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Something about the fact that after the Pevensie’s are pulled out of Narnia three of them don’t live long enough to reach those ages again. That Peter is supposed to be around twenty eight by the end of their reign and after returning to England he only lives until he is twenty two. That despite living multiple lives he never makes it to thirty. That Edmund dies at nineteen and Lucy at seventeen.

That Susan is left behind knowing what her siblings would have looked like for several years after their deaths and then not knowing any longer. That she grows up and has to face life without the people she always expected to be by her side. That even in Aslan’s kingdom the Pevensie’s cannot find true peace because someone is always missing.

That Peter never has the chance to graduate university or become a doctor, that Lucy doesn’t even live to adulthood, that Edmund never gets old enough for people to take him seriously. That Susan lives to be older than Peter ever got to be and then older than all her siblings put together before sixty.

That she has to grow up for all of them and they never get to.

#Narnia

sparklejamesysparkle

Elizabeth Taylor’s eloquent and powerful speech while accepting the Vanguard Award at the 11th annual GLAAD Media Awards in 2000. After her dear friend and co-star Rock Hudson announced that he had AIDS prior to his passing in 1985 (the first high-profile celebrity to do so), Elizabeth—against great opposition during the fear-based AIDS hysteria and stigmatization prevalent in the 1980s—immediately organized a fundraising benefit to raise money for AIDS research (she later stated that she had the phone hung up on her repeatedly while trying to enlist the help of other celebrities with the benefit, and that some people thought she was “crazy” for getting involved with the cause). After Rock passed away on October 2nd, 1985, she also organized his memorial service and soon after became the co-founder (alongside Dr. Mathilde Krim) of the first AIDS research center amfAR. Her separate Elizabeth Taylor AIDS Foundation was established in 1991 with the specific focus of providing nutritious meals (as well as medical and financial assistance) to people living with HIV and AIDS. She also lobbied the U.S. congress to contribute more money for AIDS research and education, devoting the last twenty-six years of her life to the cause. After Elizabeth passed away in 2011 at the age of 79, a large portion of the $156,800,000 raised at the Christie’s auction of her legendary jewelry collection was bequeathed to her charity in order to continue providing the services and assistance she believed were important in perpetuity.

#I thought James Dean was bi #Elizabeth Taylor #Aids #She helped a lot of people when it was very unpopular to do so

musicallychaos

Just thinking about how Shane and Ilya's "insults" for each other are the things they aren't allowed to be.

Shane calls Ilya an asshole. Shane is perfect. Polite. Marketable. He's great at hockey with no caveats. He doesn't yell or get into fights. He's never late.

Ilya calls Shane boring. Ilya never stops, even for a second. He's in constant motion: on the rink, at the club, in bed with hundreds of different women. He can't be lazy. Can't relax, not even for a second. He knows what happens if he does.

Shane has a dozen moments a day when he wants to punch something. To scream and cry and take exactly what he wants. He doesn't want to be managed for once in his life.

Ilya wants to slow down. He wants video games, ESPN, and a home cooked meal. He wants to be quiet and still and safe.

And isn't that what they both get?

