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When I was a boy, my mum would send me down the corner shop with $1… and I’d come back with a bag of potatoes, a loaf of bread, 3 bottles of milk, a block of cheese, and 6 eggs. You can’t do that today..
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some of you are soooo serious. brother its tumblr.com/dashboard
Its not unusual for Eddie to be quiet for whole shifts. Some days, its just a bad day. One where all the work Eddie has done to get better can only keep him trudging forward step by heavy step. One where all his demons come back at once and try to drag him down. One where Eddie is too busy fighting old habits to join in on the jokes and banter. They've all gotten good at dealing with these days - Buck especially, but that's no surprise when he was there for The Worst Days.
So, its not unusual for Eddie to be quiet, but there's a simmering despair to Eddie's silence today that has Bobby's hackles rising. Its not his usual listless, fatigued quiet. Its a heavy, burdensome quiet. Bobby can't stand it, so he waits until the rest of the team trudge off to the bunks before he corners Eddie in the lounge with two cups of tea.
"You're not gonna let me escape are you?" Eddie sighs, collapsing back against the couch he'd tried to jump up from.
"I'm not holding you hostage," Bobby offers him one of the mugs with a smile, "I'm simply gently suggesting that you talk to someone. And I happen to be right here."
"Yeah." Eddie sighs again, eyes drifting down to the steaming surface of his tea. "What do you think I should talk to someone about?"
"Whatever it is that has you like this." Bobby gestures at him kindly. "You seem heavier."
He doesn't say it, but Eddie looks a lot like he did when Buck was in his coma. Bobby can't help but wonder, what with all the Natalia talk, if its because Eddie thinks he's losing him all over again, in a different way.
"Its nothing..." Eddie shakes his head, averts his eyes. "Just something that old lady from the living funeral said to me and Hen. Something my aunt said too."
"What'd they say?" Bobby prompts gently.
"My aunt said that I'm alone," Eddie mumbles. "Marie said that we all die alone. And, recently, I don't know." Another sigh, a hand scrubbed down his face. "Recently, it feels like time is running out and I can't help but think that when it does, its just a lonely death waiting for me at the finish line."
"Eddie, you aren't going to die alone." Bobby aches for him. Buck may be his son, but Bobby's always seen a piece of himself in Eddie. Its why he finds himself here so often, trying to coax Eddie's heart out of its cage. "You know that there are two people who would never, ever let that happen."
Eddie huffs a bitter laugh, eyes landing somewhere far away.
"Yeah, that's what I thought too."
Bobby is mature enough to admit he flounders a little here. All these talks he's had with Eddie, its always felt a bit like speaking to a brick wall. But now, now he thinks Eddie might have finally understood.
"Eddie," Bobby murmurs seriously, seriously enough to have Eddie meeting his eyes, "its never too late. Never."
"Feels like it might be this time, Cap," Eddie chokes out. He glances down at his tea. "I don't want to be alone."
"Love is a risk," Bobby blurts out desperately. He's never met two men who deserve a happy ending more than Buck and Eddie, and, whilst he can't take credit for how far they've come, he feels a blazing pride that their happy endings are to be found in each other. He can't let them miss out. "Love is a terrible, awful risk. Always. Always. Its never easy. It might be in the end. You might look back one day and think that it was all worth it to end up here. But you're in the today, the now, when the love is horrible and painful and the most difficult thing in the world." Eddie looks up at him with tear-filled eyes, and Bobby's heart breaks for him. "Every beat of your heart is like a punch to the stomach, and you think that maybe it would be easier if you'd never felt the love at all."
"No," Eddie interrupts, shaking his head. "No, there's no way I was never going to feel this.. I'd always end up here."
"That's mighty faithful for someone who doesn't believe in the universe," Bobby mumbles.
"I believe in him," Eddie shrugs helplessly.
"Eddie, you haven't lost him." Bobby lays a hand on his shoulder. "He's just out of reach, but you can get to him. You've done it before. Both of you have. You always make it back to each other. That's your deal."
"I don't know how to reach him this time," Eddie confesses breathlessly.
