RARGH!
Well, it's late and I should be sleeping but I thought it would be more productive to type out the bullshit in my head, once again. I am not sure why you guys keep coming back to read this utter garbage, but hello again, either way. Tonight. Where to start? As we are all training together for now, mixed skill levels, tonight was a very frustrating one for me. Being the lowest skill level in the room is never going to be easy - especially when everyone around you is just getting on with things and you are left behind feeling a like a div. Granted, I should have said 'OI! I can't do this, what am I doing wrong?' but I was not in the mood, so instead, I had a bit of a cry and got myself all stressed out about it. It sounds petty but when you really love and enjoy something so much it's hard not to have the passion. I just want, so much, to be good at this! I know it's not easy and it is totally worth the effort, time and energy because of everything I am getting back but days like today do make me wonder what I'm doing. Daring to believe I could, some day, be one of them. Some days I feel like with a push I could be min skills past in a few weeks. Other days, like today, I feel a million miles away from that point. Oh well, in other news… I WENT TO SEE LRG AT THE WEEKEND AND RAW HEIDI SKATED! I am a little bit in love with her, I'll admit. I just think she's great, awesome blocker and she got lead jammer, almost if not every time! Definitely my derby hero but I added some others to my list of favourites too. Duchess, Grievous and Goregasm were all awesome. We also went into Double Threat and I picked up some new wheels with lots of help, advice and information. has made all the difference as I am now no longer skating on Cayman's. It was definitely time for an upgrade, slightly narrower but got used to that with no issues really. I am now skating on Atom 93's and Radar 88's - pink and blacks which is pretty commemorative considering I got them at my first trip to see LRG Pink Vs Black. I could talk about that all day but I won't as I need to sleep. IT was awesome, one point in it! Ah, the high's and lows of Roller Derby. Night guys, big love to you all! xxx









