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Happy 250 America!

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What is a Father?

Today is Father’s Day and I am really. really struggling. I’m looking for a gentle way to support my daughter, who as of January 28th, 2026, no longer has a father. A father who for many more years than not, was more “on paper” and not an active part of our child’s life. Then, to add to this struggle is not being able to comfort her given, I literally have zero experience in the dad department…

What is a Father?

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A year later, I'm still here but...

Things have changed but not in a completely good way. I used to live life as challenge accepted but it has caught up. My body needs help and I need a break. I need learn how to not only be kind to myself but understand that I can and should expect it from those in my life. Bless you today. No, I’m not okay.

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It's time to do better. This is not the future we should want to see for our children!

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Sometimes the truth really hurts!

Race to the.... Bottom?

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We have a right to our personal feelings and perceptions and we have a responsibility to respect the exact same with others.

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Seeds of Doubt

I was sitting, well, actually, more like getting ready to head out to one of my many redundant doctors appointments this morning, listing to a podcast story with perhaps only 1/10 of the attention necessary to absorb. It begins with a background retelling of a historical incident within a family. About how someone who had been falsely accused of stealing a treasured family heirloom piece of…

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Saying Goodbye.

On Wednesday, January 28th, 2026 I had to do one of the hardest thing I will ever have to do. I had to let you go. I had to figure out how to be okay with letting them stop all life support. To let your body shut down the rest of the way, to free whatever is left of you that is struggling for existence. There was so much damage there wasn’t anything to work with. To all the people who I have…

Saying Goodbye.

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Disability, Dependence, or Narcissism? Finding the Line. updated

Narcissism? Really? It sounds extreme, but while researching self-worth, narcissistic tendencies kept appearing in my searches. I know what narcissism looks like. I grew up with two self-absorbed parents back in the 1970s and 80s during the time when it seemed that every adult in the room checked out to find themselves: one was MIA, and the other spent years fawning over husband number 2 and…

Disability, Dependence, or Narcissism? Finding the Line. updated

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It's Still a No.

Hello, my name is Kris. I have Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis. I have MS and 3 other auto immune diseases, Breast Cancer Survivor, and I am going to be okay. You will be too! We might communicate differently, behave differently or look different to you but we are a lot more like you than not like you. Please don’t make disability the tragedy that it is not. I am still growing my Ebay…

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Is all lost?

Hello, my name is Kris. I have Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis. I have MS and 3 other auto immune diseases, Breast Cancer Survivor, and I am going to be okay. You will be too! We might communicate differently, behave differently or look different to you but we are a lot more like you than not like you. Please don’t make disability the tragedy that it is not. I am still growing my Ebay…

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Survival Mode

“Survival Mode”, that’s exactly what my therapist said to me a few weeks back while sitting there reviewing a few worksheets she had sent me home to work on. Those pages in plain black and white which seemed innocent enough until I had to force myself to sit down and actually answer each question. To begin, they were just quick, short responses, trying to move on so I could return to my regularly…

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For Today and Every Day

For today, stand in front of a mirror and tell yourself, “I am enough!” Try to not allow the nagging voices run through your mind of the million things left not done. “I am enough!” Do not allow the voices past and present to weigh you down. “You are enough!” Stop allowing people who are not involved in your life, your care, your struggles to repeatedly ask “Why did you?” or “Why didn’t…

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"The Hidden Cost of Disrespect"

As I sit here glaring at the text from my daughter’s dad at 9:38 AM, simply asking if I was awake, along with my reply of the one word response, “yes”, in the middle of taking pictures of items that are slated for listing today and this week on Ebay. Then to see just 5 minutes later, a missed call from him. Missed because I have the ringer off. I have most all notifications turned off because I…

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Until....

Until what? I feel better. I get the laundry done. Clean up the kitchen. Take care of whatever it is I need to do for someone else. Get pictures done. Get them edited. Make the listings. Product research and comparison. Ship everything, rinse and repeat. Until I figure out how to get everything straight, a real roof over our heads finally. Until someone finally takes a chance and hires me. Fix…

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The legacy left behind.

I have been trying to wrap my mind around these past few weeks. So, so many crazy and awful things have happened. You might be thinking “but Kris, crazy awful things happen every week, daily in fact, what is so different now?”. Good question! So what is the difference? Technically none. It’s just more poignant. More obvious, in your face and we can continue to pretend that this is okay or we can…

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No, I'm not okay.

Really. I’m not. I want any one reading this to know I’m trying, I haven’t given up…yet ..but…. Let’s talk (continue below) So where do I begin? Ah yes, to start, let’s begin with a tough subject. I want to explicitly state that I am not suicidal. Tempting as it may be to run the truck off a bridge, I won’t. But on the flip side, I am just done. Shortly, when my youngest is grown, there are…

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