I, personally, am absolutely blown away. I don’t care about the hate, I LOVE THE SNEZHNAYA CHARACTERS!!! I don’t even know who I am saving for??? They’re all so prettyyyyyy (and hot)
I just know that I will be pulling for Pantalone and the Tsaritsa.
And the amount of male characters had me jumping up and down from excitement!! The one that caught my eye is Valerity.
i am not sure how familiar you are with manhwa. There is this trope: cold Duke of the North. And he fits the description exactly. He has THE hairstyle and colors for it. I just found the similarities funny. Lmao.
On a different note, I hope exams and school haven’t sucked the life out of you!!! So I hope you can enjoy Summer vacation to the fullest!! ☀️
i got so excited i had no one to talk abt the shneznayah chars with LOL I saw and immediately got so happy!!(≧▽≦)
BUT RIGHT!!!! all of them and i mean ALL look so cool!! I def want all of them i have to lock in and explore for more primos !!
AND A FELLOW PANTALONE??? ENJOYER I REJOICE!! Everytime i mention him ppl are so indifferent, like how you not care abt that beautiful man???
AND YES!!! Noy and Valerity DEFINITELY caught my attention ANDYESYES I KNOW EXCATKY WHAT YOUR TALKNG ABT!! i am a manwha ENJOYER and i see the vision for Valerity most definitely i hope they give him that same vibe in game ALSO i heard he's gunna he just as big and jacked as varka(ヽ´ω`) SO IM SO HAPPT FOR THAT TOO!!
ahh thank you for always being so sweet anon (ﾉД`)ｼ i appreciate it sm truly! exams almost done thankfully not too bad and i will make sure to enjoy my break to the fullest!! i hope you are taking care as well and that you are enjoying your summer break !( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
omg girllll have you seeeen the amount of hot characters in the Snezhnaya trailer???
Who you pulling for, pure out of design?
AHHH HAII HON!! ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉi love this question BECAUSE UGH EVERY ONE LOOKS SOSO COOL!! i solely pull for men #i <3 genshin men BUT the tsaritsa is a big maybe though!! just based off design the first man who caught my eye was Noy, second is Valeriy and third is Pantalone!!THEY ALL LOOK SOSO GOOD OHMYGOSHHHH I NEED TGEM ALL PLEASE soso happy they're finally releasing more men!! more angst targets for me MWAHAHA i think they all look amazing and hot and those three are on my top must pull/need list!! how about you?!?! who are you pulling for?? (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧
Waaah my heart was violently wounded ( ╥ω╥ ) thanks for making my req, the angst you write is just art<3 take your time with the comfort part, my heart will wait <3333
WAAA IM SORRY I SWEAR AND OF COURSE PLEASE THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING!!! (≧▽≦) it was sm fun to write! but halfway through i had realized I had only made it purely angst and started panicking LOL i had to clarify there would be a part two i promise I'm not THAT mean to leave you all with an open ending like that! BUT THANK YOU, YOURE SO SWEET IM SO HAPPY!! it will be out soon I've already started working on it between classes and work mwhahaha thank you for your patience(ヽ´ω`)
also kaeya sitting on kitty chair is soso cutie i want to put him in my pocket and shake him( ´∀｀)
Waaaa thank u<3 can i request something like 'take it back' where they take off their wedding bands during an argument with Kaeya, Diluc and Wriothesley pls? Angst with comfort plspls. I really love how you picture characters just matching their personality so well<333
take it back
(wriothesley, kaeya, diluc x reader (separate)
•they take off their wedding bands during an argument •
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wriothesley୨୧
"For meetings?" You ask confused, out of all the reasons he could’ve given you as to why his wedding band was left on his office desk in the first place, that's the one he gives you.
"It's distracting, people don't need to know." He states matter of factly, walking to his desk ignoring the hurt that flashes across your face at his flat tone.
“Wriothesley, the only time I take my ring off is when I shower. A damn meeting isn't a reason to remove the one sign that shows you're married!" You turn to face him as he sits at his desk, heavy sigh leaving his lips.
"You don't understand." He answers in a dismissive tone as he turns his attention to the paperwork in front of him.
He knows he should've explained this earlier, how this looks in hindsight but he can't be bothered. Not when you don't have a clear head either. You're upset.
"What? What don't I understand? Try me please." You push, stepping up to his desk.
"You're not the warden y/n, you're not in my shoes. This is something else entirely. I suggest you get over it already." He warns, eyes never leaving his papers.
"What is the reason though? Why would you take something so important off ? Don't you understand what that signifies?" You question, deflating at the glare he sends your way right after.
"You know what?" He stands pushing the chair back loudly before striding up to you in quick steps.
“I don't have time to be arguing about this. No one down here even knows I'm married as a matter of fact. It's for the safety of my privacy and your safety all together. What's so hard to understand. What can your brain not grasp y/n? Why are you so stubborn?” He asks, though it comes out harsher than he intends.
His jaw clicks when he reads the time on the clock behind you. His meeting starts soon. He doesn't want you here for any of this.
“I'm a warden y/n. This prison is filled with people who are out to get me, I don't want to be seen down here with you, do you understand? Stop being so selfish, so self conscious and try to use that head of yours to grasp what I'm saying. What you're doing down here is reckless and foolish. No one needs to know.” He turns away when you don't reply, seemingly understanding where he's coming from now.
“I have a meeting soon, you need to leave.” he glances back, a knock on his door snaps him out of it.
A young guard steps through. “Warden the officials are making their way down right now.” The guard informs Wriothesley.
The young guard spots you by the warden's desk and apologizes “Sorry I didn't mean to interrupt.”
“No need, they're not anyone special. No need for pleasantries. They just came down here to do business and are on their way out. I'll be out there to greet them in a few minutes.” He dismisses the guard as the door clicks shut
You take that as your cue to leave, embarrassment flooding through you as you fully understand what he meant.
You can't bring your eyes to meet Wriothesley’s at the moment, of course he has a good reason it all makes sense.
“I'm sorry, I understand now. I won't come down here again.” You clear your throat, gathering your belongings. “I'll take my leave.” You turn away but he stops you before you reach the door.
His large palm presses something small, delicate against your chest as he leans down to whisper.
“I forgot to leave this at home, take it back with you. I have no need for it here.” His hand moves and you catch the small silver band that he wears around his finger in your palm.
You only nod, unsure of what to say. You get it. For safety. But this is cruel.
Wriothesley steps back, before guilt can creep up on him at your silence. He opens the door and ushers you out, not even sparing you a glance as you leave, nor a goodbye.
You walk out slowly, processing everything. It all makes sense now but it hurts even more.
A few hours pass when Wriothesley wraps up the meeting. He couldn't shake the unease of leaving you like that earlier but he hopes you can understand where he's coming from, even if he was a mean bastard while telling you.
Though on his way out of the prison he's informed of an accident outside, someone leaving the prison had been attacked. He's asked to go check the scene before he leaves so he does.
When he arrives at the scene it's a mess of blood and belongings scattered as the investigation team does their work.
A file is handed to him and when he opens it everything stills, he feels sick to his stomach at the victims picture at the very bottom.
“Warden, these were left at the scene, we've tried contacting their family but no one seems to answer. The victim was left in cristal condition.” A guard hands Wriothesly a small bag as he explains the situation at hand.
His hands tremble when the contents inside are the jacket you wore to visit him and his ring, the very one he gave you before you left, covered in dried blood that belongs to you.
kayea୨୧
“Don't twist my words.” His visible eye narrows as you open your mouth again.
“Kaeya, that's not what I'm trying to do. Look at you, your arm is broken and your ribs are bruised! You won't give it a break, you know I'm here to help you right?” You hold his gaze, slowly taking a step to him.
