So ever since i rewatched Fugou Keiji: balance unlimited, i've been having big Daiharu brain rot (i think my countless daiharu fanart reblogs could attest to that). And i think of various scenarios for them but there's one scenario that's recurrent and it's based on the author once saying that he loves the idea of broke Daisuke after the end of show, like how everyone Adollium being out spells trouble for him but people turned down this concept cause it doesn't match with Daisuke's image.
Well, personally, i absolutely love this scenario too! It's brilliant and can be really touching when done properly, it involves Daisuke questioning his whole identity now that he's not rich anymore and having to be confronted with some painful realities about himself. So i compiled some headcanons concerning this scenario cause it's almost always on my mind:
It starts by Daisuke waking up one morning in his temporary hostel and about to leave for work until the clerk at the entrance stops him and tell him that his payment was refused, that's when something feels off for Daisuke. He tries to reach HEUSC to ask him to contact Suzue but no one answers, there's only static noise and he pulls out his card to pay the guy but it get refused again, after pulling out a lot of cards that get all refused. The guy looks at him embarrassed like "dude you still gotta pay" and since it's Daisuke it was, of course, a very fancy hotel. Daisuke tries to not panic but he's clearly panicking and Suzue is still on holidays so she won't be of any help and he doesn't know anyone who he can ask for help aside from his partner, Haru.
Daisuke blanched cause he really didn't wanna meddle Haru into this,but from the looks of it, there's no other solution. So, Daisuke begrudgingly called Haru and when Haru got there, Daisuke told him his card kept getting refused and he seemed clearly distressed by then and embarrassed to be in this situation, Haru looked at the bill and hissed in pain but called his bank to draw from his economy, Daisuke flinched and shrinked in on himself when he heard that phone call. When they got to Haru's place, Daisuke explained the situation and his confusion and, honestly, Haru was barely hearing him cause the only thing he was thinking of was that he actually spent all his economies in a hotel bill, economies he spent 5 years gathering and setting aside for some nice holidays. When he snapped out of his daze, he was weighing out whether he should tell Daisuke that those were his economy, in the end, he actually told him just that and Daisuke just looked away and didn't apologize. That was a wrong move, cause Haru took that very badly and told him "Oh my god, i can't believe it, i can't believe you, you're not even gonna apologize!" Daisuke muttered "even if i apologize, what good would it bring? we need to work on solving this problem the fastest possible" Haru got even more pissed off "I know we should, but it wouldn't kill you to actually say "i'm sorry, Haru" or even "thank you for helping me, Haru", i don't think your rich brain can grasp this but those were my economies and i had made so many plans on how to use them and spending them all on one hotel bill that wasn't even for me sure as hell wasn't my plan!!" and at this point, he's screaming and waving franctically, but he doesn't stop there "i've always known you were self-centered, irresponsible and spoiled, but surely you must grasp the extent to which this situation is problematic! We're not all rich, i don't have an unlimited fund, if i lose this money, the only way i'll get it back is by working hard and breaking my back and even then i'll still have to wait another 5 or 6 years to get it all back, i'll be 34 or 35 by then, that's a lot of time! I'm not ever gonna get the break i wished for all just cause you felt like sleeping in an ovepriced hotel and for what? huh?"
