Mephistopheles is already trapped in his own Hell by serving the Devil. He warns Faustus of the choice he is making by "selling his soul" to the devil:
"Mephistophilis, an agent of Lucifer, appears and at first advises Faust not to forego the promise of heaven to pursue his goals".
The Restricted Section always smelled a little like danger. Old leather, dust, the faint metallic tang of old spells. You breathe it in as you pad between the shelves on silent paws, whiskers twitching. In this body the dark is nothing, lamplight burns into soft, warm halos, text sharpens, the smallest movement pricks your attention.
Being a cat has never felt like a disguise to you. It feels like a second truth.
Which is why it’s easy. Too easy, really, to slip under the rope, tail flicking, and wind through the aisles no fifth-year is supposed to see. You pause at a volume bound in dragon hide, at a book whose pages seem to move between one blink and the next.
If Madam Pince knew you were here…
You purr in amusement and leap lightly up onto a reading desk, gaze sliding over titles, picking out familiar runes, charming sigils. You aren’t going to touch anything. Not tonight. You just like the feeling of being where you shouldn’t.
"You're not supposed to be here."
The voice is so soft and so close that you stop in your place.
Every muscle goes taut. Your claws catch the wood.
He steps out of the darkness between shelves as if he were part of it.
Tom Marvolo Riddle, Head Boy. Black hair perfectly in place, robes tidy, silver badge catching the low light. That face you’ve seen at a distance in the Great Hall, refined, composed, a little too beautiful.
Up close his presence is overwhelming in a way you can't explain. The air tightens around him.
He looks straight at you.
At the cat.
One dark brow lifts. "I don't recall Hogwarts keeping a library cat."
You swallow down pure animal panic.
Transform. Just transform, explain, apologise-
You reach for the familiar shift, for bones and skin willing themselves to rearrange.
Nothing happens.
You push harder, mind straining toward that inner tether. It's always been right there, you've always been able to slip between shapes like breathing.
Now it's like groping for a door that isn't there.
Your fur prickles, as you try again but harder.
Still nothing.
Tom watches you.
"You're agitated," he notes. "That's not how a normal cat reacts to being spoken to." He steps closer, slow, smooth. His shoes don’t make a sound on the stone. "You understand me, don't you?"
You bare your teeth and hiss, ears flat, more in panic than any intention to attack. Your tail fluffs. Your magic scrabbles uselessly for purchase.
His lips curve, not warm, and surenly not kind but more appreciative.
"I thought so, you are just a silly little creature."
He's close enough now that you can see the fine lines of his wand holster beneath his sleeve, the shine on his badge, the faint amusement in his dark eyes.
His hand comes toward you.
You bolt off the desk, under a chair.
And straight into the leather of his shoe, you didn't even see him move.
His fingers close around your middle, firm, unhurried. You twist in his grip but he knows exactly how to hold an animal, pinning your back legs gently but inescapably.
"There now," he murmurs. Up close his voice loses none of its clarity; if anything it softens, threads of something like satisfaction weaving through it. "No use struggling."
You rake at his sleeve. Cloth tears under your claws. His expression doesn't change.
''Such spirit,'' he says in a tone of mild approval. ''I do admire that.''
He shifts you, brings you up so you’re level with his face. You feel absurdly small, dangling in his hand, your ribs tight with shallow breaths.
Tom studies you, eyes, whiskers, the particular markings of your fur, with the calm of someone examining a puzzle.
And then his gaze narrows slightly.
"Ah, I see." he says to himself.
You stare back, pulse roaring, forcing your pupils not to blow wide the way a real cat's would.
He smiles now. It transforms his face, you see, suddenly, why professors adore him, why Slughorn sings his praises. It's a bright, open expression, all charm and good amusement.
Seen this close, it makes your stomach drop.
"Curious, clever, and very, very careless," he states.
"An Animagus. Unregistered, of course. Dumbledore would have had a fit."
The word hits you like a Stinging Hex.
He knows.
You lunge again for your human shape, for the familiar snap of change. Nothing. It's like your magic is being muffled, pressed down under something heavy and weightless all at once.
Your panic turns cold.
He cocks his head.
"You keep doing that," he observes, as if commenting on the weather. "Trying to change back." His thumb strokes down your spine in a motion that would be soothing if it weren't so horribly aware.
"How frustrating it must be."
Tom knows.
"Who are you, I wonder?" he continues.
"Which house? What year? Fifth, I would guess, from the control you displayed a moment ago. Or rather, that you thought you displayed."
You try to bite him.
His fingers close slightly, not enough to hurt, just enough to remind you he could. "None of that," he says mildly. "You're in no position to be uncooperative."
He glances around the Restricted Section once more, quick, practiced, making sure they're alone. The iron curtain is drawn, the lamps low. The rest of the library is quiet as stone.
Then he tucks you against his chest like a precious, struggling pet.
"Come along, then," he says, turning toward the exit with measured steps. "We will talk when you're calmer."
You twist, claws catching in the front of his robe, lungs tight. You can’t speak; you can’t transform; you can't do anything but be carried.
As he passes through the curtains, the iron gate of the Restricted Section swings shut behind you with a soft, fateful click.
You feel it like a door closing on something much larger.
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The end of the year arrives with bright skies and a strange hush.
Exams conclude, trunks are packed. Laughter and farewells echo through the stone corridors. You hear the voices dimly through the muffling wards on his door, like a party in a house you’re not invited to.
You spend the last morning on the windowsill, watching the lake. Students spill across the lawns, tiny colored dots from this height. Somewhere among them, you know, are faces you haven’t seen in months, friends who shared your notes and your jokes and your secrets.
Do they still think you're alive?
Or
Do they think you ran away? Were taken? Fell?
Tom enters without looking at you, which means he's paying attention. He moves with efficient calm, shrinking his books, folding his clothes into his trunk with precise wand movements.
''Dippet is distraught,'' he begins. ''Losing a student on his watch, poor old man. It will haunt him well into his retirement.'' A hint of amusement colors '' Poor Dumbledore suspects something more, of course. He always does. But suspicion without proof is just paranoia.''
You jump down soundlessly and pace along the length of the bed. Your skin feels too tight; your fur itches from the inside.
He snaps the trunk closed with a quiet click and finally turns to you.
''Come,'' he says simply.
You bare your teeth.
He sighs, as if you’re being unreasonable, and flicks his wand.
You feel the summon like a firm tug behind your ribs. Your paws move of their own accord, carrying you into his waiting arms.
''You behave as though I would ever let you go back to that,'' he snaps in a disgusted way, gaze slipping briefly toward the window. ''Do you know what they would do if you appeared on the platform at King's Cross, filthy and shaken and stammering excuses?'' His fingers find that spot behind your ear you can’t quite resist, scratching lightly.
''They would hug you. Cry. Call you brave. And then they would forget. In a few months, you would be a story told in dormitories. 'Remember when she ran off and came back?' A cautionary tale, nothing more.''
The heir of Slytherin tucks you against his chest, the familiar cage of his arm around you. His heartbeat is steady, unnervingly so.
“With me,” he says, carrying you out of the room that has been both prison and world,
''You're never just a story.''
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The flat is medium, spare, and humming with protective magic.
He unlocks the heavy door with a key and three different Charms, steps inside, and shuts the world out behind you.
The sitting room is bare but clean: one armchair, one desk, two bookcases. A narrow hall leads to a bedroom barely larger than his Hogwarts dormitory, a tiny kitchen beyond.
He sets your carrier on the floor.
You didn't go in willingly. He didn’t ask.
The moment he opens the latch, you burst out, hackles raised, ready to bolt somewhere
There is nowhere.
The walls hum with layered spells. The single window is barred and warded so thickly you can feel the resistance before your nose even touches the glass.
Tom watches you take it in, leaning against the doorframe.
''There, you see?'' he mocks.
''Much more private than a dormitory. No roommates. No prefects, and no inquisitive Head of House poking her nose where it doesn't belong.''
You wheel to face him, breath coming in quick pants. Your claws scrape the floor.
He straightens, draws his wand, and for the first time since that night in the library, points it directly at you.
''Let’s have done with this, shall we?''
Panic spikes, before a word you don’t recognize spills from his lips. Old, sharp, like the crack of glass under pressure.
The invisible weight that has pinned your Animagus form in place all these months moves.
It doesn’t dissolve. It instead twists, fingers uncurling and throwing you forward.
The change hits you like being forced through too small space.
Bones stretch, snap, rearrange; muscles spool and unspool. Your perspective lurches upward with nauseating speed.
You hit the floor on hands and knees, gasping.
Your throat burns as air rushes through a human windpipe for the first time. Sound explodes, far too loud, too clear, the faint drip of a tap, your own ragged breaths, the whisper of cloth as Tom steps closer.
''Well, that's much better''
You lift your head.
''Tom,'' you voice out with a cracked and hoarse, tone, You swallow and try again. ''You are horrid person.''
The corner of his mouth ticks upward. “Of course I am.”
You push yourself upright, every muscle trembling.
The too big shirt you wore to bed that night is gone; at some point, when? he's transfigured something simple and soft onto you. You only now realize you haven’t been naked as a cat, you had simply stopped thinking about it. Like a pet.
The thought makes your stomach roll.
''You did something to me,'' you accuse him, fingers clenching in the hem of the plain cotton. ''I couldn’t change back. No matter what I tried."
''That was rather the point,'' he confirms mildly.
“You did it.”
''Yes.'' He folds his arms, regarding you with the patience of a teacher waiting for a slow student to catch up. ''I did tell you I’m very good at keeping what is mine.''
You stumble backward until your spine hits the wall. ''You kidnapped me.''
One of his brows lifts. ''Is that the word you would like to use?''
''What else would you call it?'' Your voice high with anger and fear. ''You trapped me in that form. You hid me. You let everyone think I was dead.''
''Missing, not dead'' he corrects.
''They never found a body.''
''Does it matter?'' Your hands are shaking.
''They searched everywhere. Hagrid. Professor McGonagall. Dumbledore, you told me.''
He sighs, almost disappointed. ''You cling so stubbornly to these sentimental details.''
''Because they matter,'' you spit. ''You sat there and told me all about how they were looking for me, about how they were worried, and the whole time you taunted me.''
''The whole time,'' he says, stepping closer, ''I was feeding you, sheltering you, keeping you out of their reach.'' He stops an arm’s length away, eyes never leaving your face.
''They would have dragged you into the light, made you explain yourself in front of the entire Wizengamot. Tell me, is that preferable to a single, quiet room and one person who actually understands what you are?''
''I'm not your pet,'' you whisper.
He considers you for a long moment. ''No,'' he agrees softly. ''You're something much rarer.''
''I want to go back.'' The command rush out before you can stop them. ''My friends, they thought I was gone, they must be worried about.''
''They adapted,'' Tom assures you. ''That’s what people do, they cry and grit their teeth, cursing fate.'' He flicks his fingers dismissively. ''And then they move on.''
“You don't know that.”
''Oh, but I do.'' His eyes grow distant for a heartbeat, darkening with something possessive.