He had come home injured. According to Master Jean’s report, he had thrown himself in front of a fallen knight who was in a dire situation and it resulted in him taking quite the blow.
“I don't need anything.” He walks past you slightly bumping into you as he makes his way to your shared room.
“I'm not trying to argue with you Kaeya, I know it's your job but please it hurts me to see you this way.” You push, seeing his shoulders tense up in front of you.
“Your voice is hurting my ears.” He spits, making your mouth shut. “How many times do I have to say it y/n. This is the consequences of my own actions, it's my duty to do so, to protect and serve.” He grits, his anger slowly getting the better of him. It's not your fault, not in the slightest he knows you worry because you care so deeply but his nightmares have been weighing heavy on his shoulders, the burden of a sinner is one he'd have to carry forever. He needs to prove his loyalty one way or another, anyway that shows he will never betray his true home, Mondstadt.
“I know, it's something I understand fully, it's just what if- how will I go if you don't come back to me? I can't begin to comprehend how much dread I'd feel if something worse were to happen to you Kaeya. Every time you leave I pray to the archons that you return home safe so forgive my voice for hurting your ears further but this is something i can't control either!” You continue, his back still facing you but from the way his shoulders stay tense you can tell he won't drop this either.
“I'm not asking you to care.” He whispers
“That's not fair Kaeya, how can you say that so easily?” You ask him, ignoring the tightness forming in your chest.
It's silent, the air feels heavy and for a second you think kaeya will walk away.
“I didn't ask to fall in love with you.” He turns to you slowly. “It's been the most exhausting thing I've ever experienced. My work is nothing compared to coming home to you, you don't shut up, you never give me space! Can't you see? Isn't it obvious I want to be alone?” He takes a step closer.
You swallow at his change of tone, at the way he easily says things that tear you apart without flinching. You didn't want your love to feel exhausting, you just wanted to release him from his burdens.
"You don't get to say selfish things like that. To tell me how you'd feel if I never returned. Archons sometimes I wonder why I married someone so self centered, do I have to spell it out for you y/n? Isn't it obvious that right now I want to be left alone, not cornered about my line of work!” He stands in front of your chest rising and falling with every breath.
You blink, eyes turning away from his now cold ones.
His words ring loudly in your ears, selfish, exhausting, you've been weighing him down without realizing. You care so much, you didn't know it was bringing him down.
“That's not what I want to do to you, Kaeya, I'm not trying to make you feel worse.” You gather everything in you to look back at him, trying to fight the sting in the back of your eyes.
“You are, can't you see? I come home wanting to find peace and I get cornered by you the second I walk in!” He snaps, your shoulders jump at his sudden outburst but you hold his gaze.
“Do you want me to leave?” You ask, voice coming out in a whisper too scared of talking any louder as if it'd break him more.
“No need, I'll leave instead.” His eyes rip away from yours as he walks past you once more, you watch as he nears the door. Your stomach drops, he's injured and wants to leave. A wave of guilt washes over you as he stands in front of the door.
His throat feels scratchy, his words did enough damage for him to see in the way your whole demeanor had dropped, he's just the worst. The silver band on his finger feels heavy, it reminds him of everything he said he'd protect you from, look at him now, he's the reason why you look so deflated, he can't stand himself.
“I'll leave instead , you stay here at least-"
“Now you're holding me back.” His voice is flat , he can't see you shaking your head behind him but he can't bear to look back, he knows he hurt you now. He feels like he doesn't deserve to wear the ring, at least not right now, not tonight after he's said so much.
You see his arms moving around his cast as his fingers slide something off, the small silver band catches under the hallway light and you have to stop yourself from making a sound.
His fingers gently place the silver band by the stand next to the door.
The silence is suffocating, this is the last thing you wanted. You just couldn't shut your mouth and let him rest. This is the result of you being so overbearing, you husband can't stand you anymore.
Your hands shake at your sides when he moves again.
“Don't bother waiting up.” Kaeya sighs, pulling the knob to open the door. The silence behind him made him nauseous, it's not the kind of silence he wanted but he's said too much.
He just needs to clear his mind, leave and come back. Hell put in on tomorrow when he gets home, when his mind is in a better state.
When tomorrow does arrive eventually, the guilt he feels is immeasurable. He enters the eerily quiet house and spots the sight of the silver band he left before leaving. Next to it lies your wedding band, the only remaining thing of yours left in the house. The last trace if you left in your shared home.
diluc୨୧
“Convenience?” You ask, more so repeating what he said to you to make sure you heard correctly.
“You're making something out of nothing y/n.” Diluc exhales a long sigh walking into his office, you follow close behind.
“Don't- no you can't say it's nothing. How would you react if you heard me say something so mean?" You challenge him as he removes his gloves from his hands, the silver band shining as he reaches to flick the wick of the candle that sits on his desk with the tips of his fingers.
You didn't mean to eavesdrop, you just so happened to hear him say marrying you was nothing more than you being convenient when you stopped by the tavern to walk home with him. It made you stop dead in your tracks, he said it so naturally too, like he's felt that way since the beginning, and here you were playing the stupid significant other thinking you had a more important role in his life.
“What's so convenient about me Diluc? They asked why you married me, you could've said anything but that's what you choose to say?” You ask, closing his office door behind you then walking up to his desk.
“Well as of right now I can't name anything convenient about you.” He turns to you, his amber eyes glaring at you in a way that makes his office turn cold.
You stare at him, swallowing the forming lump at his harsh words, “Is that truly how you feel?” you question, his glare sharpens though.
“It's no one's business as to why I married you. You sure know how to overreact about everything. Besides, it's not as if it would be great to brag about you either. If someone spent a day in my place they'd say the same thing too, having such an exhausting and insecure partner isn't convenient at all i suppose.” His eyes, which are usually so gentle, look so different from the way they stare at you from across his desk.
“Would it just be better for me to remove any sign of me being connected to you at all instead? Would that make it more convenient for me?” he asks, fingers dragging the silver band off as he steps closer, testing you.
You swallow hard, you've never seen this side of diluc, the man standing before you wasn't your the man who read his vows to you, this isn't the mad you married.
“If that's what you need to do then what's stopping you? If that ring is troubling you, I suggest you do what you see best fit.” you hold your head high, choosing not to let any emotion waver, eyes never leaving him as you keep your emotions at bay.
“Is that so?” He asks, he knows he should stop but he's been so pent up, so pinned in place with work he's out if it.
His hand slams down on his desk making you jump from where you stand at the sudden loud sound.
“Take it and leave, I have work to do, if you want to be convenient for once I suggest you leave me alone.” He runs a frustrated hand through his hair, he can't seem to stop, he knows he should.
He's not even mad at you, he's just taking it out on you because he can't hold it in, he knows this is wrong.
You stare at him, your husband- no the man before you seems so foreign. You had taken his frustration as him just feeling overworked but this is something else entirely, this is something deeper.
He won't even look at you, he's slammed his ring down on his desk and told you to leave yet he seems unfazed by his own words. Your arms feel heavy as you stay still, is he telling me to leave? Is this it? Is he finally tired of me? You can't help but think.
Though you standing there angers the man more, his head snaps up he's had enough of this he just needs to be alone.
You slowly move to grab the small band, trying to stop the slight tremble your body gives.
“For archons sake I said leave-” His hand rises pointing at the door behind you though that would be something he comes to regret sooner than later.
His outburst should never have happened, none of this was your fault.
The candle sitting on his desk flares as his hand raises, in his heated state of mind his element triggers the flame to engulf right near where you stand, right next to the ring he slammed on the table.
