortable for the system really! i personally like this term. plus, the way pluralpedia defines it matches our experiences. or like, we identify with those definitions.

#alter db76bf

leathersys

missing

leathersys

highlighting these tags because they put the experience into words perfectly

#... our host... died for a lack of a better word.#one avoided front #one self-dormanted #one got their memories wiped #and we start splitting alters much more easily #we.. we still refer to them a lot. because the one that avoided front still come by once in awhile #he kept being triggered to front because he was the cohost but couldnt take being in front anymore because he knew his best friend just die #there's a lot of extra complicated feeling from newer hosts about that particular host. never living up to them. constant depersonalization #there... wasn't any closure.#in a way it's similar to irl grief when someone close to you leaves. you have to move on eventually. life does go on.#we have a weird situation where a year later a facsimile of that host formed but they aren't a host. just a fragment.#don't know if their whole purpose was to give a weird sense of closure/false closure but they. exist.#sorry for yapping. we have a lot of complicated feelings about their death and how it affected us.#actually... i think that goes for every system that had a host death/dormancy.

box-of-crayola

“ True Colors. ”

#*someone at the back of our head* woah. same.#it shattered the system. but now we prefer this new us.

reminder: i am not actually jax from tadc, just minorly based off of tadc as a show

reread some personal journal entries. i don't like our past.

#plural #plurality #plural blog #plural system #pluralblr #plural community #alter ajax #plural art #plural comic

doodle go

#also this made us realize that we have difference preferences to drawing hands..?? maybe??? it's only been 2 days but there's certainly been #discrepancies that were really noticeable for us at least. more in the process rather than the result of the hand.

I NEVER POSTED ANYTHING PRIDE

anyway happy pride gang

we're the spacebar on a keyboard aka we collectively identify as an agender thing

#this ties in with how we view ourselves and how we work but that's for another time #still stewing on the wording for that monoconsciousness comic (it's been weeks)

plural-culture-is

plural culture is "my child is completely fine!" ma'ma your child's headmates are actively planning what to say the next time you piss them off

#bonus points if said child is completely gone #< prev tags #<:D mood

foggity

Is it a headmate? Is it a fragment? Is it a facet? Is it a persona? Am I subconsciously masking? Am I subconsciously/involuntarily otherlinking/copinglinking? Is it a kinshift? Is it a ’flicker? Is it age regression? Is it a mood? Is it impulsivity? Is it an intrusive thought that I’m reacting to? Is it genderfluidity? Is it pronoun/namefluidity?

Who knows! Who cares! I don’t need to stress about this, it doesn’t matter! It’s a mode that the “I” is in, the way I feel in that moment! And I will make a pluralkit/tupperbox/simplyplural for it so I can express myself and decide the rest later! Or never! These labels are a construct! Personhood itself is a construct! I don’t need to box myselves! I can just live!

tearfully sheds a tear and tears a tear from my tear

damn i'm not getting engagement how to the people on the internet get famous