Hey
Do you ever find yourself being happy and sad at the same time? Like hoarding all the party balloons and watch them pop one by one? Hey guess who does, huh. Tell me about it.
I don’t understand though.
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No, I really do. I just can’t grasp the whole situation right now. Or maybe I can I just don’t. I don’t even know if this is just PMS like wth homegirl you start having PMS now?? What’s next drowning into some tub of vanilla ice cream?? Oh pls.
I just start noticing things now and I realized I’ve already noticed way before, I was just being too positive about them but then reality still bites no matter how I try to dodge it away.
Why are people awful.
Why do they have to be so gddmn awful.
Why does the universe slap you with awfulness at times you feel the worst and still try to feel the best.
Then again, tomorrow is another day. Then again, you have to put your faith in humanity. Then again, you have to keep your strings together beause who else will. Then again, you have to keep reminding yourself this is not the perfect life you’ll ever have until Jesus comes back.
Only then you feel better. Only then you start to acknowledge all the awful things (and people) and grow from them and not be like them. Only then you start collecting party balloons no matter how crappy you feel. Only then you believe being happy does not mean being okay.
All is well, homegirl.
You can be struggling but can still be happy. Because the joy comes from what is promised and what is to come and what is already given but has its perfect time.
Again, homegirl, repeat after me:
Being happy does not mean being okay.