It's like he gains control of his body again, like his mind snaps back to reality the second he sees you clutch your freshly burned arm to your chest. When his eyes meet yours again they're no longer pleading, they're scared. You're scared of your husband.
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author's note: HELLO MY LOVELIES ITS BEEN A WHIKE OHMYGOSH IM SORRY!!! first and foremost to the anon who requested this thank you (≧▽≦) i was in a very bad state if writer's block and this helped me get out- though it did take me a while to post so I'm very very sorry abt that :( ALSO anon ik you asked for hurt/comfort I'm writing a whole second part for comfort i promise!! I PROMISE i just didn't want this to be too long forgive me i beg. BUT IM SO HAPPY TO BE POSTING AGAIN I've missed you all dearly and I'm sososo SO HAPPY i got to write for my favorite angsty kings kaeya and deelook i love them (ﾉД`)ｼ i have missed you all and i hope you ALL have been taking care of yourselves no matter what and i hope you enjoy mwahhh!!^~^<333 (DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NOT EDITED OR REVISED SO SORRY FOR ANNY ERRORS/ MISSPELLED WORDS)
can i ask if you received my req? Sometimes tumblr just eats my ask ╥﹏╥ it's the one asking for something like Take it back
HAII HON !! yesyes i have I'm SOSOSOS SORRY it's taking a while :( i should have it out by next week though!!I've been so busy with work and skool please forgive me for taking so long (ﾉД`)ｼ, BUT it is very close to being done i made this version more angsty than the first ones LOL BUT it will be out definitely by next week!! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧
⊱varka returns from his expodition, but in attempt to keep your relationshio a secret from prying eyes, to keep you safe he ignores you thinking it's for the better⊰
⋆⁺₊⋆ ━━━━⊱༒︎ • ༒︎⊰━━━━ ⋆⁺₊⋆
The celebration for the return of the expedition team was grand. Parents waiting for their children, husbands and wives waiting for their significant others, you were no different. Standing in the crowd you await the return of the Grandmaster of the Knights of Favonious, Varka, your husband.
Hearing the knights from afar singing the song of their homeland brought many to tears. Their footsteps echoing as they inch closer to home.
The people only roared once the team was seen crossing the bridge, people made way, a path for their loved ones to pass through as they gathered around the sidewalks of the streets.
Clutching the arrangement of Mondstadt's local flowers closer you see him. His tall frame catches the eye of all, a blonde head of hair seen walking behind his team, making sure everyone enters safely, always putting others before himself.
Nervousness pits itself in your stomach, your husband left six months ago and he's finally back. You want to run to him, tell him how much you've missed him, hear his voice but you know better. You couldn't greet him the way you desperately wished to, he wouldn't allow it.
As Varka passes, the people of Mond give their grandmaster many things, wine, flowers, food, chocolates, delicacies. You stand there watching in awe as he smiles at everyone, happy to be home.
He inches closer but his eyes seem to avoid yours, he's doing it again. It was foolish of you to think he'd let it slide just this once.
You hold out the boquete, hoping he'd at least take it, no interaction needed but he brushes past you instead, not even sparing you a glance. After months of not seeing your husband, he still pretends you're invisible to the public eye.
Foolish of you indeed.
Heat rushes to your face, embarrassed by being so openly ignored, your eyes stay glued to him as he makes his way up the city to the Knight’s headquarters.
Staring at his back as he gets further away, not even thinking once to turn around. Not even looking your way.
Your gaze slowly drifts around seeing the people from his expedition split up, hugging their loved ones, crying into their embrace at how they've missed them so. The scene in front of you is so beautiful you almost feel what they feel. But you don't.
The nervousness from earlier turns into something else, you were nervous for no reason whatsoever. He wouldn't greet you no matter what, your relationship was private it's been that way since the beginning.
Many people always ask Varka why he hadn't settled down yet. Why he hasn't married or why he has no significant other.
Very few know he already has, he's been married to you for a few years but few of his trusted companions know, in fact he prefers to keep it that way.
It keeps you out of danger, if anyone wants to target him they can go for him and him only.
So it often means no public dates, displays of affection or anything making you seem too familiar with each other.
Though it hurts you know it's for the better. Or so you thought.
In the beginning it made sense, him being the Grandmaster of the Knights and you being chief in command of the medical unit, he said it would bleed into your work life. It can make you a target for people that want him hurt. They'd hurt you and he can't live with the thought so he kept it hidden, safe. You believed him, he cared and it was sweet.
But now it just hurts.
Blatantly ignoring you was completely different from keeping you safe.
Bleeding into your work life wasn't a problem with anyone else, wouldn't people be happy for him, for you both? You don't care about your work position if it mean you had to distance yourself in public with him.
It had made sense back then but now, it doesn't. Not when he won't even glance your way, accept your flowers at the very least. He could've just grabbed them, thank you and moved on. Instead he acted like you didn't exist. Like you weren't even there. Like you weren't his wife.
Was keeping this front up worth it if it meant it would hurt this much?
Playing hurt now seems useless, you've let it happen before but this time stings more. It's been months and he still chose to walk away, not even acknowledge your presence.
It takes a few minutes, you stay put but finally decide to move. Decide that you weren't getting what you had hoped for, realizing now how this was set up from the start. Was this pain worth it? Worth keeping it a secret still?
Going home you think it over, you can't seem to let this pass like other times, this one hurts deep. It makes your hands shake with uncertainty, is this ok?
An hour passes, you tidy up hoping maybe he'd realize he went too far and come home, apologize, stay with you. Be present.
Three hours pass, you decide to put the flowers you got him in a vase at least. To not let such a beautiful arrangemt go to waste, be forgotten.
Five hours pass when dinner is ready, you keep in the the oven to stay warm, just the way he likes it.
The sun sets through your soft kitchen curtains as your head rests on the table, shame seeping into your bones.
The clock ticks and each time he's done this seems to play in your head, seems to reel you in and you realize just how this wasn't ok from the start.
Your reputation means nothing if Varka won't be in your life, is his reputation so much more important he would ignore you in public, choose to keep working instead of coming home to you?
Reports are never done for the Grandmaster, even if he just got back home from a half year expedition.
Glancing at the grand clock for the hundredth time Jean sighs, “You're all done Captain Varka, you can go home and see her now.” she almost laughs when the man almost knocks the table in front of him over when he stands, that brought his energy back.
“Sorry, didn't mean to be a buzz kill, I'm glad to be back, I just want nothing more than to go home to see my wife.” He chuckles fixing the papers he messed up, the few who know of your marriage always hear him ramble on how much he misses you each time he's away. “Thank you Jean, for keeping everything in check while I was gone. You did fantastic. I'll be back in the morning.” He smiles appreciating how lenient she was being despite most likely being exhausted herslef.
“Make sure you go straight home, y/n has been waiting for your arrival more than anyone else here.” Jean whispers loud enough for him to hear as his hand turns the knob.
“As I have been waiting to see her.” He assures, soft smile on his face.
He had known what he did earlier may have gone overboard but he knows you'll understand, you always are so understanding with him, so patient.
During his expedition you're all that was on his mind, he'd been worried sick but Jean was one of the few people to know about your marriage and she always checked up on you. Subtly hinting at how you were doing every time she wrote her reports back to him.
He's longed for you, your laughter, your smile, your touch. Truly the man was affected greatly by your absence, he wants nothing more than to see you.
Entering your shared house he instantly relaxes, soft lights flooding in from the kitchen lead him to where you're sitting at the table, though your head is down.
He feels an overwhelming sense of adoration at the sight. Walking up to where you're seated he kneels, softly moving your hair to the side.
“I'm back home my love.” He whispers, he's imagined this scenario so many times since he's been away. He didn't think he could contain himself, he wants to scoop you into his arms and smother you.