''I have a great deal of experience with being left behind.'' The illusion of softness fades as quickly as it came. ''Which is why I don’t intend to permit it to happen to me again.''
You stare. ''You… what?''
He laughs once, soft, astonished by your obtuseness. ''You think this is about punishment? About power for its own sake?'' He steps in, closing the last of the distance.
You back up out of instinct, but there is nowhere to go.
He places his palm against the wall beside your head and leans in just enough that you can feel the warmth of him.
''I watched you,'' he says quietly.
''For months. Long before the night in the library. You thought you were so clever, slipping away, coming back with a flush in your cheeks and ink on your fingers.'' He tilts his head.
''Did you really think you were invisible?''
''I saw you,'' Tom begins spilling everything.
''I see everything. The way you questioned what you were told. how you stayed up late, reading beyond the spells, you hid what you could do because you knew, instinctively, that they would only try to tame it.'' His eyes search your face, hungry.
''You are not meant for the small, frightened life they want you to live.''
His voice has dropped, each word a coaxing note.
''You took that choice away from me.'' you exclaim.
''Surely, you would have made the wrong one,'' he insists, with such calm certainty that for a moment you almost believe him.
''You would have gone back to your dormitory, to your half learned spells and your half awake classmates, and convinced yourself that was enough. That you were content to be extraordinary in a world determined to stay ordinary.''
''And what?'' You lift your chin despite the prickling at the backs of your eyes. ''You're going to fix that? Keep me locked up until I agree with you?''
His gaze warms, in an unsettling, focused way.
''I prefer to think of it as giving you time to see clearly. You've had a taste of what life is like away from their petty expectations. No timetables. No rules you didn’t write. No one telling you what you are allowed to be.''
''Except you,'' you argue bitterly.
''Except,'' he concedes, ''that even now, I have not hurt you. I have not starved you, or broken your bones, or stripped you of your magic. I have simply redirected one aspect of it.'' He taps his wand against his palm.
''You could say it's temporary measure.''
Realization sinks deep into your gut.
''You mean to keep doing that. Turning it on and off like a switch. Using it to...?"
''To ensure your cooperation,'' he finishes for you, without shame. ''Yes.''
Your vision blurs. ''You're mad.''
He smiles faintly. ''They would say the same of you, if they knew what you had done to your own body without permission.'' His fingers brush your chin very gently, tilting your face up.
''We both transgressed, but I'm simply honest about it.''
“I will fight. And I will find a way to harm you like you did to me.”
''You're very welcome to try,'' Tom points at the door with his wand.
''In fact, I expect it. It will be interesting to see how far your ingenuity goes, now that you finally have time to develop it.''
Your fists clench. ''And if I do? If I break your spell and walk out that door?''
His hand leaves your chin, only to curl, with chilling familiarity, around your throat, not squeezing, just there, a circle of warmth hidden underneath a threat.
His eyes are filled with darkness enough to make you regret what you just said.
''Then I will simply find you again,'' he asserts.
"As I did before. And next time, I may not be so..." his thumb strokes the hollow of your throat in a motion that's close to affectionate.
''...generous.''
The dark haired young man licks behind his bottom teeth, thinking about all the possibilities to punish you.
"If you don't wish to be a cat, don't misbehave like one."
Tags: p in v, loss of virginity, creampie, non-con, use of Imperio, necrophilia, murder of reader, bloodlust, dead dove do not eat
just a note before reading, please please please dont read this if youre squeamish at all, its pretty violent so yeah. but if youre into this kinda thing, please enjoy(?) and let me know if i should write more unhinged shit like this. it was a whim i got at 4am like "what if tom fucked a corpse" dont hate me im just a slave to inspiration
Word Count: 2.1k
The fresh, warm tea slid down your throat, warming your very soul on such a cold winter day. It tasted of ginger and cloves, and the heat and spice of it seemed to radiate throughout your body to fuel your evening of reading. Ever since Hogwarts, your interest in the dark arts has only grown, leading you to purchase several tomes and textbooks on the subject. The old parchment of the page made a crackling sound as you turned it, as did the fire that burned brightly in the hearth nearby.
You were combing through the ancient spells and their effects, sipping your hot, spiced tea as you read, when your mind strangely started drifting elsewhere. The image of your room and the book in front of you seemed to grow cloudy and twisted into a very different image. The cozy, warmly lit room contorted into one much bigger, and darker as well. It was a bedroom, well decorated and lavish, clearly belonging to someone decently wealthy. Black floorboards and wall paneling, and rich emerald drapes and wallpaper to match it, not very unlike the Slytherin dormitories back at Hogwarts. The hearth stood out starkly, a green flame within to shroud the room in a certain cold hue that left you feeling slightly uneasy. A floo flame, but for what purpose?
Your eyes fell towards the bed, where two figures appeared to be engaging in something…intimate. Still mostly clothed, their lips were locked tightly, hands roaming wherever they pleased, and it seemed that they were the source of the only heat in the cold, eerie room. Upon closer inspection of the couple, you recognized yourself, a perfect mirror copy. And as your eyes darted to the man whose hand was currently gripping your waist, you quickly recognized who it was.
It was Tom Riddle, whom you fancied for quite a time during your school years together. The curly black hair, the pale skin, the handsome features; there was no mistaking it was him. But why was he suddenly in your fantasies again after years, and why did this feel so real? The two of you continued your throes of passion before Tom turned his head away from your lips (or rather, your copy's lips) to look straight into your eyes with his piercing gaze. Your copy did not seem to notice as he spoke firmly:
"The Riddle Manor, in Little Hangleton. Take the floo, and don't tarry. I do not like being kept waiting."
Right after he said that, the vision began to swirl as it did when it came about, and after a time, your room came back into view. The warm hearth, the spiced tea, the dark arts book. Home. But all of it was also accompanied by a dull headache and slight nauseous feeling. You slugged back the rest of the tea, which settled the sick feeling, before setting the book down on the table beside your chair. Something strange was happening, yet you felt compelled to comply with imaginary Tom's orders all the same. You strode over to the fireplace, grabbed a pinch of floo powder, and tossed it into the fire, watching the bright orange flame turn a sickly green hue. As you stepped in, you wondered if this was all a big mistake, that maybe you would intrude on some poor family's evening. But all the same, the words came out of your mouth:
"Riddle Manor."
Instantly, you were transported to the bedroom from your daydream, feeling much better now that you didn't see any strangers or hear any shrieking at your appearance in the fireplace. However, that relief was quickly diminished as your eyes landed on Tom Riddle, standing by the bed, in the same place where he had been entangling with you in your dream. No, his presence here proved that that was no mere daydream. It was a vision. It finally clicked: Tom had planted that in your head by means of legilimency. But why?
He strode towards you, his gaze and demeanor making you feel cornered even though you were in the open middle of the room. But before you could fully process what was happening and mull over your questions, his hand firmly gripped your shoulder, his long bony fingers digging into the flesh. He was different than he had been at Hogwarts. Sure, he still carried himself well and was still handsome, but his eyes and cheeks were sunken further into his face, and he was a little more twitchy now, looking as though he had been in a room full of dementors for weeks. The eyes that once held a perpetual air of cool composure now burned with something far more sinister. Tom seemed more raw now, a little more unhinged.
"Don't ask me why I brought you here, and don't ask me how I've been over the years. I am not interested in catching up. Just get on the bed." He commanded, his voice wavering slightly.
Your face twisted up into one of confusion, wanting some answers first. Not even a letter in years, no interaction or correspondence whatsoever, and now he brings you here simply to have sex with you? Absolutely not. Sure, you had fancied him, but you still had self-respect enough to stand your ground.
"Tom, wait, why did-"
A frustrated groan emanated from his throat, promptly cutting you off. He sounded and looked manic; clearly something had happened just before he summoned you here. But before you could inquire about anything, Tom pulled out his wand and pointed it at you, and muttered out an incantation that neither you nor anyone else ever wanted to hear.
"Imperio."
Suddenly, your mind was cleared of all inhibitions and inquiries, and you felt as if you were floating. His wand remained pointing toward you, but you could not care less in that instant. In your world, there were no cares at all. Tom's voice reverberated throughout the silent room as he commanded once more:
"Get on the bed."
And so you did, laying down on the plush emerald blankets, hands at your sides and obediently awaiting his next command. Tom took no time in hovering over you, pinning you in place and hiking up your skirt, not even bothering to fully strip you. Curiously, he noticed that you were wet between your thighs. Not overly so, but enough for him to know that you were somewhat enjoying this. He contemplated a moment before deciding to lift the curse, putting his wand down on the nightstand close by. Yes…it would be much more fun to break you himself.
Just as you were coming back into consciousness, you felt your underwear being harshly ripped away from your body and something hard being aligned with your core. Tom spit in his hand and stroked himself a couple of times before pushing the head in.
"Tom, wait-!"
Tom placed that same hand tightly over your mouth, feeling your lips moisten with the remaining saliva coating his palm.
"Quiet. If you resist, it will end badly for you. Just do as I say."
You nodded, and Tom started roughly pounding into you, painfully stretching you out and making it sting from the lack of proper lubrication. A tear fell down the side of your face from the unbearable pain, but also from the shame of knowing that you also secretly took pleasure in him using you like this. You wished he had taken more time with preparing you first, but that was simply a silly fantasy. Of course, you knew that Tom was never one to really consider the comfort of anyone but himself.
Soon enough though, the pain started to become pleasure as you fully took in what was happening. Tom hovered above you, relentlessly ramming his cock in and out of you, sweat forming on his face. Or had it always been there? Compared to the vision of heated passion he had shown you before, he was completely different in reality. There was no warmth, no desire, no savoring of stimulation, none of what she truly wanted. The only thing in Tom right now was a dull lust, and even then, it was brought about by stress, and not out of any longing for her personally. He was clearly strained and rather wired, but why?
Tom was nearing closer and closer to his release, urged on even more so by the way your body slowly began opening up and accepting him into you. But it really wasn't you that had gotten him this riled up and raring to go. You were only an afterthought, someone he remembered from Hogwarts, and likely the most willing to come. No, Tom had been spurred on by the scene in the dining room just below the room they were in.
His father's side of the family, dead in their seats, their dinner and their bodies probably still a little warm.
The way their faces contorted with fear, the empty look in their eyes, permanently in the state of terror a mere moment before their deaths; all of it had been exhilarating to execute, quite literally. Tom's bony fingers dug into your hip as his left hand held you steady, while his right remained over your mouth, muffling the moans that simply begged to be released from your lips into the frigid air of the room. However, instead of relishing in the sounds of your pleasure, he only became annoyed. He didn't care to perceive your shameful and sickening display of lust, and as you both grew closer to your releases, you grew louder, and he only grew more aggravated until he finally snapped.
"Quiet, I said!"
He released his hand from your mouth, only to wrap it around the handle of his wand, and he pointed it at you once more. You were so cock-drunk at this point, that you didn't even hear the incantation fall from his lips before seeing a flash of green light blind your vision.
And then, nothing.
