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[wizardarchetypes]

like logically ofc i know my sleep disorder is indeed a disorder but it's still crazy to me that i have been taking my sleep meds every single night without fail for 3 months now, and as a result i have been sleeping by midnight and THROUGH the night every single night without fail for three months. but tonight i forgot to take it on time and now it's almost 3 am and i'm awake. it doesn't matter how long i stick to a rhythm, i will no magically become a healthy sleeper. these meds are genuinely life saving.

absolutely bonkers and actually MADDENING thinking about spending nearly three DECCAAAAADESSSS of my life believing i could just "fix" my schedule and get my sleep "on track." LMAO. i was up at 4 am when i was 6 years old sneaking downstairs to watch TV in misery bc i couldn't sleep and then i was still 32 YEARSSSS old like "no everyone listen THIS week i'm gonna avoid naps and go to bed on time and then i'll sleep normal from now on. for real this time." AJVBJAS SHUT UP!!!! NO YOU WEREN'T BABY!!!!!!!!! YOU WERE NEVER GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THAT!!!!!!

[wizardarchetypes]

i went to my doctor in march and i was like "man you gotta help me. i haven't slept in 75 hours. and i know sometimes people say that but they really mean they've only slept 2 or 3 hours a night for several nights, which is awful of course, but i mean quite literally i haven't slept in 75 hours. and i keep waiting to finally 'crash' but i don't."

and he was like, "has this ever happened to you before?"

and i said, "oh yeah loads of times, since i was a toddler."

and he said, "why are you just now getting help?"

and i said, "well recently when i hit the 60 hour mark i've started hallucinating birds. and that's new."

and he said, "what do you mean, birds?"

and i said, "i don't know, i think they're house sparrows"

and he said, "i didn't mean what kind of birds"

(true that's not what he said but it was hard to parse the nuances of the conversation because there were a bunch of house sparrows in the room)

[demilypyro]

I tried makeup for a while in college but I could tell it was actually making my dysphoria *worse* because I'd feel alright about myself but then take it off at the end of the day and I'd see my face without makeup and suddenly be hit by how ugly I felt without it and I was like oh. this doesn't seem healthy. so I swore it off and threw it all out and now my bare face doesn't really bother me anymore. I want to feel good about myself at all hours of the day, actually

[demilypyro]

Oh yeah this isn't even really a trans thing, this is a woman thing.

[muffinlance]

"Trans women are women!" say make-up companies, your equal opportunity source for corporate-backed dysphoria

[theatsthetic]

female-presenting vitruvian

[theatsthetic]

i appreciate the amount of people reblogging this despite me not really tagging this at all. im glad many of people feel the same anger i do.

[thefreakmeister]

me: isn’t it funny how captain kirk was supposed to be the sex appeal of star trek but it ended up being spock

my dad: i thought it was bones

me:

my dad: i thought bones was supposed to be the sex appeal

[thefreakmeister]

prev you’re the only person here that gets it

[thefreakmeister]

how the fuck did you figure him out this fast

[bagelbarr0n]

Really funny one two punch on my dash this morning

[good-ass-posts]

[andorology]

brooding men who cannot communicate their feelings if their life depended on it are only hot when they're fictional. if i have to deal with one in real life i will curse him and pray for his downfall every night before i go to bed

[kestrel-tree]

It's because the writer communicates their feelings for them. If people wanna pull that off in real life they need to hire a guy to walk around behind them narrating.

[bananonbinary]

#can i be the guy#ill narrate SO incorrectly#theyll all learn how to talk for themselves just to shut me up (via @cirrus-grey)

i'm loving the implication that this isn't something they hired you for, but something you'd do as some sort of public service.

