Teardrops On My Guitar | Kuroo x Reader
ProVolleyballPlayer!Kuroo Ć Musician!Reader
Thereās a lingering question keeping you wide awake every night, wondering if it will ever be answered. Will you ever be mine, my love?
Itās a clichĆ© scenario where you fall in love with your best friend and you thought it only happens in movies and novels, but you thought wrong. You did not expect this cruel thing will strike to you. Yes, falling in love may be great, itās all rainbows and unicorns not until you fell to the wrong person, most likely your best friend since you two are in your diapers.
It seems like an okay (but not really) set up, you are being in love with him without him knowing. In this way, you can act naturally but you canāt help yourself when he does things that makes your heart beat faster like itās going to explode. Okay, I must calm down and act like Iām not in love with him. Itās like a prayer you always whisper before facing him just to remind you to be careful of your actions and act not too obvious or else a world-shattering event will come to you. You donāt want that to happen.
Just a normal day, so as you thought, Kuroo walks beside you. You two walked your way home in silence. Being in this position, just this position where you are beside him can make your stomach full of butterflies. I havenāt eaten a single butterfly in my entire life, but why is my stomach so full of it? You asked yourself. This is the first time for you to feel like itās taking forever for the both of you to reach your destination, not that you really mind. Itās just making you kinda uncomfortable because of the almost deafening silence, thanks to the vehicles passing by and to the pedestrians.
Savoring the smell of his cologne that became your favorite smell in the world unconsciously, you looked at him ever so slightly. From his strong arms, you imagined yourself wrapped up between those into a tight hug, down to his large, calloused hands, you noticed he was fiddling it.
āIs there anything you want to tell me, Kuroo?ā you asked, based on your observation it looks like he wants to tell you something. He does not fiddle with his fingers habitually; it usually happens when heās thinking or if he wants to tell you something but is not sure yet.
Looking down on you with wide eyes, you said āOf course I know, youāre fiddling with your fingers. Now, tell me what it is?ā
He looked down and put his hand on the back of his neck.
āWell, you seeā¦ I donāt really want this to be jinxed but Iām telling you,ā he said, pouting. You eyed him with anticipation, curiosity filled your mind, and eagerness to know what heās about to tell.
āAre you going to watch my game?ā you nod to answer his question, āOkay, good. Because I met this person and Iāll show you, you will be surprised! Aaahh! Iām in love and I know I got it this time right. No screwing up!ā he continued.
āHe says heās so in love, heās finally got it rightā
After the long, long walk, you bid each other goodbye. You have now entered your apartment. Disappointment painted all over your facial features, the tears that are threatening to fall for a while have reached its limit and got heavy it fell from your eyes. You put your hand over your chest, back pressed on the door, you let yourself slide down. Bawling your eyes out, hurtful cries filled the empty apartment.
āWhen will you be mine? Will you ever be mine?ā you said in between your cries. After your crying, you stood up and walked to your room. Picking up your guitar, you took your seat on your bed. Being a musician kinda helps in this situation, you pour all your emotions in your music, producing soft, sad melodies. It is Kuroo who is always the cause of these gloomy sounds. It is him who brought teardrops on your guitar.
Itās a wonder for you if he notices your almost obvious actions that says you are in love with him, but that wonder of yours can be answered by you and only you because now, you know. There is someone who have his attention, who have his love that you are longing for.
āWill it ever cross your mind that I only think of you?ā you whispered before you fell into a deep slumber.
āI wonder if he knows heās all I think about at nightā
Waking up with the feeling of blue, it will go all throughout your day. Itās a good thing that you donāt have work today so thereās a freedom for your gloominess to reign over you. Good timing, just as you thought.
You are in your studio room slash your bedroom, fiddling with the strings of your electric guitar. You wonāt let this motivation (as what you call it) slip through you, so you are taking this as an opportunity to produce music. Thanks to Kuroo Tetsurou for making you this way. He became part of your music, heās an essential chunk in it. Be it a song of happiness, a song of love, or a song of sadness. Heās your inspiration to all those sounds you make. But it is for the sad genres he always takes part, where he has a big contribution to. And you are aware that;
āHeās the reason for the teardrops on my guitarā
Youāve got everything you wanted in life. A big apartment, a nice circle of friends, a happy family, living alone, and a job that you are passionate about. You name it then you got it. But there is an exception to that, thereās one thing you canāt and will never ever get. Kurooās love. You know you canāt just force him to love you and you canāt just force yourself to fall out of love. You just canāt, because thereās a teeny tiny bit of hope hanging inside you.
