irreversible

༺ ♡ ༻ multi-muse blog exclusively for hidden washington. written by tiff.

[sanctimoniousx]

♡ ― private multimuse blog for hiddenwashington, written by tiff.

muse count: 8 draft count: 5 starters owed: 0

muses below the cut.

blair waldorf. she/her. gossip girl. unaware. ( threads )

billy loomis. he/him. scream. aware. ( threads )

cato. he/him. the hunger games. aware. ( threads )

emmet cullen. they/them. twilight. unaware ( threads )

iris. she/her. companion. aware ( threads )

miley stewart/hannah montana. she/her. hannah montana. aware. ( threads )

sharpay evans. she/her. high school musical. aware. ( threads )

tanya denali. she/her. twilight. aware. ( threads )

[grcycosmcs]

edward nods in understanding. he knows that their last encounter did not leave a pleasant memory , even though the confrontation turned out a lot smoother than he had anticipated. still , there was a casualty , tanya's sister , & the fact is not one to be dismissed. he can assume that it's a little hard for her to see him here now. it has been years since the event for him , but he's learned that time isn't always the same for everyone within the city. " i can leave you for now , if you'd like , " he offers. " we have plenty of time to catch up later. "

[sanctimoniousx]

the urge to agree was there. however, with the increasing amount of people from her previous life who seemed to be around the place, there was really no point in pretending otherwise. especially not with the cullens. so, she shook her head. "no, of course not," she said, slowly. "you're family. all of you cullens are, you know that." she said, firm in her conviction, finally turning to look at him fully. "i really am happy to see you. how has it been? being here, for you?"

[midtown-gwen]

Gwen looks at him with shock and recognition. "Really?" She would follow up with humor later to diffuse the tension, but right now, she could only be fixated on his words. "That's the thing, I've been here for twelve years, but I only recently unlocked my memories so, it feels like I just got here." The woman says with a heavy sigh. Yet the talk about Biochemistry made her eyes brighten up. "Well, I was first in my high school class but died before I could go to Oxford. Even without my memories, I still ended up getting my undergrad and grad degrees here. That is how the modeling started, to pay for the degrees." The other's words about having a second chance at life had really resonated deeply. "You're right, it is a second chance and I'm not going to waste it."

[sanctimoniousx]

"mhm. but i got a second shot so i suppose i'm doing what i can with it, you know?" the last decade plus of her life had been misguided? no memories? that was baffling. billy's mouth opened, then closed in shock. "that's agonizing. i suppose you found your own way back to yourself, though, there's something poetic about that." he said, with a nod. "oxford huh? that's impressive. and you got your degrees and have been doing not biochem for the last couple of years? friend, i think it's time you do what you wanna do. truly."

[connor-a-reilly]

Connor simply nods silently in response. "Well since we don't have names for the different groups, I'll just describe the type my parents are." He says before clearing his throat. "They have a second face for feeding and the fangs grow in when their face changes. Besides of two rare cases, their souls are destroyed and they have no humanity left in them when turned. My father was cursed to live forever with his soul and humanity to feel the shame and pain of his actions. And he looses his humanity if he is every truly happy. My mother shared my soul until I was born."

[sanctimoniousx]

"oh." tanya listened, imagining. this was nothing like she herself was, of course -- but it made sense. she wondered about carlisle cullen's theories on immortality. whether this might be proof too of their own souls being sapped out of them when they turned. she glanced at him, her brows knitting together. "so you and your mum share a soul? or it inhabits you now?" she asked, then reached over to gently pat his shoulder. she understood complicated family dynamics better than some. "hey, they should be proud. you're doing the best you can with what you've been given, you're all grown up now. that's incredible."

[vcndetta]

"that is exactly what i was thinking." there was a soft smile pulled at the edges of esme's lips as she looked at the other. it was a nice feeling when someone understood exactly what she was trying to say. perhaps because in a way they had a shared experience. "it's good to see you as well, tanya. i hope the city is treating you well."

