A Bisexual With A Lot of Hobbies

Hey there. I am in fact a bisexual with a lot of hobbies in love with a lot of fandoms. Just finished college and fighting my way through life with a stick like a level 1 rpg character. I'm in my 20's so you can hit me with the nsfw. Really into writing and will write and post whatever comes to mind and whatever I'm comfortable with. Feel free to conversate with me, I may take forever to answer though. Pronouns: He/Her I have 3 current WIPs

[sergeantnarwhalwrites]

Masterlist Thing For My Major WIPs

I figured doing this would make everybody’s life easier. XD I also don’t have good enough summaries for my WIPs (in my opinion) to make WIP intros. I’ll update chapter links and stuff as I go along and will maybe probably make a taglist for my stuff (if I don’t forget). 

WIP Info

Space Don’t Dictate Fate (Reworking!)

Summary (As of Now): Devotion. A word that ties together the beings in this universe. True alien, humanoid, and human. Desperation, another. Follow the humanoids stand off with their gods in search of answers— and in search of a fellow solider. What does our groups devotion meld into?

Mostly post snippets. Will answer worldbuilding or oc asks for this one. Story basically just started over again from scratch.

Trailer for the og version here!

Hunter (Modern AU for SDDF) here!

Main characters: Arc (they/them), Tharion (he/him), Cosma(she/her), and Greeter(she/they)

Face Claim/Art for main characters here.

Robots and Gardens (still in the drafting process)

Summary: Imagine how the now present world was imagined and awed upon by previous generations mixed with how it actually is in the present world. Industrialization, overworked employees, coorporate slaves, so many robots, cool technology, hope for a better world. Until it all decides to collapse in a way no one saw coming. Who are we going to take down to stop everything from crumbling. 

You can ask me all kinds of questions about this one. XD It’s no where neardone though. I post actual chapters of this... sometimes. XD I’m trying my best. I have a couple chapters out so far which you can read here. Chapters 1/2/3/

Main characters: Digits (she/her), Green (she/her), Peace (she/her), Donnie (he/they), Hollis (she/her) 

Face claim/picrew for main characters here. 

Fucked at Five (my newest wip!) (may or may not change the title) 

Summary (that I have so far): Morphers. An extreme genetic modification that has been gifted by the impatience of the world and the power of science. Morphers have the ability to morph their form into a more animalistic form. All of these forms vary in composition and severity. Morphers are monsters to human kind. Human kind are monsters to morphers. Morphers might just be the new superior, humans are just far too arrogant to see it. 

You can ask me all kinds of questions about this one as well. XD I’m still figuring stuff out though.

Main characters: Elliot (he/him), Saz (she/her), Julie (she/her), Ian (he/it)

Face claim/picrew for characters right here.

Character Inspired Playlists here

Character info (General)

Voiceclaims sorta here

Awesome piccrews most of my ocs here

Digits Prosthetic Schematics here

Some art I drew of Digit's prosthetics. A little messy but very detailed descriptions.

Ramblings about fighting styles (Fucked at Five) here

Space Don't Dictate Fate Fits here

SDDF Body Mods here!

Random Writes! 

This is stuff that aren’t any of my major wips. This will be stuff like random prompts or random scenes that can or won’t be related to my main three WIPs. More often not related. This is a lot of the stuff I write, especially when I head back to campus. It can be a mixture of study’s (where I’m practicing a specific thing like action scenes, kiss scenes, grief, etc.), poetry, story’s that drop in at random ass points. Half of the time they won't have titles XD and the characters won't have names.

Cravings (the only finished one for real XD)

Can read that here! cw: blood, gore, cannibalism, sex mention. 

Melancholic Alcoholic (Poem from awhile ago) 

Can read that here!

Cute tag game I did with Green and Peace

Here

Untitled quick write story here

CW: Suicide, Suicidal ideation, suicide attempt mention, and gore.

Dero Was Here (story here)

CW: Violence, death, gods, fantasy religion

An Unwelcomed Gift here

CW: Violence, gods, fantasy religion, body horror (sort of), death, blood (a little), gore (eh a little not really)

Random Fucked at Five Stuff here! and here!

Crushing on the Mortuary Man here!

CW: Gore, necrophilia, cannibalism mention, body horror, vomit.

Appetite here!