It takes you a second to register who was next to you, his familiar scent flooding your senses making your eyes burn.
You can't find it in you to want to look at him.
“You've been home a while, but welcome back.” You speak, throat far too dry for your liking.
He blinks, he catches on though. You sound hurt.
He chuckles, a deep vibration radiating from his chest. The sound you've missed so much sounded mocking at this moment.
“Grandmaster's duties call,” he laughs, slightly worried that you haven't even lifted your head to look at him. “I missed you y/n I've missed you so much.” he admits, hand engulfing yours in the table you lay your head on. Thumb running soothingly on the back of your hand.
“You didn't even look at me.” Your fingers curl into your palm. Varkas taken aback by the crack in your voice, his heart sinks instantly.
“Hey Heyy, look now I knew you were there, you know how it is though. It's tricky, i just don't want to give it away-
“Give what away? Is it your reputation you're so worried about that makes you blatantly ingnore your wife, not even look at your me in public after months apart?” you ask, not wanting to hear the same excuse he uses every time.
That shuts him up.
“I see other people around us happy to be with their husbands or wives no matter their status, it seems you don't see it the same way as they do, as I wish you would. Why couldn't you at least look at me?” You ask, pulling your hand from under his warm one, keeping in close to your chest as your vision blurs.
Varka stares, he can't seem to find his voice. The raw hurt in your voice is enough to make the man's heart ache.
Avoiding his gaze as you lift your head up, you stand to your feet but so does he. His tall build blocks you from moving away from him.
“It's not that you know it.” He exhales, holding a long breath, scared for what you'll say next. “I would never be ashamed to be seen with you. It's not shame archons it's never been that, if I could show you off y/n I would but it's dangerous. You never know who's watching who has ill intentions and i cant-”
“I can protect myself, I don't need protection.” you cut him off, eyes still trained on the ground.
“I just want my husband to treat me like his wife in public for once, to hold me after his long expedition because I,” you lift your head finally, gaze holding his. “I just missed you so much. I've longed for you. I just want to be next to you but it seems I got the wrong impression. You seem to be holding up just fine without my presence for so long, even after seeing me you felt nothing. Did you even miss me?” you blink, trying to stop the hot tears from coming out.
The look in your eyes breaks him. Wide, glossy and hurt. How has he not noticed? How did he think you'd let it pass like other times? This was cruel, he knows it.
He wasn't even aware this is how you felt, this is what you thought of the whole situation, how can you think he didn't miss you? How can you let yourself believe that he had been ok all this time without you?
His gaze is so soft, so gentle when he looks at you. So different from the expression he wore when he arrived home. You wish he'd look at you like that everywhere else too.
“You must be tired, I'm sure you want to rest.” You clear your throat, how inconsiderate of you, bringing this up when right he got home. Why couldn't you wait for a better time.
Taking a step around him, you walk past, brushing his shoulder lightly as you make your way to the room. Shame takes over your hurt, you feel horrible. He's just come home and your selfish self is making it about you, how inconsiderate can you be-
You blink, your thoughts cut short when a hand stops you from opening your room door from behind you.
“You don't get to say those things and walk away like I wouldn't care.” He speaks from behind you voice low, you feel his chest pressed against your back.
“You truly think I don't care? That I didn't miss you?” He whispers, moving his arms from caging you to snake around your waist, his head leans on your shoulder as he leans his weight on you. You still for a second under his touch. He's so warm, so comforting.
It hits you then, when he holds you in place, that he's shaking. Theres small tremble of his body against yours.
“How could you think such things when it's so obviously untrue?” He questions, pulling you closer.
“Did you know before we got married I got an anonymous letter that had a photo of you on it? That said if i didn't drop a case that the Knights were in charge of they'd get you? They'd hurt you?” You feel his arms tighten around you, the mere thought of you getting hurt sends Varka into a frenzy.
“I had to drop the case, afterwards I had made sure we met in private and had a few select knights watch over you for months afterwards.” He admits, now it's your turn to be at a loss for words.
“If you think I'm ashamed to be married to you y/n you're wrong. Shame is not what I feel, it's fear, I fear that you'd get hurt because of me and it's that ever happens I-” you feel something warm on your shoulder, his hands squeeze the fabric of your dress in his grasp.
Slowly you turn in his hold, his big blue eyes shine when yours meet his.
“I don't know what I'd do without you. I love you so much it hurts, my chest aches when I'm away from you, when I can't hold you but I cant- I just can't seem to put you at risk.” He whispers, you wipe his tears as more seems to spill, his eyes close as he feels your touch for the first time in months. He leans in, face nuzzling your hand.
“How come you never told me that, why would you keep that from me?” You ask, his eyes open again, staring at you as if you walked away again he'd break for sure.
“You said it yourself, you're strong, you can defend yourself. You would've argued that back then and I would've let you because you're allowed to make your own decisions. But I'm greedy, I'm selfish. I came up with the plan to keep us hidden for the sole purpose of never receiving another letter like that ever again. It's worked this far but at what cost though? For you to think I don't cherish you? That I don't want to hold you in public? For you to question my love for you?" His voice cracks at the mere thought of you being fed up and leaving.
In all the time you've been with Varka he's never cried this much, such an accusation hurt him. You can see it now, if he thought otherwise he'd wouldn't have felt the need to stop you and explain. But here he is, the grandmaster of the knights is crying because he thought you'd walk away from him, that you got tired of being hidden for good and decided that was enough.
Stretching your arms around him, you pull him down by the back of his neck, hugging him tightly as he buries his face in the crook of your neck. His hands claw at the back of your dress holding you closer as he's afraid you'd still walk away. But you don't, you hold him just as tight. Running your fingers through his hair to calm him down as his his breathing evens out.
“I'm so happy to be home my love. Thank you for waiting for me. Thank you.” He repeats it like a mantra, taking in everything, your weight against his body, your warmth, you. He's been deprived for so long, he was starved of your affection and it's back. The man couldn't be happier.
“I'll fix it ok I will, just give me time.” He promises, he'll slowly let it be known if that is truly what you want, he'll show people of Mondstadt your his wife but give him time, time to make sure you'd be safe, to make sure he can protect you no matter what. He calms down a bit, still holding you against him, feeling your heartbeat from your chest beat along with his. His place in the knights, your place as head chief means nothing if it means risking losing you. So he'll do it, make it public slowly but your safety is something he'll put first always. If anyone ever threatens you again, he'd take care of them himself.
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authors note: HELLO MY LOVELIES!!! ugh it's been too long huh?? I've been in a huge slump of writers block and I couldn't seem to get out of it. I have so many unfisnied stories in my notes it's ridiculous t^t BUT FINALLY I wrote for Mr VARKA HES SO GOLDEN RETRIEVER BF HES SO CUTE !! YAYY \ (•◡•) /he's been on my list (along with flins) somehow I wrote this in an hour and it was okish enough (i hope) it's always angst with me here mwahaha (I'm sorry) but idk ID IDK if I overthink it I won't post and i feel so bad for not posting but I'm scared it won't be good and then it leads to me being dissapointed and never posting a never ending loop- I'm sorry for ranting so long let me stop LOL But I do hope you all have been in good health and taking care of yourselfs I've been away for what feels like ages so please if this is rough it's me trying to break the block I've been stuck in! I do hope you all enjoy nonetheless, mwahaha bagel appreciates you all MWAHHH!! ^~^<33
I HAVE NOTHING APPROPRIATE TO SAY LOOKATHIM JAJSJEIS I WOKE UP TO YHIS AND IVE BEEN BLESSED ٩(♡ε♡ )۶HELLO HIS SMIRK !!!!! HIS EYE !!!!! HIS EVEYTHING!!!!!! HES SO UWBSUWKUSJWKSOSKSOWKAKIS BABYGIRL PERFECT HUSBAND I NEED HIM KAEYA PLEASE scraping at any kaeya crumbs we've been so starved of this magnificent man i love kaeya i need kaeya (ヽ´ω`)<3333
Kaeya stumbles into your clinic half conscious, he trips over himself as he leans over one of the shelves to steady himself.