@sanctimoniousx

[sanctimoniousx]

"the city's treating me..." she trailed off, trying to think through what the appropriate word for it even was. it wasn't swallowing her up and spitting her back out, at the least. so, she returned esme's smile. "it's good to be somewhere new. how does it shape up compared to forks for you? lots of our kind... and other kinds here."

[vcndetta]

"dangerous." ainsley repeated as her eyes scanned around them. how the heck she ended up here chasing a story was beyond her. she always ended up in the worst places---this just happened to be no different. "for one there was the home of someone who did some pretty horiffic crimes," she started. "two, the whole second level of this place is totally rotting away. you could fall through at any moment."

[sanctimoniousx]

"investigative journalism's gonna take you places you don't necessarily wanna be," mused billy. he was amused by the whole situation, shooting her a grin. "horrific like... how bad?" he asked. it seemed ordinary, but ordinary in itself could be haunted by memories. stu's house probably looked pretty ordinary still. he took a careful step, then, just to be an ass, jumped once, hands up. "not so fragile, see?" okay, the ground under him was far from stable, but still. "don't let it get in our way, we gotta investigate."

[vcndetta]

"no seriously, it sounds like growls freaking everywhere." brooke was no stranger to going out and about on her own during evening and night hours, that was never an issue in all her years here, but hearing weird noises all around that she couldn't make out? that was something she didn't sign up for. "i swear i'm not going crazy."

[sanctimoniousx]

"growls." said blair, slowly turning around, hand going for the pepper spray she kept on herself at all times. she genuinely wasn't sure how likely it was that anything would be deterred by it, but it was better than nothing. "what does it sound like? like an animal? what direction?"

[pagesofmanylives]

Gigi looked over at the other woman, a look of amusement passing over her face. "You're very observant." She looked around her lounge at the people drinking and laughing. There was something that made her bones hum in happiness that she made it this far. "Would you believe me if I say that I truly do believe some of what I say?"

[sanctimoniousx]

tanya was cynical, that was certain. however, to hear another person be so earnest in the meaning behind their words made her smile. that was rare. "i do believe it, you have a bit of sunshine about you." she said, watching her steadily, index finger running across the rim of the glass. "how long have you had this place? it's stunning."

[sanctimoniousx]

♡ ― like this for memes pls!

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑭𝑰𝑽𝑬 𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝑳𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑼𝑨𝑮𝑬𝑺. (  add " + " to reverse the action  )

GIFT GIVING

[ handmade ] sender gives receiver something handmade

[ flowers ] sender surprises receiver with flowers just because

[ souvenir ] sender brings receiver something special from a trip

[ wanted ] sender hands receiver something they wanted but never would've gotten for themselves

[ practical ] sender offers receiver something they mentioned needing

❛  i know it's not much, but i saw this and thought of you, so i wanted you to have it.  ❜

❛  you said you needed a new one, so i got it for you.  ❜

❛  don't make a big deal out of it, please. just take it.  ❜

❛  i wasn't sure what to get you, but this felt right.  ❜

❛  i wanted you to have something that was only yours.  ❜

QUALITY TIME

[ date ] sender takes receiver out on a date

[ visit ] sender surprises receiver with a visit just to spend some time together