No content warnings I think. Just a short kinda violent little story. 👍🏾

Song based blurb here!

Cw: suggestive content, alcohol

Untitled Poem here!

Daughter here!

Another poem I wrote for creative writing class.

Weird Little Story here!

CW: Unsettling, vomit

Somethin' About Me here!

Cw: suicide mention.

A little poem I found in my notes app.

Soft Moment Between Friends here!

A little Robots & Gardens scene.

Random Robots & Gardens Thing here!

Just a random little thought that came to mind XD. Green fucked up.

Green and her knife here!

A couple random robots & gardens blurbs revolving around Green and her weapon.

Clothes Swap here!

Cw: nsfw

Peace borrows clothes from Green and other stuff ensues.

The Arrangement here!

Cw: nsfw

Saz and Julie have an agreement and they enjoy themselves.

Green and Digits Character Study here!

Green and Digits from Robots & Gardens first meeting each other. Gay bonding and acquaintanceship ensues

Saz's Fear here!

A quick little blurb about a goofy fear Saz has.

Dark's Love is Bright here!

A cool concept of Dark versus Light.

Halloween WBW Snippet here!

Kid Peace and Green show you a glimpse of what their Halloween's were like.

Saz and Elliot Big Post here!

Saz and Elliot start talking about morphing and training. Doodles attached.

Julie and Saz Mush here!

Julie and Saz being cute. Julie calls Saz pretty after a long day of getting insulted by the elder morphers. Saz's day brightens.

Julie Kicks Saz's Ass here!

Julie and Saz have a training match. And as the title says Saz get's fucking ruined.

A Morning Away here!

Peace and Green have a morning to themselves and decide to use it.

Cw: nsfw

The Worker And The Protestor here!

A dive into Digits at work and the protestor (Peace) that brightens her day.

Smut Scene Prompt Response here and here!

Saz and Julie's safeword sorta/Julie's shy under Saz's affection

Cw: nsfw

Green and Peace Prompt Responses 1 & 2

Green and Peace get busy at church/Peace gets sick and Green takes care of her.

Cw: nsfw

Unrequited here!

A quick poem I wrote while hella in my feelings

Cw: suggestive

Fighting it Out here!

A very brief fight scene between Ian and Elliot

Mighty Morphing People Eaters + here!

Something where I dive into the fact that most morphers have eaten people before.

Cw: body horror (kinda), human consumption

Leftovers here!

Very quick Saz and Julie thing where Julie both encourages Saz and brings her down

Cw: human consumption (mentioned), blood

Hollis the Multifaceted here!

Hollis character study

Cosma and Greeter here!

Space Don't Dictate Fate content for the first time in a long time holy shit

Cw: suggestive

Bookshelf here!

A quick poem I wrote clearing my bookshelf

Random poem here!

Who's Greeter to You? here!

Space Don't Dictate Fate content

Random Thought SDDF here

Space Don't Dictate Fate content

Quick Poem (No title) here!

Cw: suggestive

The Morphers (A series) 1/2/3

Cw: body horror, gore, death

Arc and Tharion here!

Space Don't Dictate Fate Content

Arc Asks A Lot of Questions here!

Arc actually trying to learn more about Tharion

Tharion Fucking With Arc here!

SDDF content

A bit of Saz and worldbuilding here!

Two Deer Morphers Walk Into a Bar... here!

Cw: nsfw

Green and Donnie Snippet here!

A bit of bloody admiration here!

Saz and Julie are gay and covered in gore

No Name's Learned Lessons here!

Cyborg vs Tech here!

I think I'm catching feelings again and it's beautiful here!

A short poem 👍🏾

Two Red Gays That Haunt My Brain here!

Greeter and Cosma's Competitive Spirit (Hunter/Modern AU) here!

Run In With A Deranged Skunk here!

Robots & Gardens Stuff here!

So How Do You Know Each Other here!

Saz and Ian Moment here!

Kinktober 2025 so far 1/

[mytearsrricochet]

[wuyi1551]

[kosmogrl]

[ackee]

what it is like being on tumblr.com actually

[winterandwords]

📢 New Patreon post! (this one's for the murder husbands fans)

➡️ READ IT HERE ⬅️

I'm not saying spite is a significant motivating factor in the evolution of my writing style, but I'm also not saying it isn't…

This one is a bit more personal than usual, but I had so much fun writing it even if I was a little anxious when I hit the post button. It's for paid members only (my paid support tiers starts at just £1 per month) but there are lots of blog posts and other content on my Patreon that can be accessed by free members too.