[ahedderick]

[vexic929]

I think a lot of what pro-AI people are really wanting is stuff that already exists but they don't know it's out there like

can't format a work email? templates

don't know how to write a resume? templates

writing a thank you card or a condolences card or a wedding invitation? templates templates templates

not sure how to format your citations in MLA or whatever format? citationmachine.net

summary of something you're reading for school/work? cliffsnotes.com

recipe based on ingredients in your fridge? whatsintherefrigerator.com

there's a million more like, guys, we don't need AI, we never needed generative AI

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

I'm constantly seeing people like "look what this guy did with AI to make his life easier" and it's like. A script that the guy wrote in 2021.

[calamity-corner]

you can tell trans women are women because we're not allowed to be sexual but also everything we do has sexuality imposed upon it

[calamity-corner]

you can tell trans women are women because we're not allowed to be angry

[calamity-corner]

you can tell trans women are women because everyone else thinks they know our bodies, our minds, our experiences, our lives, better than we do

[calamity-corner]

you can tell trans women are women because governments keep trying to legislate away our bodily autonomy

[socialistexan]

[napoleononthebellerophon]

the amount of lawsuits these exploited children are going to be filing 20 years from now is going to be crazy and im all for it

[emeraldspiral]

[streetkit]

it does suck that the government defunded PBS but it's also so fucking funny that now that they don't take uncle sam's slavery dollars they're running videos like "How america's foundation was built on genocide"

no more being polite about it fuck the USA

[devilleworship]

saw this on Insta and the idea that people who are anti-AI are just using it anyway like... willing to give it up? I ACTIVELY AVOID THAT SHIT BUD! WHAT ARE YOU EVEN TALKING ABOUT?

ALSO

It's not as if this shit has been around SOOO LONG. We all existed JUST FINE before this shit became THE THING someone decided to shove in our face like...

[anotherhawk]

Eva Stratt does NOT need a redemption arc. Eva Stratt did EVERYTHING WRONG so that no-one else would have to. Her hands are permanently stained with blood so humanity gets to keep on living.

[type-blaze0]

Eva stratt with hands of blood did her crimes but out of love, and though the trials cost her great, she saved the earth from its doomed fate.

Eva Stratt with hands stained red, it is her fault her friend is dead. She sent him out, so very far, for the smallest chance to save our star.

Eva stratt, so clear red handed, fought to be there when the beatles landed.

Eva stratt, with crimes stacked high, kept us alive, and didn't cry. She had no time, though every reason. She saved us from the deadly freezin'

And though she saved us, she'll pay the toll, to save the world, she burned her soul

[the-haiku-bot]

And though she saved us,

she’ll pay the toll, to save the

world, she burned her soul

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[cock-holliday]

I don't think people talking about stealth transitioned trans people in sports realize how much your sports career from before is your CV. Oh, you got a college sports award? Hey isn't that a men's award? Oh, you played softball and not baseball? Why is that? Oh, it says you played for this Uni's team but the women's coach didn't know who you were. You got a grant for being a "woman in x"?

Played a sport where your place only had a men's team? Played a sport in a league where you couldn't go very high cause there is no pros version for women?

Most trans people do not have the option to quietly "switch teams", there are a fuckload of trans people in sports who will not come out because they will lose their careers, and then a lot of us just left!

I played a coed sport once that practiced coed and played friendly matches coed, but split by gender for ranked competition. I was fortunate I even had a supportive team and supportive captains and yet the league wouldn't let me compete. I was told I could play for my AGAB tho. It wasn't a sport I had played long, but if it had been one of my main sports I'd have maybe taken them up on it for a chance to play.

Lots of sports have "alum" games where graduated high school or college players can come back to play a game (sometimes for charity) against current players. Lacrosse was my main sport and I *was* a decorated goalie (with gendered awards). I wanted to come back and play one year but let my old coach know I had transitioned and wasn't sure if that was an issue but I'd still love to play. I was told not to come. To a causal friendly scrimmage. No stakes, just love of the game. Not welcome anyway.

If sports are your career or your way into college or your way out of poverty, you're not gonna risk shit! I wish when we talked about sports in America it wasn't just as if it was simply a hobby.