At this point, Daisuke's lip is trembling and he feels dangerously close to crying but he's trying very hard to keep it together, he could never stand when people yell at him. One time, his dad did for something stupid he had done and Daisuke couldn't look at him in the eyes for a whole week. Daisuke kept his eyes fixated on his shoes biting his nails franctically (a nervous habit he never managed to get rid of). After a moment of silence and Haru drinking water and exhaling to calm himself, a moment where Daisuke pondered about 10 times whether he could just get up and leave like that but he decided against it, it'd make the situation worse, so he just sat on the couch thinking about what Haru told him and how to fix his problem. When Haru made sure he was fully calm and could speak with a steady voice, he asked him when Suzue was coming back, Daisuke replied that it was due in 5 days, Haru replied "okay, that's not that long, in the meantime we'll investigate why you can't use HEUSC anymore and you'll be staying at my place. I've notified the chief that we won't be around for the morning and we'll try to come back in the afternoon, so that should give us some time to start thinking and compiling facts" Daisuke was shocked that Haru wanted to help him anyways, and he was looking at him with bare surprise on his face, and he actually said "I'm confused, you were just screaming that you've had it with me and now you wanna help me?" Haru sighed "I'm still frustrated at that and i had to scream to get it out of my system, otherwise it would have bugged me and stuck to me, but even if you're annoying and you make questionable decisions, I promised myself when i gave you back your badge back then on the beach that i'd try to understand you and see things from your perspective in these cases and not let you push me away like you did with your mom's case." Haru was bashful after that and hesitated to say the second part of his speech, but he did anyways "...and sorry for screaming at you, i think it's just the shock of losing my economies all at once and you not apologizing that fueled me to do that, but i guess it's like you said, apologizing won't bring my money back. You must be as shocked as i am to lose all your money at once especially since you've always had it and you've always had comfort your whole life, that's someting i can bounce back from but i'm not sure you will so soon" then with a softer voice, he continued " and of course i'll help you, you're my partner, i can't leave you alone in this situation, you're not alone, you'll never be alone and i'll make sure of it so don't panic, it might seem scary now but we'll figure it out step by step and this situation will soon be resolved and you'll move past it in no time, okay? it's gonna be fine, i promise you" to punctuate his words, Haru squeezed Daisuke's shoulder comfortingly.
Daisuke, by this point, couldn't believe what he was hearing, he couldn't believe that even if Haru thought he was annoying and even if he wasted his whole economies because of his hotel bill, he still wanted to stay with him and help him through this and what's more, he actually apologized for screaming at him even if everything he had said was true and it's what Daisuke had needed to hear no matter how painful it was. At some point during Haru's speech, Daisuke started crying and now when he tried to speak to reply to Haru and apologize, all he could do was choke out unintelligible words and a sob that escaped him. Gosh, he had made such a mess of himself, he was no longer the cool and composed Daisuke, now he felt like a little boy who did a mistake and was scolded by his parents but then gently comforted cause they can't stay mad at him for too long. It was a weird feeling to look so vulnerable in front of Haru, of all people. He covered his face and lowered it in shame, waiting to calm down but sobbing and shaking uncontrollably instead.
Haru, on his side, started panicking cause he thought he had made Daisuke cry with his screaming and he was nervous cause it was the first time he had seen his partner break down like this and he hated to see him this sad and know he was the cause. He knew he was in his right to yell and be frustrated but maybe he went a bit too hard on it. So, unsure of what to do, he apologized once again for good measure and complimented him to cheer him up (that's what always worked with his little sister so he hoped it will with Daisuke too) "hey, please don't cry, again i'm really sorry i screamed at you, you're not that irresponsible and self-centered - well maybe still a bit for the second -, i know you're trying hard to improve yourself and it's a bit tough but i acknowledge your progress and i'm glad to see you try and not give up on it, it's a brave thing to do" Daisuke looked up after taking a sip of water, and could finally say with a small voice "i'm so sorry for making you waste all your money on my mistake, and i can't believe you did it, any other person would have stormed off and never answered my call ever again, forget the fact that we were partners...but you're not any other person, are you?" Daisuke smiled a bit through his tears "I'm not crying cause you screamed at me, i had to hear those words anyways, i'm crying cause i can't believe you still choose to help me despite me messing up this badly and ruining you financially, i'm crying cause...i'm