Okay I know I’ve just said Jon’s first sex scene was pretty awkward (all the ones I’ve read so far were eh), but the cave scene as a whole made me quite emotional?? It felt so refreshing having an intimate sexual interaction that wasn’t abusive or gross or forced.. I feel like I haven’t even read one until now?
Like this moment for example, even if it can be kinda awkward, still really got to me?
“I love the smell of you,” he said. “I love your red hair. I love your mouth, and the way you kiss me. I love your smile. I love your teats.” He kissed them, one and then the other. “I love your skinny legs, and what’s between them.”
Like Jon you are NOT a poet, but it doesn’t matter because you are being honest and expressing your desire with your own words and it’s such a sweet, simple thing to say?? And he gives her the lord’s kiss and she is like completely shook because here’ s a boy who was a maid until like two days ago and now he gets to make her feel something she has never experienced before, and not because he knows anything about women’s pleasure but because he was curious about her body and attracted to her and he just did! And this blunt and forward girl suddenly becomes kinda shy because he is showing her attentions she never knew could be shown to her? It’s the cutest thing
And then they talk about her past without it becoming a stupid reason for Jon to get mad at her/judge her or get insecure about himself, they are just sharing their past experiences with each other and actually talking about what felt good and what would they like to do to each other… Like I feel this hardly ever happens in stories? People having honest conversation with each other about their sexual desires and relationship? It’s always just action, as if it wasn’t important to have an understanding of what your partner wants/likes…
And Jon, who has been so conflicted about sex because of his mother and because of his vows, finally shares a moment of intimacy with a girl he likes, and it’s the most natural thing in the world, and he’s like
“His guilt came back afterward, but weaker than before. If this is so wrong, he wondered, why did the gods make it feel so good?”
And I’m like, it isn’t Jon! You are young, you should be free to explore this part of yourself without feeling guilty about it!
It’s just so rare in these books to see characters this happy and playful, and sex being portrayed as a source of genuine happiness and joy instead of something that has to be bought or as a way of abuse people. It’s a quite little moment of tenderness and it’s ten times sadder because in the end we get foreshadowing for Ygritte’s future and it literally brought me to tears to read this:
“Jon Snow,” she told him, when he’d spent his seed inside her, “don’t move now, sweet. I like the feel of you in there, I do. Let’s not go back t’ Styr and Jarl. Let’s go down inside, and join up with Gendel’s children. I don’t ever want t’ leave this cave, Jon Snow. Not ever.”
Like you know what Ygritte? You are right, you shouldn’t.
But then they do, and oh it all got me really emotional…
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