gansey abandoning the idea of waking the line when blue tells him someone was "badly hurt"; gansey's narration treating both ronan and adam's deaths as a bleak inevitability, the source of all his terror; gansey telling adam "i paid your hospital bill" and expecting adam to fight back; adam NOT fighting back and it somehow being the worst thing about the whole situation; gansey always worried he'd find adam alive but with something important beaten out of him; don't go back there, i'll take you anywhere, it doesn't have to be monmouth, just get in the car, please; adam hates flying because you have to give up control; if i go with you i'll be yours, gansey. i'm his now and then i'll be yours; he likes all of his things in one place; gansey at his most controlling and powerful-seeming as he forbids any of them to wake the line, as if it's his decision to make, as if he's the arbiter of their autonomy; (the same gansey that told adam "you're coming with me" after adam got hit, the same gansey whose parents taught him to cover fear and sadness with a powerful smile and handshake); gansey thinking about malory's friend getting badly hurt and adam already badly hurt and gansey unable to do anything about it; adam thinking about how he's lost everything and he needs that favor and it doesn't Matter if he gets hurt, i'm all hurt up; adam thinking gansey is doing all of this for the sake of control because he's too privileged to ever understand risk or sacrifice or autonomy; adam laying in monmouth believing himself one of gansey's things, playing gansey's words over and over; there was something unfamiliar in adam's eyes, something that made blue think she didn't really know him at all; "i'm not betraying him, when i come back we'll be equals" he owns me he owns me it was all for nothing; "don't throw it away" "i'm trying not to"; noah waking gansey; gansey couldn't understand why adam had done this, something kept fracturing inside him; whelk pointed the gun at gansey and adam threw himself into the circle
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