“Do me a favour, drive a knife through my heart, cut my hands and watch as I bleed the memories out of my veins. you're in every part of me, in every thought and every action. I can't escape the memories of you, they're ingrained in every cell of my body. I can't help but behave like you, to smell like you, my heart beats like we share the same soul. I'm forever entwined with you, my past, my present and possibly my future. I couldn't ever get rid of you, not even if I wanted to. You're a part of me, forever etched in my mind and my being
You've become my obsession, my addiction, my downfall. I can't help but think of you, even when I try to push you away. I've built my world around you, and now it crumbles without you. You are my everything, my light in the darkness, my guiding star. But now you're my destruction, my demise, my undoing.
I've become a slave to your memory, unable to move on or let go. I'm trapped in this never-ending cycle of longing and pain, with you as my captor and my saviour. I beg of you, drive that knife through my heart, end this torment and set me free. But even in death, I know I'll be forever bound to you, in this love-hate relationship that consumes me whole.”
— Jay Vespertine




