Your body was completely limp now, and your face carried the same expression as the occupants of the dining table downstairs. The sheer terror, the microsecond where you realize you're going to die, the horror of it all. Tom, however, just soaked this in, not even wanting to pull out. In actuality, his pace only increased, the gruesome nature of the act only fueling the fire within him further. Only now, after you were completely unable to perceive anything anymore, did he indulge in what you had really wanted. His hands ripped open your shirt so he could take a look at you completely exposed, for only him to see. The hand that was previously pressed over your mouth now kneaded at the mounds of flesh, relishing in the softness of them. His teeth sunk harshly into the flesh of your throat, feeling the skin break and the taste of copper flowing over his tongue. With one more incantation, Tom pointed his wand at your chest to truly complete his work of art.
"Diffindo."
The flesh of your chest was cut deeply in three strokes, as if you had been ravaged by a rabid animal. And, in a way, you had been. Tom licked his lips before dragging his tongue over the bleeding cuts, savoring the thick, metallic tasting fluid in his mouth before letting it go down his throat.
Tom had never felt more powerful than in this moment. And upon realizing that, his cock twitched and the dam within him broke, spilling his seed within your slack cunt, furthering the humiliation and desecration of your lifeless body. He liked you better this way, without thoughts or wants or autonomy. Simply a tool, a doll he could use for his own satisfaction whenever he wanted. But sadly, you would decompose, and all his fun would end once you got too cold. But for now, he pulled out and fixed himself back up, as if nothing had just happened.
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Your dead body remained on the bed for a couple of days, cold and pale from the lack of circulating blood. Tom knew that this would be his last time with you before it became unsafe for him to keep you around. He tucked himself back into his trousers, watching the last couple of days worth of his seed leak out of your cold, dead cunt. The scene was sick and disgusting, truly, but Tom found a bizarre beauty in it. The juxtaposition of the seed of life being planted into something cold and dead that could never grow it filled him with a sense of disturbing satisfaction that he just loved the rush from.
However, the body would start breaking down soon, and he needed to get rid of it. After a few moments of contemplation, he had decided to transfigure your body into something small and simple: a teacup. A teacup which, when drinking from it, would remind him of most likely the best day he had ever had. He had taken revenge on his filthy muggle relatives, and had his first go with a woman all in one night.
i've been getting an uptick in followers recently so i'd just like to make some things clear :
free palestine, free sudan, free congo, united ireland, land back, fuck the settler state, fuck the idf, fuck trump, fuck ice, fuck your cop dad and your military boyfriend, fuck anyone who doesn't think politics affects them. silence is neutrality in the face of genocide and oppression. educate yourself and listen to the voices of those affected. and if you disagree with any of this, i don't want you anywhere near me.
I was promised a vessel and got thrown into a teenager who has their own shit to work through that is not being helped by this situation, and if I ever give up then the world is covered in darkness.
i hope israelis feel mortal terror right now. i want more israelis to suffer, suffer, suffer. this is the least they could do for nearly 2 years of non-stop bombardment of Gaza.
When the Cult of Nikador conquers your city and sacks your temple, you are captured by the Crown Prince of Kremnos and taken as his war prize.
(Or: The fall of Castrum Kremnos, as seen through the eyes of an oracle held captive by Prince Mydeimos.)
12.8k words of romance, enemies to lovers, and slow burn. Canon-adjacent (multiple timelines theory) with ancient Greek historical and mythological influences. Warnings for themes of war, slavery, and threats of sexual violence (none from Mydei). Mydei also seems quite terrible to you at first, but this is all unreliable narration; he is actually very kind to you for the entirety of the story. MDNI.
Author's note including discussion of themes, ancient Greek influences, canon lore (including the multiple timelines), and a list of characters and terminology for my non-hsr readers lol. dividers by @/strangergraphics!
They find you at the altar.
The Sons of Gorgo are a cruel people. Their hands are smeared with the blood of your fallen temple, staining the ivory silk of your chiton as they drag you outside. Chaos roars around you: the streets are strewn with corpses, the olive trees are devoured by flames, the sky is filled with ash. The city is screaming in its death throes. The Kremnoans jeer at you, at your humiliation. High priestess of a weak god, they say. Prophetess turned slave. They’ve heard that the hiereia of your temple are required to be virgins. You won't be a holy maiden anymore, after they're done with you.
They argue over who gets to rape you.
You do not cower. You are sitting on the temple steps, surrounded by the corpses of acolytes and worshippers alike, but you remain impassive. You refuse to give the invaders the satisfaction of seeing your tears, and anyway, they are much too small to intimidate someone who speaks to the Titans. They bicker over who is more deserving of the valuable plunder of your body—who has killed more people, who has captured more slaves, who has burned down more homes—and you feel disgust, rather than fear. They're closer to animals than men.
The hoplites fall silent when their leader comes. His hair is fire and gold; his eyes gleam like the sun. He cuts a terrible figure—the shape of a man who feasts on strife and fear. Just like the rest of his army.
Just like Nikador himself.
“What’s happening here?” he says, harsh and oppressive. His gaze is sharp on you, but you do not tremble. “Who is this?”
A soldier speaks proudly: “She was the high priestess of this temple,” he says. “But now she’ll be a slave.”
The men laugh.
“We were fighting over who should get to keep her,” another says. “But I think it's clear as day who's most deserving, eh?”
“The fiercest among us should get the greatest prize,” someone else says. They cheer and bark like hyenas. Their general does not smile. He only looks at you, eyes burning. Outraged. How much the Kremnoans must hate your people, you think, for their leader to glare at you like this.
“Fine,” he says. “I'll take her, then.”
They grab you with their red hands. Push you toward an encampment, a tent. Laugh in delight and bloodthirst. About time our Crown Prince shows interest in a woman, they say. We were starting to think you were a eunuch, Your Highness! It wouldn't do if he were. In the wake of victory, Kremnoans are meant to take all the glories and treasures they can. That includes all the peoples they've conquered. Our mighty general needs to enjoy his spoils of war!
When they finally reach his tent, they throw you onto the ground, and the pain slams through your bones. You are left alone with the Kremnoan general, glaring up at him from your place on the floor. His eyes are less sharp now; rather than burning on you, they merely seem cold. He will kill me, you think, he will kill me like he has killed my city, but then he kneels down. A hand extends toward you, reaching, pilfering, violating—
You spit in his face.
“Don't fucking touch me,” you snarl, and the general jerks back, surprised. Your hand darts out as he falters, grabbing a dagger from his hip, swift and deadly.
The sharp metal of his gauntlet snaps around your wrist before you can slash open your throat.
“What are you doing?” he snaps. Your brow arches.
“Shouldn’t it be obvious?” you ask, scathing. “I'd rather die than let a Kremnoan touch me.”
His mouth twists. “I have no intention to do such a thing,” he says, and the bark of laughter you let out is so cruel that you hear in it the echo of the soldiers who dragged you to your doom.
“Do you take me for an idiot?” you hiss. “That’s what your people do when they win wars. What the Cult of Nikador does to the women they enslave.” The blade is pressed against your jugular, and you feel its edge when you swallow. “Or will you instead bleed me dry and drink my blood from your chalice? That's what your god demands of you, isn't it?”
His eyes narrow. “Foolish. I was going to help you up, but I suppose you prefer being on the ground.”
You watch him, wary, unconvinced, but he turns away. As if utterly disinterested in you, he crosses the threshold to rummage through his personal effects. You spot a golden winecup in his hands when he turns, and he snorts when he catches you looking at it suspiciously. “You have no need to worry,” he says dryly. “Kremnoans prefer pomegranate juice to blood.”
“If only they preferred to be humans rather than beasts,” you retort, and the general’s eyes harden as he pours himself a drink. You wonder, for a moment, if he will strike you, but he seems to temper himself as he takes his draught.
“I hope you prefer living to dying. If you should, then you won't leave this tent tonight. Doing so would mean throwing yourself to those beasts.”
“I'm already in the presence of one.”
His nostrils flare. You can sense his fury, but his voice is taut and restrained when he says, “Better to contend with one beast than twenty, don't you think?”
Your captor walks over, his boots heavy against the ground as he kneels before you. You expect to feel his hands on your neck, or the weight of his body crushing yours into the earth, but instead you are presented with his winecup, half empty.
“Take it,” he says. When you don't move, merely glaring at him, he frowns and sets the drink next to you before rising again. You're left staring at the nectar, and—unbidden—you see the rivers of blood on the temple steps, lacerations in your holy ground. Smell the copper stench of slain men, hear the sorrowful cries of your goddess through the Evernight Veil. Your captor misinterprets your grimace: “You just saw me drink from that yourself. It isn't poisoned.”
You glance at him, uncomprehending.
“...you mean for me to drink this?”
“Yes. Pour some on the sheets, then drink the rest.”
He turns away, as if to leave. You swallow, disbelieving.
“And then?”
“And then you may do whatever you wish, so long as you don't leave my tent. I have a war to wage, so you'll need to entertain yourself for the rest of the night.”
Entertain yourself. Your city is aflame, your temple is desecrated, and he wishes for you to drink pomegranate juice and amuse yourself until he has the time to rape you. As if you can't hear the screams and cries of your city. As if you can't smell the charcoal and death through the fabric of the tent. As if you will be content to lie back and wait for him to cleave you open once he returns.
How much the Kremnoans must hate your people, you think, for their prince to be so cruel to you.
You imagine rushing toward him. You envision grabbing his knife, lodging it into his back, in the soft space between his vertebrae, a path into his heart—but you hold yourself back, because you have no doubt he’ll easily overpower you now. No—if you wish to kill him, you will need to do it while he's unguarded. Likely when he's asleep, or perhaps even inside you, depending on how stupid or drunk he’ll be when he rapes you.
You will need to humour his whims until then.
“How much?” you ask when he is about to leave the tent. When he glances back at you, you add, uncomprehending, “How much do you want me to pour out?” And why?
He shrugs. “However much makes sense to you.” The general glances back, thoughtful, and says, “I’ll see to it that someone else cleans up in here tomorrow,” and then you understand.
You drink half of what remains in his cup, and then you pour out the rest.
Your goddess sends you visions that night, dreams of the past, present, future. You peer upon a child drowning in the sea, a poisoned woman with a golden dagger, a mad king cleaving a statue into fifths. You dream of burning villages, fallen idols, a father slain by his son. Aquila closes his eyes; Georios drowns in shadow; monsters roam the earth. A great fortress looms before you, dark and decrepit, and the young king seated upon its throne is covered in blood. He reeks of the corpses of a thousand temples, of your temple. You cannot see his face, but you recognise the shape of him, mighty and terrible—a man who feasts upon strife and fear. You are lying at his feet, wounded. Your chest is heavy, aching, and your heart bleeds in the hand of Nikador, scarlet dripping through his fingers.
You are crying when you wake up.
You do not need to look outside the tent to know that your city is gone. Aurelia is silent, bereft of life—its buildings gutted, its people slain, its treasures stolen. Death has settled over your home, and in its wake, the Kremnoan legion prepares to leave.
