THE SOUND OF YOUR NAME ୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ 🍮
an itoshi rin x gn!reader oneshot
IN WHICH —you and rin were bestfriends all throughout highschool, what you didn't know that you had feelings for eachother. well only you didn't, rin knew—but he just didn't have the heart to accept the fact that he loved you, until he realized it too late.
CONTENT: pure angst no fluff, that's it. (i'm sorry)
Highschool felt like breeze, but it isn't a quiet one—your days was filled with jokes and laughter. You and Rin were polar opposites and everyone knew that, but that just meant you completed each other. You were the loud kind that could bring everyone's face to laughter while Rin was the calmer and quiet one. You were always interested in art—music especially, while Rin loved soccer; it was basically his life, his soul.
The world felt like it belonged to both of you, no one else mattered when you had each other, countless hours spent together—only the two of you, that is until a certain transfer student came.
Everything was like usual at first, until Rin suddenly introduced you to her, and then suddenly—it wasn't the two of you anymore. Inside jokes wasn't just for the two of you anymore, Saturday night wasn't just for the two of you anymore.
For them, time flew by normally, but for you every second together with the three of you was a heartbreak, and the saddest part is that they didn't notice when you drifted apart.
"Hey—Rin, are you dating her?" your first word when you finally got the time together, just the two of you; for the last time.
"No, at least not yet. Why'd you ask?" his usual cold expression remains on his face, not realizing the tug in your heart. 'Not yet' the word rang in your ear like a whisper of a ghost.
"No reason, just wondering.." you mouth as if you didn't care, when you did; all you could do was care.
The next day, you were waiting for him to finish practice—when it was finally over the first person he came to wasn't you. It was her. You were about to cry right at that moment but you could gathered yourself enough not to and just came up to him to give him water while playing it off as a joke.
Days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months. Without realizing it, you no longer speak to him the same as you used to—but the feeling never went away. Eventually, graduation came and you mustered up the courage a finally confessed to him.
"I like you, before she came before anything when the world felt like it was ours to rule—I've loved you ever since." the words came out of your mouth smoothly like you practiced months to say that, but you didn't—because that's how you genuinely felt for him and your heart knew that.
Rin wanted to accept that confession, his heart and soul craved for you but his mind did not. His mind was still at her.
"Look—Y/n, I like you. I really do, but I can't accept it. Not when I still have to think about–" "Don't finish what you're about to say." you cut off.
"I confessed not because I was expecting acceptance, I did it because I wanted to tell you the truth—even if after this we'll never talk again."
And what you said was indeed true; both of you never talked again after that day.
Years went by and you life continued, you went on your path pursuing a music career was successful. He went on with soccer and eventually made it.
You'd both had become well known by then, you'd see his face in the billboard as an ad and he'd see your name featured on movies OST. Both of you would react the same every time each others name are mentioned, none of you had forgotten.
You had remembered and kept your promise when all those years ago you'd write a song specially for him, how could you not when his name was all that used to matter in your world.
You don't know what came over you when you decided to call him on one rainy day. You didn't expect him to answer, but he did; it's so strange how it seems like he's always there every time you needed him.
The call was silent for a few second, you took a deep breath before muttering your first words to him in years.
"Hey, is this Rin?" you spoke quietly as if afraid of his reaction, why wouldn't you be afraid, when the last time you spoke you got rejected.
"Y/n, is that you—how have you been?" he answered and yet you stayed quiet for a moment, was it because of the tears you were holding on to not fall or was it because the fact your throat couldn't mutter a word?
"Uh, yeah sorry. I've been doing okay, I heard you got a lot of sponsors now. Oh and—how are you and uh, y'know doing?" you finally muster.
"Yeah, also glad to hear you're making music now." there was a silent before his next sentence, you knew that meant something wasn't right.
"Me and her we kinda, fell apart. She said I was too caught up in soccer." for some reason his answer didn't surprise you. Rin has always been someone who is serious about his passion, it never and doesn't who's he's with, yet you never cared about that.
"I see, I'm sure you'll find someone better." but Rin didn't want someone better at this point—he wanted you. But he knew he couldn't say it; at least not just yet.
"I've been meaning to say. I—uhm, made a song, I haven't released it yet but I think you should hear it first" you murmured as you placed the cassette on the recorder.
As the song plays you finally felt the moisture building up on your cheeks, you tried to hide your sounds but that's when you heard it—muffled echoes from the other side. Hearing that, you couldn't hold your moans anymore; you wailed and sniffle.
Once the song ends, the call cut off. Just like that.
After that call none of you contacted each other again, and you never expected to hear his voice let alone see his face again. Life moved on and so did you—until a few years later, you were on a stroll.
"Hey, you dropped your wallet" a voice that seemed somewhat familiar to you rang through your ears. You tried to ignored it but when you turned around you were met with a face you knew all to well.
"Rin" "Y/n" both of you said at the same time as if what was supposed to be me and you was still 'us'.
"Funny seeing you here, uh—thank you for finding my wallet." you exclaimed as you took the wallet from his hand
"Uh, yeah—how are you, it's.. been a while." his voice quiet and slow, but it isn't the cold tone you remember.
"I'm doing great, although it's been really stressful with y'know, career and the–" your sentence was cut short with your kids running to you tugging on your cloak.
"Hi baby!" you crouched down lifting out mini-you from the ground, supporting her on your arm.
"I'm sorry, she's been really clingy lately.. I don't even know why." you frowned, not realizing the pure shock on his face.
"You're married now?" he blurted, his heart fell into a thousand pieces when he realized the reality of what's happening.
"Oh, yeah, I think they should be somewhere with the other kids—oh there they are!" referring to your partner who's currently waving towards you.
"I probably should go, it was nice catching up with you. See you around, Itoshi." hearing you saying his last name was his final straw of realization, that's when he knew he was definitely too late; that's something he is forced to accept.
"I can say the same to you, L/n." he mumbled quietly watching you leave.
All that he can think right now is how much he regretted it, how much he regretted all of it. Now all he can do is watch as the lost of his life leave again; because Y/n L/n isn't his to hold anymore.
authors note
at least no one died!! i must say though im not that proud of this one but this one's for you babe @rinffection also, this was heavily inspired by the movie your name herein engraved so i suggest you check it out (tw: sa, homophobia, sx) and sorry in any mistakes in spellings or grammar or bad writing overall as usual
我哭了我呜呜呜呜。hello guys I’ve come back to tumblr just to read mio’s fics… maybe I’ll start writing who knows 🤫 anyways I crode so bad ok