All my stories, from short fiction to novel-length web serials, can be accessed by free members, so if you'd like to join my cosy little community, consider this your official invitation. I'd love to see you there 🩶

[vacantgodling]

a rose by any other name

resources for naming characters and a love letter to subtext.

i want to specifically thank @cobra-creampuff for suggesting that i talk about naming. i love naming. while this article is mostly focused on general naming tips and btaf i have a whole other process for some of my other wips and in general i just really like names. PLEASE tell me about your character's name meanings i would love to hear them. OR ask me about naming and names <3

this article i will also be posting beneath the cut here! enjoy <3

a rose by any other name

resources for naming characters and a love letter to subtext.

Juliet: What’s in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet; So Romeo would, were he not Romeo call’d, Retain that dear perfection which he owes Without that title. Romeo, doff thy name, And for that name which is no part of thee Take all myself.

Romeo: I take thee at thy word: Call me but love, and I’ll be new baptized; Henceforth I never will be Romeo.

𝖆𝖓 𝖊𝖙𝖞𝖒𝖔𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖎𝖈𝖆𝖑 𝖆𝖉𝖉𝖎𝖈𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓

as many writers may tell you, choosing a name can be quite difficult. whether it be the title of your story, the names of places, the names of magic or whimsy—but especially, the names of characters. it can lead to hours upon hours of time spent on baby name sites when you aren’t even thinking about having a baby!

despite juliet’s famous line, i personally cannot buy that “a rose by any other name would smell as sweet”—especially as a transgender person, i have always found names to be an extremely integral part to someone’s existence. a name can tell you a lot about someone: their race, ethnicity or nationality, and occasionally gender for one. but it can also tell you about the values that they or their parents had, or the time period they were born in. in the case of character, it can also explain what the author wants you to know about them without a mountain of exposition that fully gives away their arc.

but how do you decide your character’s name? is the cadence, meaning, or mouth-feel important at all? and what resources are out there to help? do you even need to care this much about something like this in the first place?

𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖈𝖊𝖘

i’m actually going to start this article differently than some of my previous ones and give you my favorite resources right out of the gate:

behindthename.com (along with it’s sibling surnames.behindthename.com) is hands down the best place to look for name meanings. their advanced search options are so specific, down to how many syllables you want in the name, or if you want to include some letters, not others. even names that are used in one country but are of a different ethnic origin than the region itself—which is a handy tool for any kind of historical writing.

fantasynamegenerators.com is the most useful staple for any fantasy writer. emily, the creator of the site, is an absolute godsend and you should send her a nice email if you can for all her hard work. not only does it include names for if you’re placing a character in a particular anime or television universe, but it also has a place name generator which is amazing for when you’re trying to name, say, an academy or cafe and don’t feel like trying to come up with something. obviously it includes the usual fantasy naming staples of anything from elves and dwarves, to merpeople and so on. it’s really robust and versatile and she’s always adding more names and generators!

wikipedia is an underrated source for names in my opinion, as reality tends to be stranger than anything we can come up with. some of my more unique character names can trace their roots back to some wikipedia article or another, and i frequently use it as a basis for strange fantasy names, or to just lift names off of some real life person who apparently had very interesting ancestors.

magicbabynames.com is a bit of a weird one, however, this site does something that no other site that i’ve found does: it allows you to take a specific name and find other names that are “similar” to it. the site explains it measures similarity by using real family tree data, and algorithmically sorts and finds patterns between names that usually appear together, which creates a degree of association aka similarity. for example: john often appears with the name mary in many family trees, so if you were looking for a feminine name similar to john, mary would be one of the names to come up along with others like margaret, elizabeth, and sarah. it doesn’t have every name in the world on its lists especially names that are more outside of the box, however again for writing anything historical it’s honestly a good resource to make sure that sibling or parent names don’t sound too “off” from one another. furthermore, before anyone asks, i’ve been using this site for at least 10 years so there is zero ai usage involved.

