Garden of Hopes and Dreams

Raise up your bat for the burning fight

[rudyofthemafia]

Okay, I'll be perfectly deadass, I chose to come back.

I don't fucking know why I even decided to come back to this god awful place. At this point I'm just fucking bringing unnecessary stress onto my already stressed out dumbass. Am I a masochist!? Do I secretly enjoy the emotional anguish I suffer from the idea of this fucking place!? Again, don't fucking know, and I don't believe I ever will know!

I have little to no hope that me being here again will even make an impact other than retraumatization.

But I mean, that little hope I do have is very strong. So yes. Tumblr is horrible. It's meant for no-lifes and malicious ongoingson. It harbors horrible people who either deserve to be on severe probation or behind bars forever. I thought about something though. Despite my trauma and the horrific things I went through at the hands of the monsters in this place, for some weird reason, I feel as if I can somehow make the nightmares calm down. Not just for me, but for other people who are still suffering on this website. Maybe a sprinkle of hope?

I think about my time on Tumblr a lot. The small pockets of joy nestled in between the mountains of horror and fear. How despite the drama, there were still people who remained as my followers. A couple of the friends I made here. Yes, very few friends, but enough to where I didn't feel so alone anymore.

So I hope I can be a break from the hideous halls of nonsense victim-blaming and dogwhistles. Getting back to real life.

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(I don't fucking remember who made this so shut up)

[rudyofthemafia]

You know when you find a sideblog of your stalker, and you go to block it, but you accidentally like one of their posts?

Oh no...

Icy cold take, Double-Tap to Like shouldn't fucking exist.

Great job Tumblr. You just caused even more problems for me.

Now I'm just up for sacrifice to the tyrannical fandom oligarchs.

[myagimc]

Just some updated info of my brokenintegrity shipchildrens in their 2.0 design 👀

And also some stuff i never showed much

Also found out old purgatory have these eyes in old version when aggro, oughhh she have mama's eyes 🥹

Also have this comparison size between purgatory and phase, the other two twin have same size as phase so i don't think i need to draw em 🥺

[myagimc]

I haven't upload anything for a while sobs, i still draw them, it's just I'm not proud of the result of it because i use pencil color instead marker 🥹

I don't like the results but i still love them so much to not post this 🥹

Ohhh my Doritos babehhh together, their eyes just staring into each other with love and adore ❤❤

Yes integrity pregnant here don't ask

[rudyofthemafia]

Hey, here's an article on why placing Sexual Fiction(Example, Null and xXram2dieXx doing it) in the same category as CSAM is actually extremely harmful and misinformation

The War on Sexual Fiction <- the article

So maybe stop harassing people and get a life?

[rudyofthemafia]

BRUH.

How the fuck did the phrase "Here Me Out" become from just being a regular ass phrase, into something apparently being an excuse to accuse random people of the craziest shit imaginable just for simply using that phrase?

"Here Me Out" is not inherently sexual. You can't even say it without being harassed by puritains nowadays.

Like, when did people become so utterly offended by such a mundane phase? Has Homo Sapiens devolved this much to where they'll purposefully take the most uninteresting phrases and twist them into something completely different purely just to cause another person harm?

Normalize shaming people who take a fancy to de-contextualizing normal phrases for the purpose of playing the victim when somebody uses it.

Also normalize just saying "here me out" as a regular phrase.

[rudyofthemafia]

Null kissing Ram for the first time

(06-16-2018)

[rudyofthemafia]

[kragehund-est]

abused person venting: i hate abusers and hope they all die

the smartest minds of tumblr: wow, punitive justice much? you claim to be progressive but clearly you think rehabilitation doesn't matter for commiters of certain "irredeemable" crimes. this is how the government kills people, you know. i can't imagine being so hateful and hopeless that you wouldn't give people the chance to be better and redeem themselves. what's the point of convicting them then?

[tlbodine]

For the last goddamn time...

"Kill your darlings" means "if something is holding you back, get rid of it, even if it sounds pretty."

That's it! That's all it means! It means if you're stuck and stalled out on your story and you could fix the whole block by removing something but you're avoiding removing that thing because it's good, you remove that thing. That's the darling.

It does NOT mean

That you have to get rid of your self-indulgent writing

That you should delete something just because you like it (?wtf?)

