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DID blog @reflectionfamily

Witchy blog @themoonwitches

Jewish conversion journey @the-jewess-in-progress

Lyric paraphrasing & poetry blog @lyrics-are-poetry

Misc blog @reflections-shitposts

1cebittentwicehigh

What is there to talk about?

You said, "What is there to talk about?", like we were a cancelled show and not two people who bled into each other for years.

Like the only thing I ever gave you was romance. Like my voice was only valuable when it was begging.

I didn’t stop loving you. I stopped volunteering to be reduced. I stopped performing devotion for someone who treated my own needs like betrayal.

And when I offered friendship. I wasn’t offering scraps. I was offering proof that what we had was more than chemistry and control.

But you couldn’t take it, because friendship doesn’t let you win. Friendship doesn’t let you punish. Friendship doesn’t let you keep me on a leash with the word love.

So you rejected it with a line. "What is there to talk about?". Cold, clean, smug.

Translation:

“If I can’t have you the way I want, I don’t want you at all.”

And honestly? That told me everything.

You didn’t want me. You wanted the version of me that stayed. The one who swallowed discomfort to keep the peace. The one who apologized for having needs. The one who kept trying even when trying was humiliating.

You called it love.

But love doesn’t vanish the moment it loses access.

Love doesn’t turn into silence as punishment.

Love doesn’t ask for romance or nothing.

So yeah, maybe there isn’t anything left to talk about, not because we ran out of words, but because you ran out of ways to control the conversation.

tell me we’re different

look me in the eyes with your face to mine

see the scars on my arms and the pain behind my eyes

and tell me you’re better

you’re more worthy

different

separate

whole

tell me that the scars on your lungs are less harmful

tell me that the parts of yourself you’ve had to bury are dead

tell me that the character you created and drew holds no part of your soul and never spoke to you

we are no different from you, truly

we just try like hell - as much as we want to pretend like we don’t exist - to claw our way into the depths of ourselves, whether we find hell or heaven there we don’t know

but when we return we cry out for anyone on the outside to hear of our journey and share their own in response

even those who don’t live out their fantasy in reality live it every day in their minds

whether it’s heaven or hell is on us

#pluralgang #trauma #humans #community #poetry

1cebittentwicehigh

This date, last year, we were at Wall Street in NYC and I noticed this building and took a picture because I recognized it from all the John Wick folks and the Continental TV series (among lots of other films like the Matrix Revolutions).

Watching the Ballerina and we did this side by side video against my picture.

reflectionfamily

It’s not mania, it could be the start of something more. It’s never too late to catch the warning signs.

stargazers-satellite

my partner said something that kinda rocked my world

queermasculine

never "look inside" yourself btw i just tried it and there was already someone in there looking back it was so awkward

motherblackcap

@funnier-as-a-system

pukicho

I got so many fucking love in my souls

knightpilled

why do you have more than one soul

pukicho

Irrelevant

butter-and-too-much-bread

@funnier-as-a-system

fictive-culture

fictive culture is what do you MEAN there is literally hundreds of pieces of fanart of me and somehow NONE of them are accurate enough for a pfp??????

this-is-intersexism

the lack of recognition of how bathroom bills affect intersex people is intersexism.

this laws are usually pushed under transmisic agenda, and it's fair that trans rights advocacy addresses transmisia in these campains and laws. but these laws also affect intersex people.

some intersex people look visibly sex variant. and they are also seen as a threat to the sex and gender essentionalism. transmisia and intersexism are intertwined and may become inseparable in some parts.

intersex people are also at risk in gendered spaces. we can also be harassed, banned, charged for "violation," face various violence.

it's important to recognize that risk and remember about intersex people in discussions of these laws.

palmate-deactivated20250719

Before discovering I had DID, I was very skeptical of those who claimed to have it. I would ask if they were diagnosed and make sure they said it was by a psychiatrist. That was ignorant, and now I have a very different view.

I had a psych evaluation recently, and she said at the end of it that I checked every single box for DID, but because I was schizophrenic, it was better explained by delusion, so I didn't get professionally diagnosed with it. That pissed me the fuck off given I went through months of testing just to be told that, by a different person, I would most likely be diagnosed with DID. That was the final push I needed to be pro-self diagnosis.