He's beaten, bloody and doesn't want anyone seeing him in this state. It's late but he knows you keep your clinic open for the knights just in case of emergency. They're always welcome to use your things, even call for your assistance if matters are dire.
But even in Kaeya’s condition he knows he has no right to call you.
It's been weeks, months now since Kaeya has distanced himself from you. You did nothing wrong. He pulled back before he could mess things up. You managed to shake his resolve like no other, you’re so loving and caring as you, going out of your way to check on him when he overworks himself, staying up late with him so he won’t be alone in his office. You brought light into his life, brought back emotions he buried deep down within himself years ago. He didn't deserve any of it. So he pulled back, he couldn't face you, you're someone who deserves everything, someone so special he can't drag you down, too afraid he’d hurt you somehow or worse lose you. So he disappeared completely. You went from spending almost everyday together to radio silence from him, it killed you inside more than you'd like to admit.
You blamed yourself then him then you spiraled, you couldn't figure out why, what led him to leave you without a word.
Though he knows (thinks) he did it for a good reason he can't face you. He would cave in and crumble in your soft touch and worried stare.
He feels he has no right after how he's treated you, so he just has to manage on his own. Bandage up the open wound on his abdomen and hope no one questions the black and blue bruises littering his skin.
He peels off his coat, then his shirt next, the pieces of clothing hitting the linoleum floor with a loud plop. The blood from his clothes already staining the white tiles.
He feels dizzy as he cleans the dried blood clinging to his skin. He used his cryo just a bit on his torso where he got the gash to stop the bleeding before it got worse.
His hands still shake from the aftershock, if he hadn't moved last second he'd be gone, some passerby or adventurer would've stumbled upon his body later and that would've been all, the life of the Cavalry captain would have been one sort lived though he thinks he deserves it to repent for his life of lies and regret.
Kaeya was ambushed by the abyss while he was alone on a small expedition just outside Dadaupa Gorge. The numbers grew in size by the minute and Kaeya was on the brink of giving up pinned to the floor with nothing.
He was fighting an axe welding Mitachril when another Hilichurl had hit him in the back of his head knocking him down before another clawed at his chest, that's when everything took a turn for the worst.
Struggling beneath five of them breathing him at once, his sword knocked out of his reach he lays there, not bathing fighting back. The pain was there, archons his body hurt so bad but death had never scared him before. In fact he found comfort in the thought. All through his life he's lived with immense guilt and self hatred so maybe a death like this was befitting of him.
He lays there taking the brutal beating, his eyes glued to his sword just a few feet from where he lays and his mind wanders. His mind wanders to everything he's done in life, his regret, his pain, how he never actually told Diluc how sorry he was. How he regrets never making up with his brother he cares so much for. He feels his eyes burn, the pain he feels in his chest hurting more than the gashes in him as he think of everyone he’d truly miss. Klee, Bennet, Razor, and you.
He never see would be able to reconcile with Diluc, tell him he’s truly sorry. He’d never Klee grow up and become a fantastic knight just like Jean. Bennett would be all alone, his self doubt would cling to him without someone to help guide him, he wants to see Bennett become confident and see him happy. Razor, he wants to see him grow, see him become accepted as part of the citizens in Mondstadt. Most importantly you, he wants to see you again.
He never got to tell you how he truly feels because of how scared he is he'd hurt you, instead he pushed you away and left you alone. All alone, it hurts him, he hurt you without wanting to intentionally do so, leaving you with no explanation and it hits him just how much he misses you. How much he wishes he can apologize for his actions but from the way it's looking, he's scared he might never get the chance to do those things.
It hits him then, something strikes his chest and he realizes if he continues to lay still and let this happen he won't ever get to see you again. That alone scares him, more than the thought of death itself.
He blinks slowly, he can't reach his words but his virion should be enough to make them stop moving. His fingers twitch before he slowly lifts his hand, his body temperature goes low and he inhales deep and slow. His hand raises up mid way and everything stills, everything goes quiet before he snaps.
In a blur everything freezes over, the hilichurls freeze with their hands and bats over him, the Mitachurl’s axe is frozen in its hands mid swing, everything is frozen in place.
He exhales shaky, vapor escaping his lips as the temperature around him drops drastically. His hand drops to his side and the Hilichurls surrounding him crumble into pieces.
He sits up, looking around before standing. He feels dizzy, he can feel something warm running down his head, his hand goes to the gash on his torso before his fingers freeze. Applying cryo over his wound to stop the blood for now.
He stumbles forward and picks his sword up before walking away from the scene behind him.
His legs move to the one place he knows he'll be safe, the one place that's always open for him no matter what time of day.
His forearm presses against the counter as he bites the inside of his cheek, his hands touch his wound on his abdomen, a pained groan bubbling out of him.
His eyes squeeze shut as he peels the remaining ice surrounding the wound, shaky hands applying gauze but he stills the second he sees the lights in the clinic flicker on.
You step out from the back room, dropping the supplies in your hands as you spot a figure standing in the infirmary by the bed.
A head of blue hair and toned back slowly turns and you feel your heart drop.
His eye stares wide at you as he opens his mouth but you're In front of him in second's. Delicate hands maneuvering him to lean back as you inspect his wound.
He stares at you, you don't look up at him, you're already grabbing stitches and gauze before he can say anything. You're turned away from him, he can see the slight tremble of your shoulders making his stomach drop.
The second you saw his wounds all your anger dissipated, you could bring yourself to get mad when he's covered in blood in bruises , not when he looks so beat down you don't have it in you to tell him off, to be upset with him.
“Y/n.” he whispers, you don't respond, only pushing him gently back onto the bed before you start disinfecting the wound.
“Y/n please, look at me.” He grabs hold of your hand stopping you from moving. You look up at him, your eyes blurry as he smiles at you, though he's beaten so badly he still musters it up just fine.
“What are you doing here so late? It's almost midnight.” He asks, it's way past closing, you have no reason to be here.
“My place is cold and quiet, here I have something to do, a purpose. I can't leave if someone needs my assistance.” you admit, trying to swallow the lump in your throat as his smile falters.
“You're overworking yourself. How long has this been going on-”
“I lost count. Maybe weeks by now.” you answer. “Kaeya,” you lean back from where you're crouched , his hands still holding your wrist in his hold.
“What happened to you? How'd you get so hurt.” you feel your throat swelling seeing him so beat down.
“This? This is nothing.” He laughs, trying to play it off. “Believe me don't worry your pretty head about thi-’
“Why Kaeya? Why are you here all beat up? Why did you disappear for so long? Was it something I did? Did I say something to upset you?" You ask, voice wavering, feeling his grasp around your wrist tighten.
He stares down at you, you feel his hands slightly tremble and you sigh, looking away.
“Sorry,” you apologize, he looks drained, tired, he doesn't need to be bombarded with questions right now. “I shouldn't be asking this when you're in this state. Please let me heal you so you can get rest. You can stay here tonight, I wasn't planning on leaving until later anyway.” You gently pull away from his grasp, laying your hand just over his open wound, applying pressure to stop the bleeding.
“You did nothing wrong.” He speaks up, you don't respond, you turn again to grab fresh water by the sink and a towel to clean him up.
