Oh well yeah he is a dweeb. He's a dumb baby. The thing that negates the tragedy of it all is the fact he has pretty textbook NPD, specifically a sub-type called Communal Narcissism:
"A communal narcissist is an individual who seeks validation, admiration, and a sense of superiority by acting as a highly selfless, nurturing, or charitable person. Unlike traditional narcissists seeking power, they pose as 'saviors' or pillars of the community, though their helpfulness is often a performance driven by a need for public recognition."
A lot of people seem to think he has BPD because of his emotional volatility, but...I mean have any of you guys seen narcissistic rage? It's pretty volatile and it's more in line with Lorgar's Whole Deal. He doesn't have a fractured, unstable sense of self like with BPD, he has a pretty inflexible sense of self and that's the actual root of his crashouts.
He quickly goes from charming and eager to be liked to a red-faced screaming idiot over perceived slights because any insult, intentional or otherwise, challenges the entire self-concept he's constructed as a defense mechanism for his fragile ego. It's narcissistic injury.
And that's why he had such an EXTREME reaction to his censure at Monarchia. His Former Gifted Kid Crashout is tied into his Communal Narcissism, he's built an entire sense of self out of "I understand the one true religion, I am the pure, kindhearted soul saving humanity by bringing the light of the God-Emperor to the dark lives of the suffering, ignorant masses, I am His prophet, I am His son, I'm special by proxy: you're welcome".
So to have the Emperor show up like "Actually the entire framework you use to feel in control, good, special, etc. is idiotic and you have to stop. Stop it. Shut up, dummy. Why can't you have your shit together like your one hyper-secular brother who is the exact opposite of everything you are. Also, fuck your city [spits]" is...god, that is the ultimate Narcissistic Injury for Lorgar.
Who is he without this savior identity construct? Who is he without his self-perception as a christlike figure? How can he reassure himself that he's good and special and beloved and that all of his actions are justified without the belief that he's the son of a literal God? What do you mean the band-aid protecting his deeply wounded ego has been ripped off and replaced with nothing? He can't be Guilliman, that's not a viable option, so how the fuck is he going to function ?
Why, you obviously find new gods who tell you you're the most special boy and that all of your actions are justified. Yeah they're pretty blatantly evil, but you weren't actually into the kind, loving part of religion anyway. And yeah they're definitely lying about helping humanity, but who gives a shit, they've handed you the perfect way of rationalizing all of the insanely fucked shit you're about to do solely to avoid feeling shame.
And I should clarify: NPD doesn't make you inherently bad, Lorgar is not inherently bad just because he has a personality disorder. He's a fucking idiot asshole because he not only makes -1000 effort to use Monarchia as an opportunity to shed a coping mechanism and heal himself, he also sets the entire galaxy on fire just to keep feeding his wounded ego.
So yeah keep dunking on him. Lets all dunk on him. Fuck you, Lorgar, bitchass.
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