The soldiers sent to disassemble your captor’s tent all bear white caps. They must be helots, the children of slaves; you have met a few of them during your time as an acolyte, watching them trailing after the rare Kremnoan master who would sometimes seek supplication at your temple.
You used to pity them for their station; now, they pity you.
The helots give you sorrowful looks as they strip the bed of its red-stained sheets. They speak gently to you when they give you water to wash your face and thighs. They try to counsel you, tell you that Prince Mydeimos is the best person who could have stolen you. He is just for a Kremnoan warrior, they whisper, show the soldiers grace and you'll see, and then they put you in chains.
You do not show the Kremnoan army any grace. You glare at every hoplite who lays eyes on you, and you refuse to bow your head for any of them. On the long march back to Castrum Kremnos, they study you like you are an animal. Some of them look at you with wonder—for you are a divine oracle in the flesh—some with shameless curiosity—for it has spread like wildfire that you have been defiled by the Crown Prince Mydeimos, who has never taken a woman as his plunder—and some with unadulterated glee. They pester you and the other prisoners-of-war, and you recognize them as the animals who sacked your temple and burned your olive groves.
“Has Prince Mydeimos given you a Kremnoan welcome?” they ask in their dialect, mocking. Has he told you what your life will become? Do the men behind you know that their priestess has been ruined, or are they too stupid to understand the Kremnoan tongue?
“HKS,” you retort, and their faces fall. They look at one another, aghast.
“What did you say?” one grits out the Aurelian dialect, and you cast him a cool glance.
“HKS. I called you a hyena—or are you too stupid to understand the Kremnoan tongue?”
You do not expect to be struck. A hand cracks across your cheek; the pain is blinding. You are on the ground, knees in the dirt, reeling. The prisoners behind you are crying for their priestess; the memory-ghosts of the acolytes behind you are screaming for help; the olive trees behind you are turning to charcoal and dust; the city behind you is burning, burning, burning. Oronyx will never let you forget this, nor any other memory.
“What is this?” a voice snarls, and time freezes.
The procession has come to a halt. The hoplites are suddenly children, caught red-handed with a broken toy. The offending soldier swallows, and you feel some semblance of glee. The Cult of Nikador is famed for their obsession with order and with glory. It is taboo among their people to touch another’s spoils, and suicide to try it with one’s superiors. Killing the slave of the Crown Prince would be the same thing as stealing his belongings or breaking his sword—acts of impudence punishable by death.
He stutters: “She—the priestess… she was out of line, Your Highness, mocking us—”
“And you were not out of line for touching her?”
The offending soldier looks at the ground beneath him. Sweat beads his temple. “I… forgot myself. I apologize, Your Highness.”
Your captor is not placated. His gaze roams the bystanders, scalding. “Should any other man be foolish enough to strike the priestess,” he booms, “I will cut off his hand myself. I have claimed her as my war prize, and no one else shall touch her. Do you understand?”
The yessirs are immediate. Unanimous. The general is restless still. He turns to you, the edge of his voice now muted, but still present. “Can you stand?”
I will slit your throat someday, you think as you look up at him. “Yes, my lord,” you reply demurely. “He merely struck my face. The rest of my body is untouched.”
“Then you will ride upfront with me,” he declares. “I will not have my spoils within the reach of anyone else.”
You end up next to him in his chariot, which makes you want to claw off your skin—to be so far from your worshippers, and so close to your captor. You turn your cheek to him, throbbing and bruised, but he deigns to speak with you anyway.
“Tell me,” he asks brusquely, “do you have a death wish? Or are you just a fool? Though even fools usually know when to hold their tongue.”
“I know too many tongues to hold them all, I'm afraid,” you reply neatly in the Kremnoan dialect, and your captor gives you an incredulous stare. You pointedly look ahead, eyes unwavering on the winding road to the City of Strife. “I am the High Priestess of the Aurelian Cult of Oronyx. I will not be cowed by a gaggle of idiots.”
“You are very proud for someone currently wearing chains,” the general remarks.
“And you are very cruel for someone who will someday wear a crown.” You pause then, thinking of your dreams before gambling: “Though a man who plans to kill his father could only be cruel.”
Your captor falls silent. You glance at him, mouth curling in satisfaction as you catalogue his reaction. His features are stoic, and someone with a lesser eye for expressions—someone not practiced in the art of telling fortunes and giving counsel—might miss it, but it's clear as day to you: your captor is ungrounded.
Disturbed.
“I know not what you mean,” he says coolly, and you raise a brow.
“It’s no use lying to me, you know,” you bluff. “Have you somehow forgotten that your war prize is an oracle? That is why your men were so obsessed with staking their claim on me.”
The prince remains composed despite your goading. “...so the rumours of your visions are true.” He studies you. “There were almost children or elderly in your city when the walls fell. Nearly no women. And the Aurelian soldiers… it was as if they knew all our plans.” At your silence, he concludes, “It was you, wasn't it? You foretold our attack and warned them.”
“It seems that the future king of Kremnos is a clever one,” you say dryly.
“And the High Priestess in his hands is a fool.” His jaw clicks. “I am trying my best to keep the wolves away from you, but you seem determined to throw yourself at them.”
You bare your canines with a smile, and you try dangling your newfound leverage over his head. “If I were you,” you reply, “I would be more worried about the wolves who would hunt for you, Your Highness. I’ve heard that King Eurypon and his council threw you into the sea as a baby; I am quite sure they would do the same to you now—unless you kill them first, of course.”
A great deal of being an oracle is guesswork. Oronyx sends you dreams, visions, echoes; people give you hints, gossip, microexpressions. Together, you can get a fairly good grasp on a man’s circumstances. Your captor is no exception: from the way his brows knot, you know that you've guessed true.
His eyes narrow, and he glances back at the rest of the Kremnoan procession, who are too far behind to hear anything. “Keep quiet,” he commands. “Don't think I won't kill you if you are a liability. There are limits to my patience.”
You snort. “I won’t give you away”—not yet—“but it won't be out of fear of death. Kill me if you'd like; I will not cower.”
Your captor makes a noise of displeasure. “I have never met a person so eager to die.”
“Haven’t you?” You arch a brow at the perplexed look he gives you. “Valorous death before glorious return. That’s your way of life, isn't it? You’ve burned my city and destroyed my temple—I will never see a glorious return. By the laws of your own god, there is now only one path left for me.”
You turn your wrists, let the iron chains sing. It occurs to you that you had been dead in your visions—slain by King Mydeimos—but you had not been shackled.
Castrum Kremnos is a prison.
Never have you been anywhere so strange nor frightening. The walls of the fortress climb high enough to eclipse the sun; the streets are crawling with soldiers carrying spears and shields. Every man and woman carries a sword; every child play-fights with a wooden one. Each one of them cheers as their army returns from its campaign, and nearly all of them eye you curiously—the war prize chosen by their famed Crown Prince.
During your long procession into the inner city, all you can hear are the whispers and jeers of the crowd. It is the warriors who are the loudest—the ones who did not put Aurelia under siege and are disappointed to have missed out on the glory of its destruction. They speak about you, about what you must look like beneath your bloodied robes, about how they cannot blame General Mydeimos for capturing you. Any Kremnoan man would want to fuck the High Priestess of their long-time enemy, and that is only truer now that their leader has staked his claim on you. All of them want a turn with the war prize of the Crown Prince.
Your own face remains unmoving, but Prince Mydeimos’ eyes darken. “Hyenas,” he growls, and you have to stop yourself from snorting at the hypocrisy.
The king is said to be senile and half-mad, and his queen died some years back of illness, so the homecoming warriors are greeted by a high statesman, General Krateros. You have heard many tales of him: legendary strategos, shrewd politician, the right hand of King Eurypon. The Seaside States once launched an offensive on Castrum Kremnos and was met with Krateros’ Goldshield Brigade; every enemy soldier was either put to death or bound in chains.
Chains just like yours.
General Krateros gives you a thoughtful look when he meets you, eyes locked on your iron cuffs. “I had a great hand in raising you, Prince Mydeimos, so I know you well,” he says. You’ve heard tell that after Prince Mydeimos was thrown into the Sea of Souls, General Krateros spent years searching for him at the request of his mother, eventually finding him years later in some fishing village. Krateros has ever since served and counselled the Crown Prince—perhaps poorly, for he says, “I did not take you for the type of man to capture a woman as your bounty.”
“Nor did you raise me to be the type of man to throw an innocent to the wolves,” your captor replies evenly, and you stop yourself from rolling your eyes.
No, you think, you are only the type to put a holy maiden in chains.
Your face must give away your disdain, for General Krateros studies you carefully. “Innocent or not, you may do whatever you wish with her, Mydeimos,” the strategos says, his eyes keen on you. “A predator need not worry for his prey other than how to keep it for himself.”
The message is clearly for you—know your place—but your captor appears to take the words to heart. Keeping you for himself is exactly what he does: rather than sending you to the slave’s quarters or some courtesan house, Prince Mydeimos has you stay in his room and orders that no one—aside from his appointed servants—should be allowed an audience with you.
Thus begins your life as the war prize of the Crown Prince.
If you were a different sort of person, you might enjoy the position. The Aurelian soldiers who fought to protect you are likely chained in iron and performing hard labour; the older women who were accosted in your temple are likely being forced to do menial work; the younger ones may have been ushered into brothels. You are instead placed into a beautiful, private chamber, and you are given robes of silk. Your wrists are manacled like every other slave under Kremnoan law, but the chains are gold. You are told to bathe in fragrant water, and the scent of flowers is ever-present on your skin.
You don't mistake any of this as kindness toward you. It is clear that you are not meant to enjoy this opulence; you are part of the opulence. A thing for the Crown Prince to indulge in, a treasure stolen from Aurelia. The time will come when you are raped, and the time will come when he bores of you, and the time will come when you will be killed at the foot of his throne.
All you can do is face your fate with dignity.
An entire moon passes, and your fate does not befall you.
You are unsure why your captor does not hurt you. Perhaps he is busy with making war; the servants say that he stays at the barracks every night rather than coming home. He might be expected to fuck you anyway, but he visits you only once a day for half an hour, and he only ever stays long enough to ask you three questions: Are you eating? Are you sick? What did you do today, while you were alone?
For an entire month, your answers are single words: Yes. No. Nothing. You sit as far away as possible from him, though you do not give him the satisfaction of seeing your fear—you always meet his impassive gaze, your own hard-edged.
Sometimes he tries to speak with you: Are you comfortable? Are you bored? Do you want anything? But most days, he leaves as soon as he can, his jaw tight and his eyes filled with something that edges on discomfort. You start to wonder if he finds you too unattractive to touch, if he is debating whether he should kill you instead of fucking you. But regardless of his intentions toward you, it is clear that he does not care for you.
So it surprises you when your captor one day says, “You have not been eating.”
You give him a long look, wondering if you'd misheard.
“No,” you eventually reply. “I have not.”
“Why?”
Your brow arches. “Does it matter?”
“Of course it matters.”