“I didn't mean to do this, to hurt you,” he takes a deep breath. “I leftbecause you got close and it scared me. I tend to mess things up when people get too close, with people I care for dearly. I can't mess this up with you, I'd go crazy.” He admits, feeling you stop moving.
“I left on my own accord, you can't blame yourself ok? I hated it, really. I couldn't stand it, it was driving me insane but I got scared, too scared to face you again because I couldn't stand the thought of you possibly hating me for it.”
“That's not fair.” You whisper, looking down at your lap.
Kaeya stills the second he hears you sniffling.
“Hey hey don't- please don't cry.” He gently holds your shoulders moving you back so you can look at him.
“You don't get to pull away before you mess it up, if things ever got messed up between us I'd fix it Kaeya. That's what I'd do because you mean too much for me to just let go, I got so used to you being around it's scary. It's so empty and dull, I'd fix it fast because I don't know what to do without your presence. You can't decide things for me, you don't get to do that. ” You stand, chest rising and falling rapidly as you point at his chest.
His eye widens for a second, you're lecturing him. You have every right to be mad but you're so concerned for him at the same time. He smiles, one so genuine and soft you've never seen a man look so gentle with such a look it makes you weak.
He feels his heart beating erratically in his chest as he stand, making you take a step back but he stops you. Reaching for your hand and placing it on his bare chest right over his beating heart. You feel it, the warmth of his skin on yours, his heartbeat pumping in his chest, you can hear it just from how close he's standing.
“I’ve never in my life been scared of dying, did you know?” He asks, tone serious as he takes another step closer. “Since I was young I never feared it, in fact I welcomed death to come as soon as possible, to take me away along with my regrets and pain I carry. But today, as I was bleeding out I wasn't ok with it y/n, do you know why?” Kaeya holds your hand firm over his chest as he leans down.
“The thought of never seeing you again was much scarier being beaten by a mob of Hilichurls. Then bleeding out and dying alone. At first I wanted to accept my fate, let myself pay for my past sins but I thought of you and wanted to be selfish for once. I can't stand the thought of leaving this world without at least telling you I'm sorry, without telling you how much I absolutely miss you, without telling you how much you mean to me.” He confesses, laying his head on your shoulder he hears your sniffling grow louder.
“Hey please don't cry, you're hurting me.” a weak chuckle rumbles through his chest, he's not laughing at your emotions, he doesn't know how to react to someone genuinely caring so much for him, crying for him at that. But your arms wrap around him gently, pulling him in as you bury your face into his chest.
“You don't get to decide things on your own, not if it means almost losing you again, I can't take the pain of not seeing you anymore again.” You cry, feeling his hands run down your back soothingly.
You place your hands on his chest to pull back but you hear see wince, making you pull back completely. You had completely forgotten he was currently still bleeding and bruised.
“I'm sorry! I didn't mean to push you back too hard, I completely forgot,” your eyes widen as you retract your hands. “ I need to treat your wounds fast. How long have you been bleeding for?” you turn to grab stitches and disinfectant from behind before seeing a pair of arms circle back around you pulling your back to his chest.
“Y/n, I'm sorry.” He whispers, pulling you closer against him. “I'm cant put it into words but you need to know how much I regret leaving you alone like that, for hurting you. It wasn't my intention truly, you're just too special to me, I was too scared to mess this up.”
His arms stay wrapped around your shoulders, you gently tap him “Kaeya, you had your reasons, just talk to me next time ok? Please? Don't - you can't decide things like this on your own, you're too important to me to leave, I can't let it happen.” You soothe his forearm, his apology making you feel relieved, you were so worried for so long but he sounded so genuine, looked so scared, there's no way you can’t believe him. This man came to you bleeding, not scared to tell you everything, you believe him wholeheartedly.
You feel the tremble of his shoulders on your back, turning to see his eye brimming with unshed tears as he lifts his head from your shoulders. It hurts him seeing you cry for him, seeing what he's done to you. Your reaction makes him feel so much, it makes him feel home, loved, something he never thought he'd let himself feel. Something he thought he didn't deserve. You raise your hand gently placing it on his face as he closes his eyes at your warmth, “Let me heal you up, don't apologize anymore. I forgive you ok?” You assure him as more tears come out, he can only nod in response as you guide him to sit, reaching out to hold your hand every once in a while as you clean up the dried blood and wound on his torso, eye glued to your every move as you wash the dried blood off his head and bandage him up.
You end up staying with him, falling asleep on the chair next to his bed as he looks down at you, amazed how someone can be so caring and understanding, his hand soothes your hair as you sleep. Grateful fate gave him a chance to decide for himself for once, that he came back to you. That he got to see you again. Living with his past regrets is something Kaeya can bear. He realizes that now, as long as he has you, fate can throw anything his way, he won't give up so easily, because now he has a reason to live, someone to live for. You.
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author’s note: HAI MY LOVLIESS!! (≧▽≦)I’m FINALLY posting Kaeya’s birthday fic ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉI’m so sorry it's late, it took me forever writers block + work are a nasty combo so I kept rewriting and deleting t^t I'm sorry for it being so late BUT I'm pretty ok with this one! I hope y'all enjoy!! AND IVE MISSED YALL SO MUCH!! (DISCLAIMER!! THIS IS NOT EDITED SO SORRY FOR ANY ERRORS!!)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAEYA!!(≧▽≦) MY HUSBAND MY SWEET BOY MY MOST HANDSOME CHARMING SKRUNKLY CAPTAIN OF ALL TEYVAT THIS ART OF HIM IS SOOOKWUSJDIDIDJSISUUSJDUS GOODDD LIKE ?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?? DO U SEE HIM????? HIS COAT IS OFF HE LOOKS SO SCRUMPTIOUS AND SO BITEABLE?! I JUST WANT TO PUT HIM IN MY POCKET AND SMOOCH HIM ALL DAY UGH IM SO NORMAL ABT HIM I SWEAR I SWEAR OK!! i will not shut up his hair his eyes his clothes EVEYTHING I LOVE HIM!! I WISH MY SWEETEST KAEYA A HAPPY BIRTHDAY MWAHHH٩(♡ε♡ )۶<3333
HAI MY LOVLIESSSS!! ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉtomorrow is our amazing, handsome, charming, beautiful, hot, stunning, smart, intelligent, handsom, hot, skrunkly, hot, sweet, passionate, smartass, did I say hot? kaeyas birthday!! I'm in the process of finishing his birthday story BUT I fear i might not be able to post it the day of sighh I'm afraid i would have to post a day later BUT I will be celebrating his birthday to the fullest! (at work(´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀) BUT IM SO EXCITED TO POST IT it's going to be good I PROMISE! I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH UGH I WANT TO WRITE MORE I HOPE I CAN FIND THE TIME AND INSPO TO DO SO! i hope y'all are taking care I hope you had a lovely Thanksgiving (if you celebrate) and happy holidays loves, eat, stay warm and take care of yourselfs!!^~^<33
HAI LOVLIESSSS!!! (≧▽≦)it's actually been ages I'm so sorry for being gone UGHEUDHDID life has been very busy lately, audlting sucks but I'm trying my best!(*´﹃｀*) I miss you all sm but I'll be back with more works very soon!! kaeyas brithday is coming up HEHEHDHDHUEJDUDID so that means a kaeya fic will come soon ( are we supprised? (ﾉ´∀｀*) along with a few more I've been working on! I hope you all have been in good health and you're all taking good care of yourselfs bc you matter ok!! I'll be bacc soon ok ! I MISS YALL ONCE AGAIN !! (^o^)／
(reader is sick but still pushes herself to work, sylus finds you in grave danger as you try to fight while you have a high fever )
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Your arm feels heavy as you lift it to shut the alarm off, your head is already pounding despite just waking up. You stand and feel the familiar feeling of body aches set into your legs, a small sign of you coming down with a fever.