social security’s name popularity data is an incredible resource if you’re writing anything in a specific time period in american history. you can search for any year from 1879 forward and it’ll pull real census data from all the births in a year you choose based on how many children were born in that year. it’s really interesting to me personally to see what naming trends were common and how certain names phase in and out of the top ten, fifty, or one hundred over the years.

if you are looking for some feedback or help with naming then r/namenerds can be pretty useful in a pinch. i personally tend to lurk in that sub and i enjoy the games that get posted every now and again. however, as a word of caution, this sub can be very anglo-centric, so it’s not particularly useful when you’re trying to name characters of color. they can also be a bit opinionated with what names they like and dislike but that’s usually not an issue when you mention specifically that you’re talking about writing characters or pets.

the reason i decided to list some of my favorite sources first is two-fold: the first is to not hold you all hostage and give you what you may be looking for right off the bat. the second is to illustrate how thorough i tend to be whenever i begin the process of naming my characters. i often use some, if not all of these different resources, sometimes at the same time for the same character. it can sometimes even take me months to settle on the perfect name. but to understand why this process is so rigorous, i’ll need to explain to you a little bit about me, a little bit about how i outline, and a little bit of my personal theory about why character names are so important.

𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖕 𝖎: 𝖆 𝖗𝖔𝖘𝖊

when i was finally old enough (and had the money) to change my name, i went for broke and changed my first, middle, and last. the reason the entire thing was changed would be a whole story within itself, but for the purposes of this essay what you need to know is that the meaning of all three of my names combined is a promise to myself: that in my rebirth (my first name), i will love myself (middle name) and defend myself (surname).

this change encapsulated several things for me: these new names were ones that i had already begun to socially use, and when i looked in the mirror felt that they encapsulated who i was. however, these names also did the important job of giving my life both interpersonal and intrinsic meaning and subtext.

subtext is defined by wikipedia as “the underlying or implicit meaning that, while not explicitly stated, is understood by an audience.”1 you can bury little ledes, bread crumb trails, and hide in plain sight many, many things when you are writing and in a variety of different ways. in the romeo and juliet lines from the beginning of the article, i would argue that the rose itself is not just a flower, but a metaphor for the tender affection that is blossoming between our two tragic leads. roses are beautiful, pure, and carry a host of different meanings depending on their color in the language of flowers; from first love to undying devotion. however, without proper care their blooms notoriously die very quickly. this speaks to the nature of romeo and juliet’s love itself: lack of communication, outside intervention, and bad soil (circumstance) withered the bonds of trust and devotion that their love tried to forge, and led to their untimely end.

perhaps not every person will pick up that particular piece of subtext from just the usage of a rose within these lines of dialogue, but that’s where my mind goes when i read this play. the beautiful thing about subtext is that its all too important “intrinsic meaning” tends to be forged on the backs of a reader’s personal experience in conjunction with the events surrounding a particular character, scene, or metaphor. we tend to flatten this phenomena as simply “foreshadowing,” but i think the two are different and should be used differently: foreshadowing refers to the trail of hints that point to the outcome of a situation within the plot—anything from chekov’s gun, to a red herring, and so on. subtext however, furthers the understanding of the emotional weight, themes, morals, or commentary that the author is trying to communicate to the reader. while subtext can show up in plot events, it often is trying to say something deeper and more profound than just living in the events of the story itself.

for that reason, i think name meanings are a perfect tool to create a deeper and more exquisite subtext for any genre of story. names are what we call things, and naming something gives it power: therefore, the meaning of what we call something and why can often in a story be elevated to a near prophetic level when used intentionally.

𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖕 𝖎𝖎: 𝖘𝖒𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖘𝖜𝖊𝖊𝖙

the second important thing you must understand—something that i will perhaps explain in more depth if i ever do an article about outlining—is that i tend to create characters by utility first. what i mean by ‘utility’ is that often in the plotting stage, i will call a character by what part they play in the plot before i worry about what they’re actually called. a good example of this is using the twilight names as i was beginning plotting for btaf, and in a different work of mine paramour one of the character’s was simply called “butler” for six months.

this aids in my creation of subtext: if i already pretty much understand a character’s arc, then i can spend more time in the naming process finding a name that suits what i perhaps want people to know about them. i often intentionally pick names that either explain the character’s current position or general temperament, their position within the plot, or what i hope that their arc will help them gain—or lose.