“Why?” His expression becomes puzzled—and it aggravates you. You point out, “You are a Kremnoan prince. It should not matter to you if a slave is starving. Or are you worried that I'll waste away before you can fuck me?”
His eyes narrow, and you think you see that hint of discomfort again. “I am worried you will starve to death in my care.”
Your nostrils flare. “I am not in your care. I am your prisoner.”
“I see to it that you are fed and clothed and bathed. Is that not care?”
You snort. “A man who took my home away from me cannot care for me. He can only torture me.”
His jaw tightens. Your captor’s voice measured, but his frustration is palpable: “He can also keep you alive—even though you seem determined to die.”
“Death is a mercy. I would much prefer it to being raped.”
“I thought it would be clear by now that I do not wish to touch you,” your captor says, frowning, and the bark you let out is so loud that he startles.
“Do you think I'd be stupid enough to believe that lie?”
“I think you'd be smart enough to see reality for what it is.”
“Yes,” you reply, voice bitter, “I am smart enough to see the reality of what you have done to my city. And I am smart enough to know the reality of what happens to women after they are captured by the enemy.”
Prince Mydeimos inhales sharply. His eyes flicker with—with something. Something you don't care to identify. Something you quickly decide is disdain.
“Believe whatever you want. Either way, I want to keep you alive.” His eyes narrow in suspicion. “Is it that you want to die? Is that why you aren't eating?”
You give him that fanged smile again. “No, Your Highness, I do not wish to die. I wish to stay alive so that I may someday slit your throat.”
Prince Mydeimos disappoints you when he does not react in kind. “Fine,” he writes off. “You are free to kill me as many times as you want, so long as you eat.” You give him a strange look; he ignores it. “Now, why haven't you? Surely you must want to, if your goal is to live long enough to kill me. Is the food not to your liking?”
A frown. “I don't understand why you care.”
He nods. “So it isn't. Very well.”
You open your mouth, countless questions on your tongue. What do you mean? Why does this matter? Why aren't you using me? Why aren't you hurting me? But Prince Mydeimos leaves, and you are alone again in your prison—untouched, unnerved, unbalanced.
Your conversation with Prince Mydeimos leaves you feeling strange. Perplexed. Nervous. The longer you think of it, the more you wonder why he is taking so long to torture you. You'd been dragged into his tent, fully expecting to be either mauled or violated; over a month later, the worst that has happened is that you have been served unappetizing meals, and that you have spent your days so idly that you have grown bored.
But even if you are idle, you are not unharmed. You still dream of the night of your abduction. You dream of the cries of your worshippers, of the stench of burning flesh, of your olive groves turning to ash. You dream of being pushed to the floor of your captor’s tent, of golden gauntlets cleaving open your legs, of pomegranate-red stains on silk sheets. Sometimes the dreams are so vivid that you wonder if they are actually visions from Oronyx—echoes of a future yet to be played out, or a past that you’ve somehow forgotten.
Whenever you wake from these dreams, you crawl under the bed and spend the rest of the night there, and you spend your day afterward untouched, unnerved, unbalanced.
You are in one of these tense moods the next time you speak at length with Prince Mydeimos, after his usual questions: Are you eating? Are you sick? What did you do yesterday, while you were alone?
“I am trapped in your room, so I did nothing but read your books,” you reply bluntly, picking idly at the chicken on your dinner plate. “Don't you have anything other than war histories, by the way? I should like a romance novel or two. I'd even take a philosophical dialogue over this. Kremnos must surely have a few thinkers who do not write solely about war.”
Your captor stares—perhaps surprised at your sudden chatter, though not displeased by it. Though he does seem perplexed.
“You are not ‘trapped’ here,” he points out, frowning. “I gave you leave some time ago to wander the grounds, so long as you are accompanied by one of the guards I have assigned you.”
“So you say, but not a single one of your guards has thus far dared to let me out.”
Prince Mydeimos frowns. “Why?”
You give him a strange look. “Do you not know the rules of your own land, Prince Mydeimos? Helots are given free movement, and even trusted slaves have some autonomy, but prisoners-of-war are not allowed to wander anywhere except in service of their given task. And my given task is…”
You gesture to the bed, and the prince’s mouth tightens.
“I see.”
You note the displeasure on his face—genuine, a sign of true oversight. “Why would you expect that I'd ever be allowed to roam around as I please?” you ask. “You paraded me around on your chariot as you returned home from war, and you announced me as your plunder to the entire city. Everyone knows I am your prisoner, and everyone treats me accordingly.”
“I have never kept a personal slave, let alone taken one for my spoils,” he says evenly. “I did not think these laws would supersede the orders of a Crown Prince.”
You snort at the sheer absurdity of his answer.
“The Crown Prince of Kremnos has never kept a slave? Your esteemed father has at least half a hundred of them in his personal service, I'd wager.”
“And my late mother did not allow any of them to serve me. She disliked the practice.” His voice is terse, belying something that turns your stomach. You look away, not wishing to think of it.
“Does that matter?” you deflect. “Your Highness, if you wish to ascend the throne and follow in your father’s footsteps, then you'd better get used to keeping slaves. Castrum Kremnos is built on them.”
Prince Mydeimos gives you a hard look. “I will not be the kind of king that my father is,” he says bluntly.
His words carry weight. Suppressed anger. You watch him keenly, interested—suddenly wondering if there is more to Prince Mydeimos’ plans to commit patricide other than self-preservation.
“And why would that be?” you ask.
He raises a brow. “You are an oracle. You haven't seen what he's done for yourself?”
“If I could see whatever I wanted at will, do you think I would be sitting here right now?” you ask dryly, and his brow twitches. His expression is otherwise impassive, but his eyes give away his alarm, and you exploit it immediately: “Worry not, Prince Mydeimos. Whatever secrets you've let slip are safe with me, so long as you do not touch me.”
“I thought it would be obvious by now that I have no wish to touch you.”
“And I thought it would be obvious by now that I am not stupid enough to trust you.” You laugh when he frowns. “No need to pout, Your Highness. You don't need my trust to keep me under control.” You shake your chains. "These are all you need."
He glances at your manacles, his eyes narrowing. “Controlling you is not my aim.”
“Then you are a fool and will make for an idiot king.”
“Surely no more of an idiot than the prisoner calling their captor a fool.” He contemplates you, his eyes suspicious. “...have you truly seen my future as a monarch?”
“No,” you lie. I hope you suffer every moment you sit on that throne, you think, remembering how Nikador will reach into your chest and close his hand around your heart, how you will bleed to death at the feet of King Mydeimos. You have no intention of giving him foreknowledge of his victory over you: you remain quiet, unyielding under his shrewd gaze.
The prince eventually relents, though clearly unconvinced. “I'll see to it that the guards and servants allow you some movement,” he says as he turns to leave. “I will… convince them to overlook the laws.”
His hand is on the door when he hesitates, glancing at the full dinner plate on the table.
“Do you still not like the food here? I had it changed after our conversation some time ago.”
You default to your usual answer: “Does it matter?”
He makes a noise—one that almost sounds displeased. “So it still isn’t to your taste.”
“No. I find the Kremnoan palate disagreeable.”
“Well, then, what should change to make you agree with it?”
You come very, very close to laughing in his face. “You could serve me a dish cooked by the Goddess of the Hearth herself, and it would taste like ash in my mouth because I am a prisoner.”
He sighs, closes his eyes, and you suspect he is silently counting to ten. “...I cannot blame you for your misery,” he finally says, “but you haven’t been eating, and I would prefer it if you didn't starve to death under my care.”
“Why?” Why does this matter? Why aren't you using me?
Why aren't you hurting me?
His voice grows quiet: “Because I do not wish to see any harm befall you.”
The words are so simple. So honest. There is no hint of deception in them, nor in his eyes—which flicker with something that looks so much like pain that even you, with your practised skill of reading expression, find yourself thinking that he feels sorrowful for you. That he feels guilty over you. That he wants to see you safe.
You marvel at what a good liar he is.
Because he must be lying. This must be some kind of manipulation. Perhaps he is afraid of your prescience, or perhaps he plans to use it for his own gain, and this is his way of appealing to you. Or perhaps he wants you to be willing when he fucks you. Some men do prefer that to outright rape; their egos demand it.
There is no other reason for him to come to your room every night and ask if you have been eating, ask if you are well, ask what have you been doing while alone. No other reason for him to say, “You barely touched your food yesterday, nor the day before that. Surely there is something that could be done to make you eat.”
You decide to play along for now. If you will die eventually, you may as well eat better in the meantime.
“More spices,” you say neatly, “and better olive oil. At minimum.”
“Of course,” he mutters. “The oil. I knew it.”
He leaves before you can ask him what he means.
The next day, you are served honey cakes with safflower, grilled fish salted to perfection, and wheat-bread with an olive oil so fresh and thick that you know it can only be an import from the south. The servants deliver to you five texts: three romance novels and two Socratic dialogues. Kremnos has no great storytellers nor philosophers, an unsigned note reads, so you will need to make do with these works from the Grove of Epiphany.
Prince Mydeimos does not visit you, and you find yourself in bed the whole night, three questions echoing in your head.
For whatever reason, Prince Mydeimos continues treating you well. The food is better—you’d even call it mouthwatering, at times—and new books are frequently delivered. He makes fewer stops by your room, possibly because he is busy or perhaps because he is growing disinterested with you. You don't care to ask why.
But as it turns out, he has been trying to find some way around the laws about your movements. He has been failing, too—quite miserably—and his way of compromise is driving you mad.
On the first day you are allowed outside your room, Prince Mydeimos is leading you, taking you for a walk on the palace roofs and parapets. For the first time since being abducted, you feel sunlight and wind on your skin—and you are too annoyed to enjoy it.
“This is your way of allowing me some freedom? Taking me out so you can walk me like a dog? I won't bark for you, you know.”
Prince Mydeimos clears his throat, pointedly avoiding your stare. If you didn't know better, you'd call him embarrassed.
“Because you are a prisoner,” he explains tersely, “I have been strongly advised against letting you wander the grounds unless it is to fulfill your assigned job as my companion.”
“You mean, as your whore?”
Prince Mydeimos looks so offended that you nearly laugh. “As a concubine.”
“Use whatever word you want—a slave you fuck can't be anything other than a whore,” you point out evenly. Your captor gives you a look of mild pain, but it is gone before you can unravel it.
“Well, then, it is a good thing that I will not be touching you,” he retorts. “Regardless, I cannot let you wander without drawing undue attention to myself”—a poor idea right before a regicide, you infer—“but I may eventually be able to let you move freely without me if we are able to convince people that you are serving me willingly. Not as my prisoner, but as my lover.” His mouth slants. “This would require you to give the impression of enjoying my company, however.”
“Then I suppose I will be trapped forever in your quarters,” you reply instantly. When his expression sours, you add, “Worry not, Your Highness. I do not much like the sights of Castrum Kremnos anyway.” Your eyes flick over the strange innards of the city—the high walls hiding open skies, the stone paths barren of any flowers or shrubs, the constant thunder of marching hoplites and proud salutes. The sword of Nikador hanging over the fortress gates, sharpened by the souls of countless slain Kremnoans.