almost gonna be 28 and i'm broke and i don't know how to do the most basic things: i don't know how to do the dishes, how to cook, how to do the laundry, how to grocery shop and so on, it's so damn pathetic. The Kambe Daisuke everyone looks up to and fear is now 28, he's broke and he's gonna crash in his partner's couch and depend on him to teach him almost every basic thing we teach 5 years old children cause without his money he's absolutely...useless and nothing" Daisuke's shoulders sagged after saying this. Realization hit him hard and he laid his head against the back of the couch, utterly at loss as to what to do next. Haru didn't know what to do to comfort him but he knew one thing for sure and that was that he wanted to hug Daisuke so badly right now cause that's what Haru always does when he sees someone crying and it did work in the past to calm his friends down, so he just laid his head beside him on the couch and shyly asked him "i know you're touch-averse but, just for this one, would it be okay if i hug you? that's what i usually do to comfort others and it mostly works but if you don't want to, it's okay too i can just-" Haru cut himself short when he felt Daisuke's head on his shoulder and his arms wrapping around his waist a bit hesitantly but, eventually, tightly. Haru responded accordingly and put his arm around Daisuke's shoulder and hugged him tightly. After a while, he told him "Hey, don't be so hard on yourself, you're not useless without your money and you'll find your footing even if it takes a while to solve this issue, it takes a lot of guts to be ready to re-learn every basic thing again at your age and most people would give up before even starting, but you're resilient and that's why i know you'll learn fast and you'll get it all in no time. You have a lot of good qualities that are not intrinsically related to your status, and besides, look at it this way: you'll learn new things and you'll get to perfect yourself at them and maybe you'll end up liking one of them a lot, isn't that exciting? It's like a whole new adventure, and i know it terrifies you to not have HEUSC at your disposal and to be left with nothing in your account but don't even worry about that, like i said," he squeezed his shoulder and said in a whisper, "i got you, okay? you'll be fine, Kambe Daisuke" Daisuke noticed he has noticeably calmed down and his sobs and crying stopped while Haru was talking, and he squeezed his waist as a reply to notify him that he heard him "Thanks, Katou"
They stayed like this for a while, then when Daisuke opened his eyes again, he realized they fell asleep and parted from Haru - against his volition, if it were up to him, he'd stay there all day but they have things to do - he stopped a moment to look fondly at Haru's sleeping face. He shook him several times to wake him, and when he woke up, Haru immediately asked him if he's feeling better, to which Daisuke nodded. Haru was a bit awkward, then said "Well, we should get to work to find out what's at the source of this" and when Daisuke heard the "we", he couldn't help his smile and did the second spontaneous physical move of the day - for someone who pushed away Haru two weeks ago on the ship when he had tried to help him stand up, Daisuke surprised himself greatly with how touchy he was today, but then he chalked it up to the circumstances and left it at that - and hugged Haru again just as tightly as he did the first time.
Haru was surprised too judging by the little "whoa, Kambe!" but eventually, he hugged him back and rubbed his back cause he remembered Daisuke mentioned once that his mom always did that when they hugged and it made him happy. When they parted again, Haru wanted to ask what was that for, but he retained himself, he didn't wanna fluster Kambe more than this.
The next day, they get ready to go to work only to find that Haru's car broke down and can't start, Haru sighs and turns to Daisuke to say "well, your first lessons out there: we'll have to take the subway to get to work cause the car broke down, and we have to walk fast, if i start to run, you follow me and keep my pace cause the train comes only every 20mn and if we don't catch the next one, we'll be super late" then they start walking rapidly, out of nowhere, Haru checks the clock, curses, say "okay, now mad sprint" and starts to run like crazy and Daisuke is confused but, as per Haru's words, follows him. They barely reach the train, with Daisuke almost trapping his arm in the automatic doors. Panting, Daisuke asks him if they'll have to do this everyday, Haru chuckles and says "nah, we just had to run today cause i didn't expect the car to break down, next time we'll leave earlier and walk calmly" Daisuke cautiously asks "how...earlier?" "uhh like, 7:15 so we have to wake up at 6am to have enough time to prepare, especially if you take as much time as you did today with your skin routine and makeup plus breakfast" Daisuke blinked "you want me to wake up at 6am??" "no I don't want you to wake up, your work, on the other hand..." Daisuke groaned and covered his face. Haru actually laughed at that "No more beauty sleep for you, sorry princess, but i think the car shouldn't take too long to be fixed if you want good news" Daisuke blushed a bit when Haru called him that, and he half-assedly pouted and riposted "don't call me princess!" and ignored his fast-beating heart.
