Avani ⋆.˚ ☾⭒.˚

May be found at your local thrift store searching for books, Bowie albums, and grandpa sweaters.

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Hi!

I’m Avani.

My pronouns are she/her, but I honestly don’t really care what I’m referred to as, so feel free to switch ‘em up if you’d like :) I’m between the ages of 13 and 16 (please don’t be creepy, I’ll just block you)

Favorite Music:

I love David Bowie, Led Zeppelin, Queen, The Rolling Stones, The Who, Noah Kahan, The Lumineers, Fleetwood Mac, The Beatles, Billie Eilish, Simon and Garfunkel, The Velvet Underground, Pink Floyd, The Clash, The Smiths, Vundabar, and literally anything along the lines of rock/alternative!

Fandoms:

I’m a part of the Harry Potter/Marauders fandom, The Song of Achilles/mythology/classics, The Lord of the Rings, Stranger Things, TTS/VAT7K, Good Omens, and probably more that I can’t think of right now lol.

My favorite ships are:

wolfstar, jegulus, jily, byler, jancy, lumax, steddie, stonathan, aziracrow and many more!

I’m a Remus Lupin kinnie, and some of my favorite characters are Remus Lupin (which has probably already been established), Sirius Black, Hermione Granger, Legolas, Aragorn, Mike Wheeler, Johnathan Byers, Will Byers, Steve Harrington, Max Mayfield, Joyce Byers and Varian.

I stand with trans rights and women’s rights.

I do not support any racism, transphobia, homophobia, antisemitism, or discrimination of any kind. Fuck JKR.

my bestie is @meanwhilewhile so follow them too if you want! :)

[hkxox]

in their first year, sirius saw how remus always had his nose buried in a book, so i imagine tiny sirius surprising him with handmade bookmarks that he made, shyly pressing them in his hands, as his way of asking will you be my friend?

[isabluesstuff]

„The Cadence of Part-Time Poets“ by motswolo

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I did not know how much I needed this

[fawns-angel]

remus and sirius carved the first letters of their names together on the wall of a staircase in hogwarts

remus revisited this after he became a professor, trailing his fingers along the carefully carved R + S

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Me looking at people who call Remus by his last name and smiling to myself because they don’t know him like I do:

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it’s the anniversary of Sirius’s death today

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Things I’ve done instead of studying (it’s finals week):

-done a 20 min erg workout

-watched a whole season of Derry Girls in one sitting

-gone to MULTIPLE baseball games

-gone to a pub to watch soccer (football, idk I feel bad calling it soccer but I’m American sadly)

- watched more soccer

-got a haircut

-got a mani-pedi

-read multiple fanfictions

-learned how to properly do eyeshadow and eyeliner

-the list goes on

Chat am I locked in?!

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what happens to your patronus when you die

[sophhzter]

remus lupin is a pretty crier.

that's it. that's the post.

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In honor of pride month I am creating a new note game

What was your gay/queer awakening?

All sexualities are welcome

Mine was the fact I was in a dance class growing up and allllll the girls changed in the same room and the gay ass feelings arrived

And then after that I just stopped giving a fuck I had a crush on no matter gender

tags: @jqdoht @cgsdraws @erikvoice-perfection @the-mycelial-court @aciddrownedangel @guineaspin @liminal-garden-system @biologynerd13

Open tags also

inspired by seeing @weirdo-offical post on their gay awakening

[starsys-notclickbait]

omg... thank you for the tag

ok for sexuality:

women: i was like 10yrs old and looking around for like idk. art? and found a bunch of pin-ups of some fictional women i thought were cool. i did not know what was happening yet but i figured it out.

men: stucky on ao3. must i explain. i was 11yrs old

NOW FOR GENDER:

it was a huge mix of just envying men and wanting to be(?) magneto(ig that caused another aspect of my identity too)

so yeah i went through the she/they to they/them to he/they to he/him to he/they to he/him pipeline

@marsmindmaze @theultimatenerd0fficial @scratchedupdisc @cat-found-in-an-allie @scattered9bones

[theultimatenerd0fficial]

AYYY THANKS FOR THE TAG MAN!!!!

For sexuality... 4th grade. I had a crush on my best friend, Ella, and the most popular boy in school. Now dear readers. And. A boy AND a girl. At the same damn time. (/ref) I only remembered it and realized what it meant about two years ago. Chat 😔

For gender...

Disclaimer. I didn't know AI was bad back then. I know now.