This city runs on war. Hungers for it. It makes your heart pound, has you hearing the screams of your worshippers as the Kremnoans flood through the gates of Aurelia. Gone forever are the musicians who strung on their lyres every morning and night; gone are the streets of laughing children who would always ask you to fix their toys; gone are the olive groves full of birdsong and gossiping women.
Gone is everything that you love.
“You might like it better within the city,” your captor tries to reason, “or if I can someday take you beyond the walls and into the settlements—”
“—then it will still never be home.”
Prince Mydeimos has the grace to stay quiet, for which you are glad.
“...your home,” he says eventually, “what was it like?”
What was it like, before I took it away from you?
You shrug, feeling a dull ache in your chest that you'd rather die than show him.
“Peaceful. Kind. The people were nicer. The music was lovelier. The food was better.”
You remember the flavour of the dishes that the women in the neighbourhood always made for you, the figs and apples and olives that the farmers always brought to the temple, the simple but sweet breakfasts that you would have with the other acolytes—eat up, my love, the older ones would always laugh, eat your fill!—and then all you taste is ash in the sky and copper between your teeth and the acrid, nauseating stench of human flesh burning, burning, burning.
You close your eyes to the looming walls of Castrum Kremnos—a prison from which there is no escape.
“None of it should matter to you, of course,” you add lightly.
Because no matter how much Prince Mydeimos denies it and no matter how gently he treats you, you are just a bed-slave—and Castrum Kremnos does not care about its slaves. The burning of your home will become naught but ink in their war histories—a paragraph if you are lucky, a footnote if you are not. You are merely one massacre in a thousand years of them. Your death will be one casualty in hundreds of millions.
But you return to your quarters later that night, and you see another book delivered—an Aurelian play, wildly popular a few years back—and you notice a lyre on the nightstand, and your meal tastes just like the ones the grandmother next door always brought over to share. You realise that your captor must have sought out an Aurelian helot or slave to make it, that he must have gone out of his way for it. You ask silently: Why does this matter? Why aren't you using me? Why aren't you hurting me? And you answer for him: He is lying to me, he is manipulating me, he wants me willing when he rapes me.
But you eat your entire meal anyway, and then you crawl into bed and cry.
A fortnight later, Prince Mydeimos discovers that you sleep with a knife under your pillow.
It is a harmless thing, sharp only enough to cut the steak that you'd been fed. It brings you comfort nevertheless. After seven days of your mantra—he is lying to me, he is manipulating me, he wants me willing when he rapes me—you couldn't help but take it. If he is stupid enough to touch you, you will use it to make it as painful for him as possible.
The Crown Prince is sitting on a chair when you return from the bath. He is playing with your little knife, spinning it a hand. His expression betrays neither anger nor displeasure—though there might be a hint of disappointment. Why, you would not know.
“You are afraid of me,” he remarks.
“No,” you lie. “I do not fear you. I abhor you. All the books and Aurelian dishes in the world cannot change that.”
It is slight, but Prince Mydeimos nods. His shoulders bear a heavy weight suddenly, and you avert your gaze. You don't want to see him looking weak, looking human. He is your captor and nothing but your captor: the man who laid waste to your home. He is the heir to a millennia of Strife.
Fortunately for you, he soon returns to his usual, stoic countenance. “You really expect to hurt me with this?” he asks.
“I would try my best,” you say tersely, “if it came to it. I would hurt anyone who tried to touch me.”
You nearly shift under the weight of his gaze, but you manage to contain your discomfort. You return his stare coolly—you don't scare me, Son of Gorgo—until his hand drifts to his waist. He reaches for a sheathe dangling from his belt, and you recoil immediately, expecting the sharp kiss of his blade. But there is no blow, no knife across your neck nor lodged within your heart. He merely holds the weapon out to you, presenting its golden hilt.
“Take this,” he offers. At your hesitation, he adds, “This is not some trap. I am gifting this to you.”
Even as you snatch it, you ask, “Why?”
“Because I think it's wise for you to have some kind of weapon—a real one, not an eating utensil.” He glances at the door. “The palace is full of guards and soldiers, and now that I have begun taking you outside, some of them have seen you and grown… overly curious about the High Priestess of Aurelia.”
Anyone would want a turn with the war prize of the Crown Prince himself, you remember them saying.
“But I am yours,” you point out, and when Prince Mydeimos looks at you, startled—or disconcerted?—you add, “your slave, I mean. By law, I belong to you. They cannot touch me without facing the wrath of the crown.”
He scowls. “If only the men here were so easy for me to control. Then I would not need to keep you here and worry about…” The prince's brow knots as his voice drifts off, and then he shakes his head. “Nevermind.”
You don't want to know what he had been about to say. You don't want to hear him pretend to feel concern over you. You do not want to think that he may be keeping you here for any reason than to fuck you. He is lying to me, he is manipulating me, he wants me willing when he rapes me: this is your mantra as you study the blade. It gleams in the candlelight, gold like his hair in the fire of the invasion, and its weight is familiar—the weight of the dagger you tried to slit your own throat with, you realise.
It is light, you notice now. The blade sits easy in your fingers, moves for you too gracefully. You should not be able to hold the weapon of a grown man so easily. “This was made for a woman,” you realise. “And not a very strong one.”
“Not strong in terms of brute strength, no. But she was swift. Deadly.”
You are neither strong nor swift, but you can imagine waiting for the right moment to strike—when he's drunk or sleeping or inside you. You'd run this across his neck. Bleed him dry before he can bleed you.
“You're not worried about me attacking you with this?” you ask, and he snorts.
“Would I be afraid of a kitten with sharp claws?” At your sour look, he either mocks or consoles you—you cannot tell which—“Don’t feel too poorly. Most people in this world could not touch me; I am invulnerable.”
“Invulnerable?”
“Immortal,” he clarifies. “Any wound I take heals without a scar; any death I die reverses without fail.”
“Ah… because of the Sea of Souls, I presume.” You remember the child in the waters of the Styx, the way he cried and cried and cried—and you push away the memory. How many babies have wailed as the Kremnoans marched on their homes? Countless. Countless in Aurelia alone. Your goddess has shown you enough memories for you to know, and sometimes the images blend with the massacre of your worshippers.
A massacre that your captor led.
“So there is no way to kill you,” you remark, voice now subdued.
“You sound disappointed.”
“Why wouldn't I be?”
Something in your captor’s eyes flickers, something that makes you look away again. He is lying to me, he is manipulating me, he wants me willing when he rapes me. You cling onto all the visions that your goddess sent you: King Mydeimos is seated on his throne of blood; the claws of Nikador are cutting into your heart. Aurelia is still burning, burning, burning. As long as Oronyx is alive, it will never stop.
No olive oil, spice, nor book will ever change that.
Prince Mydeimos leaves for a time. Okhema—the greatest enemy of the Kremnos—has launched an assault on the city, and it is his duty to defend it. You can hear the distant cries of war from your room, the thunder of marching troops and the roar of terrible men. You hide in the sheets and try not to think of dying Aurelia. You pray for every Kremnoan soldier who invaded your home to perish, to receive the valorous death for which they long.
You play no songs. You receive no books. The food tastes like shit.
For a single night, you think you have been granted your wish. There is a breach into the city, and the bells toll in emergency. The guards tell you to stay in your room no matter what—any Okheman soldiers would desire you, would defile you, and there will be no hope for you if they steal you away, the prized concubine of their greatest foe—and then they leave to join the fighting.
You hide under the bed. You clutch the golden dagger that Prince Mydeimos gave you and you hold it to your breast. You think of all the hands on you as you were dragged from your altar from the Kremnoans, the way they jeered at you and threatened to violate you. If the Okheman soldiers do the same, Prince Mydeimos will not be here to save you—
Save you?
No, he didn't save you. Your captor merely stole you for himself. He is slaughtering the enemy soldiers right now, massacring them the way he did your people. He is taking prisoners of war. He will feed them nicely and send them beautiful novels and texts. He will lie to them, manipulate them, and wait until they're willing.
Or he could be dead.
Of course he's not dead, you idiot, you tell yourself, as soon as you have the thought. He will live long enough to kill you like in the visions, and anyway, he is immortal.
There is no use hoping he is dead—for that is your hope. That he will someday be gone from this world, and that he can never again take away someone's home. That you will have the chance to slit to his throat at least once before he kills you. That you will have the satisfaction of seeing him die before Nikador takes your heart.
There is nothing else you are allowed to hope for.
The fighting ends a few nights later, and your captor returns soon after the bells of victory toll.
Prince Mydeimos is invulnerable, but he looks worse for wear. His armour is scuffed, shattered in a few places. His hair is a mess, sweat and dirt matting it, dulling the gold. The whole of his body—from his legs to the bare expanse of his chest—is covered in a thin layer of soot.
His shoulders relax when he sees you, and you try your best to ignore it.
“You won, then?” you ask. You are in bed, seated in the far corner. The sheets are pulled up to your neck, hiding away your chest and bare arms. The handle of your knife is warm in your palms, comforting.
Prince Mydeimos does not miss the way you clutch it.
“Yes,” he says, voice heavy. There's a tinge of fatigue marring his stoicism when he replies, “Are you disappointed?”
“No.” His eyes flick to yours, belying a surprise that you decide to kill: “I am an oracle. I knew you would not perish in this battle.”
“...of course.” He closes his eyes, counting to ten again. You study him as he tempers himself, wondering why he has returned to you when neither of you enjoy each other’s company.
“Why are you here?” you ask. “Shouldn't you be taking a bath? Enjoying libations with the other soldiers? Toasting the king?”
“I will join the others later,” he says. “I came here first for the same reasons as always.”
Are you eating? Are you sick? What did you do today, while you were alone? The prince stands at the threshold as he asks his three questions, watching you carefully. It occurs to you that he must have just come from battle, that his first desire afterwards was to check on you, and you drop the sheets but you also look away.
“I am not ill, and I reread some of the books you sent me,” you reply, because you would rather die than tell him that you hid under the bed. “And as for the food…”
Prince Mydeimos glances at the untouched slop on your plate, then frowns.
“My apologies,” he says. “Now that I've returned, I will be sure to make you proper meals. I know the servants here do not make food to your liking, so—”
“What do you mean, you'll make them?” you interrupt. At his blank stare, you say, “Isn’t it the helots who cook all the meals here?”
“They cook for most of the palace. But for your meals, it has nearly always been me—ever since I noticed you were not eating.”
You stare, wondering if you've somehow misheard him. “But…” You swallow, and it feels painful. You don't want to look at him. “That can't be true. There have been Aurelian dishes—it must have been an Aurelian who made them. A slave, or maybe a helot…”
“I learned the recipes myself,” he says simply, “though I did ask an Aurelian to sample it first, an old woman who sells spices in the city. She made sure the flavour was right.”
You want to laugh—or cry? The thought of the Crown Prince of Kremnos bent over a cookbook, sweating at a stove, is so absurd that you don't know what to make of it. “Why would a master cook for his slave?