When Daisuke showered at Haru's place, the hot water ran out and Daisuke found himself with cold, freezing water and had to call Haru, Haru fixed the heater but told him it could take some time for the hot water to come back and so Daisuke had to use lukewarm water that Haru has heated up on the stove to finish his shower. Later at night, Haru debated whether he should apologize or not and he ended up doing it so he told Daisuke: "Hey, i'm sorry for putting you in this kind of embarrassing situation where you have to shower with cold water, i'm a bit ashamed given you're a Kambe and you probably never experienced this before and i'm sure if Suzue saw this, she'd probably be scolding me", Daisuke couldn't believe what he was hearing, so he scoffed in surprise: "You're ashamed? If anything, i'm the one who's the most ashamed of the two of us, i mean, look at me, i'm 28 and i don't even know where the heater is, let alone how to fix it, i'm just glad you were around otherwise i would have finished with a cold due to a frozen shower," he sighed "right now, it doesn't matter that i'm a Kambe, i'm just a broke 28 year old guy who doesn't know how to do the most basic thing on his own, and i gotta say if this experience doesn't humble me, i don't know what will" he chuckled at that, then continued with a small smile and a light squeeze of Haru's hand, "thanks for being around, i probably would be worse for wear now if you weren't around", Haru was taken aback by this confession, seems like becoming broke has pushed Daisuke to be a lot more vulnerable than what he was when he was a millionaire, but Haru didn't complain one bit, if anything, he preferred this version of Daisuke a lot more. He squeezed his hand back and smiled back warmly "hey, i told you i was gonna be there, didn't I?" and the smile Daisuke returned him was so genuine, Haru wondered of the things he'd be willing to do to see more of it
Then, when Daisuke fixes the situations 5 months later and becomes rich again, i have another headcanon on how things fold out after that:
Daisuke wakes up one morning and it's their day off, he receives a call from Suzue as he's taking his breakfast with Haru in silence, she excitedly tells hims to check his balance and he does so and finds he uncovered all of his balance as it was months ago, she explained how she fixed the issue then they hang up. Haru gets the gist from how loud she was talking, he smiles at Daisuke and says, "Congrats, you're now back to being Kambe properly, no more running after trains or doing groceries or stuff like that. I guess you'll wanna move out now and look for a bigger apartment, this small place must have gotten stuffy for you after 5 months of cohabitation" Haru chuckled but Daisuke could sense it was a bit awkward and felt a bit sad, Daisuke thought about it and replied "Yeah i might move out, but we'll see the details for later".
Flashforward to a few weeks later, when Daisuke takes Haru to see an apartment with him, Haru marvels at how big it is, and turns to Daisuke to tell him, "You're thinking of taking this one?" "Yeah i think i'll settle for this one, it's well-located and spacious enough but not too large and it has a balcony and it's not so far from work which is perfect", Haru can't help looking downcast for a brief moment. At first, he wondered how he could support Daisuke for 5 whole months but they ended up being possibly the best 5 months of his year so far, they had, unexpectedly, a lot of fun and laughed a lot and Haru got to see some sides of Daisuke he never thought the man would ever show anyone. Haru realized he's gonna miss all of this...a lot, actually. When they got to Haru's apartment and two hours later Daisuke was done packing, he had his baggages by the door, all ready to leave. Both were hesitating on what to say, until Haru broke the ice by chuckling and saying "this is so stupid, why are we so awkward? i'm literally gonna see you again tomorrow at work and everyday after that, that's not a permanent farewell", they both knew this was true but at the same time, it was different, they would both go back to empty houses from now on.
Daisuke took a deep breath and hugged Haru, who was startled, and whispered, "Thanks for everything, i don't think i could have made it these past months without your help" Haru smiled and rubbed his back soothingly, it was an answer on its own and Daisuke knew how to intepret it and it was enough between them.
When Daisuke got to his new house, it felt suddenly too big for him and he headed straight to his bed. It was already night so he made to sleep early, but he found he couldn't, there was something choking him and blocking his chest and it ached so much he found it hard to breathe properly. He sat up and tried to calm down but he couldn't, so, out of reflex, he called Haru's name but no one answered and he felt so small and scared and alone and he hated this feeling. Any other day, he would have hesitated to do what he did next, but tonight he just knew one thing, he didn't want to bear this feeling any second more. He asked HEUSC to bring the car around, set it on automatic, and headed to Haru's place. Once there, he climbed the stairs almost by two in his haste, knocked on Haru's door. By the time it took for Haru to open the door, Daisuke had already regretted his decision a thousand time but found he couldn't move from his spot or go back to the car like nothing happend so he stayed rooted there until Haru opened the door and was utterly surprised to find a tear stained face Daisuke on the side of the door. "Kambe?? What are you doing here? Come, we'll talk inside" Haru ushered him inside. Daisuke gradually found it easier to breathe and calm down in this familiar space he had gotten accustomed to.
