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[santostrife]

Hey all! So, I've been having financial struggles recently due to the combination of ongoing unemployment, and rising cost of living- but most of all due to massive credit card debt weighing on me & my family. More information is in the GFM link below:

Donate to Help in Clearing Santos' Family's Debt, organized by Santos S

Hello, my name is Santos! Never thought I'd have to set something like this up + it fe… Santos S needs your support for Help in Clearing San

Please, if you love my work on Sovereignstuck or otherwise, the support in reaching my goal would be so so greatly appreciated.

[pawsome38]

do you think my miis will like it

[randomuserartist]

I'd eat it

[adultishhh]

This may be the wrong place to write this, but I feel that it needs to be shared - even if only for my sake. For as long as I can remember, I have done absolutely everything for everyone in my life - but myself. I made choices to please others. I placed in top percentiles and performed memorized speeches on high stages. I earned the title of valedictorian, and I graduated high school with a 4.58 GPA and 25+ hours of college credit already completed. I earned a full ride scholarship studying nursing in order to one day become the nurse practitioner turned doctor of nursing practice that everyone has counted on since day one. I’ve made it to my junior year with a college GPA of a 4.0 - thus far. I’ve won awards too numerous to count, as well as scholarship money in abundance. I’ve maintained the “high school sweetheart” relationship that I formed when I was in 8th grade for nearly 7 years now. My life has been perfect? How could I possibly complain? What people refuse to see is that I haven’t felt a genuine happy in what feels like decades. I have been robbed of every choice that I could have ever possibly made due to the fear of disappointing those who have already invested so much time and energy into crafting me. What of them if I fail? What people don’t see is the generalized anxiety disorder I was diagnosed with as a senior in high school, the OCD tendencies, the vomit by the toilet due to stress-induced nausea, the numerous doctor’s appointments, the negative impact on my physical health, and the spiritual distress. In the past, I accepted these things as normal. I would tell myself that once I got through this semester I would be happy- or done with this year, or undergrad, etc. I used to think that it was because I wasn’t brave or smart enough. I always felt like I was “faking it,” despite having the grades and skills to complete the job. I’ve had the past four months of summer vacation to reflect on these feelings. I’ve come to the conclusion that I was “faking it.” Not in the sense that I didn’t belong in the field or that I wasn’t capable, but I was faking it because instead of taking another theater class I took more STEM. Instead of going to see Shakespeare in the park, I chose studying myself to death. I gave up reading romance novels for pharmacology. I stopped making art in order to create more time for making flash cards. Somewhere along the way I lost who I was in others, school, relationships, and illness. I don’t know how to go about rediscovering myself and finding balance in the world that I have created for myself for so long, but I think that I’m ready to break down my own walls. I refuse to be scared anymore. I’ve braved this storm for so long that I have now become it, and I think that is something worth fighting for.

[randomuserartist]

I heavily relate to what you're going through op, even if you don't see this. I'm gonna be graduating soon as the valedictorian of my class and I can't help but feel like I've done next to nothing to deserve it. I do really well in school most of the time and get good grades, but I feel like that's just to survive school, not because I really wanted to get them I guess? I put 110% effort in my assignments which I'm not confident is worth it half the time when someone can pass with the bare minium; it makes me feel silly. But even then I'm choosing to go into a field of work that isn't always profitable or stable because I feel that is my calling, to animate and make stories. And even when I feel like I'm wasting time that I could be doing something more important or profitable, I just remember that there are people who care about my art and stories and are actively waiting for more.

Everything that you described sounds a lot like how I am with being a gifted kid. I wanted to please others out of the irrational anxiety I have of being hurt. But I learned that's no way to live and that I would slowly wilt away giving everything to everybody else, almost being a husk of my true self. I feared being selfish and having an ego, but sometimes you have to be selfish to do things for your own benefit. And those who support you will support you if they truly love you. It takes a lot of effort every day to remind myself what I want to do with my life and to wake up and actually do it, even if it's hard, scary, and I end up really busy. I didn't have to make this, but conquering that anxiety of speaking out feels right for me. It's gonna take a while I feel like to find yourself, but it'll be so worth it in the end.

Reblog to let prev know their presence is wanted

[timsplayhouse]

Reblog this to sprinkle some love on prev!

[weaver-z]

Every time I remember that dramatic Minecraft comic someone cropped the bottom two panels from, I have to take a break to cackle at it

[weaver-z]

[randomuserartist]

Got jumpscared seeing this initially

[lschmidtartblog]

A very American Girl holiday! Probably my last major art for the year so I returned to something familiar and comforting to me. This year has been weird and long but I'm still kicking somehow.

[randomuserartist]

@hello-miss-kittredge

Thought you'd like this :3

[randomuserartist]

Just saw a beautiful sunset and I'm mad that my phone camera doesn't do it justice (less vibrant colors ToT)

It doesn't help I'm also listening to Deemo's soundtrack feeling all magical like oiahghhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭

[warmfigure]

i am massively overdue for a very very good week where not a single bad thing happens and everything is easy

[unlettered-heathen]

reblog to give prev a very good week where not a single bad thing happens and everything is easy

[randomuserartist]

Sending good week powers to you <3

[willgrahamscock]

[theebbestboy]

[a-sentient-cup]

[virtualgirladvance]

[sausaged-rat]

[inzanitie]

tumblr doing funny things

[randomuserartist]

Weening it (it's November now)

[randomuserartist]

The bingo mindset

Me: a true game of bingo is built on chance and luck, not to judge the player. These numbers are given to me as a random circumstance, and there is no bias at play, just pure happenstance

Also me: ONE MORE BABY LET'S GO ONE MORE JUST ONE MORE GIVE ME A 6 DAMNMIT IF SOMEONE ELSE GETS IT I SWEAR TO GOD JUST ONE MORE ONE MORE!!!!!

[lizardanya]

serket md

[randomuserartist]

@aluria-sevhex

Thought you'd like this, glad I saw the gif first

[risingsunresistance]

I FOUND THE REST OF IT

[aluria-reblogs]

@randomuserartist

[randomuserartist]

Holy shit I think I found the actual series on YouTube at some point or something verrryyyy similar

[randomuserartist]

trick or treat

gnerpy ice cream (cookies n cream :3)

[epicsause-official]

was too lazy to figure out that juggling thing so had to make due with ms paint

[randomuserartist]

Check out the b a

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[skaiawards]

I'm afraid I can't do that, Dave.

[thanook]

i call this one the group therapy session