He shrugs, though you don't miss the way he clears his throat. “I enjoy cooking, and I prefer to make my own meals. It is simple enough to cook for two instead of one.”
“You enjoy cooking,” you repeat flatly, staring.
“Is that so strange?”
“Yes.” He’s not meant to be human. He's an animal who feasts on strife and blood. He lies to you, manipulates you, waits until you're willing. But now you are imagining him going out of his way to find southern olive oil, or thinking on which cut of meat to buy from the butcher’s, or squinting at an Aurelian recipe and wondering where to get cassia, and he isn't supposed to be human but monsters don’t enjoy such quaint things.
“Why would you even know how to cook?” you ask—weakly. “You were raised to be a soldier, a king.”
“I learned as a child, before I returned from the sea,” he explains. “A fisherman’s wife taught me how after I saved her husband from the Sea of Souls. Though they banished me from their home after they learned I was Kremnoan.”
You can't look at him anymore, after that.
A few days later, you are served milopita after dinner.
It is well-made. Prince Mydeimos was generous with the cinnamon, and the apples are fresh. The yogurt is thick. The olive oil is that expensive, southern variety, the one that the old Aurelian woman in the city likely picked out for him. It comes with a cup of pomegranate juice and a bottle of goat’s milk, which you don't touch—paired with the cake, it is too sweet.
You catch yourself thinking that Prince Mydeimos must have a sweet tooth, and then you kill the thought.
The prince comes to visit, which he does not often do nowadays. The Chrysos War has entangled Kremnos into so many battlefronts that he is now always in demand as a general, and all the meals have gone back to being untouchable. But the books keep coming, and now there is sheet music as well. You are slow to read the music and your fingers are even slower on the lyre strings—you have not played much since you were a child, when you were taught as part of your training as a hiereia—but it is enough to occupy you.
You'd been wondering if you would be left alone forever when you received the cake.
He comes to you at night. Steps inside as always, closes the door to block out any listening ears. Leans against the wall, as if trying to take up as little space as possible. This is a constant habit of his; you briefly wonder if he does it so as not to make you feel threatened, and then you kill the thought.
You try not to look at him.
“You ate the cake,” he says, in a calm but distinctly satisfied way.
“Yes. It was quite good.” Sweet on your tongue, nothing like bitter copper between your teeth. You can't believe how sugary the apples are. You can't imagine this cold prison of a city, this home of warmongers, having anything like an orchard—yet they must exist here, for Prince Mydeimos to have gotten fruit so fresh and ripe.
Are the orchards here as peaceful as the olive groves back home? The cake was certainly as good as what you had in Aurelia—something close to what the grandmother next door would make for you. She would serve hers with tea, though, and you'd sit outside her quaint home and watch the children run by, playing. Be careful, my loves, she would say to them as they ran up and down the street. Take care not to fall.
Your heart aches as you think of her.
“I have not had any sweets in a very long time,” you say, trying not to let your voice sound tight.
“Nor have I. It has been too busy for me to bake, and I generally avoid desserts—they are unhealthy—but I made them today.”
“Why?”
“Well”—Prince Mydeimos looks away, clears his throat—“I have not been by in quite a while. I could hardly come empty-handed.”
He is mannered, you think. He wants to show you hospitality. He is treating you as if you are an esteemed guest, as if he enjoys your company, and perhaps that is why he didn’t make you into his personal attendant or a labourer; it is because guests aren’t meant to work in the palace, and—
—and now you're killing the thought.
You must kill these thoughts. You are not his guest; you are his slave. He is not a human; he is your captor. The only reason he hasn’t assigned you any menial tasks is because he wants to make it clear to others that you only have one purpose here: to be a hole for him to fuck, and no one else.
He conquered your city. Sacked your temple. Ruined your home. He will ruin your body too.
“I am a slave,” you murmur. “You do not need to come with anything for me.” You should not be giving me things. You should be taking everything from me. “There is no need to treat me so graciously.”
“What, would you prefer that I torment you?”
“I would prefer you to be honest about your intentions.”
He raises a brow. “And what are my intentions supposed to be?”
You finally take a sip of your pomegranate juice—red and tart and sweet, it tastes like the night you were stolen from your temple—and then you rise from your seat.
Prince Mydeimos is startled when you make your way to him, slow but sure. You have never gone to him willingly before, it occurs: you have always been taken to him by force, dragged by Kremnoan men or compelled by chains. Perhaps he is taken aback by it, or startled by the look you give him—the one you use on worshippers who have incurred the wrath of the Titans—for he presses himself even further against the wall.
There is little space between the two of you when you stop. His face is impassive as ever, but you can hear his breath hitch.
“You like your women willing, don't you?”
His face creases. “What?”
“You like your women willing. The freedmen and the slaves alike, I'm sure. You think that if you ply me with gifts and treats, you will also be able to ply open my legs.”
Your captor watches you in alarm, in discomfort. Probably startled at being found out. “...that's not—”
“It won't work, you know. No matter how kind you are to me, you will always be the man who burned my city and sacked my temple. You will always be the beast who dragged me from my altar and into your bed. If I ever spread my legs for you, it will only be because they are held open by chains.”
His jaw tightens. “You've misunderstood my intentions.”
You laugh, light but cruel. “What, are you waiting for a better time to kill me instead? I know you Kremnoans like to hunt people for sport. Are you toying with your prey right now?”
You see it in his eyes when he snaps.
“Is it so hard to believe that I simply wish to treat you well?” he grits out. “That there is at least one person in Kremnos who finds senseless violence disagreeable? That a Kremnoan man could see an innocent woman about to be torn apart by hyenas and wish to save her? Or do you see us all as mindless animals?”
“I am sure there are some of you who behave like humans, but I don't think they would include the Crown Prince of all people. You lead a nation of warmongering beasts—you ride into battle at their helm.”
His nostrils flare. “My people depend on me. It is my duty to protect them from all those who want Kremnos fall.”
“And protecting your city means massacring cities? Sacking temples? Dragging holy maidens out from their temples to be raped?” Your captor falters, but you are too angry to take any joy in it. Too angry at the hypocrisy, at the golden chains, at the city that is forever burning behind you. “If you were really so kind, why would you even have come back to Castrum Kremnos in the first place? Even if you were a child, surely you knew you were going to be joining an army of monsters.”
“Because I wanted a home,” he snaps, and his voice is so harsh that you flinch. He breathes sharply as you step back, and you watch as he struggles to control his—rage? It must be rage. It can't be hurt.
It can't be grief.
“...a home,” you repeat.
“Yes, even a monster like me would desire a home. I spent my first seven years drowning in the Sea of Souls and the next several being cast away by countless families simply because of my heritage—do you think that was an existence I enjoyed?”
You don't know how to reply. You wish to recall the memories of your burning city, your visions of being slain, but all you can remember now is the baby you saw in your dreams—the one who was tossed into the sea, drowning, drowning, drowning. Is Prince Mydeimos forever being dragged into the tides, just as how you are forever being dragged from your altar?
Does Oronyx force him to remember, too?
Prince Mydeimos does not wait for your response. He walks back to the door, terse. Cold.
“If you are so aggrieved by my presence,” he snaps, “then I won't torture you with it any longer.”
He slams the door on the way out.
You and Prince Mydeimos do not see each other for a fortnight after that.
The moons behave strangely while he is gone. Night is always odd in Castrum Kremnos—too long and too inconsistent, as if Oronyx is struggling against something volatile, a presence that is not Aquila. Still, you can usually see at least one of her two moons—one gold and one red, one always waxing while the other wanes. But for an hour, they blink out of existence entirely, and your blood chills at the sight. At the omen.
Prince Mydeimos, you think immediately, is he dead?
Of course he isn't dead. He will live long enough for you to slit his throat as many times as you wish. He will live long enough to kill you afterward, to give you your valorous death without chains. He will live long enough to offer your heart to Nikador, who will devour it and drink your blood.
But every time you imagine it, all you can hear is his voice in your head, irritating and persistent every night—
Are you eating?
Are you sick?
Your home, what was it like?
I wanted a home.
I worry for you.
You tell yourself to kill the thought. You must kill all these thoughts. You must not believe that he worries for you, even though you are practised in the art of reading faces and all you can ever see in his is plain honesty. You are not allowed to hope that you are right, let alone hope that he is alive.
The only thing you are allowed to hope for is to someday slit his throat before he kills you.
The morning after the moons disappear, Prince Mydeimos returns to you. You are surprised when he walks in—he has never visited you so early in the day—and immediately, you want to say something to him.
But you don’t know what.
The both of you stare at each other, and he seems to struggle equally with his words. All you can think about is your last encounter, and he is likely doing the same.
“Why are you here?” you finally ask—not unkindly. Prince Mydeimos startles at your voice.
“I…”
He hesitates. His eyes, gleaming in the morning sun, are underlined by darkness. They're bloodshot, too. He has not slept, you realise.
“Did something happen last night?” you guess, remembering the two moons and how they flickered out like dying flames.
“Perhaps.”
Prince Mydeimos’ expression falters. You want to look away, but you know now the movements of his face well enough to understand what you should not believe—
I worry for you.
You think of the bells of victory tolling, how soon he came to see you thereafter. “Did you come to check that I was alive?” you ask softly.
His voice is quiet, too: “Perhaps.”
You stare at the stack of books on the table, which has grown so high over the past two months that you always wonder if the whole thing will collapse. The war histories are at the bottom of the pile, read so long ago, but you remember them well—the facts alongside the propaganda. The Kremnoans like to perpetuate the myth that they are incapable of fear, but you think that Prince Mydeimos is failing to maintain this illusion.
“Was what you encountered as frightening as the Okhemans?” you ask.
Were you worried that it would harm me?
“...perhaps.”
Your brow arches. “Is that the only word you know now, Your Highness?”
His uncertainty disappears, replaced by a usual annoyance, and the tension finally breaks. “There is only so much information I can share with a prisoner of war.”
“You have already given away your plans to commit patricide—I do not think any information could be more sensitive than that,” you say flatly. He frowns.
“Oronyx told you what I will do, not me.”
“You could have lied or played dumb about it, at least.”
“Why would I try to lie to an oracle? You said yourself it would be meaningless.”
“Plausible deniability in case anyone overheard. You simply could have written me off as mad had I tried to reveal your plans, you know, it's happened before to oracles who foretell tragedies…” Your mouth slants. “You are not very skilled in the art of manipulation, Your Highness. You won't survive the court for very long after you ascend the throne, at this rate.”
“I can survive it well enough,” he says curtly. “I'm alive right now, aren't I? Though I'm sure that disappoints you constantly.”
“No, I'm glad for it.” He blinks. “If I am going to slit your throat, you will need to live long enough for it to happen.”
He snorts. “Of course. I look forward to the day.” Prince Mydeimos looks at you then—scrutinizing. “You will need to stay alive too. Have you been eating? Have you been healthy? What have you been up to while I was gone?”
“I have been eating, and I am not ill. Terribly bored, but not ill.”
He frowns. “Bored? What could you possibly want for, with all that I have given you?”