That you need to kill off characters (??? what)

That you have to pare your story down to the absolute bare bones

That you have to delete anything whatsoever if you don't want to

The POINT is that you STOP FEELING GUILTY for throwing out good writing that isn't SERVING THE STORY.

The POINT is that you don't get so HUNG UP on the details that you lose sight of the BIG PICTURE.

Good grief....

[prof-grace-aspen]

Also, you don't have to like, delete it from existence. Keep a second document full of the Darlings. You never know when you'll need it later.

[earhartsease]

yes, your killed darlings are ripe for rebirth

[eldritchsandwich]

compost your darlings

recycle your darlings

Darlings who don't fit this narrative go into the use later folder

[breelandwalker]

If you are unsatisfied with the fruits of your writing, put them aside and let them ferment. When you come back to them later, you'll either find gigglejuice or good compost. Both are helpful for future projects.

[roofgeese]

alright folks shit's about to get real (again)

Markup for the SCREEN ACT and KOSA is going to the Senate on WEDNESDAY AUGUST 5TH 2026. That's in TWO DAYS.

You need to contact your representatives and senators. We need to stop this nonsense unless we want to wind up like the UK.

Call them. Send emails. Write letters. Use these resources to figure out who to contact and what to say. Let them know we will VOTE THEM OUT if they vote in favor of any of these bills.

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Bad Internet Bills

All of the bad internet bills. One website.

The future of the internet depends on us.

[rudyofthemafia]

Hey, so if I haven't made it clear without saying it directly already, MINORS DO NOT INTERACT.

I'll still block your ass even if you don't interact because how do I know you weren't groomed into stalking age-restricted blogs.

[myagimc]

Purgatory in my culture traditional outfit

I modified the headwear design a bit because the original just feels out of place, i like how this Turned out (❁´◡`❁)

[rudyofthemafia]

can i genuinely ask whats the pirpose of you drawing an antishipper with (i think?) self harm cuts on their arms (not asking this in a way thats mean or malicious im just trying to understand the purpose of the drawing)

More or less the hypocrisy of them claiming being a proshipper is an "unhealthy coping mechanism" while they actually self-harm.

[breelandwalker]

Magical Powder Recipes

A collection of some of my original magical powder recipes -

All-Purpose Cursing Powder

Bree's Banishing Powder

Clean House Powder

Come Hither Powder

Dead Man's Dust

Dream Dust

“Eye of Sauron” Revelation Powder

Get Thee Hence Powder

Ghost-Be-Gone Powder

Heal Thy Heart Powder

Hexbreaker Powder

Inspiration Salt

Lucky Day Powder

“Outta My Way” Powder

Paper Tiger Powder

Peacekeeper Powder

Persuasion Powder

STFU Powder

Traveler’s Luck Powder

Truthfinder Powder

Addendum: The masterlists of oil recipes that I have made available -

Baneful Blends

Buffs and Blessings

Glamour Edition

Protection and Warding

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[rudyofthemafia]

[myagimc]

Another long vent, ignore ts

I'm start to mentally exhausted irl and online, i have too many expectations irl and drama with online friends, at the point when my friends start to against each other and one demanding me to choose side. I can't man i can't anymore, i already get sick often from irl mental abuse and i feel like atp i want to end myself, no one care here if you're mentally sick or anything, they don't care and i hate it, i hate that to get help for. Mental sickness is so expensive and they rather spend it for live supplies, i get it Indonesia economy is so fucked up that even rn my family is struggling to even live for tomorrow, but still, I'm tired mentally that it start to affect me physically, ive been salfhaarm myself again and hit my head to wall, I'm not those that will hurt their hand i can't, i don't have gut so hit head to wall is the only alternative i have and it make me dumb and insensitive instead and it make me mentally sick even worst because of that and people won't stop complaining and demanding more from Me to change without realizing they're the problem and they refuse to acknowledge it for their pride because their ego saying they're older they more wisher, FUCK THIS MAN I'M SO DONE I'M SO DONE.

[rudyofthemafia]

This seriously isn't your fault.

I'm genuinely so upset that people want to take advantage of vulnerable people in bad situations for their personal gain.

What a sick fucking joke of a world we live in!