[ quiet ] sender joins receiver to sit in comfortable silence

[ home ] sender spends the day with receiver at home together

[ night ] sender stays up late talking to receiver

❛  we don't have to do anything. i just like being near you.  ❜

❛  i cleared my schedule for you, so now you have my full attention.  ❜

❛  i like doing ordinary things with you. let's make a day of it.  ❜

❛  do you want some company? i have time.  ❜

❛  honestly, i just needed an excuse to spend some time with you.  ❜

WORDS OF AFFIRMATION

[ comfort ] sender verbally comforts receiver after a hard day

[ important ] sender reminds receiver how important and loved they are

[ enough ] sender assures receiver that they are enough

[ compliment ] sender gives receiver a compliment

[ proud ] sender tells receiver that they are proud of them

❛  i'm so proud of you, you did such a great job.  ❜

❛  you always make things better just by being here.  ❜

❛  you can do this, i believe in you wholeheartedly.  ❜

❛  you're more than enough, and i'm lucky to know you.  ❜

❛  you are not hard to love. in fact, you are loved by so many people.  ❜

PHYSICAL TOUCH

[ cuddle ] sender initiates cuddling with receiver

[ warmth ] sender offers receiver their body warmth

[ shoulder ] sender pulls receiver close so they can rest their head on their shoulder

[ gentle ] sender brushes hair out of receiver's face

[ kiss ] sender kisses receiver's forehead/cheek/etc.

❛  come here, you look like you could use a hug.  ❜

❛  let me hold you for a minute; i've got you.  ❜

❛  you're freezing. give me your hands, i'll warm them up.  ❜

❛  i like being close to you like this.  ❜

❛  you don't have to pull away if you don't want to.  ❜

ACTS OF SERVICE

[ repair ] sender fixes something broken that belongs to receiver

[ sickness ] sender takes care of a sick receiver

[ chores ] sender helps receiver with some chores

[ space ] sender makes receiver's space more comfortable for them

[ clean ] sender cleans something up for receiver

❛  you looked tired, so i already took care of it for you.  ❜

❛  sit down and relax. i'll handle it.  ❜

❛  you don't have to do everything alone, i can help.  ❜

❛  i did it because i wanted to make your day a little easier.  ❜

❛  let me help; i don't mind doing it.  ❜

[irresistiibles]

"right, okay, so why are they totally definitely staring at you then?" glinda said, smart enough not to make her own glances obvious. "are we trying to ignore this person or like, start a fight?" she might not be good in a physical fight, but she could hopefully be rude enough to get the guy to go away.

[sanctimoniousx]

blair gave a non-committal shrug. "they don't matter, you know when you talk to someone for like five minutes and know that's not your type?" said blair. not that anyone ever managed to be blair's type, frankly. picky was an understatement. "so, it almost slipped my mind i ever even considered..." she shuddered, but shot her a smile. "how about you? what's your type? or not your type, like that person decidedly not being my kind of human."

[misteriios]

alec's eyes narrowed as he studied the woman's face and movements. what was it with these other vampires being afraid? as long as they followed the rules, they would not have any problem with the volturi's. he noticed tanya was nervous, he stepped a little closer as he waited for an answer ❝ good ❞ a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth ❝ why are you tense ? i won't hurt you if you are afraid of that. i don't hurt anyone, unless i am told to or they are a threat ❞ he moved up his hands in the air, to ensure tanya he would not use his powers ❝ see, i am harmless ❞

@sanctimoniousx

[sanctimoniousx]

nothing about this was fine. nothing about this was normal, nor a situation tanya ever figured she'd find herself in again. everything in her was frozen solid, unmoving. she took a step back the moment he came near, her nostrils flaring in pure disdain. "well, you know perfectly well i'm not a threat," she said, firm. fine. as if acting on command made alec any less deadly. she glanced at his hands, then at him, her eyes steely. she wanted to bark something back about him being a puppet that only acted at his master's behalf -- of course she did. but she bit her tongue, hard. "harmless is a strong word."

[hiddendarkrosesx]

@sanctimoniouz [Billy + Stu]

"Hold on a moment," Stu said out loud, not to anyone particular at first, till he looked at the other a little more. "Billy? What the fuck man? What is going on?"

[sanctimoniousx]

billy turned around, knowing that voice just about anywhere. his eyes went wide, eyes glancing at -- stu? "stu?" he said, his voice louder, moving towards him, in disbelief. "stu fucking macher? you're... you're alive?" the hell?