You're stubborn though, that wasn't enough to make you stay home from work.
It takes a while longer to get ready for work, but you can’t miss. There’s so much to get done, meetings you can’t miss, paperwork you need to get done by today.
Leaving your apartment the heavy feeling sets itself behind your eyes and entire body. It's hot out but you have a cold sweat, there's much, too much to call in and stay home. You just have to hope it gets better.
During the first few hours of your shift you feel your eyes burn more, the documents from past wanderer attacks need to get done. You haven't been called out to any wanderer sightings today at least, you have that to be thankful for.
Beside you, your phone starts to vibrate. You pick it up and see Sylus is calling so you stand and walk from your desk to the empty halls.
"Hello?" You answer
"Why hello sweetie, a small crow told me you weren't feeling well today and well from the looks of it, you look pretty sick." Sylus greets you, you can hear his stupid sly smile playing on his lips through the phone.
"Sick...where's that dumb crow-" you grumble, eyebrows knitting together as you look out the window of your work building.
Sylus chuckles a low vibration ringing though your cell. He can hear your pout, which makes him chukle more.
"He didn't snitch. He just happened to be near you when I just checked on him and saw you leaning over the wall outside of your work. Couldn't call off Ms Hunter? Is your work really more important than your health?" He questions, the sound of disappointment dripping from his tone.
"No need to stay home if I can still walk, this is nothing I'm not sick just tired." You hold your ground, hoping he buys it.
"You don't always need to overwork yourself you know. You don't sleep enough as is, count on others to be there for you sweetie you're not alone." Sylus sighs, his serious tone making your face warm. He cares, him calling to check on you is enough of a tell tale but it makes you feel so damn warm and embarrassed.
"I'm fine really, a headache is nothing I can't handle. I'm not so fragile, you know, I'm a hunter for a reason." You hum and Sylus knows. He knows you're capable but when he saw how pale and exhausted you looked earlier he couldn't help but worry.
"I know you are capable, I don't doubt you one bit kitten." He softly speaks, he can't help but keep an eye on you.
You open your mouth to say something else but an alarm on your watch goes off before you can.
"Shit." You silently curse, you thought nothing was going to be too eventful today.
"I have to go Sylus, I'll call you when I get home." You sigh hearing him sigh as well.
"Alright, be safe. I'll be awaiting your call." He agrees, though when you hang up he heads out of his office, checking your location on his phone before grabbing his motorcycle helmet.
He knows you can hold yourself against wanderers. But he doesn't trust your judgement on your health, he needs to be sure.
You're sent to a secluded area just almost out the cusp of the city. You split up with the group your sent with and walk to the alley to find any fluctuations
You feel your eyes strain as you load your gun, tucking it into the hilt on your leg you move.
A shiver runs down your spine, a cold breeze hits you, making you feel the light sweat in your hairline. A cold sweat hits you hard as you make your way around, checking your watch for the nearby wanderer.
A loud beep echoes down the hall, you turn hearing a loud growl beside you. Ducking before you fully turn you feel something hard hit your torso.
The air leaves your lungs when you slam into the wall next to you. If your body wasn’t in pain already it definitely was now.
You blink, trying to regain your breath as you sit up heaving. Your eyes are hazy from getting up too fast.
It screeches next to you and you stand, holding the hilt of your gun firm as you cautiously step around it.
The wanderer lets out a low growl, claws scratching the floor when you aim your gun its way. The wanderer stops and leers, getting ready to lunge but before it can you steady your hand, shooting two bullets watching the wanderer fall but another immediately appearing behind the fallen one.
You blink and before you can react it jumps, taking you down with it. Your gun falls a few feet away as the wanderer screeches over you.
The ringing in your ears from the impact of your head hitting the floor is loud, you feel worse than earlier. You should’ve listened to your body, to Sylus and taken today off. Why have things been going downhill since you woke up?
Struggling in its hold, your arm aches as you reach, fingers just brushing against the hilt when you use all your strength and pull underneath the claw of the monster. You feel your shoulder rip but don’t have time to think. Reaching as far as you can muster you grab hold of your gun and shoot, not stopping until it starts to disintegrate on top of you.
You lay there heaving as you try to regain strength to stand. Eyes blurring and head pounding to the point where you have to hunch over to stop the worsening pain.
Another loud alarm echos from your watch, from down the hall a wanderer appears, eyes locking in on you. Pulling your gun up you steady your shaky hands and aim, fingers on the trigger as it rounds its shoulders, running down the hall making a b-line for you.
The trigger pulls back but nothing comes out, the clip is empty and the wanderer is more than halfway down the hall. You mentally curse as you reach down your holster on your leg for extra bullets grabbing a handful before looking up you see it jump from where it is, about five feet away lunging your direction sharp teeth snarling and you freeze.
You stop moving, the bullets in your hands falling to the floor as you just look at the monster in front of you. This is it, a fatal move that costs you your life. Just because you couldn’t listen to others and you thought you could sweat a fever out you’re going to learn your lesson.
Your eyes shut and your hands fall loose to your sides.
“There’s nothing I can do.” You think, not even trying to move out of the way. Body too exhausted to do so. You let out a shaky breath and close your eyes, preparing for the worst.
It’s silent, like the calm before the storm. Then the sound of five rounds being fired rings behind you making you flinch.
“What do we have here? Kitten, you seem a bit distracted.” He clicks his tongue, putting his gun down making his way to you. His brows furrowed as he stared at the beast disintegrating in front of you.
“Now, I thought hunters were always supposed to be prepared. Seems you weren’t in the best shape to be here now?” He questions, seeing you turn.
You let out a shaky breath you weren’t even aware you were holding, you hear your heartbeat ringing in your ears and everything hits you.
Sylus waits, you don't respond. Not even a snarky comeback you’d usually bite back with. Nothing.
You bend and collect the bullets you dropped, trembling hands placing them in your pockets before you stand on shaky legs. The cold sweat makes your teeth clatter and the pain from your torso and shoulder shoots through you.
You can’t control it, the shaking, your breathing, everything is spiraling and you can’t stop it.
Taking a step you stumble, Sylus is next to you in an instant. His warm hand firmly holding you by your arm and the comfort that you feel when near him hits you. You feel safe.
Lifting your head to greet him but no words come out, you feel your legs buckle and everything goes silent.
Sylus lifts you before you even slump. Your body temperature is at a level that’s hot to the touch. He frantically moves your hair, palm flattening out on your forehead feeling the sheer heat radiating from you. He needs to cool you down instantly.
He rushes out to his car with you In his arms, gently laying you in the back before speeding home.
His mind is a wreck. When he saw you not even trying to save yourself he almost lost it. He couldn’t bear to lose you again. Not after it took him so long to find you again, for you to remember him finally.
You feel like you're in a haze, turning and groaning at the sheer chills you feel run through your body.
Sylus glances back through the rear view mirror and speeds, luckily you were on the cusp of the N109 zone not too far from his base.
Always so careless, refusing to let yourself rest even if it means your health is declining. Your stubbornness is scary, it rivals his own and he can't stand it, not if you're doing it to yourself.
His foot slams the breaks, he throws his door open and pulls the back doors open to get you instantly.
Your eyes crack open, your throat feeling incredibly dry. "It's so cold." you feel your voice crack, Sylus pulls you into his arms steadying you before lifting you up instantly.
His legs move fast, he can feel you shiver but your body temperature is dangerously high. He needs to bring it down now.
The main doors fly open and his legs waste no time making their way to the restroom. He gently lays you on the floor next to the bath as he sets the temperature to cold.
"Bring me a few bags of ice at the lower restroom by the entrance now." You hear Sylus speak into his phone, making your eyes open again.