I was very addicted to C. Ai but. I only used male povs. Whenever I used female povs it just, didn't feel right. And then.. IT happened. I read the fic that changed my life. A malepov polycule yaoi headcanon series. For a few years, I just assumed I was a fujoshi. But. Then, I realized I just couldnt read fempov anymore unless it was third person and the Y/N had a name (basically a self insert of the author). I realized all of the characters I felt were me then were all either boys or masculine women who COULD pass as men. (No hate to masculine women. But you understand what I'm getting at)

Direct quote from 11 yo me: "Man... I wish I was a Tboy they're so hot"

I went down the straight cis fujoshi > masc lesbian > demigirl bisexual > aroace nonbinary [INCIDENT]* > and now, finally, to Transmasc Achillean* 😭

* I still think women are hot, but I can't be in a relationship with one anymore. Because of the [INCIDENT]. It also turned me off from anything romantic or sexual for a long time.

Open tags!

@its-oliver-bitches @aroace-not-arokay @frooglet @ultimate-nerds-ultimate-bitch

[frooglet]

Thanks for the tag twinnnn >:]]]]

So definitely yapping for a little bit and I might not make sense either lol 😭

Sexuality awakening: it happened actually very slowly, and first I thought I liked all genders equally, or at least men and women 50/50 split. But one day I realized, my attraction to men was never attraction, it's been gender envy this whole time* 😭 and I only like women + other genders/fem people bc. Well. Idrk why. The AWAKENING of that specifically was def when I realized I was bi via a nonbinary fem friend of mine having a crush on me (nothing ever happened with that, it's complicated, but they did in fact make me start questioning the possibility of same-sex relationships and also help little 8 year old me know that being gay was OKAY 👍) pipeline was straight - bi/pan- faesarisexual - omni which is what I am now :]

Romantic attraction: nothing ever felt right about relationships, so I went digging and realized I'm cupioromantic. MAKES SM SENSE and I feel more comfortable when I have distinct labels for myself

Gender (ohhh boy. Buckle up): watched Hazbin Hotel for the first time and saw my first ever femboy. Angel Dust. Is that show a mess? Sure. Is it still so near and dear to my heart bc without it I genuinely dunno where i'd be? Yes. He gave me the WORST gender envy that I never knew was gender envy until I did. I realized I was nonbinary, fell down a whole pipeline of fem nonbinary - gnc nb - demiflux nb - faegender - genderqueer - queer + a bunch of neogenders - trying pronouns and being unlabeled - back to gnc nonbinary - realizing I'm a trans man 😭💀 shit was crazy 💔

My gender also ties to my sexuality in weird ways, but I dont know how to describe it. Like, part of realizing I was This Sexuality is from realizing I was This Gender, and vice versa, and so on and so forth. Hope that makes sense

ANYWAYS GAYASS YAP OVER HAPPY PRIDE MONTH SPUDS <3

@transparentluminarysalad @tripleatechie @vynthefish @red-the-spider @ruler-of-nothing-important @flower-bud-iris @big--naturals @14-opossums-in-a-trenchcoat @coffeeadaykeepsthesleepaway @saltycatgirl @shadowmilksmalewife @small-bottle-of-expired-milk @purple-dinosaur27 @zmioniks z you're queer right? Aroace and maybe some gender things /pos >:] ?? Correct me if I'm wrong 🙂‍↕️

OPEN TAGGIES AND NO PRESSURE AND AGAIN HAPPY PRIDEEEEE ❤️‍🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤💛💜💛🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

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Okay! So I had like two awakenings, so first my trans awakening which was literally just my mother asking if I felt like a girl, to which I answered no obviously

and then my gay awakening was a teenage boy in one of the neighborhoods I used to live in </3 shoutout to Nicolas my gay awakening

@timetravelingcowboy @vincenzablr @izzynstuffz

sorry I just woke up idk who to tag </3

[izzynstuffz]

hallo thank you for the tag!!!! uh i have a few awakening stories…

i realized i liked girls when i was around ten or so…. i would watch the britney spears toxic music video on repeat just feel the dyke-yness stir in me…. i thought i wanted to BE her for a while, and GENUINELY HAD DREAMS where i pretended to be britney spears and kissed other girls…… wow……

i realized i didn’t like men around the end of my sophomore year of high school…. at that point i had been in a few talking stages with different guys but it never quite…. clicked. and tended to just pick guys that were strangely effeminate to have crushes on. then i went on a date with this weird redneck guy, who didn’t say a word to me and left 2 hours early. i was like “huh. i should be sad about this… but im not.” and then i kinda just.. got it.

