Tl;Dr: Tag unreality. Don’t purposely try to scare people with paranoia disorders, you are causing someone immense strife to have a little joke at their expense. Be kinder to neurodiverse people.Â
[Image ID: Post from my blog that is horribly misspelled due to shaky hands and paranoia-induced panic. I will type out what it’s meant to say instead of copying what it says in full, because it’s so badly typed. It reads: “Please, I’m begging you please be nicer to people with paranoia disorders. Please I can’t keep doing this every day” End ID]
I’m gonna give some context for this post now that I’ve calmed down.Â
I have a paranoia disorder, so I have frequent episodes and panic and anxiety attacks, but a lot of that could be avoided if people were simply more mindful of us.Â
I watched a video on Youtube where someone edited what it would look like to see the sun explode from the Earth, and I was freaking the fuck out of course. But then I scrolled down, looking for solace in the comments section, and the pinned comment was a PSA that it wasn’t real. So, I replied to it because I was happy that someone had actually done that kind of thing for once.Â
[Image ID: Youtube comment from myself that reads: “As a bitch with a horrible paranoia disorder: Fucking thank you for confirming this isn’t real. I mean, I know it’s not real but that’s not gonna stop my paranoia from being a bitch until someone else confirms it. So thank you.” End ID]
And then today, someone responded to my reply. And it caused me to have a really bad paranoia episode, complete with shaking and auditory hallucinations.Â
[Image ID: Commenter named Arazityz responded to my above comment. It reads: “its real its happening rn get scared we are all gonna die its happening soon.” Below I respond to them in another comment that reads: “Please stop.” End ID]
Please don’t do this kind of shit. Every time I’m open about my disorder, I get an influx of teasing and people telling me about things that make me paranoid, and making their words super vague on purpose so that I’d misinterpret them.Â
All it does is cause me pain and suffering. It just makes me hurt. It makes everyone like me hurt. It doesn’t do anything but hurt.
Maybe you chuckled a little, but is your little laugh worth an hour of me shaking and crying and feeling like I’m going to die? I sure hope not.