returning to paramour, the main character is a nonbinary man by the name of hyacinthus shrapnel. he is named after the hyacinth flower, and he explicitly only wears white and gold whenever he has a say in the matter. he is constantly associated with yellow and gold colors. yellow hyacinths in the language of flowers, mean jealousy and that is a prominent character trait of his when concerning his “damn butler.” but more on paramour whenever i finish btaf. unless you want to learn more for yourself on my tumblr.

but naming doesn’t just have to do with meaning, it also has to do with cadence, mouth-feel. in a shallow sort of way, i tend to like names that sound good when you say them aloud and i usually use a kind of speaking test to determine which name and surname combination to use. for instance, i had a very difficult time deciding on biscella’s name and had up to 4 other possibilities of what i should name her. however, biscella ‘won’ (despite my conducting a poll and getting a wildly different response for her name) out over the others simply because i like the mouth-feel of the name ‘biscella.’ it sings from a soft b sound to a rougher c to the elegant ella suffix and that mixture of softness with a twinge of sharp clarity perfectly describe both biscella and her arc.

names also show the relationship that people have to one another, so for instance, to you all i may be vacant or fish, but to my partner and close friends i go by my first name. in btaf, biscella is that to everyone, but to sjaak she’s bisce, just like to her, he is sjaakie. meanwhile, to dalal, sjaak is ‘pup’ and to azelie he is ‘wolf’—though he is also ‘wolf’ to rosita, and ‘pup’ to gust—two characters he has a wildly less affectionate relationship with.

𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖕 𝖎𝖎𝖎: 𝖓𝖊𝖜𝖑𝖞 𝖇𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖎𝖟𝖊𝖉

when i finally transitioned from using twilight placeholder names to actually naming characters in btaf, it may seem a bit boring on the surface. some names such as biscella’s, eduard’s, and sjaak’s names in some aspects, hardly changed at all. however, there is a bit of a method to my ‘madness’:

isabella “bella” swan became biscella schwann de casavantes → both names start with a ‘b’ and are a similar number of syllables. schwann is just german for swan, and the only thing truly different is de casavantes which is the surname that she took on after marrying. because ‘edward’ in this universe is from spain, his surname would be added to his wife’s, not replace it entirely. furthermore, there is the b-c-ella cadence that i discussed before which mirrors her arc and many character’s feelings about her.

edward cullen became eduard casavantes i comas→ eduard with a ‘u’ is the more common spelling of the name ‘edward’ in spain, and both surnames start with a c. again due to spanish naming customs, his mother’s surname is attached to the end of his name instead of omitted entirely. furthermore, the ‘i’ speaks to his heritage as being from basque country.

jacob black became sjaak de witte → sjaak is the dutch form of the name jacob, though according to my dutch friend also the name used for the dutch translation of "charlie and the chocolate factory." de witte unsurprisingly means ‘the white’—which does have a bit more narrative flair: sjaak is a biracial man, being half-black and half-european. though his name speaks mostly to his european heritage and his surname even claims him as ‘white,’ he personally does not benefit or feel any solidarity with that part of himself due to how he looks, which points to the struggles he feels ethnically as human and relates to his relationship to his lycanthropy. i also just wanted more of a contrast than just calling him jacob black straight out because, well. he’s already black.

i could go on and on for the rest of the main cast, however, some elements would be spoilers. dalal, for instance, who represents leah has two names that exist in stark contrast of her temperament in present-day and the horrific backstory she endured. further still, the side characters of btaf are actually where this naming philosophy of mine comes reaches its zenith. characters like remei, dídac, and ridwan are perhaps my best work who hint at the subtext of what i am trying to say about the events they are in and their roles within the story and i hope that it’s something people will pick up on.

in conclusion: does it really matter if you pick extensively researched names for the characters in your story for the purpose of giving your readers little easter eggs to find? not at all. just as i have many characters such as these that i did think about in great depth, even within btaf’s pages i have characters who i just named something because it sounded good, such as stien or babare. i do think however, that readers love a good scavenger hunt so the more details you leave for them to find, the more enthusiastic they will be about your work.

yours truly, 𝖛𝖆𝖈𝖆𝖓𝖙 𝖌𝖔𝖉𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖌

[sergeantnarwhalwrites]

I love how I was struggling without a car and now I'm struggling with the car. For fucks sake. Give me a god damn break 😭.