Haru sat down him and asked him what's wrong, he kept a protective hand on his shoulder and concern was all over his face. Daisuke smiled, and simply answered with a small voice, "I wasn't ready to sleep on my own again after so long", Haru smiled in relief "You worried me, i thought something had happened, now let's wipe those tears from your face and get you to sleep". After they were laid down in bed, Daisuke on the mattress and Haru on the futon, Daisuke took advantage of the fact that it was nighttime and his face wasn't very visible to ask, "Katou, can i tell you something?" Haru hummed in approval, Daisuke pursued "I don't think i wanna live alone, when you lived your whole life chasing something you used to briefly have knowing you'll never have it again, after some time it becomes okay to bear the pain of acknowledging that it's just how it is and you'll never find it again, but when you find something great again after losing hope for so long, you don't wanna let it go and it becomes unbearable to stay on your own - when you did it for 20 years with no issues - knowing the thing you want the most and that'll make you happy is still around, so i just...it's funny to realize that i couldn't stay this one single night on my own after sharing your company for 5 months but i was in such a hurry to leave my grandmother the moment she had suggested i go study abroad.", he sighed "What i mean to say is, i'm not quite ready yet to stay on my own and i don't want to prepare myself nor do i want to have to face this loneliness again so...would you like to move in with me?" Haru's breath hitched at that, he had been facing the wall while Daisuke was speaking, and wasn't waiting for this at all. He whirled to look at Daisuke and the millionaire did the same thing at the same time, the latter smiled a bit sheepishly, Haru looked at him with wide eyes.
"You're asking me...to move in with you? For real?" disbelief was obvious in Haru's voice
"Yeah, why does it sound so weird to you?"
"It doesn't, it's just...i wasn't ready for this, i need to prepare myself mentally"
"...usually when people say that, it's preceded by a refusal"
Haru saw and heard the doubt creep into Daisuke's composure and seep into his voice, it made him seem small and insecure, the total opposite of the confident and cocky detective he always see and it was a weird sight and one totally not suited to Daisuke. Haru sighed, got out of his bed and settled in beside Daisuke, but since the mattress was small, Daisuke found himself with his head on Haru's chest and with the older man's arms wrapped around his shoulder to prevent him from falling and if this particular moment gave him déja vu of him and his mother, Daisuke chased the thought away instantly and locked it in his mind because if he lingered too much in it, he'd cry and he had already been this close to crying with no incentive, he didn't need one now. Haru looked down at him very fondly and said with a soft voice that was a bit above a whisper to not disturb the quietness of the night, "I had a lot of fun with you these past 5 months and i gotta admit i was sad when you said you were gonna move in in this new apartment cause I immediately knew it'd be the end of a short era of us cohabiting but i didn't want to hold you back cause you don't like clinginess so I just started to work on making my peace with the fact that you're gone and we'll only see each other at work, but then I saw you at the door earlier with your tear-stained face and red eyes, and I wanted to beat myself up mentally because the first reaction I had was being elated that you actually came back and i should have been sad to see you crying but I was just so happy to see you again and when you said that earlier, i thought 'oh gosh, he thinks the same as me but he actually said it!' I was so sure I was gonna be the first one to cave in but seeing it's you who did it greatly surprised me" he exhaled softly to regain his breath and he started to card his hand through Daisuke's hair as he continued, "In the past months, i feel like i was starting to understand you a bit better and decipher your emotions with more accuracy but i still could never accurately guess how you felt toward me most of the time and it frustrated me, so i guess when i heard you say all of this now, it was like a whiplash all at once cause you confimed my most optimistic expectations." Haru squeezed his foreram for a bit before saying, "So, to answer your question: yes, Kambe Daisuke, i'd very much like to move in with you, thanks for asking"
Daisuke's eyes widened and he parted from Haru momentarily to take a good look at his face to see that he meant it and he wasn't joking. "You mean it?" he felt like a child once again when his parents would tell him they'd take him to the amusement park for the whole day and he would tremble with excitement and he'd need to confirm their word ten times before beliving it. Haru grinned "You know i do", Daisuke couldn't contain his smile anymore and he let it show across his face, he knew he was smiling widely and it was, after 20 years, a smile that was properly reaching his eyes when he felt himself tear up and he discreetely wiped at the corner of his eyes - that's the second time this night he's crying, that's a bit embarrassing - before lunging at Haru and hugging him very tightly. They stayed like this for a long time, neither wanting to let go, Daisuke felt so at peace and Haru too, although he was still a bit stunned to see Daisuke smile this brightly at him for the first time.
I have other headcanons but i'll put them in a separate post and stop here with this one, cause it's turning into a fiction and not a list of headcanons but it's cause i missed writing non-academic stuff soo much i got carried away and i have big Daiharu brainrot these days
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