Searching for Violets

SA Master's Student ● Feminist ● Body Positivity ● West Coast Born, East Coast Raised ● Donut Aesthetics  ● Dog Lover

[best-of-memes]

Rich people showers

[officialkeikoandgilly]

[labyrinth-runner]

reblogging for that gif

[immenseheadaches]

i’m sorry i couldn’t help myself 

[laterovaries-deactivated2017022]

Not gonna not reblog this….

[atomskdluffy]

The drawings are a necessary addition. (Gargle shower and fireplace showers still best)

[mr-prism]

*muffled screams*

[sunnyddlgblog]

I had to

[dxactivatxdusxr]

A group of rough looking boys walked past me today and all I heard of their conversation was “he’s got that anxiety disorder bro so I went with him so he’d be more comfortable” and it made me realise the world isn’t all that bad

[fitzefitcher]

#this is team skull

[its-just-a-phage]

The pet store I worked at had a pen with rabbits near the front door. On every side of the pen were huge signs saying “You can pet me, but don’t pick me up!” One day two absolutely huge guys came in and one immediately reaches into the pen to grab a rabbit. Before i could say anything his friend grabbed his arm and asked him “did you see the sign?” He said “yeah! it says that you can pick them up but don’t pet them!” Then he went quiet for a moment and softly said “I didn’t read it right did I?” And his friend just puts his arm on his shoulder and said “its ok, i know you’ve got that thing where words get mixed up. Let just pet these cute lil shits” And I still haven’t gotten over that interaction.

[yallmightt]

I was walking my dog through Boston bc he likes the likes car rides. He’s a little thing tbh we call him short and long. So this huge scary man with a full beard approaches me like “hey can my buddy and I pet your dog? He gets nervous around dogs but your’s is so small I think it’s a good place to start.” Ofc I was like “yes he’s very friendly!” So this guy brings his equally big friend over and they sit on the floor while this man looks terrified of my tiny dog so big man number one asks “can I pick him up?” And i say yes so he picks him up and puts him on man number two’s lap and man number two is abt to freak out and his friend straight up just goes “hey man, it’s okay just relax I’d never let anything hurt you. He’s a good boy.” I’ll never forget it ever bc I know that man looked at me (5'3 , glasses, probably wearing a sweater vest) and my dog (kinda goofy looking little thing) and was like ‘ah yes the two least intimidating living things I’ve seen in Boston all day he’ll feel relaxed around them’ and went out of his way to help his friend. It makes me so happy

[mintycoolnessisrelevant]

A good post, pure.

[casper-the-friendly-being-blog]

Another adorable story has been added.

[de-is-me-deactivated20180626]

can I have these posted right under the politics section in the newspaper? I feel like we need that kinda positivity rn.

[just-shower-thoughts]

January 1st, 2018 is a monday. A fresh week, fresh month and a fresh year. If you want to start over, you cannot possibly find a better time.

[searchingforviolets]

Mind Vs. Me

Trigger Warning: Mental Illness, OCD, Compulsions

I’ve begun to think deeply about my compulsions and why they occur. I’ve realized I constantly have music playing not just for enjoyment but out of necessity. It distracts me from listening inward to thoughts of compulsion. It allows me to stop listening to my brain telling me to straighten these things, or re-write these notes to fix the handwriting, or fix your desk to be symmetrical. Listening to music often allows me to feel like a normal 22 year old woman and let things slide. 

However, that’s at work and in public spaces. In my home it’s another story. I’ve come to find music does not always allow me to stop compulsions at home. Perhaps that’s due to a fear of judgement in public spaces? who’s going to judge me at home? Only myself. I already deal with enough self-loathing but that’s a different mental illness for a different story for a different day. lol Oh the joys of having multiple diagnoses. When I’m alone, sometimes playing music allows to me hyper-focus on my compulsion. Today I cleaned my entire apartment. I know that’s like no big deal, with how busy my schedule is I often can allow myself to forget a mess or a few dishes during the week. But today I had nothing to do but listen to my head. 

Suddenly I found myself deep cleaning my apartment head-to-toe. My roommate found me on my knees in the shower scrubbing a shower that honestly wasn’t dirty in the first place. I haven’t told him about my compulsions. I don’t want him to think I’m crazy, and I don’t want to worry him especially since he’s only temporary and is going back to the Midwest in 2 weeks. 

I finally had to stop myself and actively tell myself this was enough. Most of my compulsions during the day stem from needing control. I have lost control over my body and have gained a lot more weight than I wanted to in past years. I’ve also changed jobs and started grad school which induces a lot of stress I can’t control. So my mind tries to tell me that I can at least control the way my house looks and how clean it is. Or I can control how straight the trinkets on my desk are.

I’m glad I have my Emotional Support Dog, Coco now though. She helps with my compulsions at night significantly. People think I call my dog an ESA because I want her to live with me anywhere, but I hate disclosing my compulsions and anxiety to others, which is why my psychiatrist recommended getting her. At night my compulsions are worse typically. You know how when you try to sleep your mind starts running a mile a minute? Well imagine that but add in some paranoia about those thoughts and anxiety from those thoughts to the point you need to act on them to be able to go to bed. My night compulsions stem from fear. I can’t leave my living spaces completely dark at night. If I don’t actively turn the nightlight on, I fear something terrible will happen to me because of the darkness I left. I can’t sleep in a pitch black room for this same reason. But having Coco allows me to sleep in a relatively dark room now, like with just light peaking through the window. I know that if something was truly going to hurt me, Coco would hear/see/smell it first and that allows me a feeling of protection having her. She doesn’t calm the millions of thoughts running through my head, but she does calm the fears associated with them. Which eventually allows me to go to sleep.