#Heated Rivalry

alovelywaytospendanevening

The Bookseller: Britain's bestselling LGBTQ+ books of 2026 so far

We have combed through NielsenIQ BookScan’s Total Consumer Market (TCM) for the first four-and-a-bit months of 2026 to find out how books by and about the LGBTQ+ community have performed this year. To do this, we have identified authors previously featured in LGBTQ+ profiles at The Bookseller among those who are known to be publicly out. From there we have identified the 50 bestselling titles and worked our way up the list from there to identify anyone we have missed. We may still have omitted some – either because they are not publicly out, or because they have simply been missed in our search. For context, our 50th bestselling title – Louie Stowell’s Write and Draw Your Own Comics – has sold 5,163 copies, but there are 1,685 different ISBNs selling more than that so far this year, so it is akin to finding a needle in a gaystack. Just 50 titles out of the 1,685 – just under 3% – of the bestselling books of the year are considered LGBTQ+ by this definition. The 2021 census across the UK suggests that 3.7% of the population is lesbian, gay or bisexual – though it should be noted that that number may be under-reported if respondents were unable or unwilling to answer the question openly. At first glance, our Top 50 does slightly over-index from a value perspective: they represent 4.6% of the total sales of the equivalent 1,685 titles, more than their frequency within the list suggests they should be achieving – but £1.7m of the Top 50’s £7.6m comes from just one author. The cultural phenomenon that was Heated Rivalry on Sky Atlantic at the beginning of the year catapulted Rachel Reid’s Game Changer books – the series the steamy ice hockey romance was based on – straight to the top of the charts as the titles were published in the UK for the first time. For a brief period, Reid challenged Freida McFadden for the number of different titles in the UK Top 50 – and at of the end of April was the 11th-biggest author in the country, sandwiched between JK Rowling and colouring collective Coco Wyo – although sales have dipped since the initial release. Without Reid, the LGBTQ+ Top 50 represents 3.6% of total sales, nearly spot on that figure from the census. (Full article)

#Books

In an interview with Nerdist, Assad Zaman shared two songs from his incredible secretive Armand playlists. His selections are incredible.

#Iwtv #Tvl #armand #Music

balderdashboard

okay but did Ilya have to stay in the shower for a while to give Shane time to leave if he wanted OR did he have to maybe take some deep breaths and hold his cock for a bit, consolingly, like we'll get em next time tiger

because like Shane is fully dressed by the time Ilya emerges in a towel and his hair is dry. how long has he been waiting

meret118

gaynehollander: #his hair is DRY #I’ve literally never thought about the implications behind that but you’re so right #all i can think now is that Ilya decided to finish jerking it regardless of Shane’s presence #and Shane was losing his mind over the noises he could hear so he decided to blow dry his hair while waiting for him #1.1

#Heated Rivalry

ilyas-left-nut

ilya’s trying so HARD to act nonchalant here it’s actually comical, when we ALL know that man is seconds away from begging on his hands n knees

#Heated Rivalry

buffycaps

Rest in peace to the incredible Anthony Stewart Head (20th February 1954 - 1st June 2026)

RUPERT GILES in BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER (1997-2003)

#Anthony Stewart head #Anthony head #Tony head #Rip

I was wondering what Anne Rice would think of the TV show. I love it, but I think she would hate the changes AMC made. She didn't just send cease and desist orders after fic authors. I remember hearing about her doxxing people for writing fic, and sending her fans after them at the time, or even just for writing bad reviews of her book. She was notorious for it! Fan Lore has a great article about her.

ETA: I also remember XF sending C&D notices to fan sites in the early days too. She went way beyond that. She also went after a man in New Orleans who opened a restaurant on the location where a scene in one of her later books takes place. The article contains major spoilers for Memnoch the Devil and The Prince Lestat.

ETA 2: I'm aware she and Christopher Rice are listed as producers. (ETA 3: That's often a courtesy title, especially if it just says producer, and nothing else.) She sold the rights to AMC, and I think I remember reading she passed away before they started filming, though I could be mistaken. Certainly before it aired. Either way, AMC is the one in control of the show, not her estate.

#Tvl #Anne rice #The vampire lestat

kafkasapartment

In “The Demon-Haunted World”, Sagan argued that skepticism and scientific literacy are forms of civic self-defense, not just academic skills.

championofdogs

saw a post about this earlier but it made me think: tumblr really is the only social media site where I go on and have a good time and then carry on with my day. I know it's completely curated because there are some awful people here but that (the curation) in itself is a privilege of the site. Every other social media site is designed to make you angry for more engagement

#Tumblr

meret118

Ilya's such a sexual person, and it's such an important part of his relationship with Shane. Any fic recs where Ilya experiences erectile disfunction from taking SSRI's for depression, and doesn't take it well? Maybe even refuses to keep taking them? Or agrees to only take them for a short time no matter what the doctor says? Or at least insists on trying a different kind? I have a hard time seeing him just accepting that.

raincitygirl76

I honestly think Ilya would be more worried about SSRI-caused erectile dysfunction than Shane would. From Shane’s point of view, sex toys exist. I’m sure he’d rather have Ilya fuck him with his favourite dildo than have Ilya’s depression get worse. For him to maybe need inpatient treatment or god forbid attempt suicide. Shane is a practical man. Yeah, he’d miss Ilya’s dick, but he’d cope.