"You have to take the leap, Eddie." Bobby sighs. "Its going to be terrifying, and it might not all fall into place at once. But one day, you'll look back and you'll be so damn glad you jumped."
Eddie bites into his lip as the first tear rolls down his cheek.
"What if he doesn't catch me?"
"Then, he'll pick you up off the floor," Bobby promises with all the conviction he has. Its the one thing he knows with any certainty in this world. "Eddie, whatever happens, you can't lose Buck. Not completely. And things might change. But think of how it could change for the better."
Eddie smiles to himself, a tiny, wobbly, private thing that Bobby's only caught glimpses of when Buck is around.
"So, I just jump?" he asks.
"You jump." Bobby nods. "You jump, and you hope, and you trust that he'll be right there with you."
"That he'll have my back?" Eddie grins ruefully.
"Yeah, trust that he'll have your back," Bobby smiles right back.
They'll be okay.
same energy
pt 3 of a continuing saga
the never ending story pt 4
making this a pentalogy apparently
the wheel keeps on spinning
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We’ve waited a year to reblog this. Happy Bread Anniversary!
Because it’s important to celebrate the little victories in life.
No, no, no!
This is April 19 on the Julian Calendar.
The real bread day is on April 7th
my first wip wednesday (it’s thursday) ever be nice pretty please. have a wee bit from my college single dad eddie fic <3
Eddie stomped off the bus, half-wrestling with the stroller that held Chris and their groceries as he did. He picked up the bear Chris had dropped on the pavement and double-checked that he wasn’t squishing the bread, before picking up the toy again, handing it back to his son, despite what he knew would happen. Chris looked up at Eddie, giving him a toothy grin as he dropped his beloved, but tattered, bear back onto the sidewalk.
He resolutely ignored the way his movements were jerky and forced himself to put aside any frustration with his son as he picked up the toy and placed it back in Christopher’s waiting hands. It wasn’t his kid’s fault that he was in a shit mood, even if his mood was because of the stress of having a kid. (And grocery shopping with them.)
Eddie had decided long ago that Chris was never going to find out how rough it was.
if anyone else is wanting to post late do it i did :D
personally i think the most insane thing 911 have done to date is have buck try to dig eddie out from under 40ft of mud with his bare hands <3 insane <3
how do you feel about josh 911
i hate him (because he's annoying)
i hate him (because he's boring)
i hate him (solely or primarily because he was mean to eddie that one time)
i hate him (for a secret fourth thing)
i dislike him but it's not that serious
i'm actually indifferent but i partake in anti-josh jokes bc it's funny
i like him in a neutral sort of way where i just don't have a problem with him
i like him/i enjoy his character
i love him
please vote/reblog i'm so curious
Kenny Choi ❤️🔥
what's chip's next cake for buck gonna look like .....
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more boob
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people use “bucky” way too much considering “his buck” (and by extension “my buck”) are so much better and canon
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happy womens day to everyones favorite woman
from buck doesn’t cook anymore. bobby’s noticed
episode 10 coda i guess?
Eddie doesn’t know what he’s supposed to tell Chris.
Chris, his sweet little boy, who’s become concerned with crushes and being cool and who rarely lets him or Buck cuddle him these days. Chris, who had lost his mom without a chance to say goodbye, not once, but twice.
Eddie remembers flashes of the ambulance, his frantic words to Shannon on a stretcher. He remembers Chim and Hen, frantic around him. He remembers telling Christopher.
He doesn’t remember driving to the hospital tonight. He doesn’t remember the pain as he fell. But everytime he closes his eyes, he remembers seeing Buck fall, climbing the ladder faster than he ever has. He remembers lowering Buck to Bobby - to his dad.
What is he supposed to tell Chris? How is he supposed to tell his- their son that Buck might not take him to the new Space exhibit, to the park, to school, to the station, to their house that is just as much Buck as it is Eddie?
Eddie thinks of the truth of fucking electricity that hums under their friendship. It has, for years, but Eddie’s never let himself cross the line and... openly consider it, not since, “i think it would have been better for him if i was the one who got shot.”
Eddie doesn’t know what he’s supposed to tell Chris, or what to do with the things he needs to tell Buck. You are what I want for my son.