You give him a long look, sensing an opportunity. “Well…”
He scrutinizes you. “What is it? Better food? More books? Another instrument, or a sharper weapon? I have an entire library at my disposal, plus the royal armory. Name whatever it is you want.” His voice is impatient, but his shoulders are relaxed, weightless. You can't it in yourself to deny the truth: he is relieved that you wish to demand something from him.
It makes you want to crawl under the bed.
“No,” you say, subdued. “I don't want any of that.”
“Then?”
Why do I matter to you?
Why aren't you using me?
Why aren't you hurting me?
“I want answers.”
There are no temples dedicated to Oronyx within Castrum Kremnos.
It is unsurprising. All citizens in Castrum Kremnos worship Nikador, and they war with other gods as often as the Strife Titan himself does. Nevertheless, the main palace has a few shrines dedicated to Oronyx. As much as the Kremnoans like to wreak havoc in the cities of other gods, all deities have their uses, especially Oronyx. It makes you bitter; the Goddess of Time sends enough visions for you to know that the use of her powers is painful for her, and you are certain that Kremnoans do not recompense her with any blood sacrifices.
You do, though. The Aurelian Cult of Oronyx has always honoured its goddess well. If Prince Mydeimos had brought you to a temple, you'd have also asked for a goat and sacrificed it. But as it is instead only a shrine, the only thing you can offer is your own blood.
At night, while the torches are burning low and the windows let through the dim light of the red moon, Prince Mydeimos takes you to the largest shrine of Oronyx. Her altar there is waiting for you—an alcove of cobalt and gold holding within it an azure light, its glow otherworldly. The Crown Prince is startled when you pull out a dagger and steady the blade over your hand; he reaches out and grabs your wrist, stopping you before you can wound yourself.
“What are you doing?” he says tersely. At his alarmed stare, you give him a blank look.
“I am about to appeal to Oronyx for her wisdom,” you explain, “and I will offer my blood in return.”
He gives you a dubious look. “Oronyx demands blood sacrifices?”
“No, but my temple provided them to honour her.” Your brow arches. “Don't tell me that this disturbs you. Your god not only gains strength from every Kremnoan death, he also demands blood sacrifices from other people. Don't think that the world has forgotten your tradition of drinking the blood of your slain enemies."
“We no longer engage in that practice,” Prince Mydeimos retorts immediately. “And in any case, what the Cult of Nikador does is entirely different.”
You squint at him. “What, so blood sacrifices are only acceptable when you do them?”
He sighs. “I only mean… if the god you follow does not demand violence outright, then I would not wish to see you inflict it upon yourself needlessly.”
You look at him, flabbergasted. “You cannot expect me to believe that a Kremnoan would be so averse to a little blood.”
“It isn't the blood that's the problem.” He sounds irritated. “It’s that it's your blood.”
You stare, watching his eyes for some tell of a lie—but you can find none. “You’re being serious,” you realise.
“Yes.”
“You really don't want to see me hurt.”
“Truly.”
“Not even a little bit.”
“Not even by a single hair.”
Part of you is aggravated—this is shameless hypocrisy from a man who led an army into your city—but mostly you’re bewildered. You shake your head, turning away.
“I can't believe I ever thought you'd drink my blood,” you mutter, wresting yourself from his grip. “Your Royal Highness’ delicate sensibilities will need to tolerate this. Prophecy isn't cheap, you know.”
Prince Mydeimos finally relents; he crosses his arms as he watches your ritual. Your blade—his blade—presses into your palm, sinks into the flesh and glides along your heart line until scarlet is welling around it. You bear the pain silently; it is nothing compared to what Oronyx must feel whenever her powers are used by force.
Your blood drips onto the altar, and its cyan light flares violently. It is brighter than the golden moon, maybe even brighter than Aquila’s sun, when you begin your incantation. Titan language sounds strange, beautiful but unnerving to human ears; you are unsurprised when Prince Mydeimos shifts in the corner of your eye, uneasy as he listens to you.
O Titan of Time and Night, you say aloud, tell me what my path to freedom is, and show me the true nature of the man who has taken it away from me.
It takes a few moments for the visions to come, but they flash like lightning when they do. You are in the darkness of a decrepit shrine in Castrum Kremnos, standing next to your captor, then—
Daytime. You are somewhere beautiful, with a warm sun above your head and limpid pools everywhere, bathers laughing in the sun. There's a woman with golden hair and sea-glass eyes; she smiles at you, all-seeing even though she is blind, and then—
Nighttime. There are no moons in the sky, and the stars are faded. The city is dying, and you listen to the screams as you watch an unnatural darkness fall upon it. Something is encroaching the palace walls—a dark plague that corrupts all that it touches, a black tide that has been sweeping across the lands. You wish to stay, to lose yourself to it, but the Crown Prince grabs your hand. You can make out his words, just barely: ████ with me to ██████, he says. ███ ██ save you. And then—
Daytime. It is painfully bright where you are now, idyllic. You are watching Mydei. An amicable looking dromas has lowered its head to his palm to eat the feed in his hands. You made Mydei try this—giving the docile beast a treat. You're laughing as you watch him; he looks so startled, out of his depth for royalty. A group of children are spectating as well, giggling uncontrollably at their Crown Prince. You hear yourself: ██ ██ cute… then—
Nighttime. The golden moon is out tonight. You are tired, so tired; you have buried someone, you don’t know who. Mydeimos looks haunted. Your palm is pressed against his cheek, cradling his face in your hands. Your wrists are bare, you notice. His voice is quiet: █ ██ remember ██ ███ ███████ touched ██ ████ this… now, finally—
The end. You are bleeding out at the feet of King Mydeimos. You cannot see his face, but he is malevolent, terrible, and strife runs thick in his ichor veins. Your chest hurts even though your heart is no longer in it, and you are crying, crying, crying—I will ████ you soon, ██ ██, you weep, and now—
It is nighttime, and the torches are burning low in Castrum Kremnos. You are on the floor of a shrine, gasping, your cheeks wet with your grief. Your captor is crouched next to you, his hand on your back—touching you gently, too gently for the man who sacked your city, too gently for the king who will kill you and drink your blood. You pull away from him, terrified, and your captor backs off immediately.
“Forgive me,” he says. “You were—you collapsed, and I only wanted to check what was wrong.”
“I'm fine,” you gasp. “I'm fine. It's just—what I saw, through the Evernight Veil, it was—” Your eyes squeeze shut.
“What? What was it?”
“My future. Your future. I wanted”—you don’t know why you're telling him this, you don't know why you were standing next to him in a beautiful city with a group of joyous children, laughing as he fed a dromas—“I wanted to know if I could trust you.”
“And?”
Your captor stares intently. His eyes burn in the light of the palace torches, in the light of the blazing olive groves, in the light of the golden moon.
It is easy to lose sight of time after peering into the Evernight Veil, for the past, present, and future to blend together. Easy for you to reach out to your captor in Castrum Kremnos, easy to instead see Mydeimos grieving after a burial. He stares at you as you touch his cheek, cradling it. Something is flickering in his eyes, something so painfully human that you cannot bring yourself to ignore it. You can hear him talking to you in the future.
“You can't remember the last time someone touched you like this,” you repeat. At his startled look, you add, “That's what you're thinking, right?”
He jerks back, as if your fingers are scalding. “How did you—”
“That's what you'll say to me,” you say simply, “eventually.”
Prince Mydeimos swallows.
“Does that mean you'll come to trust me, then?”
Now you're at the foot of his throne again, bleeding dry for him—bleeding more than you ever have for your goddess or your city or your people. Your heart pulses in the hand of the Strife Titan, and you close your eyes forever.
“No.”
End Part I
notes: oh my god when I tell you all the suffering I went through trying to write this shitass chapter slfjslfksdfjalsk. between navigating the nightmare of canon lore and a trope that is absolutely out of my wheelhouse, I truly suffered for this story. and I don't think the end product was even that good. regardless, please let me know if you liked it. LOL
as an aside, I'm not sure how obvious it is to people who are reading this blind (as opposed to my followers who've been witnessing my shitposting lol), but mydei is absolutely not into the sexual slavery stuff. he sees you in those golden bdsm chains and feels so uncomfortable that he leaves the room asap. my man is taking immense psychic damage from this situation rip he just wants to make sure you're safe but his palace is forcing him into this wattpad fic situation (i am forcing him into this wattpad fic situation)
How to turn off AI-scraping from your Word documents
Microsoft Office, like many companies in recent months, has slyly turned on an “opt-out” feature that scrapes your Word and Excel documents to train its internal AI systems. This setting is turned on by default, and you have to manually uncheck a box in order to opt out.
If you are a writer who uses MS Word to write any proprietary content (blog posts, novels, or any work you intend to protect with copyright and/or sell), you’re going to want to turn this feature off immediately.How to Turn off Word’s AI Access To Your Content
I won’t beat around the bush. Microsoft Office doesn’t make it easy to opt out of this new AI privacy agreement, as the feature is hidden through a series of popup menus in your settings:On a Windows computer, follow these steps to turn off “Connected Experiences”:
File > Options > Trust Center > Trust Center Settings > Privacy Options > Privacy Settings > Optional Connected Experiences > Uncheck box: “Turn on optional connected experiences”
If you do not absolutely need Word (for work or school or a functionality that exists literally nowhere else), just stop using it.
For a 1:1 Word replacement, I'd always recommend LibreOffice. There's also a version of OpenOffice still around, though it updates at a slower pace.
If you're a fiction writer and would like to switch to a dedicated novel writing software, the free options tend to be a bit limited. However, there is SmartEdit Writer, which looks a lit like a slimmed-down Scrivener (which is pretty much the writing app, but has a one-time cost).
Most people don't need Word. It's just what's familiar. And even there, LibreOffice is very similar in design. It will also generally read your Word docs out of the box. The switch really isn't hard, I promise.
I feel like ppl get bogged down in semantics so let me make it real simple for you. A zionist is someone who supports the state of Israel. Zionism is the belief that a Jewish ethnostate called Israel should be developed in the Levant region (Palestine and Lebanon and Syria) regardless of the existence of Palestine, Syria and Lebanon and their people. When any pro-Palestine person says someone is a Zionist, that's not a synonym for Jewish, nor is another word for "person I don't like". When we call someone a zionist it's because they support the existence of Israel as a colony. And just so we're clear: it does not matter if a zionist says they're sad about Palestinian suffering or they want to "live in peace" with Palestinians because as long as they support the existence of a colonial ethnostate called Israel then they're still doing Zionism. If I came to your house and just started living there and tried to starve you out and torture you so you would leave your house, it wouldn't matter that I felt "sorry" for you because I'm the reason you're suffering at all. That's why when you try and say "well, Neil Druckman says he wants the war to stop" that doesn't matter. He's still a zionist. He still wants Israel to exist as a colonial state which will always be at the expense of Palestinians. Do not fall for liberal Zionists. Get it in your fucking head that there's no "progressive" Zionism because there's no "progressive" way to support a state that necessitates the elimination of whole peoples.