But I think there’s still a small part of Ilya that believes he’s only valuable to Shane because of his dick. Sex was the basis of their relationship for years, and also their only excuse to spend time together. We see at the cottage when Ilya says faux-lightly, “you like to be bad.” And Shane assures him that might be how it started, but that’s not what it’s about these days. But I think Shane would have to say that pretty damn often for Ilya to really internalize it.

I think they’d have a major fight about it, if Ilya couldn’t get it up but the meds were working otherwise. Shane would be livid at the idea that his husband wants to stop taking the meds, or switch to a different one, just because he’s afraid Shane will leave him if his dick stops working. I mean, that’s kind of insulting to Shane (from his POV, at least).

But I think there will always be a part of Ilya that believes deep down the people he cares about will only keep him around if he’s useful. His family treated him like a cash cow from before he was old enough to vote. Most of the non-sexual intimacy Ilya used to get was tied to sexual intimacy. If he didn’t provide money, orgasms, goals, whatever people wanted from him, he could expect them to leave.

A lifetime of that isn’t resolved by a few years of a good romantic relationship. Especially not when mixed with depressive brain chemistry and the way that grinds away at feelings of self-worth. Intellectually Ilya might know Shane isn’t just in this for the dick any longer (if he ever was). But on a gut level, Ilya’s still very insecure.

He’ll probably panic if he thinks he can’t satisfy Shane sexually any more. And a panicky Ilya might flush the pills down the toilet. Then, cue a massive fight where Shane is enraged that his husband apparently thinks so little of him.

meret118

Yes! I can see it happening like that, especially his fears of not being able to give that to Shane. I think you're right. But I also think Ilya misses sex for himself too, and even if the pills helped his energy level, not being able to get hard would make him depressed in and of itself for that reason, along with fears of how it would harm his relationship with Shane. I also think it would mess with his sense of self. "I'm glad I'm so easily replaceable Shane, but I am not okay being half a man!'

Depression can affect libido, so missing that plus the insecurity regarding Shane, might have been part of what drives him to therapy in the first place. (Plus he never wants Shane to go through what he did when his mother died.)

Going off path with this: He starts therapy and medication, and his energy level starts getting better, but his dick is still dead. That's when he learns about the side effects, and feels not only angry, but also like what's the point. He's damned if he does, and damned if he doesn't.

Maybe his therapist or Shane, because he's been researching trying to find an answer for Ilya, mention getting him into a psilocybin trial, and he's, "Yes, do that!" There are beaurocratic hoops to go through, or perhaps a waiting list, and he's feeling desperate.

Ilya's wealthy celebrity. He can get magic mushrooms. MLH drug testing is for performance enhancing drugs. They don't care about illegal substances. Hell, team doctors give out pain meds like candy. If they could do it with illegal substances too, he thinks they would. (I'm guessing and making this up on my very limited knowledge about the nhl.)

People who do this for medicinal purposes do it in conjunction with a therapist. They've discussed what they want to achieve during the treatment, and the therapist is there to guide them in case it goes badly. (Again, I'm just guessing with some of this.)

Ilya has none of this of course. He waits till Shane is gone for a day or so on a sponsorship thing, and has a bad trip. He doesn't answer his phone when Shane calls. Shane gets a bad feeling, and frantically leaves to come back, and finds him hallucinating about his parents.

Or even worse - maybe it lowers his inhibitions, and combined with a horrific trip he tries to end it in a fit of despair. Shane finds him unconscious on the floor with pills and vodka. Ilya is appalled when he wakes up in the hospital. He never wanted to do that to Shane.

#Heated Rivalry #Trigger warning #Suicide #Drug use