Trans people are undercounted because we left, are undercounted because we aren't coming out, and every stealth trans person has a paper trail tied to gender they would have to overcome in order to not be under immense scrutiny OR barred from even playing, and sometimes people will choose the option that lets them pursue their passion regardless of how it will hurt them.

[geckocs]

Severance is a cool show. Because, like. What if you knew nothing. No context. No idea who you are. No history. And, of course, you are scared, but you can’t leave unless you get permission from someone— the person who put you here— someone who will never listen. Someone who makes all the decisions, who says “I’m a grown-up person and you’re not.” And you’re naive and lonely, but at least there’s other people in the same boat as you. Someone, just been there slightly longer, is trying to shield you, trying to protect you, taking responsibility and taking on punishment they “can handle and grow from.”

Like. Oh yeah. I recognize this one. Someone else dresses you. Someone else feeds you. Someone else, who's just like you, but they get everything. The little toys and the waffle party. Helly is desperate and suicidal, but she still has to go to school work. You have to do work that doesn't make sense, but you'll understand eventually. The meaningless, manufactured rivalry between departments. The rumors??? “they have larvae that eat them?” “I’m livestock grown for food” “I’m a bodybuilder who has loads of girlfriends, but you don’t know them they go to a different school?” Punishment in the form of apologizing over and over, having to use all the right words, until you are believed. Endless hallways. Scary authority figures. "Are you mad at me?" Religion being the only type of media you see, until you read some shitty book that changes your life. Confusing, sudden camping trips that are supposed to fix you. Condescension. The words "innie" and "outie" are brought up multiple times as infantilizing. Of course his innie's voice is higher pitched????

[hyperlexichypatia]

Everything you're forced to do -- and everything done to you -- is for your benefit, you're told... but not for the benefit of YOU-you. For the benefit of an alternate version of you, a version of you that you can't communicate with, a version of you that you don't even know really exists, but that everyone assures you is you and is, in fact, the version of you that matters more than and should be prioritized over YOU-you. You're not allowed to question this.

Yeah. Reminds me a lot of a kid's Hypothetical Adult Self.

Your future self will understand. Your future self will thank me. Your future self will want you to have done this. This is for your (future self's) own good.

Kid Me wasn't supposed to ask "If I'll want this when I'm older, why can't I just wait to do it until I'm older and want this?"

[hyperlexichypatia]

Wait, I can take this further.

The appeal of severance, at least as we've been shown it so far, is that subjects can have unpleasant experiences (childbirth, a tedious workday, a dental exam) already having happened, to skip directly to the "afterward" and have the unpleasant experience actually experienced by another, lesser version of yourself. Right?

Which is also how a lot of adults feel about children -- either their own retrospective child selves, or the children currently in their lives (whose lives must be structured to best serve their future adult selves). The purpose of childhood is to get unpleasant experiences over with so that the Future Adult Self (the self-that-matters) can have them already over with.

It's so telling that the boss at the door factory who interviews Dylan compares severance to circumcision -- a surgery commonly performed on infants, without medical necessity, based purely on the justification "They'll want/need it done as adults." Now, that's not necessarily true (the world is fully of happily uncircumcised adults), but even if if were, it would raise the inevitable question "Then why not wait until they want/need it as adults?" and the answer is "Because surgery is unpleasant and we assume adults don't want to go through it. The Future Adult Self (the self-that-matters) will want this surgery to already have happened, to have been experienced by the Lesser (childhood) Self."

And people even do this with learning skills! "I wish my parents had made me learn to play piano as a kid." Why can't you learn to play piano now? What's stopping you? What you mean is "I wish I were already good at piano-playing, I wish the awkward, frustrating, beginner stages of learning piano-playing had already been gotten over with by my Lesser Self who exists to get unpleasant things out of the way for Me, the Self Who Matters."