Pure Madness

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You follow the rabbit down the hole Thinking you're Alice and the rabbit will take you to Wonderland But you're not Alice You're a broken version of her And the rabbit is no rabbit at all It's your madness dragging you to the depths of depression There's no ladder, nothing You can't crawl out of it It's dark and cold You can't see a thing down there You hear something You follow the noise You see a weird version of a tea party You see Madhatter there But he seems to be wearing a mask It's not a mask though, it's your face In face it's you You're mad(hatter).

Val

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Smoking stardust to get high Forgetting you're in a lie Drinking holy water to cleanse your sins Forgetting you're an atheist There he is Looking at you He knows He knows all All your desires All your fears He's responsible for them all Him who has many names Surrender to your desires, they're all you have left Jump from that rooftop He'll catch You just have to accept who you are.

Val

[rwsiko-tauraki]

You're feeling your emptiness Living in your dreams, daydreaming Trying to forget reality Waking up to misery Trying to run away from this life of countless pointless choices.

Val

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When the clock hits 03:00 Your demons come to life And little by little they pull you into the darkness They're eating you You're overthinking again You can't sleep All you're thinking about is that blade

Val

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I'm lying here in my room Staring at the ceiling In my comfort zone In a good mood With my red candles lit Drinking a glass of red wine, trying to think of something to write But the inspiration doesn't want to join me It comes and goes in waves Just like my mood Some will say I'm insane And maybe I am It's not all that bad though It makes me creative and able to write So I guess, I'm kinda blessed In a way All they see are flaws and not possibilities All they see is a mentally ill person And yes I have flaws I'm mentally fucked But I'm also gifted In ways many won't understand.

Val

[rwsiko-tauraki]

You see your pupils dilate And you know it’s that time again It’s like you’re high on cocaine You wanna do everything You want to shop and spend money You don’t sleep You don’t eat All you do is smoke Marlboro and drink red bull You think you’re suddenly cured You want to cut your meds You want to feel like this all the time But the lows are not far away and they’re gonna hit hard So hard you’ll end up off your meds You’ll start cutting yourself again and pray for the courage to press harder But the thought of failing and having to deal with all the aftermath keeps you from doing it, again Again You’re lying on the floor and can’t do anything about it.

Val

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You inhale that smoke like it’s your last cigarette And you wish it would be There’s nothing like that first hit in the morning with your overly sweet tea to cover the bitterness of your life You want to burn your depression out with your cigarette against your arm That will leave you with another scar to remind you of another bad day.

Val

[rwsiko-tauraki]

Λες πως γράφω ωραία Λες πως έχω ωραία ροή Δεν ξέρεις όμως πως δεν είναι απλά μελάνι και σημεία στίξης Είναι οι σκέψεις μου αποτυπωμένες σε χαρτί Στο χαρτί το μελάνι γίνεται λέξη και η λέξη πρόταση που αποκτά χαρακτήρα όταν τη στολίζεις Είναι τυχαίο που όλα είναι γραμμένα με μαύρο μελάνι; Αποκτά άραγε προσωπικότητα η λέξη ντυμένη με μαύρο χρώμα;

Val

[rwsiko-tauraki]

Ανάβω ένα τσιγάρο και γράφω για κατάληψη και σκοτεινά συναισθήματα και σκέψεις Σκέψεις βαθιές σαν τις βαθιές χάρακες στα μπούτια μου Σκέψεις που σε θολώνουν και δεν βλέπεις καθαρά Σκέψεις από τις οποίες δεν μπορείς να ξεφύγεις όσο και να προσπαθείς Σκέψεις που σε τρώνε και αφήνουν σημάδια στο σώμα σου Και εκεί που νομίζεις έφτασες στο φως Το φως σβήνει Πέφτεις πάλι από τη σκάλα που με τόσο κόπο ανέβηκες Βρίσκεσαι ξανά στο απόλυτο σκοτάδι Μόνος και μουδιασμένος Το μόνο που σκέφτεσαι είναι εκείνη η λεπίδα στο πρώτο συρτάρι του κομοδίνου σου Σκέφτεσαι τον πόνο που είναι το μόνο αληθινό πράγμα που νιώθεις όταν είσαι παγωμένος Κάνεις τσιγάρο το ένα μετά το άλλο Να χαλαρώσεις, να ξεχαστείσ από αυτά που νιώθεις Ξεχνάς όμως ότι θα στα σκάσουν χειρότερα τα ψυχολογικά σου Πίνεις προσπαθώντας να πνίξεις τις σκέψεις σου Αλλά αυτές γίνονται πιο έντονες, πιο απειλητικές Και εκεί που σε έχει ζεστάνει το ποτό και είσαι θολωμένος Είσαι έτοιμος για όλα Είσαι στην άκρη του τελευταίου ορόφου του κτιρίου Κοιτάς κάτω και δεν φοβάσαι Δεν ζαλίζεσαι Σε ενθουσιάζει Σε προκαλεί να πηδήξεις Το μόνο που φοβάσαι... Φοβάσαι μήπως αποτύχεις και χαραμίσεις την μια ευκαιρία που σου δόθηκε.

Val

[rwsiko-tauraki]

You take Xanax to feel something Anything Numb, high, relaxed Because you're dead inside But in reality it's overhyped Overrated The only thing that's better than Xanax That's for sure gonna give you a rush, something real to feel Is that sharp razor blade in your top drawer That first cut That first drop of blood.

Val

[rwsiko-tauraki]

Darkness has always been my friend Loneliness is easy and comforting You don't have to worry about hurting someone like you hurt yourself You avoid the outside world to save yourself You avoid your life by sleeping and daydreaming all day long You prefer to live your dreams rather than your miserable life.

Val

[rwsiko-tauraki]

Sometimes it gets so dark You can't see You can't brush your teeth You can't take a shower You can't even get out of bed You hold your breath And hope it all ends It feels like there's no end No end to the darkness you somehow got yourself into You try to crawl out of it b But the is unclear and seems endless And you can't see the light You're in despair All you see is darkness It's so intense You feel powerless Insecure The only place you feel safe is your room, the comfort of your bed. The mere thought of going is terrifying. ... Then... All of a sudden mania hits The high feeling excites you It doesn't last long You feel sad Sad because you know It's only gonna get worse from this point You want to end it all To feel the relief running through your veins But you're scared So scared it will hurt Your thoughts are blurry They cloud your mind.

Val

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"Darkness has taken over I can't breath I can't think straight All I think about Is that piece of glass From my favourite green glass It's broken It's shattered Just like me A beautiful mess In a world that doesn't care Nothing seems to fit Nothing seems to change A neverending nightmare I can't wake up from."

Val

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