You know yourself best, and as long as you do your research and examine your motives behind wanting a label like dissociative identity disorder, or any other disorder/mental illness label for that matter, fucking go for it.

I am anti-psych for the most part, and the only reason I use diagnostic labels is so I can easily give someone a word that captivates all my symptoms rather than explaining the many that I exhibit.

I just wanted to ramble a bit about my views.

ravenfleesfire

A common sentiment in disability spaces is "If it helps you, you're entitled to it." If your life is genuinely improved by having an aid, like captions or a cane or a certain medication or resource, there is no reason to deny yourself it. Regardless of diagnostic status, if you feel like a burden has been relieved by allowing yourself access to it, then it's for you.

I think that applies to language too. Not just the word system or DID but the vocabulary systems use to express themselves is yours if you find them genuinely making things easier for you. Spaces for systems to share experiences within are yours if they make you feel heard. An on-paper diagnosis of a specific CDD from a medical professional is irrelevant if using resources for systems is alleviating you of barriers you would otherwise be struggling with. Denying self-diagnosers those resources doesn't protect the hyped-up hypothetical Real System on their golden pedestal, but it does strip real people with real issues of accommodation and understanding. And everybody—EVERYBODY—deserves to be understood at the very least.

A lot of people who share this opinion came into this area with the opposite one. Both judgmental of others and idealistic about their own infallibility in the eyes of authority. I also think if you asked them, most would say that they came to their conclusion through their own patronizing, abusive or dismissive experiences with psychiatry.

Love when I google the new update on my abscess and it’s basically like emergency go to ER and I call the ER who says

“we can’t give you medical advice on whether or not you need to come but if you do you’ll be here till your scheduled appointment here in the morning waiting with a team who doesn’t know your case”

So now I can’t sleep, and I’m wondering if the infection just spread to my lymph nodes or if it’s septic. 🙃

just been waiting here since they discharged me monday with a leaking lump the size of a tennis ball under my arm and now it’s red & hot and has a white raised line leading up to my inner armpit. No pain meds btw. Thanks.

I’m also lonely and half my family won’t talk to me because of my plurality so I just want friends here.

#plural system #pluralgang #dissociative identities #plural stuff #plural posting #medical #healthcare #emergency room #abscess #my dms are always open

turnitsysclusive

Pro endos can have did

They aren't faking by default

Love u pro endos you all awesome, you lovelies

lethroe

Pro endo Traumagenic DID haver here.

Love you endos frfr :) always so kind and sweet

dajo42

i was a kid asking questions like "when you say to rate my pain on a scale of 1 to 10 do you mean relative to what i have experienced before or what i could theoretically experience in the future because what if i say 8 and then later i get twenty billion papercuts and i realise relative to that this pain is a 1" and they would reply "just focus on what you know, you literally had your foot ran over by a ford focus" and id say "well exactly but it could have been both feet which i know would surely be worse" and it still took years to diagnose me as autistic

snazzy-hats-and-adhd

"Is a 1 to 10 pain scale intuitive?" needs to be evaluated as an autism diagnosis question.

aura-oracle-deactivated20250308

Remember y’all, Median Systems are valid. When people say all systems are valid, they’re usually talking about endogenic systems. While yes, that’s true of course, I don’t know where to place Median Systems at along the spectrum. We’re not plural per se nor endogenic. We’re stuck in the middle. Our parts or facets are us and we’re them. We’re a breed of our own. I wish there would be more info out there about us. Endogenics please don’t forget your cousins so to speak hehe. 😄😅

median-net

Endogenic vs traumagenic is about origins, whereas multiple vs median is about topology - the layout and organization of your system. So medians don't fall under endogenic or traumagenic specifically, they're on a whole different axis. Medians can be endogenic, traumagenic, or a mix.

Also, "plural" was coined to include medians - it's for anyone who's more than one, including more than one but less than two.

It was also coined to be inclusive of any type of system whether disordered or not, but the primary use of it originally was to be inclusive of non-multiples —ie, median systems.

Hope that helps! :)