It’s a lot, I know. I’m managing the best I can. I’m better than I was a few years ago, but It’s still a big part of my issues and my stress. Hopefully as I continue to grow and self-reflect I’ll be able to 

[respectfulmemes]

[thigh-highs]

Four rich fathers go golfing.

One of them stays behind to pay the bill and the other three proceed to the first hole. While golfing, the three fathers start bragging about their sons.

The first father says, “I am very proud of my son Arthur; he is my pride and joy. He started working at a very successful company at the bottom of the barrel and now he is at the top!  He became so rich that he gave his best friend a top of the line Mercedes Benz for his birthday.”

The second fathers says, “My son Ivan is also my pride and joy, I am very proud of him. He went to flight school to become a pilot and managed to become a partner in the company where he now owns the majority of the assets. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a brand new jet for his birthday.”

The third father says, “Well, well, well - congratulations! My son, Ludwig, is also my pride and joy and is also very rich. He became an engineer. He started his own construction company and became very successful and a multimillionaire. He built a mansion especially for his best friend.”

Then the fourth father catches up and they ask him how his son is doing.

The fourth father replies, “Oh, my son Alfred is gay and he makes a living dancing as a stripper at a nightclub.”

The three friends shake their heads and say, “What a shame, you must be so unhappy! How tragic.”

The fourth father replies with a bright smile, “Oh no, I am not ashamed at all! Alfred is my son and I love him just as well; he’s my pride and joy. And he is much loved by his friends too. Did you know that his birthday just passed and the other day he received a Mercedes Benz, a brand new jet and a huge mansion from his three suitors?”

[theybby-deactivated20231001]

Reblog to support proud father and his sugar baby gay son.

[eudaemaniacal]

this is from a real diary by a 13-year-old girl in 1870. teenage girls are awesome and they’ve always been that way.

[rhube]

Read this - oh my goodness, this girl was wonderful.

[lrlamauthor]

Where can I read this in full?

[caitiesith]

It’s from  Real American Girls Tell Their Own Stories, and that particular section is by Martha Carey Thomas who grew up to be a suffragist, linguist and renowned educator, as well as a badass lesbian.

[rincewitch]

whoa i’ve seen this post a million times but i didn’t know the author had such a cool later life

[tamascotchi-deactivated20190101]

oh my god i'm cleaning out my desk and i found my first phone

it was a fucking house phone that i was so stoked to have because it was mine that i kept in my own room and i cannot believe technology has progressed at the speed of FUCKING light to the point where this is a hilarious artifact to have had in like 6th grade and now theres kindergarteners with iphones

[princess-peridot]

How did you know if you dialed the right number

[tamascotchi-deactivated20190101]

each button made a different tone so the numbers you dialed a lot became a subconscious melody in your head and if you hit the wrong button by accident it would sound like a wrong note in a song you know by heart

[teaboot]

i can’t beleive that is a legitimate question in my lifetime

[notevensneaky]

Other acceptable answer: the wrong person answers on the other end.

[propitlikeithot]

Another acceptable answer: the robot lady comes on the phone and tells you number doesn’t exist.

[babyanimalgifs]

[zylv-blog]

THEYRE LIKE A FAMILY OF DINOSaurs

[purixie]

omg how cute what are they???

[zylv-blog]

[homofarts-gonebye]

#i dont have the heart to tell them the truth

[skyjelly-blog]

oMFG

[kanafinwer]

what is it tho 

that looks really adorable

[goldenheartedsouls-deactivated2]

(◎♊◉✿)

[etotheoneeyeowl]

They’re -large train drives by-

[tooiconic]

….. I’m upset.

[formerblaire-white]

What are they?

[nunyabizni]

Oh child, they’re -parade passes by-

[formerblaire-white]

They look cool, I want one

[yourladyindank]

Oh god they’re -airplane flies over-

[salty-fiend-deactivated20190805]

Oh hey ********************************

[jenfluff]

JESUS CHRIST CAN’T YOU TELL THEY’RE–oh, oh wait a minute, hold on. Phone’s ringing. Yeah? What’s up? No, I was just about to tell these guys about the–yeah I know, but I was telling these people that the picture is of–ooh, for dinner? Hmm, maybe. Okay, see you then. …What was I saying?

[pocketfox]

Oh, you sweet summer children, they’re–

SHIT FUCK HOLD ON THE CAT’S ON FIRE

[maureenlycaon]

Well, see, what they are is – *thunderous noises from construction project nearby*

[jesliey]

well would ya look at those tentacle dildos

[havocs-archived]

[gyarados]

You’re welcome

[lady-gorthaur]

This is the most useful thing I’ve ever reblogged.

[danwasonfireonce]

i used to think when people said my cousin twice removed that their cousin must’ve did some fucked up shit to get kicked out of the family twice

[babyanimalgifs]

I CAN’T STIOP CRYING SKJDSJ THEY ARE SO TINY

[babyanimalgifs]

UNMUTE THIS

[babyanimalgifs]

Rescued feral cat discovers the wonderful world of belly rubs

more animal posts?

[just-shower-thoughts]

It took 10 cents to realize how much I don’t need a plastic bag.

[mousemilf-deactivated20250508]

*pronounces “champagne” like “lasagne”*

[exeunt-pursued-by-a-bear]

do Not

[the-golden-ghost]

*Pronounces “lasagne” like “champagne”*

[exeunt-pursued-by-a-bear]

do NOT