i didn’t really have a defined awakening for being nonbinary, but for years i’ve always been very fast and loose about my femininity. sometimes presenting extremely outwardly femme made me a bit uncomfortable. i’ve always called myself various gendered terms without really thinking about it. for a while i just called myself a futch. but then i got on tumblr…… and then i started listening to camp here and there…. and uh the combination of those two things made me realize that im not a girl…… yippee!!!

uh open tags but i wanna tag @clownfish-casino @phthalos-blues @misty-zzz @rottingmushroom222 pretend i listed all of my moots

[hieronymusbotched]

how would one describe an aroace "awakening" lol? tbh I realized I was on the aspec when I looked back on any 'crushes' I'd had and noticed that they were all performative or me wanting to be better friends with someone,, it took a long time for me to figure out what it meant tho bc of #religioustrauma and such.

realizing I was enby probably came from me just never really caring about my gender or presentation. I think I realized I was genderqueer when I first got my hair cut really short and noticed that I just. didn't care when anyone thought I was a guy. I didn't start trying to label it until like 8th grade tho

open tags + @willisiam-woodiam @possibly-a-jellyfish @geniuscomediae @avianavionthebird @bur1ed-bird @spookypointyears @pinnedd-board @wooden-houses @eldermage1 @spacetimeaccordionfolder @your-local-starstruck-dreamer @hauntieannes

[tid3drift3r]

sexuality awakening: until my late pre-teen years I thought there were only three sexualities: gay straight and lesbian (my family avoids talking abt the queer community if you couldn’t tell). I was like ‘yeah women are very pretty, but I like men, so I guess I gotta be straight’ then there was the covid quarantine which was followed by a wave of ppl talking about the lgbtq community more and I found yuri then it clicked lmao.

gender: I was like. Transfixed by the trans community on Pinterest but it took a looong time for me to realize why. It wasn’t until I joined Tumblr and saw everyone here who didn’t have to stick to one set of pronouns, and would also support you, that it all clicked :) thanks guys <33

@alorekeeper @eris-of-disco @inkling-0f-a-thought @hardtobethebardbitch +open tags!!

[hardtobethebardbitch]

gender: I wanted to be a guy but didn't really want to transition then realized I don't actually care (genderqueer, gender apathetic)

sexuality: the Beautiful Liar music video featuring Beyonce and Shakira

@kingmackinac @humblefryingpan @annoyedbreadstick @gilmorenights @meanwhilewhile

[meanwhilewhile]

gender: dont mind being a girl, dont mind being a dude (genderfluid??? bigender??? idfk unlabeled)

sexuality: growing up hearing my relatives talk about how id marry a man one day, and me getting digusted at the thought. also making yuri stories with my barbie dolls.

@humblefryingpan @gracious-midnight @rock-n-roll-suicide @mikeandwillsweddingofficiant

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Gender: I’m cis but I’ve questioned… idk it’s a work in progress I’ve decided I don’t really care how people refer to me I like the idea of being androgynous or dressing masc but also I like being fem sometimes

Sexuality: I uh.. I heard heather by Conan Gray and I realised that people could like people of the same gender (like I knew, but it didn’t clock to me that I could yk) and then uhm I just remember being on the bus and my friend wore a shirt that was low cut and …. and I realised that I was bi :)

But also I think it just happened I was like yeah girls r cute too idk

Also I always liked the princesses more than the princes because they deserved better

Open tags :)

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Sirius has perfect pitch (like Charlie Puth level shit) and Remus fucking hates it.

They’ll be walking around and Sirius will hear like a car horn or something and he’ll be like, “that’s an A flat,” and Remus won’t talk to him for the rest of the walk.

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If you see me like your vent post that is me giving u a lil hug, I do not enjoy your suffering

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reject jkr canon embrace hornkus binglefuck

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be a part of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

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Sirius is a lot like his mother.

Because when Sirius ran away to the Potters, Walburga left his bedroom untouched. She hated it, with the muggle posters and the gryffindor memorabilia, but she couldn't bring herself to have it taken down because it was all she had left of her eldest son.

And when Sirius comes back to Grimmauld Place after escaping from azkaban, he cleans the house, gets rid of cursed objects, old family heirlooms, and dark books, but he leaves Regulus' room completely untouched, because its all he has left of his little brother.

[the-irreverend]

And stay safe everyone!

[loveridden1999]

top 3 hobbies for young adults:

1. borrowing misery from future

2. carrying grief of the past

3. agonizing over the present