[lcngliive]

caitlyn kiramman & blair waldorf ( @sanctimoniouz )

"sometimes this city just feels strange," caitlyn didn't know how to describe the feeling or why they'd been feeling it. but it was every so often she'd just get a strange feeling, like she was missing something.

[sanctimoniousx]

"you ever considered it's a self-fulfilling prophecy?" said blair, taking a long sip of her iced latte. she glanced around. she supposed she understood what she meant, everything about home was unusual -- but that's if you focused on it. "if you focus on what feels good rather than strange, then you can create a sense of normalcy. for just yourself. which is what matters anyway."

[misteriios]

@sanctimoniousx

a brow raised ❝ thought so. still had to ask ❞ audrey answered, slowly shook her head. she agreed with blair on that. some people didn't understand what personal space meant ❝ they don't know what it means, it seems. have we met before? i think i might have seen you around ― not here, but in new york or not seen you, i have heard of you ❞

[sanctimoniousx]

blair let out an annoyed exhale, glancing away from the people with no regards to personal space and then focusing on the blonde, her nose scrunching. "i've never been to new york," she clarified, matter-of-factly. as far as she remembered, she'd never set foot in the area specifically. "streets are gross, the car exhaust alone would make my nostrils burn for a week straight, and it's way too tightly packed with too many urbanites. but i wouldn't be surprised if you'd seen some people with a similar style," she said, nodding with a smile. "i'm blair. what's your name?"

[playernctpuck]

A closed starter for @sanctimoniouz ( Billy Loomis )

“ I’m sorry we’re late , darling . Reid’s professor wanted to tell me all about how he aced his spelling quizz . He’s getting better and better , so I’m told . “ Cecilia knew she was performing mother and wife and successful doctor , and that every single thing about it was a lie , starting with who she let her son call daddy . But there was no alternative , was there ? Billy had resources and yes , that was partly why she had latched on to him and not let go . Where would she be ? In a prison cell ? That did not work for her . So , yes , she would lie , no matter how many times she had to . Even if her son looked nothing like Billy and everything like- It didn’t matter . As she watched him run to Billy , she told herself it didn’t. The alternatice could never happen . “ How was your writing session ? Is the draft going well ? “ She did like reading his books .

[sanctimoniousx]

a huge grin split across billy's face the moment he heard the car pull in, when he heard the door open and the ruckus of domesticity as reid ran to him and cecilia greeted him. he'd spent most of the afternoon working on his new manuscript, on a surprisingly tight deadline -- so the hours had gone by and he'd barely noticed this time besides popping away to defrost the meat for dinner. "can't believe you insist on making the time to be a doctor and still go get this little chicken nugget, you do know i can take time off to make pick-ups easier, right? you're saving lives, i'm writing words." he emphasized, brows raised as he lifted reid in a hug, ruffling his hair and asking him about his day at school. "'course he's getting better, he's half me and half you. can't get much brainier than that, can you?" he was quite proud of it, all things considered. a new start, a new family, something he got to call his own -- old billy never would've thought it. still, though, at times, he swore he could sense something was slightly off. but he regarded cecilia with warmth, shooting her a smile and reaching his fingers out towards hers. "hey, come here, the draft's going great but you need dinner. we in the mood for a piccata? it's in the oven."

[playernctpuck]

“ I think so . I would not say something , had I not meant it . “ Mark watched his new friend , curiousity passing through his expression . What could he say ? No , he did not know him , but he also happened to think that it would seem that they had a great deal in common . Not that he’d say it , mind you. “ Are you ? Curious , I mean ? “

[sanctimoniousx]

"'course i am, i like hearing different perspectives." said billy, shrugging his shoulders. he did have a tendency to over-observe, look too much into things, so he appreciated getting any different perspectives -- plus, mark's was a far cry from his own being such an upstanding policeman. gave him perspectives he would've never considered. "you never know, you might inspire a whole new character in this new manuscript i'm working on... mike instead of mark, how does that sound?"