"I'm cold, no ice please." You blink, the fever is at its worst. It's much more draining than you thought it would be.
"I know sweetie I'm going to help you." He whispers, calming tone hushing you as he moves your bangs from your face.
The twins come in seconds, heads whipping between Sylus and you as they hand him bags of ice.
"Boss are they alr-"
"Out." He speaks, opening the bags of ice. The twins don't hesitate, they leave the second the word leaves his mouth.
The bath is filled up a bit more than halfway. He pulls you near him, feeling you push him back a bit.
"I don't." You struggle, seeing the bath filled up and ice in there made your teeth clatter. "I'm so cold please don't." You pull your wrist back but it doesn't budge in Sylus' firm grasp
"Sweetie, I need you to listen to my voice." He steadys you, hands gently holding your face in his warm palms. "You need to cool off, I'm here with you ok? I won't let nothing else happen." He assures, nodding his head when your hazy eyes meet his.
You feel delirious, your eyes sting when he stands you up holinging you when he steps into the cold tub, sitting down and bringing you with him.
Tears sting your eyes, your body feels like it's going to explode when he submerges your legs and waist underneath the freezing water.
"Sylus I'm freezing I can't." You grip his arm with whatever strength you have left trying to move from him but he holds you in place, putting it further into the tub to cool you down.
"I know, but I can't let you go until you cool down sweetie." He whispers, his arms caging you in, one holding your shoulders down his other holding your waist. Your back flat against his chest as he pushes you back into him by your torso.
“Please Sylus, please let me go, I can't please don't do this.” you plead your throat raw as you kick your legs trying your absolute hardest to get away. It hurts so much.
Sylus feels pain so sharp in his chest at your pleading tone. But he can't let you go yet, not until he's sure you're cooled off, until he feels your body temperature go back to normal.
His shaky hands steady when your thrashing stops.
"Sylus I don't feel- I'm so cold." You heave, head falling back into his chest as exhaustion takes over from the body aches to your high fever and getting attacked plus crying was taking a huge toll on you.
Hot tears run down your face as you take in deep breaths, Sylus' big warm hands rubbing your arms soothing you, shushing you as he rocks you back and forth. "I'm here, I have you ok sweetie. You're not alone." He assures pulling you impossibly closer.
He feels your breathing even and soon your head slumps forward. His firm hand grabs your face but you don't respond, for a second he internally panics but he feels your pulse steady and rhythmic to his own. You've finally cooled down after about ten minutes of being here, now he needs to get you changed and some medicine, you're not going out of his sight until he sees you get better himself.
Your eyes crack open, the dim room surrounding you making your eyes widen in seconds.
Your body shoots up frantically, head spinning as your hands rub your temples. You realize you're in Sylus' hideout or to be more exact, Sylus' room.
Looking around for the man in question you realize you're alone, so you stand. Pain shoots through your torso and shoulder making you hiss as you take a few steps. The last thing you remember was feeling cold, so damn cold.
You take a few steps when the door opens gently catching you making your way across the room.
Before you can even turn to see who it is, a pair of arms firmly grabs your waist and a second later you're being thrown over a broad shoulder.
"Ah HEY-" a surprised yelp escapes your lips at the sudden movement. A strong arm holds you up effetlessly.
Looking down at the man who just tossed you like a sack of potatoes you feel no discomfort, he's holding you so gently despite your body being in so much pain.
"I take my eyes off you for one second kitten, and you're already trying to sneak away." He jokingly clicks his tongue as his head shakes.
He stops in front of the bed, letting you down as if you're made of glass. Setting a tray of food down on the bedside table.
"What happened? How long have I been out?" You ask, looking up at him seeing his eyebrow quirk up.
"Two days. All because certain stray cat decided to bare her fangs in the face of danger when she wasn't feeling so well. Tell me Ms Hunter, is that a smart thing to do now?" He questions, grabbing the chair next to the bed, moving it to sit right in front of you.
Looking at him you can't even defend yourself, you know how reckless that was yet you still pushed yourself.
"Sorry you had to see that." You speak up, voice still a bit horse biting the inside of your cheek as his eyes stare into the depths of your soul.
Sulys may look calm on the outside but inside he's a mess. He was so worried, it's been two days of you fighting such a high fever and you're finally going back to normal, he's so relieved to see your eyes he loves so much open, looking at him with such tenderness despite you being sick for so long.
His eyes soften when you look into his, he moves in closer, arms caging you in both sides of your legs.
"Never do that again, please come to me and lean on me if you're wounded or don't feel good. You don't have to shoulder the burden all by yourself anymore. You have me." Sylus' voice is so soft, his hand coming up to your forehead to feel the temperature.
"I feel fine now-"
"You still feel warm sweetie, what's the matter?" He questions, leaning in closer, feeling his breath fan over your face, you feel yourself shrink under his intense gaze.
"I can't help it, it's warm right now." You hold his gaze, the corners of his lips lifting up seeing the light pink dust across your face.
"Get comfortable sweetie, you're not leaving my side for a while. You need to eat." He whispers, standing up to give you space before placing a kiss on your forehead.
Before he can take another step you reach for his arm, pulling him back a bit making him stop fully turning back to you, eyes looking into yours as you try to find the right words.
“You don't have to leave, please I don't want to be alone.” You confess, making him sit back down grabbing the soup he made for you, blowing on the spoonful of soup. You ask him to stay and he will, he needs no other excuse.
Sylus blows the steaming spoon a few more times before slowly lifting it to your lips. “Eat, you need food.” He speaks softly. Eyes trained on your movement. You oblige, opening your mouth accepting the spoonful of warm delicious soup.
“Thank you, for shouldering the burden of caring for me. You can lean on me too no matter what, ok? I'm always here for you too no matter what Sy.” You speak up, as he puts the spoon back in for another spoonful. You sit up straighter, your resolve in your eyes shows him you mean every word you say and he feels his heart beat faster.
In one swift movement he’s in front of you leaning down again, hand holding your face as he leans in. “Those words are tempting, keep your promise and I’ll be here forever sweetie.” He whispers, eyes holding such intensity as he speaks. His eyes stare at your lips making you swallow nervously. He's so close you can smell his intoxicating scent. You almost close the distance but he softly kisses your cheek before pulling back.
“You need to get more rest, you’re not fully recovered.” He holds back, he has to. As much as he'd love to hold you and have his way with you, he knows your health and you recovering fully comes first. “Now open up,” he turns back to the soup, grabbing another spoonful before looking back at you. “You're not going anywhere until you finish your soup and get more rest I advise you to get comfortable sweetie.”
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authors note: HALLOOO MY LOVLIESSSS HOW IVE MISSED YOU SO!!!!(≧▽≦) Im back and with a LOVE AND DEEPSPACE FIC OH MY GOSH!!(^o^) I've been wanting to write for the LADS boys for sosososo long and I finally did it!! I'm a sylus girly though and through though zayne is close second so I wrote for my number one! I hope you all enjoy the fic and I hope you're all taking care, mwahhhh^~^<333 (DISCLAIMER!!!! this is not revised or edited, sorry for any errors!!! THIS IS ALSO NOT RECOMMEND TO DO, DO NOT DO THIS ID YOU'RE SICK!!)
haiii my lovlies(≧▽≦) I wanted to do a small poll asking what else you'd like to see me write other than genshin content (worry not I will still be writing plenty genshin content) but these are just other things I enjoy. if you would like to see specific characters for me to write for from any of these (genshin as well) just let me know(^-^ )
HALLOO HON!! today's been good thank you for asking, I had work and wrote so I'd say it was productive( ´∀｀) how's your day?! I hope you're taking care ! : D <33