Now that you have everything you wanted, Kuroo is the only one left in your list of wants. Kuroo and his love.
Even when you pray to all the gods and saints that ever existed in this world, you canāt have him. You even wish for him to every shooting star you see, even the airplanes in the night sky, but you know it more than anyone else that you canāt have him. You canāt make him yours and that is how this cruel world works, you canāt have a say on that.
āThe only thing that keeps me whishing on a wishing starā
The day of his game came, even after high school he pursued his volleyball career and now he is a part of a V League team.
You really donāt want to go, but you donāt want him to wait for you and look for you, so you came. Entering the arena, your ears are immediately filled with noise coming from the audience as they anticipate for their teams, your olfactory sensed nice smelling and mouth-watering food all over the place. You even saw that stall that Osamu owns.
You made your way to your assigned seat that was indicated on the ticket that Kuroo gave you. Itās not that hard to find since he got you the nearest seat to the court.
I wonder who is this girl he talks about?
Your thoughts were stopped when the commentator speak, introducing the opposing team and Kurooās team. You cheered when he showed up and he looked at you in acknowledgement, but he waves to someone, not far from you. You traced the direction of his gave, but you have no clue who was he waving to because almost everyone is waving too.
Shrugging it off, you focused on the game that started.
As a someone who always went to all of Kurooās game, you can say that every time you see him play, he always shows improvements, way different in high school.
The game was wrapped up after only two sets, Kurooās team as the victor of the match. He signaled you to wait outside. Okay, this is it. Iām going to meet this lucky girl who have my Kurooās heart.
Reaching your destination, you fixed your clothes, nervously pulling it then someone tapped your shoulders from behind. You turned around and it was him, the love of your life who breaks your heart without him knowing.
āStill in the restroom, will be here in a minute. Please donāt act weird, donāt tell anything that will embarrass meā he said, laughing. You faked a laugh; you can hide your pain in your laugh, but you canāt hide it in your facial expression. Good thing he did not notice it.
āOh, heās hereā eyes widened, he?
You followed his gaze. You saw a man, wearing hoodie which you suspect as Kurooās possession. His familiar bleached hair with black roots made your heart raged. Itās Kenma.
You three were best of friends during high school, being their manager of course it brought the three of you closer. But Kenma was not in touch at all because of his job, you didnāt know Kuroo and him are still in communicating and wow, theyāre meeting up without you knowing. Double kill.
āK-kenma! Hi! Oh, wow. Nothing much have changed, wow, Iā uhm, Iām surprised!ā itās really hard for you to keep the tears in your eyes and youāre afraid that it will betray you and fall out of your eyes.
āNice to m-meet you again, sorry but I got to go. Still have work tomorrow, Iāll see you both some time!ā then you turned your back them, not looking back. You made your way to parking lot and get inside your car.
Now that you feel alone and safe to express your pain, you free those tears wanting to be free. You cried your heart out, questions scrambled in your already scrambled mind, heart is filled with rage.
āWhy him? Iām the one whoās always at your side! I never, once in my life, been gone and lost in touch! It was me whoās with you through your ups and downs!ā Even at this point, you mind is left to wonder, and it will never be answered because you have no courage to confront him, youāre too weak in front of him.
āI really wanted to call your name without the feeling of pain, but I guess it will never happenā
āKurooā¦ā you whispered in between your whines.
And now youāre decided, you canāt let yourself be in this pain because you have been in here for a long time and itās sickening.
You donāt know why do you keep hoping for a chance that never existed in the first place, but now you have learned how to give up and let go of that hope that keeps you from moving on.
āHeās the song in the car I keep singing, donāt know why I doā
Forgive this t r a s h bc I HAD TO. mY BRAIN IS OVERFLOWING WITH IDEAS. tnx.
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