[cryptcoop]

art block

[cryptcoop]

Don't talk to me or my son ever again

[sheepyboo]

Silly Twitter req

[sheepyboo]

Only when I’m gardening, I fear 🪴💕

[casawio]

who up in a kafka-esque rut sleep deprived, casually malnourished, socially awkward, painfully self-conscious, struggling financially, lacking community, altogether anhedonic

[theres-a-body-here]

Having a Minotaur Boyfriend would be so fucking funny

Like imagine crying on the couch and you hear his thunderous, big body SUV built ass footsteps approach you.

"Baby, what's wrong," he says tenderly as he rubs your shoulder.

You look up to explain how bad your day was with tears in your eyes and you fucking see this:

I made a small drabble based on this

[fxdizzyie-deactivated20260219]

I had to draw it HELP

[aropride]

please god let chatgpt die out like nfts did. With a fast and graceless fall into irrelevancy

[bladespark]

Like to charge, reblog to cast.

[atwotonedbird]

This spell has a very low hit ratio, so we need a lot of us to do it.

[sergeantnarwhalwrites]

One day I will write on any of my wips again and maybe even like it.

[vacantgodling]

i hate to be the guy always begging for money on the internet but such is life right now

if you don't know me, i'm ren/vacant/fish and i'm a 28 year old transmasculine black queer autistic person who's currently a full time student while trying to balance delivery apps to make money. last year i was let go from my job because they were trying to push me out anyway and since then i've been a financial wreck. between unemployment not being nearly enough, nearly 900 job applications and the only job i got was immediately so toxic i had to quit within the first four days, and trump fucking with student loans and education (which i'd been using to try and get by while i hopefully get a degree to get a better job) i'm just at my wits end. my partner currently has a disability hearing on 5/20 to see if they're eligible for aid but even that should we get approved wouldn't be enough to cover all of our expenses. if they get denied again then they're probably going to see about going to school and see if the school will accommodate their disabilities. we'll see.

to cut to the chase, we're on the verge of homelessness (again) and i can't make money delivering fast enough to try and make ends meet. the main thing that i can't lose is my car because without said car i can't make money at all so that's the most pressing issue.

my car payment is due 5/17 for $497 dollars. right now i have about $200 but between now and then i doubt i'll be able to make nearly $300 bucks so as per usual i'm turning to you all for help.

if you can spare anything at all, it would be meaningful. i'm trying to build up other sources of money (including embarrassing myself on the internet but that's probably not gonna go anywhere anytime soon if at all) including art commissions, substack subscriptions, and any other side hustle that i can find that actually works (because many Do Not). if you aren't able to, that's totally fine i know we're all suffering rn so rbs help.

links below, take care of yourselves.

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here is a link to my general pay what you want commissions guidelines. it's always pay what you want because we're all broke here.

here's my substack for my novel btaf (even if you can't pay you should still subscribe because i post funny bits of writing advice there)

thanks again 😔

[vacantgodling]

an update:

thank you to everyone who's donated, i really really appreciate it.

i was thankfully able to make my car payment <3

unfortunately we're still not out of the woods. we're waiting to hear back about my partner's disability claim. if things are favorable, yay. if not then we're kind of back at square one again and they may have to try and get a job though with the market it's like oof.

the cheaper accommodations we were hoping to secure fell through. we're still probably not able to get an apartment based on my income alone (due to rental requirements for income). we may try and finesse a place but that's up in the air and i'm wary of spending money on an app fee to just get rejected.

still no word about if or when i'll get financial aid. that's cool.

if we do end up getting trapped at our current apartment to stave off homelessness, the new rental rate is 1851 alone. that wouldn't include internet, electric, our phones, etc. like literally almost 1900 for a cockroach infested apartment. i've tried arguing with them about the rate but they don't care.

donations are still super appreciated. i haven't set up a gofundme because i need money Now and i don't want to wait and deal with the site's fees.

i'm still offering commissions, doordashing/instacarting, applying to jobs with no luck, applied for other government resources to little success (they may potentially take our food stamps too so that's cool), and have been trying to find a will to live. i don't really have one these days to be honest.

next month will be a year since this bullshit started and i just feel even more helpless than before.

thanks for your time.